know the enemy

The two walked from Bai's house to the vicinity of Lu Jia's school. The warm wind at night drove away the restlessness in people's hearts, and Lu Jia finally calmed down a little.

He shouldn't have cried. He didn't cry when he heard the news of his grandfather's death, and he didn't cry when he faced his aunt with red and swollen eyes.Mu Wenran just made a phone call, and his tears flowed down uncontrollably.

It seems that from the first time we met, he often cried to Mu Wenran.

"Are you in a better mood?" Mu Wenran stopped in front of the hotel opposite the school, and turned to look at Lu Jia who had been silently following behind him.

Look, it's like this again.

Mu Wenran can always see through Lu Jia's emotions at a glance, leaving him nowhere to hide.

Lu Jia didn't know how to respond, and Mu Wenran didn't seem to want him to answer, and went straight into the hotel.

Lu Jia followed behind Mu Wenran, watching him open a room with his ID card, and then watched Mu Wenran walk into the hotel with his room card.

Luke: "..." Should he follow up or follow up.

There were two single beds in the room. Mu Wenran threw his wallet and room card on one of the beds, and Lu Jia consciously sat on the other bed.

Mu Wenran: "Are you taking a bath?"

Luke: "...Are we going to live here today?"

Mu Wenran sat down and faced Lu Jia face to face: "You don't want to go to my house, and you don't want to stay at home, do you?"

Yes.

How could Luke open his mouth, and lowered his head in discouragement: "I don't think this is good."

"What? Open room?"

Lu Jia trembled, the word "open room" sounded so strange: "No...I mean myself."

He lowered his head and his slender eyelashes trembled slightly, revealing his nervousness.He knew that everything he did today was wrong, he shouldn't lie to his aunt, he shouldn't make Mu Wenran worry, he shouldn't cry...

He is obviously 16 years old, why can't he be more mature, he wants to grow up quickly.

"Lu Jia." Mu Wenran seemed to sigh, and Lu Jia's eyes were hot again, wondering if he was really bad and causing trouble to the people around him.

But he was also in so much pain, his grandfather passed away, and he couldn't see him for the last time.Bai Yi hid in the corner and shed tears. My aunt went to the bathroom every hour, and when she came back her eyes were red, and my uncle was also tired and exhausted.

In fact, Lu Jia seldom cried in front of his family, as he said, he was not as fond of crying as Bai Yi.So it was the same this time, he didn't cry, but occasionally woke up at night with wet eyes and dry throat, like having a terrible nightmare but couldn't remember the content, he was a little sad.

"Did I do something wrong?" Tears fell on the back of his hand, so hot that Luke couldn't speak clearly, "It's just... very bad."

Am I doing something wrong, am I bad?

"No." Mu Wenran sat on Lu Jia's bed, sitting next to Lu Jia. He only said two words, which made Lu Jia feel safe.

"Grandpa passed away..." Lu Jia clenched his fists tightly, tears smeared on his eyelashes, slid down his cheeks, dripped down his chin, and fell on the back of his hands.

This is so embarrassing.

No one will give him and Bai Yi the same amount of candy, no one will pat his head with warm palms, no one will tell him that he is the same as everyone else... Grandpa is the elder who understands him best , but grandpa passed away, and he lost one relative.

"I tried so hard to pretend to be happy, but you always see right through me." Luke choked up, "Did I hide it well?"

"It's very good." Mu Wenran gently stroked Lu Jia's hair, "It's already very good, Lu Jia."

"I just... always cry." Lu Jia sobbed and wiped away his tears, "Obviously it shouldn't be like this."

Lu Jia did not dare to cry in front of his aunt, and could not cry, for fear that his aunt would be worried and that she would accommodate his emotions.

He has been living carefully, trying to make himself pleasing, trying to build a good relationship with others, trying to smile and work hard, hoping that his existence is valuable.

But now that Mu Wenran is here, he doesn't want to laugh anymore, pretend to be happy, or be obedient, and just wants to tell him how sad he is.

Obviously it shouldn't be like this.

But Mu Wenran was here, and his tense nerves couldn't help but relax.

That's why he was so afraid of seeing Mu Wenran. In front of Mu Wenran, he would let go of all his defenses, and there was no secret at all.

In fact, Mu Wenran didn't quite understand this kind of emotion. His environment and family made him unable to understand this kind of strong emotion.

But he thought it would be very painful for a loved one to leave.

He didn't want Luke to be sad, but now he had no choice but to watch Luke cry.

Mu Wenran didn't like this feeling of powerlessness, which made him feel anxious, so he reached out and hugged Lu Jia into his arms, imitating Lu Jia's way of comforting him before, and gently patted Lu Jia's back.

Falling into a warm embrace, Lu Jia's first thought was to raise his head, but he must be disfigured now, thinking of this, he buried his head down again, taking a small breath, hoping that he would not twitch.

It's as if he was saying that I was going to grow up one second, and the next second he threw himself into someone's arms like a kid and acted like a baby.

Luke felt that it was not good for him.

But this person is Mu Wenran, the person who hugs him, gives him warmth and knows his emotions is Mu Wenran, he subconsciously chooses to rely on him.

