Encounter

The aroma, the overly strong aroma came but it was not choking, but Xia Yuming was obsessed, his mind became dizzy, he didn't seem to hear clearly, and asked, "What did you say?"

"I said you, you are just a giant baby." The man smiled secretly, and a thick and charming color was drawn in his faint eyebrows. At this moment, he looked like a monster from the tip of his eyebrows to the corner of his mouth.

"Inexplicable." Xia Yuming said calmly, curling up his fingers nervously.

"You are just a giant baby, a giant baby who can't live without your parents. Without a will of your own, you are the most caring baby for your parents... Ah, no, I'm not wrong, you are a good baby, but you are not caring enough, you Your parents have always been dissatisfied with you, aren't they?"

"you……"

"You are living so righteously now, just because you think you are innocent, you are not wrong, and you have no time, right? You don't mention the possible results you may bring, and you don't mention the selfishness of the side family. Let's discuss the matter and talk about yourself. Are you really innocent?"

"Is there something wrong with me? Do I have to suffer from this?"

The blood seemed to be ignited. Xia Yuming felt that he was not normal, but his emotions were unbearable. He questioned, asked the monster in front of him, and also asked those people or other creatures who could not hear but caused all this.

Although he is not a very good person, he has never done anything bad. He knows that life is not easy, and he has been working hard, working hard, why should he suffer from this?

Is he wrong?Where did he go wrong?Why is fate so unfair?

"There are many more unfortunate and kind people than you, why do you complain, and what is there to complain about?"

The demon whispered in the ear.

"Do you think you are right? Then let's make a hypothesis, assuming that none of this happened, you are still an obedient baby, and you have never encountered these things beyond common sense. What will happen to your life Woolen cloth?

You will listen to your parents, find a virtuous, virtuous, filial and obedient girl to marry, and follow the path your parents envisioned for you, even if you don't like it, right?But Xia Yuming, aren't you gay?am I right? "

"I'm not……"

"Why didn't you have a boyfriend? It's almost spread all over your university, and you still deny it?"

"I……"

"Hush..." The man put his finger on his lips to prevent Xia Yuming from speaking, "I know what's around you, but if you didn't have a crush on each other, would a straight man treat another person like this? ? Even if it’s just a joke, wouldn’t it be so natural? Am I right, you don’t hate that demon at all.”

"..."

"You are, Xia Yuming, you are."

"Even if it is, so what?"

"Even if it is, then you will still listen to your parents get married and have children, use others as your shield, and let an innocent woman pay everything for you because you fall into the abyss."

"I……"

"Isn't it because you feel that you are kind and innocent, so innocent, so innocent that you can say that you want to continue to live so confidently here?

Are you really innocent?Look at yourself, weak and ugly, what would you do if it wasn't for this incident?You'll spoil someone's true love and drag her into your empty, suffocating life.

cowardly!Cowardly and despicable! "

"I do not……"

"Nothing?" The flower demon raised his voice and interrupted Xia Yuming. He looked at Xia Yuming contemptuously and firmly, "Aren't you gay? I know that so-called boyfriend next to you is that demon. Maybe you don't think you are I don't love him, but I can see that you have a crush on him, don't you? Even if you don't, who is straight enough to accept this kind of thing so frankly?

Admit it, you're a twisted cowardly liar! "

"I didn't!" Xia Yuming roared, because he was too excited, his upper body and limbs were lifted together and then trapped back to the wound by the restraint belt. He was embarrassed and angry, and the dark and ugly corner of his heart was torn apart, "I Knowing who I am, I never wanted to hurt anyone."

"Yes, you know what kind of person you are." The flower demon stepped forward to caress Xia Yuming's face, although it was only a gentle touch, Xia Yuming trembled in fear.

He wanted to argue, but he opened his mouth and couldn't speak.

Is there something wrong, can something be wrong?

The thing in front of him is so reasonable to speculate.

He is indeed a cowardly, selfish and ignorant person.

Even if he can't now, if he really gets to that scene, won't he really go that far?

He didn't know, but he knew himself and always knew that he wasn't kind enough.

"Look, do you know? You know, you have always known, you are sober. But you still suppress your nature and abandon your instincts, because you think that only in this way can you live like a person, and you want to live like a person live.

God knows why your parents made you feel that way, or why you feel that way yourself.

But you know, you still don't live like a person.It's no one else's fault, it's your own choice. "

"I don't understand what you're talking about."

"You are very smart, you know it, you have always understood it. Because you see, your parents don't want you anymore, and they don't want you, a well-behaved baby. What should you do? How should you live?

You bury and empty everything inside, trying to make yourself into a body that pleases them, you never fight for what you want, you just give up, you keep giving up. "

Xia Yuming wanted to curl up, but he was tied up, so he couldn't do it.

"If you think back on the past half a year or so, you would have guessed that you would not live long. If I had only three days left in my life, most people would do what they wanted to do but couldn't do.

But what are you doing? "

What is he doing?

He didn't know what he was doing, he didn't know what he was supposed to do.

He's aimless, and he can't do much else than pretend nothing happened.

"You don't know how to live."

