The Scum Shou's Survival Guide

Yang Gan stared at Ye Ming's direction in a daze, things couldn't be like this...

But there seemed to be another voice in his heart telling him that this was the truth, why should he deceive himself, because he couldn't believe it?

Yang Gan looked back at Huo Yi's cold face and the dagger in his hand, and finally dodged in embarrassment at the last moment. The dagger grazed his neck, leaving a bloodstain!

He raised his head, his eyes were like a sea of ​​blood surging, the hatred that had been rooted in his heart two years ago seemed to be infinitely stronger now!

Whatever the truth is, this man is the culprit of everything!

He's going to kill him!

The boundless anger caused Yang Qian's supernatural power to explode violently, and the overwhelming power almost enveloped the whole world, blasting Huo Yi out all at once!Huo Yi slammed into a big tree heavily, and spit out a mouthful of blood!

He raised his head and looked at Yang Gan who was like the center of the storm, with a look of helplessness in his eyes, really unexpected...

He would die at the hands of someone who he didn't care about at all.

His hands were covered with blood, and finally someone came to take his life one day.

He still lost to Yang Gan, but Yang Gan didn't misunderstand Ye Ming anymore, so he shouldn't make things difficult for him anymore... He has done many wrong things, never cared about retribution, but accidentally lost his heart once.

If he can't kill Yang Gan today, then the only thing he can do for Ye Ming is to speak out about it.

Huo Yi closed his eyes, waiting for death to come.

But what he didn't expect was that Yang Qian's attack did not come. Huo Yi suddenly opened his eyes, and heard a hurried call from his ear: "Brother Huo, go this way!"

It turned out that his subordinates followed, and that subordinate was very smart and did not try to shoot Yang Gan, because Yang Gan was unstoppable at this time, so he aimed at Ye Ming who was lying in the distance and fired several times!

As expected, Yang Gan gave up on Huo Yi, and ran to save him. His abilities exploded to the extreme, distorting the trajectory of the bullet, and finally rushed over to block Ye Ming's body!

Faced with countless firepower, Yang Qian couldn't separate himself at all. Huo Yi's subordinates jumped over, picked up Huo Yi, and quickly disappeared into the night.

After all, Yang Qian is only a mortal body, it is impossible to use his body to resist bullets, he can only control the supernatural power to change the trajectory of the bullet, but the firepower is too dense, he still can't hold on, he quickly picked up the fainted Ye Ming, his legs were full of explosive power Kick on the ground!Hide behind a tree!

Huo Yi's subordinates didn't expect to kill Yang Gan in this way, they just wanted to delay time to give Huo Yi a chance to escape, they shot back while shooting, and soon disappeared without a trace.

Yang Gan held Ye Ming in his arms, stared down at the person in his arms, and gradually calmed down.

He didn't even have the heart to chase Huo Yi.

Don't care about everything, only one person in his eyes, as if he is the whole world.

So... is this the real reason why you said those words back then?

You said that because you knew that Huo Yi was going to kill me, and you deliberately asked him to drive me away because you wanted to protect me... We were so powerless at that time, and you could only protect me with this method Way.

How painful it must be when you say those words and are forced to bow to Huo Yi.

And I don't know anything about it.

I am sorry.

I should have come back to save you sooner... I should have come back to save you.

[Ding, Yang Gan blackening value -40, current blackening value 10]

Huo Yi was defeated, and Yang Gan's subordinates who were lurking outside also arrived. In the end, they won. Huo Yi suffered heavy casualties, and only a few people left with Huo Yi to escape. There is nothing to fear.

Yang Gan's subordinates followed the trail and found Yang Gan standing there, like an ancient stone statue, his whole body seemed to be covered with a layer of sadness and loneliness, lifeless.

"Boss, are you okay?" Shi Yang is a rough person, but he even felt that something was wrong with Yang Gan, so he lowered his voice and asked cautiously.

Yang Gan didn't move for a long time. After a long time, he turned his head. There seemed to be indescribable pain in those dark and deep black eyes. He said slowly: "I'm fine."

