light in the north

Shen Bei's voice was completely out of tune when he sang the chorus, and his tearing voice broke through the sky, leaving a strange aftertaste.He also realized this, and laughed to himself, and then he blushed and gave Jiang Nan a guilty look.

Jiang Nan still looked at him blankly.

With his right leg resting on his left leg, he leaned against the back of the chair, crossed his arms around his chest, tilted his head slightly, and looked indifferently like water.

Shen Bei's originally apprehensive mood collapsed at the moment when he saw those eyes, as if an ice cube had been thrown on him.

God knows how much mental work he has done before this moment, but the failure rate is still as he expected, and he is so stupid and shameful, if there is a hole, he is really willing to drill down like this.He stopped playing the guitar, his face seemed to be frosted, and he wanted to get up and clean up the mess with some desperation.

"but I'macreep, I'maweirdo"

When the first sound came out, it hit Shen Bei's head directly, like a warm current, softening his stiff body instantly, he slowed down, looked at Jiang Nan blankly, and subconsciously followed him with his fingers The sound of sliding the strings to join the music, but there is an unstoppable numbness and excitement in my heart.

I haven't heard Jiang Nan sing for many years, it's like a shocking ceremony, which made Shen Bei feel emotional at that moment.And when Jiang Nan sang, her exceptionally deep and magnetic voice expressed every note accurately, and the just-right vibrato revealed a kind of inferiority complex, a kind of pain that could not be breathed perfectly. This song is the most perfect interpretation.

Handsome as always, Jiang Nan didn't contrived to wink like a TV singer, but just sat on a stool and sang with a flat expression, just like he did in Temptation back then, singing with ease but with precision.

The more Shen Bei got excited, the more he wanted to play well for Jiang Nan, so he became more nervous, flustered, and made more mistakes.But Jiang Nan didn't remind him, but patiently followed the tone.In the last section, Jiang Nan's voice softened, and Shen Bei's guitar sound also weakened relatively.

Until the last note fell, it was a little regretful, a little lingering, but still managed to finish a song, Shen Bei let out a long sigh of relief.

After the song was sung, everyone was silent for a while.It was the first time for both of them to face such a situation, so they were not quite used to it.What's more, for Jiang Nan, he had a lot of things that he couldn't say in front of Shen Bei, and he was originally a relatively reserved person.

At this time, Shen Bei could only smile awkwardly: "I was completely crushed by you. I said, Mr. Chairman, what is it that you don't know?"

He teased Jiang Nan, but the other party didn't react to his words, but Jiang Nan was like this, and Shen Bei wasn't too disappointed because of it.

Anyway, it's embarrassing to throw it on this, and Shen Bei is willing to go all out.Although he has never been so careful and humble to others, but now it is almost an instinctive reaction, and he has no other way. Now he only has one purpose, to keep this man tied to his side for the rest of his life.

Shen Bei put the guitar aside, took a deep breath, and took something in his pocket.

is a box.

"When I saw you for the first time, it was the day I transferred to another school. You were going to class, wearing a white shirt and school uniform, right? Hmm... You have a paralyzed expression like someone owes you money, you are quite tall, and you look awesome You must have thought I forgot." He pressed his nose with his distinct knuckles, and said, "I didn't know what happened at the time, I was upset, and I wanted to provoke you, but you actually scratched my pants It's a lot more embarrassing than it is now that I'm bouncing around in school with my underpants showing. I, to be honest, I was attracted to you from the beginning, but I don't think it's sexual Attract. It's through your eyes, trying to get to know you as a person. I like the relationship between the two of us like a sword. I even enjoy the occasional sarcastic and sarcastic moments, and when you tutor me Homework, hehe. Mathematics has improved a lot."

Jiang Nan rubbed her thumb, listening to Shen Bei's words thoughtfully, her lowered eyelids covered his thoughts, perhaps only the red scratch on her thumb could reveal a little emotion.

