light in the north

As if the person who was about to die was him.

"doctor!"

Shen Bei called the attending doctor who was standing outside together, and the doctor went directly to Tang Juan's side to check his physical condition, and Shen Bei approached Jiang Nan in three steps and two steps, without gloves, he just held it like this Tang Juan's herpes-covered hand was holding onto Jiang Nan's hand.

Probably because he hadn't been close to people for too long, and hadn't touched a warm body, Tang Juan unconsciously let go of Jiang Nan, and held Shen Bei's hand tightly.

Jiang Nan almost collapsed at this moment, he staggered and supported the edge of the bed, pinched the corner of Shen Bei's clothes, and leaned behind him as if prostrated.

"What's wrong."

Shen Bei asked him in a low voice.

Jiang Nan couldn't squeeze out a word, just bent over, put her head behind Shen Bei's left shoulder, and breathed extremely unsteadily, as if she was frightened to the extreme and unable to escape, she was already stunned. look.

The bipolar disorder he got doesn't seem to have such strange symptoms, it's just that the mood is either extremely high or depressed to the extreme, and the cycle goes on and on, which is almost never the case now.

But now Jiang Nan's spirit is obviously not normal. Before he first came here, he vomited inexplicably. I don't know if it was caused by too much pressure, or he actually had something more serious, whether it was caused by mental or physical illness. .

Shen Bei's other free hand stroked Jiang Nan's head that was leaning on his shoulder, and gently massaged him, asking, "What's uncomfortable?"

His fingers seem to have a special magical power, cool and soft, they are attached to Jiang Nan's scalp and slowly slid across, making a very small sound when passing through the black hair, which unexpectedly surprised Mei Nan The mood gradually calmed down.

He quietly leaned on Shen Bei's shoulder, obediently hoping that this action could last a little longer, a little longer.

Like a dog longing for its owner's petting.

And no one knew what Jiang Nan imagined in that short period of time. He was actually real at the time, and he was frightened.Tang Juan's hand seemed to be grasping the last straw, but Jiang Nan was helpless.

He could only look at Don Juan in pain, just like when he looked at his grandfather, the old man in his seventies and eighties crying because of the pain of cancer, he could only secretly hide and cry, just like watching his mother in the forty-degree summer It quickly rotted into a human form, but there was no way to save it.

That's it, panic, grief, and irresistible, unwilling helplessness.

Because the life back then was too tormenting, and the sudden throw of him directly into the original situation, he couldn't bear it.Jiang Nan is actually very afraid, very afraid that one day he will drown in that black hole in his heart, that disgusting and infinitely expanding imaginary world.

Jiang Nan wanted to take a deep breath to calm down, but his breathing was still trembling. He rubbed against Shen Bei's coat, his voice muffled in Shen Bei's coat: "It's okay."

Don Juan seemed to have fallen into a coma. His hands softened and he was stuffed under the quilt by the doctor. However, there was no problem on the ECG monitor, and the data was still similar to before, so I don’t know what the situation is now. , Do you need to be sent to the operating room immediately for emergency treatment?

The doctor looked very calm, he turned around and said to them; "Don't bother him all the time, the main thing is to rest now."

Shen Bei frowned and stopped the doctor who was about to leave: "What's the matter with him now, didn't he die in pain just now? I don't think you gave him any medicine. Is he unconscious now and doesn't need to be rescued?"

The doctor sighed; "Let me tell you the truth, at his current state, it is normal for him to be awake and sometimes unconscious, and he is often in a dazed state. How normal is the pain? There are malignant tumors everywhere. Doesn’t it hurt? He has sores on the back of his buttocks every day. It’s not that I don’t give him medicine, but those analgesics have a prescribed amount every day, and he has to suffer the pain the rest of the time, there’s no way.”

Shen Bei couldn't bear to look at the person waiting to die on the hospital bed, and murmured, "Is it just waiting to die like this?"

The doctor also had something to hide: "We did our best. Mr. Tan...has done his best too."

"Don't mention that bastard in front of me!" Shen Bei became angry when he heard it, "If it wasn't for him, would Tang Juan be like this now?!"