Shi Yang didn't dare to ask more questions, he stared at the back of Yang Gan getting into the car, and scratched his head, although the boss said he was fine, but no matter how he looked, he didn't look like he was fine?He turned his head and asked Zhao Jin: "Hey, do you think the boss is really okay? Why do I always feel that he doesn't look like it?"

Zhao Jin chuckled, and said softly: "Trust your intuition, even you can see the problem, it is already obvious and cannot be more obvious."

Shi Yang nodded: "It turns out that something really happened."

He looked at Yang Gan worriedly, and after a while, he suddenly felt that Zhao Jin was calling him slow just now?Shi Yang's expression froze for a while, he wanted to beat that skinny bamboo pole to death!

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[888: Wake up? 】

【Ye Ming: Woke up (⊙v⊙), Huo Yi's beating made me dizzy now. By the way, did he help me explain my difficulties yesterday?I count on him for my blackening value. 】

【888: See for yourself. ] 888 was too lazy to talk to him, so he played back the video directly.

Ye Ming was so moved after watching it, that Huo Yi was so cooperative.

【Ye Ming: I misunderstood him, so he really loves me too!Remember to return my innocence at a critical moment. The system hosting seems to have done nothing in the past two years. Could it be that my body is too attractive? !He is actually a face control?Or do you just like this set of robbery? 】

[888: ...] He knew it would happen, so he didn't want to pay attention to this spicy chicken.

[Ye Ming: Very good, now it's finally my turn to play hahahaha! O(∩_∩)O~]

Ye Ming slowly opened his eyes, and found himself lying in Yang Gan's arms.

Yang Gan immediately found out that in fact, he hadn't slept all night, so he hugged the person in his arms and looked at his face greedily. It took him a lot of time to fully accept the truth.

He kept thinking back to what Huo Yi said to him back then. Two years ago, Huo Yi told him that he didn't intend to kill him, but Ye Ming wanted him to go, so let him go...and send him to die.

But this time Huo Yi told him that he originally planned to kill him, but because of Ye Ming's pleading, he let his life go, and he regretted it very much.

If Huo Yi had said this from the beginning, I'm afraid he would still find it hard to believe that Huo Yi would be so kind, but... Liu Wenguang also admitted this before his death, and there was no possibility of collusion.

This is the truth, what is there to doubt?

In the past two years, the hatred day and night, the countless times of despair and pain, once again overwhelmed him... He hated someone who shouldn't be hated, and blamed someone who shouldn't be blamed.

Ye Ming didn't betray him, he didn't betray him at all, he is the one who loves him the most, exactly the same as before... You stay here, but you still want to wait for my return.

But I let you down.

Yang Qian was suddenly very confused, so confused that he had nowhere to put his hatred. It was a tiring thing to hate someone, and the deeper the hatred was because the love was too deep, but now he was told that he hated the wrong person... he He thought he had revenge on everyone who hurt and betrayed him.

But in fact, what he took revenge was his lover who still loved him deeply.

Yang Gan sat like this for a whole night, until he saw Ye Ming opened his eyes.

Ye Ming just woke up from a coma, there was still a trace of confusion in his eyes, and it took him a while to regain his senses.

Yang Gan curled his nervous fingers slightly, he didn't know how to face this person, he was like an angry child, wanting to destroy the world crazily, but in the end, he found that he also smashed his most beloved treasure together Broken, helpless, desperate, painful, but unable to turn back time.

But what was even worse was that before Yang Qian could figure out how to speak, he saw Ye Ming's eyes change, the color of fear gradually appeared in those dark eyes, his body trembled slightly, his lips moved slightly, making an uneasy sound. Pleading voice: "Yes, I'm sorry... I didn't mean it yesterday, I didn't want to go with Huo Yi, really... I won't go with him..."

As soon as Ye Ming woke up, he remembered that he ran towards Huo Yi in the chaos yesterday, and was knocked unconscious by Huo Yi and took him away, but he didn't know what happened afterwards.

He didn't know if Huo Yi was dead or alive, but he was snatched back by Yang Gan. The last time Huo Yi appeared, Yang Gan angrily tortured him. This time he took the initiative to run to Huo Yi, Yang Gan must be even more angry ?He won't believe him.