Shen Bei paused, summoned up his courage and continued, "I don't know when you fell in love with me, but I could tell something was wrong very early on, but I never thought about it, I just thought that you are different from ordinary people. It’s different, it’s quite perverted. I saw you smelling me secretly before, and I felt disgusted at that time. To be honest, there was a kind of inexplicable enjoyment. I don’t know why. After getting along, I found that I am getting more and more disgusted. I understand you, you have always been quite mysterious, like a black hole, people can't help but want to dig in, I resist all this, but I can't control myself. I am not happy when I see Li Lianhua falling in love with you, I am I feel awkward, so I just want to find fault with you. I am very happy to watch you like me and fight against yourself at the same time."

Shen Bei took a deep breath, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "I didn't realize that I liked you at the time, but maybe I just didn't admit that I fell in love with a pervert, and let myself become a pervert too. Until you... did it to me After that incident. What you did to me in those days still scares me when I think about it. Really, you don’t know how much I hated you at that time. I thought I would hate you for the rest of my life, I thought I would Kill you. I even planned how to torture you. I arranged for Francis to seduce you and then abandon you and ruin your life. In the end, he fell in love with you for no reason. You still...you slept with him , I should have been very happy during those days, I was going to be so angry. Then you came back, you didn’t know when you came back, I was shaking with excitement, of course most of it was because of hatred at that time, I couldn’t wait to know How do you feel and what expression do you have when you see that I am still alive?"

The more Shen Bei spoke, the more devoted he was, his eyes sparkled, as if he had really returned to that time, Jiang Nan also bit her lip and listened carefully to what he said.

"I... I remember you broke in, you asked me if I was Shen Bei, my heart would explode when I touched you. I don't know why, I could have killed you like this, but I didn't do it At that time, my mood was really complicated and complicated. What I thought about when I pressed you on the bed was not how to peel your skin, but how to treat you like how you treated me before, and how to enter your body to make you feel that This kind of pain, I really felt that I was almost crazy. The people around me kept urging me to kill you, and even arranged for me a plan that should have been put into action. But I just can't help it, you are like a black hole, Suck me in, and I have no way to escape. I can't kill you, I have urges for you. I want to possess everything about you, and I want to see you crazy for me all the time."

"Jiang Nan, I don't know how much I like you. I've slept with many people in my life, and I don't care about them. But I care about you. Whether it's a man or a woman is never something I care about." Shen Bei raised his eyes , looking deeply into Jiang Nan's eyes, and said: "I have had many girlfriends, but I only have one person I like. Jiang Nan, you are really my first love, but you came a little late."

Jiang Nan's indifferent pretense was about to crumble, and he tried his best to press his back against the bar behind the chair, holding back his emotions about to explode.

Shen Bei was holding the box in his hand, but now he didn't shake it anymore, holding it safely.

"I'm not a sissy, and I don't know how to spend the last month to engage in romance. You saw it today, and it was quite a failure."

He licked his dry lips, moved his throat, and said, "I can only tell you what I think about you from the beginning to the end. I'm not the kind of person who can express my feelings very well, That's why I've been working so hard to tell you all at once. Although it's hypocritical, I feel disgusted, but now I have to say it. It's not that I don't love you. So far, I only love you .”

He opened the box, and inside were two simple men's rings.

"From now on, I only want to love you alone."

Shen Bei looked at Jiang Nan and said very seriously.

"Uh……"

Jiang Nan swallowed, feeling a little helpless.

"Wait, I'll take a call."

He stood up suddenly and stepped aside.

Not knowing what was said there, Jiang Nan's expression gradually solidified and became deep.

After hanging up the phone, he turned his head, was silent for two seconds, and said, "I'm sorry...I have something to go out now."

After Jiang Nan finished speaking, she let out a shallow breath, put on her shoes and coat, and went out.

Not knowing what happened to make him have to walk away from the scene seemed serious.

But in Shen Bei's eyes, it was more like running away.

He closed the box and pursed his lips.The drooping eyelashes could not conceal the heavy loss, Shen Bei stood up, put the stool back to its original position, and put the guitar back into the dusty box.