know the enemy

Foreword: After reading the text, you should know that Mu Xian's story did not end well! ! !Look carefully! !

To this day, Mu Xian is not married. In the early years, it was rumored that he was gay. When the old man was still alive, he tried his best to make him compromise.

The vows of youth were scattered with the wind, and Mu Xian occasionally didn't understand what he was insisting on.There were many times when he couldn't bear the pressure, and thought he would just let it go, just compromise, get married, and find someone to live with for the rest of his life.But every time he looked back, he knew he couldn't.

Mu Wenran once asked Mu Xian if he had someone he liked while never married.

Mu Xian didn't know where Mu Wenran found out about it, his nephew always had a way to know everything he wanted to know.

That was more than ten years ago, Mu Zhangcheng and Chu Yue hadn't divorced yet, and Mu Xian was still a foolish young master.

Relying on the favor of the old man, he is simply lawless, causing trouble everywhere, fighting with people and using knives, and putting himself in the hospital.

There he met Yu Chen, a handsome and thin young man who seemed to be blown down by the wind.

Mu Xian saw him several times in the corridor, and every time he saw Mu Xian's eyes dodge so much that it was difficult for people not to notice.

So Mu Xian took the initiative to lean over and asked: "You always look at me, do we know each other?"

Yu Chen panicked, turned around and wanted to run, but his legs were weak, and he almost fell down, but was supported by Mu Xian.

Mu Xian thought at the time, why is this man so thin? He felt his hand hurt when he touched it.

Yu Chen seemed to be afraid of him, seeing that he couldn't leave, he lowered his head and explained, "I'm in the same school as you..."

"Oh." Mu Xian asked casually, "Which class are you in?"

Yu Chen was silent, and said after a while: "I'm dropping out of school."

"Oh..." Mu Xian nodded, "Okay, then tell me, why do you come to see me all the time?"

Yu Chen raised his head instantly, "How do you know" was clearly written in his eyes.

"It's quite obvious. As soon as I look at the door, you turn around."

Yu Chen didn't say anything, but looked at him with flickering eyes.

That was the first conversation between the two.

After talking about it once, Mu Xian found that Yu Chen still appeared at the door of his ward from time to time, and he didn't pay much attention to him.

Not long after he was discharged from the hospital this time, Mu Xian was brought in again and saw Yu Chen again.

The days in the hospital were really boring, the old man and the aunt were chatting, Mu Xian could only listen with his ears sideways, so he simply called Yu Chen over and said to him: "Let's talk."

Yu Chen pursed his lips, a little tangled and struggling.

Mu Xian found it interesting.

Yu Chen nodded.

Since then, I have come to Mu Xian to check in and report every day, and I am very good.

Mu Xian lived there for a week, and on the day he was discharged from the hospital, Yu Chen followed him not far away.

Mu Xian thinks Yu Chen is very interesting, like a little tail, always following him.He pretended not to notice, until the entrance of the hospital, Mu Xian turned his head and waved at Yu Chen: "Hey, let's go."

Yu Chen was stunned, and slowly stretched out his hand to shake it.

Mu Xian turned around and walked out of the glass door, and then turned around to find that Yu Chen was crying, squatting down and burying his face in his knees.

Mu Xian stopped in his tracks, and Mu Zhangcheng called him, "What are you doing? Let's go, Dad is waiting at home."

Mu Xian hesitated, turned and left.

It's a pity that Mu Xian was a troublemaker at that time, and the young man's inexhaustible strength seemed to be used in fighting.

One month after Mu Xian entered the hospital again, he ran into Yu Chen again, this time he was really surprised, and asked, "Why are you still here?"

Yu Chen saw him surprised and worried, and his pupils shrank when he heard his words.

Mu Xian understood a little bit.

Yu Chen was very ill, no wonder he was so thin, his complexion was so fair, his lips were bloodless, and he had to drop out of school.

He had never thought about these before, after all Yu Chen was nothing to him.The two of them spend too little time together, and it's not as good as he has more friends outside.

Yu Chen still came to report in Mu Xian's ward, he said very little, usually Mu Xian said he was listening, be quiet.

Mu Xian found it boring at first, but gradually he got used to it, especially when he paused every time he said a sentence, Yu Chen would nod his head, which was very regular and interesting to watch.

When Mu Xian was discharged from the hospital this time, he felt a little bit reluctant. Before he left, he said to Yu Chen like a two hundred and five: "I will come again."

Yu Chen looked forward to it but shook his head: "You should fight less."

As a result, within a week, Mu Xian came again.But this time he was not carried in, but came to visit with fruit, to visit Yuchen.

During that period of time, they were the most comfortable. They didn't know what their feelings for each other were, and they chatted unscrupulously.Then at noon, at the corner of the back door of the hospital, Mu Xian personally dyed those bloodless lips rosy.