He won't believe his...

Yang Gan looked at the fear in Ye Ming's eyes, and listened to his panicked words, the voice was like waves of cold currents, penetrating into his internal organs along the pores, and he remembered the past again.

Just a few days ago, Ye Ming begged him to apologize in the same way, but he didn't believe it, and instead tortured and threatened him.

At that time, why didn't he believe him...

Yang Qian stretched out his hand, wanting to touch Ye Ming and comfort him, but before he could touch Ye Ming, Ye Ming flinched in fear, instinctively trying to avoid him, but he seemed to realize his situation very quickly, and I suppressed it no longer to hide, curled up there and did not move.

Yang Gan's hand stayed in the air for a long time, but it didn't come down.

The Ye Ming at this moment made him feel that he was a terrible perpetrator, reminding him of what he did, every injury he brought to this person was deeply rooted and could not be erased.

Yang Qian couldn't stay any longer, he didn't even know how to comfort Ye Ming, so he got up suddenly and walked out.

But he was not willing to go far, so he stood outside the door, covering his eyes with his hands, what to do... He lost his most beloved person.

He thought that there was nothing worthy of nostalgia in this world, so he destroyed everything recklessly, but it was not the case, the person he loved had been waiting for him...

Yang Gan couldn't help but think of when he just came back, he walked in front of Ye Ming, Ye Ming raised his head and looked at him, that look seemed to have penetrated thousands of years, containing countless surprises and nostalgia, he was waiting for him ...with a sliver of hope, waiting for his return.

And what did you do when you came back?

Shattered his hopes with his own hands and sent him to hell.

Now he wants to look at that look again, but he can't ask for it.

Yang Gan just stood outside the door like this for a long time, until it was time to eat, he finally mustered up the courage to push the door in again, even if it was a mountain of swords and seas of fire, he couldn't just leave Ye Ming alone like this.

Ye Ming sat at the foot of the bed with his knees hugged, his face pale, and when he saw Yang Gan coming back, he stood up in a panic, he still didn't believe that Yang Gan would let him go so easily, after all he hated him so much for following Huo Yi back then.

Yang Gan's footsteps seemed to be welded to the ground, and he wanted to go over, but seeing Ye Ming's frightened appearance, he couldn't bear to approach him, and finally he said in a deep voice, "It's time to eat."

Ye Ming didn't dare to resist, he sat down on the chair with his head down, watching Yang Gan personally bring the food in front of him.

It's just that he can't eat, even with all his strength... He knows that he is already very thin, and he knows that he should eat, but his body doesn't cooperate.

Ye Ming picked up the chopsticks and ate a few mouthfuls, his eyes showed pain, obviously it was rare and fresh food, but it seemed like he was being tortured, he chewed for a long time before swallowing it.

Despite my best efforts, I still couldn't eat a few bites.

Yang Gan himself didn't eat a bite, he just looked at Ye Ming, and slowly clenched his hands under the table, he forced this person like this... Maybe it's because he feels that life is too painful, so he doesn't want to eat.

He should have found out earlier, the person he loves...how could he abandon him so ruthlessly?He should have found out sooner...

Yang Gan felt that his throat was a little stiff, and he slowly spoke hoarsely: "Don't worry, I won't blame you for what happened to Huo Yi, I know you didn't mean it."

He tried his best to make his tone soft and low, but...it didn't seem to have any soothing effect.

Ye Ming didn't believe him.

That's right, he has no credibility with him, but Yang Qian masochistically thinks of a long time ago, when they trusted each other so much and had a good understanding... Just by looking at each other, he knew what the other was thinking.

But the cruel reality destroyed all of this, just as he didn't want to believe Ye Ming at the beginning, now Ye Ming won't believe him either.

Ye Ming tightly clenched his chopsticks, he didn't know why Yang Qian's attitude suddenly changed, but he still remembered how much Yang Gan hated him, and he wanted his life to be worse than death.

Yang Gan looked into Ye Ming's eyes, but there was only cold despair in his heart.