Yes, he doesn't know.He handed over the initiative very early and gave up everything about himself, because he wanted to be a child loved by his parents, and he wanted to be a good and filial child.

Parents gave birth to him and raised him, he owed his parents, he owed them too much.

this is necessary.

"Yeah, you have always been an obedient and good boy, you tried hard to accept everything your parents told you without thinking, you thought you should be like this, right, and flawless.

You stand on the moral high ground, you push yourself, you live so rightly, you live so rightly.But then what? "

and then?

"You get nothing, you are abandoned, you don't even know what you want, you don't know how to live. You are miserable, but you can only continue along the track they set for you.

Because you have nothing to do, because you are used to this kind of life.Like a canary in a cage, even if it yearns for the blue sky, it can't fly out of the cage for the rest of its life.

In fact, you have always known that you just don't want to think about it.

Man, it's always like this.They would rather be mistreated by others, betrayed by others, and blame the heavens, than admit that they are free, they have always been free, and they freely chose the path they are walking on now. "

"wrong!"

"If you doubt your parents early in the morning, if you observe your parents carefully early in the morning, you should find that they are different. Let alone childhood, at least in your growth path, you have enough time to learn from teachers .”

"Shut up!"

"If you joined a few years earlier, it is the Quanzhen Sect that you have been asking for help now."

"not like this!"

"You won't be as embarrassed as you are now."

"I……"

"Your life is nothing more than a castle built on the fantasy of your parents."

"Shut up!" Xia Yuming seemed angry because of this nonsense, and also seemed guilty because he was poked at the center.

"Your life has no meaning. When this structure collapses, your life collapses. And this structure collapsed long ago, what are you, and why do you live?" The flower demon squinted her eyes and took a step back. Holding a sword in his hand, he looked at Xia Yuming pitifully and said, "Why bother, kid?"

"No one in this world loves you anymore and no one needs you anymore. You are ugly, mean and cowardly, and you dare not even look at yourself like this. Xia Yuming, it's not that you don't have to bear sins if you don't commit crimes. Your heart is dirty and ugly. You live It must be painful and depressing. Why insist on it?"

Xia Yuming suddenly became agitated, struggling vigorously with all four limbs, and broke free from the restraints on the bed.

As soon as the scene in the room changed, the huge tree and the mummy hanging on the tree disappeared together.

Xia Yuming saw a sword coming towards him from the air, he was dizzy, and the shame, anger and anger in his heart were stuck in his throat.

"You're not innocent, not at all."

Unknowingly, there was a hard object in his hand, and he swung his arm, wanting to slash at the frightening and disgusting existence in front of him.

However, at this moment, the monster suddenly shrank back and fell to the ground, looking at him tremblingly, "Help, someone help me."

At this moment, the door was suddenly knocked open, and a group of policemen rushed in with their guns raised. The monster saw the policemen as if he had seen a savior, "Comrade policeman, this person, this person brought me here, want, want to kill me! These, these people were all killed by him."

The flower demon pointed to a corner of the room, where several charred corpses lay side by side.

"I……"

"Put down the knife in your hand!"

Xia Yuming was frightened by the roar, and the knife in his hand fell to the ground. Two people surrounded him and grabbed his hand, intending to handcuff him.

As if he just woke up suddenly at this moment, Xia Yuming suddenly withdrew his hand, he was confused, scared and helpless, "It's not me, it's him, it's not me..."

"be honest!"

His wrist hurt and he was handcuffed.

The moment the flower demon turned her face away, she showed an imperceptible smile to Xia Yuming, and a voice rang in Xia Yuming's mind.

We once thought about letting you enter the cycle of reincarnation quickly after death, so that you can start the next life, but you refused, and even killed the good people for you.

We once wanted to let you live a decent life before you die, just to teach you a lesson, but you still refused.

Since you don't want to die well, and you don't choose to live well, then die with a bad name in prison.

We will also deal with the merits and virtues you shamelessly stole from the Infernal Hell. At that time, you will not be so lucky, and it will only take so little time to get out of Abi.

Self-made, self-received.

"I'm not……"

"go!"

He didn't, he obviously didn't...

Xia Yuming was pushed, staggered but couldn't fall, and the culprit was comforted by everyone in front.

See, the world is like this.

That's how it should be.

Shouldn't he really be resisting?Is it wrong to just want to live?

The world in front of me gradually blurred.

"It's not wrong."

A familiar voice sounded, like a stream of pure water poured into the Lingtai, and the mind suddenly cleared.

At that moment, everyone was frozen, motionless, without blinking their eyes, the world became quiet, and the dust froze in the light.

"Shhh, you've had an operation, you need to sleep first."

A pair of hands stretched out from behind covered Xia Yuming's eyes, and then he fell into an embrace.

"Sorry, I'm late."

A dull voice sounded.

"Don't listen to those deceptive nonsense, everything will be fine, you have to believe that the suffering will eventually pass, and the future will greet you and embrace you with warmth and kindness."

"I do not believe."

"You have to believe that this is just a nightmare. When you wake up from the dream, it will be fine."

The gentle breath fell on Xia Yuming's neck, wrapping him with the warm scent of wheat.

"Don't be afraid, let's go home."