light in the north

The words were ugly, and every sentence cut Jiang Nan's heart like a knife.

But Jiang Nan stood where she was, without speaking or making a move, but her expression changed from shock to indifference, and she quietly looked at the back that was gradually leaving in front of her with her hands down.

Since he was a child, he has been a person who will not reveal his emotions. He has hidden many thoughts in his heart and never mentioned them to anyone. Similarly, he has never opened his heart to anyone.

And finally, when he was still alive, he finally couldn't control his enthusiasm for being willing to give to a person, but he found that all the efforts, what he thought were pleasing each other, were just a self-righteous joke.

The actions of the previous few days were obviously a manifestation of emotion. It was Shen Bei who pressed Jiang Nan under his body and invaded fiercely like a wild beast.But now, there is no excess, no gap for people to breathe, this man named Shen Bei, so unpredictable and so cruel, pulled Jiang Nan back from the lingering entanglement to the cold reality.

How could he understand, how could?

Although he had known for a long time that Shen Bei was a man who had slept countless times and had sex with many women. Although he was not yet 18 years old, it was obvious that he was not a little experienced.Jiang Nan always thought that Shen Bei was just a little playful, but now it seems that feelings are impossible for him.

Jiang Nan gradually discovered his inner heart when he was a child, accepted that he was a deformed person, and later convinced himself to fall in love with a man, convinced himself to be greedy for the taste of men, he has struggled too much and endured too much along the way.

Because on the one hand, he is afraid of his perverted place, and yearns for the road to return to normal people, which is why he has been disguising himself in real life, whether it is from the clothes, the details of politeness, or the smile, Seriously trying to pull myself on the right track.But on the other hand, as he grew older, the dark side gradually collapsed deeper and deeper.From a very young age, I enjoyed pinching the furry bugs in my hands, kneading them to death a little bit, and squeezed out all the visceral liquid, and later enjoyed the sound when a knife was inserted into the flesh, and finally the pleasure of killing people and headshot .

Jiang Nan was not reconciled.

Such unwillingness caused his already sick heart to swell rapidly.

Because Shen Bei's inconsistent behavior now seems to be the most blatant deception.He fell in love with someone for the first time since his mother died, and what he got in return for waiting and testing tremblingly, was the same ending and betrayal as his dead mother, who didn't get a response?

Resentment, embarrassment, wronged, love, hate.

These emotions, mixed together, finally turned into something called indifference.

Jiang Nan deeply knew that one day, this kind of indifference with the deepest passion would completely control Jiang Nan and drag him into hell.

But now, he can no longer use reason to suppress his desires as usual.

If you can't get a man's sincerity by waiting, then you can only grab it desperately.

If Shen Bei doesn't fall in love with Jiang Nan, then he can only hate him.

Now Jiang Nan felt that all she could do was make him hate herself.

No matter what, he got Shen Bei.