Encounter

After cleaning, Xia Yuming's heart skipped a beat as the fluorescent lamp above the living room twitched and went out.

He dropped the broom and dustpan and ran into his room. After about ten minutes, seeing no movement outside, he went to the living room with the mahogany sword.

After waving it in the air, the fluorescent lamp still didn't light up.

If it's not because of the ghost, is it possible that it's simply broken?Xia Yuming thought about it, and tried to turn on the unused lamp on the dining table.

With a snap, the living room was refilled with bright artificial light.

It turned out that it was just a false alarm, so he breathed a sigh of relief and returned to the sofa to continue lying down.

After idly staying at home for a week without going out, Xia Yuming felt extremely bored.

This sense of boredom suddenly swelled to the extreme when I woke up on Thursday morning of the second week.

He looked anxiously at the messy house and the not-so-bright living room, and decided to replace the fluorescent tubes.

Putting the old light tube into the bulging garbage bag, he let go and got up, but there was a soft sound first, followed by a series of sounds of things falling apart.

After so many days of not pouring out the garbage bags full of garbage, I finally couldn't support it and fell down.

Looking at this pile of scattered things, Xia Yuming felt a powerless sense of frustration in his heart.

Sighing, he tidied up his things, wanted to take out the key to take out the trash, but found that the key was gone.

Because it might be put in the schoolbag, Xia Yuming started looking for the bag.

The strange thing is that it doesn't matter where such a small thing as the key is. After searching inside and outside, even the schoolbag is gone.

Xia Yuming began to flip through his desk anxiously and meaninglessly.

After flipping through for five or six minutes, he found that his books were missing, and the few books happened to be the ones he would use in class today.

Dazed for a moment, I turned out the book I used in class a few days ago, and it was full of unfamiliar notes.

Thinking back on Shen Mo's anomalies in the past few days, a ridiculous guess emerged in Xia Yuming's mind. Could it be that Shen Mo went out during this period to help him in class?

This is impossible.

After wandering back and forth in the living room for a while, in order to confirm his guess, he sent a message to Li Chao.

Li Chao returned quickly, saying that his boyfriend was helping him with class so that he should not worry, and if he was sick, he should take a good rest and take care of his body.

Boy friend?

After Xia Yuming typed these three words and a question mark on WeChat, he remembered that before, for convenience, he had told his roommate that Shen Mo was his boyfriend.

Is Shen Mo really helping herself with class?But why?

Xia Yuming looked blankly at this bright room, why?Thinking of Wang Xian who was dressed in women's clothing before, there is likely to be some relationship between the two.

But it doesn't matter anymore, it's all good, it's already reached this point, it doesn't matter anymore.

He took off his shoes and curled up on the sofa.

Without a goal, without a future, except eating and sleeping, and being in a daze, Xia Yuming had nothing to do, like an empty shell.

Xia Yuming's parents are strict utilitarians. They believe that doing things should have "meaning", and that things without "meaning" should not be done. After all, life is so short, and time is like running water, there is nothing to waste.

So they have always strictly controlled and never let their sons do those "meaningless" things.

He once agreed with such a concept and strictly followed this teaching, but now he clearly understands the destructive harm brought about by this philosophy of doing things.

In the first two days, Xia Yuming really wanted to take a good rest, and then do those things that he wanted to do but couldn't do, such as playing games.For a moment, he even felt the pleasure of escaping from the confinement and abandoning himself.

However, after a few days, he discovered that some things, buried in the soil of his heart for too long, would rot and disappear, and could never be dug out again.

Doing "meaningful" things has always been the core of Xia Yuming's life. Without it, life seems to have lost its pillar.When death is imminent, I want to live a better life, but all my interests have already been stifled. I don't know how to entertain myself, and I just feel that life is boring.

Compared with the fearlessness and courage of wanting to indulge and face death before, during this long wait, he even had a weak desire in his heart, longing for someone to kill himself directly like this, and longing to be reborn by someone. Give even a little hope.

Everything is better than now, waiting to die every day, life is hopeless and boring.

Death is not terrible, what is terrible is the process of waiting for death.