They quietly left the hospital to take care of Yu Chen's body, and only went to some small places nearby.Yu Chen was very happy that day, he quietly tugged on Mu Xian's sleeve, and said in a discussing tone: "Will you come again in the future?"

Mu Xian's heart softened, and he immediately said boldly: "Come on!"

At that time, Yu Chen was really thin, and he didn't feel real in his arms.Mu Xian supervised him to eat, and Yu Chen worked hard to get a kiss after eating.Sometimes he really couldn't eat, so he looked at Mu Xian pitifully: "Can you still kiss me?"

Of course.Mu Xian proved it with his actions.

With Mu Xian's unremitting efforts, Yu Chen really got a little fatter, with flesh on his face.

The two of them occasionally talked about the future, Yu Chen was a very insecure person, and often asked Mu Xian: "Can we stay together like this forever?"

Every time Mu Xian replied: "Yes."

He really felt that way at the time.

Until one day, he went to the hospital to see Yu Chen.The two of them had a good chat, but Yu Chen suddenly grabbed his hand and said, "Let's go, go somewhere else, just the two of us."

Mu Xian was stunned.

Yu Chen was still infused with fluids, and rushed out without hesitation.

Mu Xian grabbed him, and he turned his head, his face was already full of tears.

"You don't want to go with me?" Yu Chen's eyes changed.

Before Mu Xian understood the situation, Yu Chen's parents had already arrived and pinned Yu Chen on the bed.

Yu Chen's mother came over with cold eyes and a bad attitude, and said to Mu Xian, "He won't receive treatment, can you persuade him for me?"

Yu Chen cried and shook his head and told him to take him away.

Mu Xian walked to the bedside and asked softly, "Why didn't you treat him?"

Yu Chen just cried, so sad.

Yu Chen's parents are still nearby, Mu Xian can't make too intimate gestures, he can only touch Yu Chen's pillow and say, "You are obedient."

Afterwards, Mu Xian went to visit Yu Chen, and he lost weight at a speed visible to the naked eye, even thinner than before, which made people feel distressed.But he received treatment, and the doctor said that following this course of treatment, he will recover soon.

Yu Chen's mother began to accompany her every day, and as an outsider, it was difficult for Mu Xian to come again.

The sun was warm that afternoon, Mu Xian came secretly, and Yu Chen's mother happened to go to the bathroom.

When Yu Chen saw him, his eyes were calm.

Mu Xian couldn't tell what it was like, and then he heard Yu Chen say: "Don't you want me?"

"How..." How come?Before he finished speaking, the bathroom door opened.

Yu Chen's mother seemed to dislike him very much, took the fruit and said that it was getting late, implying to drive Mu Xian away.

On the day Yu Chen was discharged from the hospital, Mu Xian went and stood under a tree to watch him get into the car.

Yu Chen seemed to see him, his eyes flashed, he was discussing something with his mother, but he was dragged into the car.

Mu Xian didn't even think about stepping over.He thought that Yu Chen had just finished the operation, how could he be dragged like that, such a thin person couldn't even walk steadily, he felt distressed looking at it.

After walking over, Yu Chen's mother stared at him closely, as if guarding against something.

Yu Chen looked at him without blinking his eyes.

Mu Xian's throat was dry: "Are you... better?"

Yu Chen nodded.

"That's good……"

Yu Chen nodded again, and his mother interrupted at this moment, saying that it was time to go.

Mu Xian clenched his fists, "...I'll see you in a few days."

Yu Chen still nodded.

But the next day when he came to Yu Chen's house, Yu Chen's mother didn't bear him this time, pushed him, and said in a low voice, "Don't come here again!" Sweeping him up and down, "Is it disgusting?" ?!"

Yu Chen's mother knew about his relationship with Yu Chen.

Mu Xian thought of Yu Chen who cried and asked him to take him away that day, and thought of all the things they had together, his mind went blank, thinking about what he should do... Then he found that he couldn't do anything.

He is just a willful young master relying on his father's favor.If the old man knew about this...it would be even more impossible for him to meet Yu Chen.

The day Yu Chen came to the school to go through school transfer procedures, he ran away by himself.

Mu Xian skipped class to find him, searched for him for an hour, and finally found Yu Chen huddled in a corner in the dormitory building.

"Are you stupid? What are you running for?" Mu Xian's fingertips trembled, "What if I can't find you?"

Yu Chen didn't speak, just looked at him.

"How are you doing at home? I haven't seen you gain weight yet." Mu Xian said, feeling like he was about to cry.

He babbled a lot, and Yu Chen suddenly asked, "Can we still be together?"

Mu Xian closed his eyes: "...Yes."

"I believe it."

"Okay... you can believe it."

After that, Yu Chen took the initiative to return to his parents, and Mu Xian stood in the corner and watched him go away.