This despair was even more desperate than when he was thrown in that dark forest two years ago, dragging his broken legs, waiting for the zombies to devour him.

At that time, the worst result would be death, but now, although he is alive...he has personally destroyed the person he loves the most.

This is probably, life is worse than death.

Yang Qian closed his eyes, his eyes were dark, he couldn't see the slightest light, he felt very tired and sad, he didn't know how to take the next road, even Huo Yi's hatred seemed to be unimportant.

But he couldn't really act like a coward and give up regardless.

Yang Qian watched Ye Ming finish his meal, he didn't force him, he didn't say anything, he just turned around and left the house, and didn't come back until night.

But in fact he didn't leave, he was just outside the door.

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Since that day, Yang Gan rarely appeared in front of Ye Ming. He didn't want to look at Ye Ming's frightened eyes. To him, those eyes were like silent condemnation, but also like a knife. , Cut him to pieces.

Make him ask himself every moment, why he didn't trust Ye Ming more at the beginning.

For two full years, he failed to get out of that dark night of despair.

Zombies didn't eat him, but eventually hatred did.

He actually believed Huo Yi's words, and he didn't believe his lover. Is there anything more ridiculous in this world?

Yang Gan could only stand at an angle that Ye Ming couldn't see, like a peeper hiding in the dark, looking at that person greedily and humblely.

Yang Gan didn't care about the base anymore, as if a person had lost his last bit of support and completely lost interest in the world.

Shi Yang came to talk to Yang Gan this day, "Boss, what are you going to do about Huo Yi, let him escape, what if he comes back."

Yang Gan said calmly, "Then let him go."

Huo Yi would not kill Ye Ming, Yang Qian couldn't help but think of what Huo Yi said to him that day... He said that Ye Ming probably regretted that he came back.

That's right, although Huo Yi is not a good person, he imprisoned and deprived Ye Ming of his freedom, and forced him to hurt him, but at least he is a little better than him.

Perhaps for Ye Ming, rather than being hurt by himself and despairing of this world... Maybe it's better to keep the hope in his heart and live by Huo Yi's side like that.

That way, even if he died outside, he could still imagine that he would come back one day and still love him.

Instead, like now...

Not even that little hope left.

Shi Yang looked at Yang Gan, suddenly his expression was very embarrassed, he laughed dryly: "Boss, did you get sand in your eyes?"

Yang Gan turned to look at him, nodded: "Yes."

After he finished speaking, he stood up, seemed to think of something again, and said to Shi Yang: "If you have anything to do, you can ask Zhao Jin, and just listen to his arrangement."

Then Shi Yang and others left behind.

Yang Gan returned to the backyard of the villa, the unrested garden looked desolate and messy, the breeze was blowing the leaves, Yang Gan felt the wind, which was very kind to him, but at this moment, he seemed to hear the wind screaming.

Yang Gan walked up the stairs slowly and came to the door. He paused when he reached out to push the door, and finally pushed the door again to enter.

Ye Ming seemed to have just fallen asleep, his thin body was covered under the quilt, his chest rose and fell slightly.

Yang Gan walked over, bent down, and gently brushed the hair on Ye Ming's forehead with his fingers, and finally landed on his lips.

This person is all his hope of living in this last days. When he lost this hope, he surrendered to the darkness in his heart, abandoned all conscience and humanity, and chose to become a depraved demon... But he shouldn't be like this , his hope is obviously still there.

If he knew earlier, he would work hard to come back and save him, and wait until the day they meet again, wouldn't this be the case?

Ye Ming slept very lightly, he felt itchy on his lips, as if something had brushed past him, his eyelashes trembled and he opened his eyes, only to see Yang Gan standing in front of him, his eyes were as deep as the sea, and his expression was as condensed as a mountain, as if he had Indescribable pain.

But he didn't want to think so much, he struggled to get up, tried to kneel in front of Yang Gan, and made a very low and soft voice: "I, I'll help you..."

Yang Qian probably came to kiss him because he wanted him, but he has nothing to do but sell his body.

Yang Qian couldn't see Ye Ming kneeling in front of him like this, his hands trembling due to the intense pain, he suddenly pressed Ye Ming's shoulders, and pressed him into his arms.