Xia Yuming gradually became tired, his eyelids were clenched, his vision was blurred, and he fell asleep.

He had a very long dream. He dreamed of his childhood, his parents, his friends, his classmates, and his teacher.Familiar faces slipped and disappeared before his eyes, and finally he was left alone, and then he grew into an adult, drifting up and down in the endless ocean alone, with nothing but sea water around him.

No one, no wood, only yourself.

As for people, where have they gone? They are going to sink, they are going to sink.

No one, what you are holding on to is duckweed.

A familiar voice sounded in Xia Yuming's mind.

"Ayu! Ayu!"

Xia Yuming opened his eyes suddenly, and his entire field of vision was instantly filled by Shen Mo's beautiful face.

"Ayu, don't listen to that person's words in the future." After a pause, Shen Mo said anxiously, "No, you have to listen to what he wants to say. Those people from the side family don't have any spells... woo .”

No one was there, no one, he sank.

Xia Yuming's consciousness was not very clear, as if out of instinct, he kissed Shen Mo.

Whether duckweed or not, human beings are so fragile, even if they are dead, they always want to hold on to something.

No wonder his parents always dislike him for being weak, they are right, their son is indeed so weak and incompetent.

Shen Mo's lips were soft, Xia Yuming gradually lost his mind due to addiction.

"Ayu, Ayu..."

When Xia Yuming woke up again, he and Shen Mo were already sleeping on the bed in his own room. There were dots of blue light flickering in the room, not very bright, but it allowed people to vaguely see the things in the room.

It seems that there are hundreds of fireflies leading Xinghe to the ground.

Even a person like Xia Yuming who didn't know how to appreciate the scenery was shocked at that moment. He reached out to touch the light in front of him, but as soon as he touched it, everything disappeared and the lights in the room turned on.

"you're awake."

"Was that just now?" Xia Yuming recovered and asked Shen Mo.

"Someone just invaded your consciousness, I'm helping you heal, Ayu, I will protect you."

"Protection?" Xia Yuming was stunned for a long time as if he had heard something strange suddenly, before asking, "How long will you protect me?"

"At least until it's all over."

"When it's over, will you tell me it's over?"

"Yes, so don't give up so early."

"Give up?" Xia Yuming looked at Shen Mo's eyes, Shen Mo's eyes are very beautiful, not the big eyes that are popular in aesthetics nowadays, but they are very beautiful, so beautiful that Xia Yuming couldn't bear to look away when he saw those eyes, " Is that why you helped me go to class?"

"Yes, because you will have a long life after this."

"Is that so, you helped me go to class for me?"

Shen Mo affirmed Xia Yuming's statement without any hesitation.

Xia Yuming was silent for a while, and stretched out his hand to Shen Mo's naked body, the delicate and warm touch came from between his fingers, Shen Mo trembled and leaned against the wall.

"No, Shen Mo, you didn't help me with my class because of me. I saw my roommate enter the house opposite me."

He put his whole palm on Shen Mo's abdomen, and the body under his hand stiffened, "You let me go to class because of my roommate? I saw Wang appeared, he was abnormal, this time, it was another whats the matter?"

Xia Yuming rolled over on top of Shen Mo, the people under him did not resist, their appearance was gentle and almost obedient.

He suddenly had a kind of cowardly courage that made him despise, and that kind of courage gave him an infinite desire for life or death.

His mother often asked him, why are you not independent, why do you always depend on us.

He didn't understand it before, but now he understands that he doesn't have an independent personality at all.

His heart is empty, without the instructions of his parents, he will be ignorant and lose all direction.You can't live well, you can't die, and you waste time awkwardly in the middle.

"You said you would protect me, you said you were doing it for my own good, I could believe you, and you lied to me, I would believe you too."

Xia Yuming's eyes lit up when he saw Shen Mo, he was really beautiful.

"Because even my parents want me to die, I can't find hope, except you, only you tell me, I can still live. Only you, only you, except death, I only have you."

Even his parents didn't bother to lie to him anymore, but Shen Mo still said that he could still live.

How touching.

Xia Yuming had no choice, except to believe in Shen Mo, and to choose to cling to the demon in front of him weakly like a dodder flower.