In the first year of separation, the two of them barely communicated by mobile phone. Mu Xian always thought that he would go to Yu Chen when he was capable and not afraid of any dangers.

But in the third year, Yu Chen unilaterally broke contact with him.

It has been a few years since we met again.

Mu Xian has a successful career, but Yu Chen...he doesn't want to see Mu Xian, and looks away.

This reminded Mu Xian of a few years ago, when Yu Chen had a crush on him and would run to the door of the ward every day, avoiding him when he was found, which was very attractive.

It's different now, Mu Xian understands that Yu Chen doesn't want to see him.

Later they got back together, but not happily.

Yu Chen became hysterical, sensitive to everything, and his temperament changed drastically, because he became aggressive because of the slightest thing.

They get along very tired.

Time has turned the two of them into different people, people who are destined not to be together.

On the day of the breakup, Mu Xian smoked a lot of cigarettes, one after another, Yu Chen was very indifferent, after all it was he who proposed it, he packed his things and went out.

Mu Xian didn't move, he was still smoking. About half an hour later, he received a call from Yu Chen.

"I'm on the bus."

Mu Xian was silent.

"I don't seem to have told you about the past, I suddenly lost contact at that time, I'm sorry." This was the first time, Yu Chen spoke to him calmly, "I was not in a good mood at that time, and I was taking medicine all the time. "

Mu Xian was taken aback, this was something he didn't know.

Yu Chen smiled self-deprecatingly: "I can't sleep at night, I want to jump out of the window... I always thought you didn't want me anymore.

"Do you remember? I used to pull you and tell you to take me away... Actually, I saw you the day you came to my house. I thought you would knock on the door again, just waiting...but you didn't.

"If these things were made clear at the time, would the two of us have become like this?...It should still be. I'm sorry, Mu Xian, I don't believe you."

After all, they lose to reality.

The Mu Xian back then was really unconvincing, Yu Chen knew it a long time ago, but he still leaned forward and waited to be smashed to pieces.

"...That's it. You can see what kind of person I am now, we are not suitable."

"Yu Chen!"

"Don't say you still want to try, you have also seen how bad the past few months are. There is no possibility for us..." Yu Chen said, "I didn't plan to see you at first... It's not good to stop at that time ?"

How wonderful we were then, we would be excited and happy because of a kiss, and we would be happy because we liked each other.

Young people are carefree, but we are not against time and suspicion after all.

"To be honest, I see you now... I still hate you, do you think it's strange? You have done nothing wrong, but I hate you. I think so too, but I just feel resentful.

"I was soft-hearted when you mentioned getting back together... But you can also see that staying with you is fucking torture..." Yu Chen became emotional again, and took a deep breath.

After a while, Yu Chen murmured: "Mu Xian... let's let each other go." His voice was choked with sobs.

But even so, he resolutely hung up the phone.

Mu Xian didn't move for a long time.

Would it have been a different result if we had been braver at the beginning?

If he grabs Yu Chen's hand and takes him away, if he knocks on that closed door again...

It seems like there is no ending.

The once lively and immature teenagers have completely changed their appearance, and they can't go back to the past.

After so many years, Mu Xian could no longer remember his feelings for Yu Chen, they faded with time, turned into mist, and wrapped around him invisible.

Whenever he wanted to start a new life, he would think of the boy who lived in his memory, thinking that he liked him so much, but they still missed him.

Yu Chen in his teens and Yu Chen in his twenties are completely different people.

Mu Xian could never forget this.

It became a scar, which was painful and itchy at first, and then healed, neither painful nor itchy, and no one smoothed it for him.

In the evening, Mu Xian suddenly went to Mu Wenran's house for dinner on a whim. Lu Jia opened the door and called "Uncle Mu".

Mu Wenran asked Lu Jia to serve the dishes, but Lu Jia turned away.

The two stood in the kitchen, Lu Jia secretly ate a bag of buns, and was caught by Mu Wenran.

Lu Jia poked out a pair of big eyes and asked, "Do you want to eat too?"

Mu Wenran: "Dinner is ready, eat less snacks."

"Oh." Lu Jia responded and asked again, "Then do you want to eat or not?"

"Things for kids."

Lu Jia was silent, then tore open a bag of small bread, held it to Mu Wenran's mouth, "Eat."

Mu Wenran took a bite obediently.

Luke patted him with satisfaction: "Little boy."

Mu Xian laughed out loud, because of this childishness, he sighed while laughing, as if he was back in the past.

He also met someone, a wonderful young man.

They can't be together, they can't be together in this life.

The author has something to say:

In fact, I didn't intend to write about Mu Xian at first, and the story only has a general outline.On the contrary, be...is a setting that was set at the very beginning and has not been changed until now.

The most regrettable thing is that you remember that you were so good, but now there are only hysterical quarrels left.I survived such difficult times, but I still lost to life.

So... is it sweet?