Pride and tenderness

Chapter 35

When I finally lay down on the bed, it was already late at night.

Gu Ran hugged He Yue face to face, and rubbed his cheek against the top of his head.

Probably because the orgasm had just passed and the lingering rhyme was still there, the boy leaned softly in his arms and let him hold him. It took a long time before he moved, and asked in a low voice, "Aren't you going back to your room?"

"I want to sleep with you."

He Yue said in a negotiating tone, "You'd better go back to sleep..." Then, seeing the fierce eyes of the other party, she had to change her words weakly, "Oh, you can stay here if you want... .”

Gu Ran wrapped He Yue in his arms like he was holding his own belongings, put his long legs on him, closed his eyes and let out a sigh, "I'm so sleepy, go to sleep."

He Yue was silent for a while, then suddenly said, "Gu Ran?"

Gu Ran replied in a daze, "Huh?"

"Tomorrow, I will look for a job, and when I find a job, I will move out."

Gu Ran lost most of his drowsiness, and said dissatisfiedly, "Why bring this up again? Didn't I tell you that you will live with me from now on? What are you going to move? You are not allowed to move!"

"This won't work..." He Yue said slowly, with a somewhat cautious tone, "You have terminated the contract with the company, and you don't need an assistant anymore. What is it if I live in your house for nothing?"

"You can continue to be my assistant, just help me cook and clean the room to pay the rent."

He Yue bit her lower lip and said in a low voice, "If we did that kind of thing, we're obviously not assistants."

Gu Ran teased him like a rascal, "What are you doing? Having sex? Don't you enjoy it too?"

He Yue sighed, "It's really not possible."

Gu Ran frowned, "I've said it all, I can afford you, I'm willing to let you eat my food and drink mine, I have no objection, what are you worrying about?"

"I really don't need you like this..."

"If you don't want to be an assistant, you can find a job, but you are absolutely not allowed to move away." Gu Ran thought for a while and said, "And what I told you before, about helping you find a school, if you If you still want to read it, I can do it for you."

"But......"

Without waiting for He Yue to finish, Gu Ran interrupted, "If I ask you, you should stop looking for a job. How much money can you earn by doing those crappy jobs? I don't think it's necessary at all. Just let me support you obediently." Well, I'm so good and capable, so I don't have enough food for you."

"I do not need."

"Ok?"

He Yue looked at him with the only eye she had left, "I don't need yours."

He knew that Gu Ran was kind to him, and he also understood that those feelings and sincerity were not fake.

He admires Gu Ran's excellence, but he also knows that Gu Ran's excellence belongs only to Gu Ran, and has nothing to do with his life.

He can't rely on Gu Ran's ability to live, and he can't rely on things that don't belong to him for no reason. The only one who can be responsible for his life is himself.

What's more, facing Gu Ran's sincerity, he didn't know how to respond with sincerity.

"..."

Gu Ran was stunned for a moment, He Yue's serious and calm expression made him flustered for a moment, in order to cover up the fluster, he pretended to be relaxed and teased, "Hey, are you 'pushing ruthless'?"

Talking and teasing, he wanted to grab He Yue's weakened lower body, but the other party avoided him with a cold face.

He Yue looked at him, "Stop doing this."

Gu Ran was quiet for a while, then asked, "Why?"

He Yue seemed to think for a long time before she lowered her eyes and said, "I...I have nothing to repay you, I can't do it. It's...unfair to you."

"I don't need anything in return from you. I don't lack anything. What else do I need from you?" Gu Ran was a little anxious, his forehead was sweating, and he even spoke indiscriminately, "Besides, when you did it just now, didn't you Don't you feel it? Didn't you respond to me too? You are used to it now, aren't you? You will gradually like me..."

"Gu Ran." He Yue interrupted him, "I can't help it...I'm sorry."

Then she turned over, turned her back to him and closed her eyes.

It took a long time for Gu Ran to say, "Oh."

After lying down for a while, he gradually felt dry and hot, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.

Only then did he feel that he might have thought something wrong, maybe from the very beginning, he didn't regard He Yue as an equal existence like himself.At first, the boy was an inferior person who could be beaten or scolded in his heart, but later he became a delicious and difficult prey. Now he wants to turn the boy into his own, and wants to keep the boy by his side, like a captive. Like a cat.

God gave him all the luck and pride, so that he could live arrogantly, arrogantly, and aloofly all his life, never needing to care about other people's likes and sorrows.

He clearly knew that the young man didn't have any too sharp feelings, and he didn't have any power to ignite at the slightest. He was always gentle, soft, kind, never refused, and never held grudges.So he despicably took advantage of the boy's kindness, selfishly thinking that he could do whatever he wanted as long as he liked it.

He is used to stepping on other people's feelings under his feet, and even almost forgot that He Yue should have her own life.

The curtains of the bedroom were not drawn, and the moonlight was pouring in from the window, casting on them, so that he could dimly see the boy's soft black hair and slender back, and the outline seemed erratic and distant under the pale moonlight.

He put his arms around the boy's waist and rubbed his nose against the pale neck, "But I can't bear to let go."

His answer was light and steady breathing.