He didn't want to wait aimlessly like this anymore, this process was too long and boring, Xia Yuming wanted to hold on to something, wanted to believe in something.

To believe that it is still possible to live, put the previous goals and pursuits back into life, and live for these things.

Xia Yuming lowered his head and leaned on Shen Mo's shoulder.

"I'll go to class."

Xia Yuming started to cry as he spoke, crying loudly, crying so bitterly, so weakly.

Does he believe in Shen Mo?He doesn't believe it.But he really didn't want to wait any longer.Even if it is duckweed, even if it is straw, even if it is a lie, he is still grateful that such a thing can still appear in this desperate situation.

At that moment, he deeply realized that he was such a poor person.

The author has something to say

See you next week~ Classmate Xiao Ming is going to be depressed again, and he has to cheer up again (#^.^#)

twenty (completion)

After returning to school, Xia Yuming's life unexpectedly returned to normal. Except for Shen Mo's behavior, everything was normal.

Shen Mo didn't know why, instead of focusing on sleeping every day, he diligently followed Xia Yuming to and from get out of class, and sometimes even helped with some housework.

Xia Yuming was horrified by Shen Mo's sudden change, at first he nervously imagined all kinds of possibilities, and after a few weeks he was fine, he gradually let go of his guard.

However, he still didn't understand why Shen Mo did this.

"I think you are interesting, I just want to get close to you."

Shen Mo was chopping vegetables when he said this, his long black hair was loosely tied into a braid behind his back, and the ties of his apron vaguely outlined his narrow waistline.

Xia Yuming looked at the person from top to bottom, licked his lips and said, "I don't think I am interesting anymore, I think I am extremely boring. Besides, if you think I am interesting and want to get close to me, why did you keep talking to me in the first place?" Go to sleep, now there is such a big change suddenly?"

There was a thud when the vegetables were put into the pot, and the kitchen was immediately filled with oily smoke.Xia Yuming admired Shen Mo's cooking, and guessed in a good mood, "You don't think I'm funny halfway, because it's so easy to look suspicious to me, so why don't you just wait for my parents to expose it, thinking that you can Taking advantage of the situation...is this also very suspicious?"

Shen Mo stopped his movements and turned his head, his eyes seemed to be washed by spring water, they were sparkling and gentle, completely different from the cold eyes that Xia Yuming had when he first saw them.

Xia Yuming was stunned, Shen Mo became more and more different, "Forget it, I'm talking nonsense."

"You guessed it right." Shen Mo actually had no expression on his face, but Xia Yuming felt that he was smiling.

"Then am I very good?" Xia Yuming changed the topic with a smile, "What are you eating today?"

"Coke chicken wings, you like them. Tomorrow is the last day. There are three exams at once. Eat more."

"Okay, don't go to school with me tomorrow. I have an exam for a day, so you should have a good sleep. You haven't slept much recently."

"Well, that's okay, I haven't been getting enough sleep recently."

"Are you a koala spirit or a cat demon? You love to sleep so much." Xia Yuming asked him jokingly, "If the world still photographs you, it will disturb the situation in the Three Realms. Let me see, even if you are released, you will find a place to continue sleeping. .”

"I'm a demon, but I don't want to unify the Three Realms. These are all assumptions made by human beings out of fear of powerful creatures. It's troublesome to stir up the situation, so it's better to sleep."

"If you said that before, I would believe it, but now I can't."

"Why?" Shen Mo took out the fried dishes and put them on the stove, then washed the pot.

"Now you always follow me and don't sleep. I don't believe that you will give up sleeping that you love so much just because you think I'm interesting." Xia Yuming said as he lay down on the table as he liked.

"Do you trust me a little more now? If you used to, you wouldn't talk to me like this. "

"Who knows?" Xia Yuming didn't answer this question.In fact, he himself didn't understand how he got to this point, but he just seemed to live with the tide, and he became like this unconsciously.

"One day, if you trust me enough, I will tell you everything." Shen Mo poured the chicken wings into the oil, accompanied by a beeping sound, he turned his head to look at Xia Yuming, the corners of his mouth curled up in a rare way, sharp eyebrows and eyes Melt away.