After a while, Lu Jia felt embarrassed, and shook his head to think about it, but Mu Wenran held his face and lowered his head. The two of them were so close that Lu Jia could clearly see the gleam in Mu Wenran's eyes. Own.

Mu Wenran's gaze was too focused, he looked at Lu Jia with deep eyes.It seems to be able to suck the soul, making people tremble.

But Lu Jia didn't feel it. He grabbed Mu Wenran's wrist and looked back at him openly.

The atmosphere is a little subtle.

Mu Wenran lowered his eyes: "Have you cried enough?"

Lu Jia: "..." On rare occasions, he boldly pushed Mu Wenran's head away, and moved towards the bedside, rubbing against the sheet.

There was a short distance between the two of them, and Luke lowered his head with his legs crossed.

Mu Wenran couldn't see the expression on his face, but could only see his neck, slightly protruding Adam's apple, chin, mouth, and nose. Lu Jia only gave him a profile, and he couldn't see the whole thing.

Maybe he said the wrong thing.

After a long silence, Lu Jia spoke again: "Am I not promising?"

"Ok?"

"It's just...I always cry at you, I don't do that at home." Lu Jia hugged his neck, "Don't make me annoying." He muttered the last three words very softly.

"No." Mu Wenran leaned against the bed with his hands on the bed. The mattress in the hotel was too soft, so he sank in with one hand, brushed his lips against Lu Jia's hair, and sprayed his breath on Lu Jia's ears.

Luke raised his hand and touched his ear.

"It's okay, you can cry with me." The tear-soaked eyes were brighter than usual, and when he finally saw the boy's face, Mu Wenran brushed away the hair sticking around his eyes for him very naturally, "I don't care." Mind, just don't avoid me."

Lu Jia cried for so long, his voice was nasal, and he spoke more softly than usual. He quickly glanced at Mu Wenran and then lowered his head: "I didn't mean to hide from you...I'm sorry."

"There's nothing to apologize for." Mu Wenran said, "It's just that I'm worried."

"You said the same thing on the phone earlier."

"En." Mu Wenran rubbed his earlobe, "Didn't you ask me not to hide everything from you?" He never forgot the agreement between the two, and he was worried about Lu Jia, so he bluntly expressed his concern.

Lu Jia fell on the bed: "I'm not sad anymore." Mu Wenran looked at him quietly, and he pulled the pillow to cover his face, "Don't expose me, you just think I'm not sad anymore."

"it is good."

"...I'm still a little sad. The school is about to start, and I haven't finished my homework. What about you, do you have any homework in college?"

"The topic changed a bit bluntly."

"Please follow my steps!"

"Ah."

The two chatted for a while, seeing that it was getting late, Lu Jia went to the bathroom to take a shower first.

Lu Jia came out of the shower, lying on the bed and looking at the ceiling, the sound of crackling water came from the bathroom.

After listening for a while, he got up and shook his hair and began to look through the cabinet. He didn't wipe his hair, thinking whether there would be towels on the bedside table, but turned out a small square box.

When Mu Wenran came out, he saw Lu Jia sitting upright, with his hands on his knees: "What are you doing?"

Luke tilted his head, his hair was dripping down one side: "I want a towel."

"Wait a minute." Mu Wenran was holding one in his hand, but it had already been wiped wet by him. He walked to Lu Jia's side, and had the same idea as Lu Jia, and went to open the cabinet.

Lu Jia watched him turn out the square box, blinked a few times and pretended to be stupid: "What is this, brother, I don't even know it."

Mu Wenran: "Condoms."

Luke: "..."

Mu Wenran: "Do you want to open it and have a look?"

Luke: "No."

"Yeah." Mu Wenran threw the box of condoms into the drawer, "Open it and ask for money."

Luke: "..." So he even said he didn't want to open it.

Mu Wenran went to the bathroom and plugged in the hair dryer. After blowing it twice, he called Lu Jia: "Come here."

"You seem to be calling a dog." Lu Jiaxuan pulled his slippers and walked over, "Oh, I seem to be..." He still remembered the bet that if he cried in front of Mu Wenran, he would be a dog.

Lu Jia let Mu Wenran fiddle with his head, and the blower blows the hair on his forehead. He raised his head and closed his eyes: "Do you want to hear me scream twice?"

The hair dryer was too loud, Mu Wenran turned it off: "What did you say?"

Luke half-opened his eyes: "Wow."

Mu Wenran covered his eyes and pushed back, leaning against the wall and laughing: "Are you stupid?"

After tossing for a long time, I finally turned off the lights and went to sleep.

There was a light on beside the bed, the two were lying on their respective beds, Lu Jia only saw Mu Wenran's back.

He closed his eyes but couldn't fall asleep for a long time. He heard the sound of fabric rubbing, and just about to open his eyes to see, the dazzling light disappeared.

Mu Wenran turned off the light.

Luke covered his face with the quilt.

Being accommodated and taken care of, why is he inexplicably happy.

I can't open my mouth to say a lot, it would be great if you could understand me.