light in the north

Shen Bei looked at Jiang Nan who was running away, and was in a trance for a moment.

Suddenly, he felt that no matter what, he was not happy.

Even if he cut his throat, watching him panic under his control, no matter how he was hurt, Shen Bei would not feel happy.

On the contrary, it is even heavier.

He wanted to wash the blood off the knife, but when he came to his senses, the water had been running for a long time.

But the knife was still stained with blood, and hadn't been sent over to be showered.

He didn't know why he was unhappy.

Jiang Nan didn't know what he was going to do to him.In fact, Shen Bei is also confused now.

He himself didn't know what to do with this man.

kill him?It seems that I can't do it.

It's not because I like him that I can't do it, but because my bottom line is there, I don't want to see a life die, even if that soul is dirty and despicable.

play him?seems fun.

But does he want to have sex with him? Really want to have sex with him? Shen Bei can't tell clearly, whether he will vomit in disgust.

The first two times, when Shen Bei pressed Jiang Nan under him, it seemed to let him know exactly what it was like to be raped.

The humiliation, the pain, and the fear of having a bowel movement for days on end.

Even if you go out to meet people, you can't stay in the crowd for too long.

I thought I was afraid, an inexplicable panic.

Feeling ugly, feeling dirty, feeling why I can't be a normal person anymore, sleeping with women, having sex.

Every time he thinks of this, he cannot avoid feeling that pain.

Make him faint.

And he remembered the moment when Jiang Nan really hit his head against the wall, and he even had a thought, relief.

But he still woke up, alone, a crippled self, to face the society in pain.

However, he seems to have been discarded anyway.

He wanted to stand up, but couldn't.When someone wanted to enter the men's room, they all looked at him with surprise and curiosity.

"Look at what you want!"

Shen Bei stumbled into the previous toilet and closed the door.Keep everyone out.

Shame, and fear, gradually filled the overflowing pool.

He took out his cell phone and called Eiji.

"Come and pick me up."

Ying Er: "Is there a lot of people in Zhou Yin? Is there a disease? Do you want me to bring the medicine?"

Shen Bei panted heavily: "I'm in the conference room on the [-]th floor of Xinshang."

Only then did he relax.

More than half an hour passed.He couldn't breathe for a long time.

When Eiji found him, his clothes were already wet with cold sweat.

A man who was fearless in the past, now shrank by the toilet, his eyes closed and he looked extremely weak.

"Why did you come here."

Ying Er walked in with a complicated expression, bent down to help him, but just as his hand touched his clothes, Shen Bei pushed him away emotionally.

"Do not touch me!"

Ying Er knew that his current condition was very bad. Shen Bei, who was awake in a vegetative state, had been recuperating for a long time, but his brain was still left with permanent trauma. Because of the nerve damage, his left hand is now difficult to be controlled by the brain, and he also suffers from Severe PTSD, also known as post-traumatic stress disorder.

Once this disease occurs, it is easy to get out of control.Ying Er met several times, and after Shen Bei was diagnosed, he didn't dare to go back at night and kept guarding Shen Bei.

During that time, Shen Bei kept having nightmares and dreaming about those scenes in the middle of the night, and then broke and screamed crazily.Even Eiji felt uncomfortable watching it.

But now it's much better after a series of controls.I don't know why, but suddenly it happened again.

"It's okay, I brought medicine."

He took all the medicines he usually took, then went to ask someone for tea and indirect hot water, and went back to the toilet.

"I've already said that it's not suitable for you to come out alone now, and you still insist on coming to Xinshang, the driver below has been waiting for you and you still don't go down."

Shen Bei took the medicine and got a little better.But I still don't want to get out of this confined space.

Because he is extremely afraid of crowds when he gets sick, so Ying Er can only accompany Shen Bei in the toilet to gradually pass the panic.

"What happened to you guys?"

Seeing that he was in good condition, Eiji glanced at the little blood on his body, and asked casually.

Shen Bei frowned, slowly got up from the ground, put down the toilet seat and sat down, scratching his hair decadently.

"I almost killed him just now."

Mei Er was taken aback: "What do you mean?"