The north wind was howling outside, and the room was full of the smell of food. It was an ordinary day. Shen Mo stood in the kitchen, dressed in homely clothes, and smiled at Xia Yuming in confusion, "I don't know why, It’s just that I gradually find you interesting, so I want to see you cry, and suddenly I want to stay with you more than sleep.”

Xia Yuming felt his heart skip a beat, this creature is really beautiful.

Returning to the dormitory after the exam the next day, Xia Yuming was surprised to find that Shen Mo had already packed his things, and he just had to carry his luggage and go home with Shen Mo. He had to sigh again that this lazy monster was amazing change.

"It's true that it's a grass. You have such a good-looking boyfriend and treat you so well. Wang Xian doesn't know where he went. He didn't come for a test, and he didn't come back to pack his things. If it wasn't for a few days ago I've seen him in bars and I wondered if something was wrong with him. I really..."

Li Chao was also in the dormitory, with big and small bags piled up on the floor, but the bed hadn't been made, so he probably planned to stay another night and leave school the next day.

During this period of time, because of Shen Mo following Xia Yuming in a high-profile way and Li Chao's sloppy mouth, the entire Chinese Department of Xiahe University already knew that Xia Yuming, the Chinese Department, had a boyfriend, and some girls even cried and said they liked him for a long time But it's not as good-looking as Shen Mo, who is so convincingly defeated.

Xia Yuming never cared about what others thought of him, so he didn't know that he was so popular, and he was taken aback when the girl cried and confessed her love.

"What are you talking about? It's the first time I've heard this name. When did it come out?"

"Isn't Anqing, a senior, graduating? It's your turn to get this title." Li Chao muttered with a sigh, "I thought you were heterosexual before, but I didn't expect you to be gay too."

Xia Yuming took some things from Shen Mo's hand and said, "That hasn't graduated yet, how could I have given this title to me in advance. I didn't expect you to be with Wang now, didn't you have girlfriends before? "

"Yeah, Wang Xian bent me, but he ran away." Li Chao became depressed as he spoke, "Boy, do you want to stay another night and have a drink together?"

In the past, Wang Xian targeted Xia Yuming, and Li Chao and Wang Xian's attitude towards Xia Yuming was also very cold after they got married.

Although the relationship between the three of them has eased a lot later, and they will joke together on the surface, but they are not very close after all, at least Xia Yuming himself thinks so.

Li Chao's sudden action now is obviously to build a good relationship with Xia Yuming, but Xia Yuming doesn't want to waste time on this kind of meaningless social interaction.

This kind of social interaction can neither bring happiness nor benefit, his life is already a mess, why bother, troublesome and tiring.

"No, it's different from your lonely family." Xia Yuming raised his eyebrows and tugged at Shen Mo, and refused jokingly, "I have a family, and the night is long."

Li Chao was instantly hit by a critical blow and covered his chest, "I've pierced my heart."

After the two walked out of the dormitory building, Shen Mo asked Xia Yuming, "You don't feel happy with him, so you don't like to drink with him. When you were with me, you never wanted to avoid it so much, did you..."

"Well, you're relatively non-existent."

Xia Yuming interjected, feeling bored seeing Shen Mo's unchanged expression when he was robbed, so he gave all the things in his hand to Shen Mo, "I don't think you're too tired to carry things, why don't I give them all to you?" take?"

Shen Mo didn't refute, and silently took the big and small bags.

The female compatriots passing by couldn't help but stare at Xia Yuming when they saw the relaxed Xia Yuming and the stunningly handsome Shen Mo who was covered with baggage all over his body.

Xia Yuming didn't care, and walked happily all the way, but took the burden from Shen Mo's hand when he reached the corner where no one was around.

Shen Mo remained silent without saying anything, and handed the things to Xia Yuming obediently and docilely.

When the two looked at each other, Xia Yuming felt that the other's eyes were extraordinarily warm in this winter night, he shook his shoulders, turned his head and smiled unconsciously.

For the time being, life has returned to the previous path, and it seems to be a lot easier.