He thought for many days, and finally decided to have a serious talk with Ye Ming, if this goes on, Ye Ming will never trust him, he will be afraid of him.

And Yang Gan didn't want Ye Ming to be afraid of him.

Yang Gan hugged Ye Ming's trembling body tightly, his voice was low and hoarse, "Don't move."

Ye Ming did not move as expected, but his eyes seemed to be more frightened.

Yang Qian took a deep breath, the cold air entered the respiratory tract, as if his body was frozen, but... the thing that has been suppressed in the bottom of his heart for two years, and tortured him for two years, should be broken today, and he wants to try to recover For a moment, even if Ye Ming doesn't want to forgive him and hates him, at least he should know...it's him who's wrong, not him.

Knowing that I won't hurt him again.

Yang Qian slowly opened his mouth, and uttered the most deeply humiliating and painful memory buried in his heart, "Two years ago, the night you went to find Huo Yi, I was next door... I heard everything you said .”

Ye Ming was stunned for a long time, and it seemed that he finally realized what Yang Gan meant by that night.

Immediately, his face turned pale, and his lips trembled. So at that time...was Yang Gan next door?He heard what he said to Huo Yi, no wonder...

No wonder Yang Gan hated him so much.

Yang Gan looked at Ye Ming's terrified expression, and his heart was full of bitterness. If it was before, he might have misunderstood that Ye Ming was afraid because he felt guilty... But that's not the case, he was simply afraid of a Don't trust him, it's just someone who will hurt him.

That's it.

Yang Gan's voice was hoarse and painful, but no matter how difficult it was, he still had to finish his sentence today, "But I know, that's not your sincere words, you know that Huo Yi wants to kill me, so you said that on purpose...you It was to save me."

Ye Ming's body froze, and he looked at Yang Qian in disbelief, as if he didn't know the person in front of him at all.

Yang Qian looked at the shock, surprise and disbelief that suddenly appeared in Ye Ming's eyes, even if Ye Ming blamed him, scolded him and beat him, it didn't matter, as long as Ye Ming was no longer afraid of him, no longer in such pain.

He misunderstood him, and he was the one who should be punished.

Yang Gan tried his best to make his voice appear sincere: "I was wrong, I misunderstood you...I still love you."

Ye Ming stared at Yang Gan in a daze.

Yang Gan looked into his eyes without blinking. After he finished speaking, he waited nervously. He thought that Ye Ming would also have something to say, after all, they finally solved the misunderstanding.

Even if Ye Ming refused to forgive him...it was normal, he didn't expect forgiveness.

But in the next second, Yang Qian saw the light in Ye Ming's eyes dissipate and return to the usual dimness, as if those words couldn't stir up any waves in his heart.

Ye Ming was really surprised why Yang Gan would say that suddenly, did he really figure it out?

But until he heard Yang Gan say that he loved him, he instantly realized that this was just another game of revenge. This person no longer loves him. If he could really believe him, he would have believed him a long time ago. Why bother? Want to wait until now?

Yang Gan didn't let go of any look on Ye Ming's face, when he saw Ye Ming's eyes darken again, even still looking at him with fear, his heart sank instantly.

Then he heard Ye Ming say: "I, I see... I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

There is no difference from any previous time.

No matter how I hurt him or blamed him, I would never refute, no longer resist, just keep repeating sorry.

But the person who is sorry for you is obviously me.

He thought that this misunderstanding was extremely important, as long as it was solved, they could change their current situation, because this misunderstanding turned his world upside down... But for Ye Ming, this misunderstanding might not be that important.

All he knew was that he didn't love him and didn't trust him anymore.

Because I don't love, I don't believe it.

Nothing can be undone.

Only I naively think that this truth is so important, but I don’t know, some things are too late... Just like you trek through mountains and rivers, go through hardships and detours, and finally find the elixir on the top of the mountain, you are full of hope and joyful Take it back, and when you look back, you find that the person you tried to save at all costs is dead.

Die because you went the wrong way.

There is probably nothing more hopeless than this.