Tang Juan never told Shen Bei too much about the past events between him and Tan Yufan, maybe it was too deep in his heart, so he was cautious about those past events.But Shen Bei could still know a little bit from the few words he had with Tan Yufan before, at least he knew that the reason why Tang Juan became addicted to drugs seemed to be because after the Tang family betrayed Tan Yufan, Tan Yufan let him take these hallucinogenic drugs, after that Don Juan was exiled, and he seemed to casually take hallucinogenic drugs with people on the street, not to mention messing around, that's why he contracted AIDS.

So no matter what, the source is all because of Tan Yufan, and what's the use of his fake kindness now, it's just... useless.Although Shen Bei didn't like Tang Juan at first, because he carried the filth and filth of killing people without blinking an eye.But after getting along, you will find that he actually has a heart that really wants to live in peace.

He originally just wanted to be an ordinary bar owner, drinking and listening to music every day.

It's just that the family has restricted him too much, and Tan Yufan has restricted him too much, but he is just a poor man who can't help himself.

This poor man dedicated his soul to that Tan Yufan, but left all his property to Shen Bei, tolerated him, let him go, and even helped Shen Bei, secretly using this property to strengthen him and fight against Tan Yufan.

So Tang Juan is a real and very important person to Shen Bei.And now, he was leaving this world because of Tan Yufan.

After Shen Bei woke up from a vegetative state, he saw through all of this. He thought he was the worst existence, but only now did he realize that there is too much garbage in society.So there are two things that must be accomplished in his lifetime.One, to accomplish what he once thought of, let his rock band perform at the music festival nationwide.The second is to clear up the situation.

The second point may sound like a long way off, but he's almost halfway there.Everyone knows that Fengyun is now a three-legged confrontation, with Tan Yufan, Zhang Qiuwen and Shen's Group replacing the Tang family.

The emergence of this idea actually changed the trajectory of his future life to a large extent.The origin is because when Shen Bei was still in high school, he fantasized about galloping in the business world, but in the contact with Tang Juan and Tan Yufan, their behavior told Shen Bei how naive his world is.The real business world is a bloody, cannibalistic business world, a filthy society where people can kill people every minute for their own benefit without being put in jail.And Tan Yufan's ruthlessness is the most eye-catching existence in this society.

Shen Bei's worldview was greatly shocked, and it was at that time that he had the idea to change everything.

Jiang Nan's impulsiveness pushed Shen Bei to the brink of death.It was also because of this that Shen Bei learned a lot, and made him completely determined to fight Tan Yufan at all costs.

Such a dream requires many plans to be implemented before it can be realized, so Shen Bei told Ying Er to spread the news of his death after waking up, to dispel Tan Yufan's fear of him, and let Ying Er strengthen the consortium while recovering his body.Although he hated Jiang Nan at that time, but because Jiang Nan was the only breakthrough for Tan Yufan, he chose to contact his former childhood friend Qin Wenyue, and found someone like Francis to approach Jiang Nan, and asked him to send the phone with the earphone installed. Give him his mobile phone, so that he can know some of Tan Yufan's secrets, and by the way, Francis can ruin Jiang Nan's smooth life in the Northland.

Except for Jiang Nan's accident, Shen Bei's other plans were progressing steadily.And now seeing Tang Juan like this, he became more determined, his determination to wipe out Tan Yufan.

"There is no right or wrong, if you don't love, you don't love."

Suddenly a faint sigh came from behind, Shen Bei turned around, and saw Jiang Nan who barely stood up straight but still kept her head down.

He slowly raised his eyelids to meet Shen Bei's angry eyes.

"It's all my fault."

Shen Bei frowned: "What do you mean?"

Jiang Nan's cold expression looked very indifferent, and he replied: "He is the one who is cheap, thinking that he can numb himself and soften his heart by messing around with others and taking drugs. But if you don't love, you don't love. You can't force it. , that is to say, both sides will suffer.”

Jiang Nan raised his eyelids and glanced at the hospital bed, then lowered his voice, "It's just that he was unlucky, and he only hurt himself in the end."

He lowered his expression and turned around, and said softly, "Let's go."