Xia Yuming didn't think, didn't think, didn't struggle, and followed the torrent of life, following Shen Mo's footsteps to the unknown future.He can't control and is powerless to control all this, just like a leaf floating on the water can't stop the rushing water.

It's fine if you figure it out, because it's too unbearable for him to give up and wait to die, and you can't do it because you are too weak to fight hard, so it's better to just be caught in the middle like this.

On the 29th day of the year, Xia Yuming's cousin asked him on WeChat, would he go to celebrate the New Year this year?

This way of asking was very strange, only Xia Yuming was asked and not his parents, it seemed that he knew all about it.

Xia Yuming didn't reply.

The cousin then used filial piety and blood ties to persuade him, but Xia Yuming was too lazy to deal with it, and put down his phone and didn't want to talk to anyone.

Just at this time Shen Mo passed by, Xia Yuming saw it, and suddenly had a plan in his heart.He picked up his mobile phone and took a picture of Shen Mo and sent it to his cousin, "I'm going to celebrate the New Year with my boyfriend this year, if you want me to go back, I must take him back with me."

There was silence for a long time, and a sentence was sent: Do you know what he is?

Xia Yuming responded briskly: I know, I just love him so much that I am willing to do everything for him, and I must be with him.

After the beating, he forcefully replied to his cousin with the way his cousin persuaded him, and by the way, he pretended to be pitiful and cried and told him about his parents' ruthlessness.

Xia Yuming never dared and would not do this before. His parents taught him never to speak ill of his parents to others, otherwise people will have a very bad impression of you, because you even speak ill of your parents, who else can speak ill of you? Won't you say it?

It sounded reasonable in the past, and I have always followed it, but now I don't care, and I actually feel a guilty pleasure when I do it.

Xia Yuming let out a long breath and collapsed on the sofa, threw his phone on the ground and giggled.

Seeing his crazy appearance, Shen Mo came over and picked up the mobile phone on the ground, glanced at it and raised his eyebrows, jokingly said, "You are so forgetful about my love that you give everything to me?"

Xia Yuming sat up and asked without shame, "Do you believe it?"

Shen Mo didn't answer, but asked him with a smile in his eyes, "Do you really want to kiss me now?"

Xia Yuming wanted to deny it, but looking at Shen Mo's soft long hair and gentle eyebrows, his heart suddenly felt desire, "If I say yes, will you let me kiss?"

Shen Mo leaned over and said, "Okay."

Xia Yuming stole a sweet scent from the other party's mouth without being pretentious.

On the night of New Year's Eve, Xia Yuming and Shen Mo cooked a table of dishes together.

After eating, they turned on the TV and watched the Spring Festival Gala while drinking. By ten o'clock, Xia Yuming was already drunk.

When a person is drunk, his brain becomes dull, and it is easy to pour out words that he would not normally utter at this time.

"Shen Mo, don't you think it's strange that you suddenly changed so much?"

"It's not surprising, didn't you ask before? You don't believe the reason I said."

"What are you talking about? I'm still in a daze about everything. I feel like I'm walking in the night without street lights. I finally took out my flashlight. Hiccup, the surrounding area is full of fog, it's still thick fog!" Xia Yuming With a big tongue, the skits of the Spring Festival Gala on TV made the atmosphere extremely lively.

"If you want to know, I can tell you, but will you believe it?"

"I have to believe it if I believe it, or I have to believe it if I don't believe it. Isn't this just your source of information? If you are not reliable, you can only trust you."

"That's right..." Shen Mo was silent for a moment, then cupped Xia Yuming's face, "If you want to know, I'll tell you."

Xia Yuming was in a daze, double images began to appear in front of his eyes, he didn't take Shen Mo's words seriously, and was about to close his eyes and fall asleep like this when he suddenly heard the other party say,

"Where do I start, ah, let's start with the fact that I was imprisoned in an enchantment by the Bian family because of you, and all my devilish energy was used by them."

Shen Mo's voice was crisp and a bit cold, no different from usual, even gentle.

Xia Yuming opened his eyes, looking at Shen Mo's smiling face, he woke up mostly from the alcohol.