Shen Bei: "At that time, I wanted him to die, but I changed my mind when the knife was cut. So he was only slightly injured."

Ying Er's face was tangled into a ball, feeling very incomprehensible: "What are you talking about? What are you thinking and what are you doing to Jiang Nan! If you want to die, kill him, if you want to play with hands, play with him. You play until What does it mean to kill him halfway again?"

Shen Bei snorted mockingly: "When I look at him like that, my mind goes crazy. Do you think I am willing?"

Eiji's expression became more and more wrong.

Shen Bei: "Why?"

Eiji adjusted, pretending to be indifferent: "It's okay."

Shen Bei clicked his tongue and kicked over: "If you fart, let it go!"

"Just let it go, why are you so rude!" Eiji said impatiently, stepping aside, patting his clothes.

Shen Bei raised his eyebrows: "Ha, your wings are stiff, aren't you?"

"Honestly." Eiji became serious at this moment, "Do you like Jiang Nan?

Shen Bei's face immediately darkened, his eyes looked like he was about to kill someone, his brows were furrowed together more tightly, and he was in a bad mood when he saw it.

Ying Er suddenly felt that he had stepped into a minefield, but he felt that this matter was really important, because it was related to the use of this pawn in the later confrontation with Tan Yufan.

"Is your brain squeezed by the door!"

Shen Bei pulled one corner of his mouth stiffly; "Do you want me to try to imprison you and fuck you half to death, and finally destroy your dream and left hand?"

It's easy to say, but in fact, if one of these things is taken out, it will make a man collapse.

But Shen Bei didn't collapse. He got up step by step. At that time, he was almost paralyzed. He was doing physical training crazily, and he recovered in such a short period of time. To a large extent, this kind of medical miracle was really because of him. In my heart, that deep fire of revenge.

So Eiji shouldn't doubt him at this time.

Yinger understands this truth, but since Shen Bei met Jiang Nan, judging from all the circumstances, he doesn't seem to hate him that much.

So Eiji was puzzled.

Perhaps, Shen Bei actually liked him.

It's just that he didn't know it himself, or he didn't want to admit it, or after Jiang Nan did those things to him, it made it difficult for him to find his own heart.

Eiji didn't know, so he asked.

But Shen Bei looked very determined.

Although he basically didn't answer Eiji's question directly.

This made a theory more and more possible at this time, that is Shen Bei, he himself was as confused as others.

"Wait." Eiji suddenly thought of something, "You almost killed him?"

Shen Bei raised his eyebrows irritably: "Didn't I just say that? Your ears are stuffed with earwax, aren't you?"

Eiji was a little angry: "Then he must know that you don't have amnesia!"

Shen Bei's face froze instantly.

He didn't think too much when he got off the car, he just wanted to force him to admit that he was Jiang Nan.But in this way, a smarter person would know that he was indeed exposed.

And Jiang Nan is not just a smarter person.

"But that's okay."

Eiji seemed to think of something, and his expression suddenly became very confident.

Shen Bei looked at him suspiciously: "What?"

Eiji: "Anyway. He likes you, so he lost at the beginning."

Shen Bei was a little confused: "But if he tells Tan Yufan, I'm worried that if he thinks further, he will find out about the problem with the phone.

Ying Er shook his head: "Impossible, as long as he never shows up, it is impossible for Tan Yufan to think so far in his life.

Shen Bei let out a long sigh.

"Why do you want to die? Is it better? Let's go." Eiji said, "Whether Xin Shang's contract is signed or not is only a matter of time, and you probably have convinced the board of directors. We have to go back quickly to solve Tan Yufan's matter." He found out about the real estate business last time, and he was about to pour dung water on us."

Shen Bei was pulled up by Ying Er, and walked out of the toilet with difficulty.

"That's what we've done very cleanly, so there shouldn't be anything we can sue."

"It's not that easy, did you become Tan Yufan, the boss of the business world, for nothing?"

"Why.'

Shen Bei grabbed Ying Er's clothes and was dragged by him, trying to avoid the crowd as much as possible, and left Xin Shang.