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"Okay... I'll get off from here..." Ye Ran pulled himself together and told the driver.At this time, it was the rush hour in N City, and the main road was blocked, so it took a long time to climb one or two meters forward, and the wait was anxious.In such a bad road condition, from time to time, someone with a drag racing skill forcibly snatched the road, and the driver was so angry that he cursed and honked the horn several times.

Ye Ran's vision was a bit blurred, the yellow street lamps, the red shop signs, and the silvery white building LEDs were shining brightly, like a pile of paint squeezed into a palette, chaotic and depressing.

The people on the way home got impatient and honked their horns one after another.The driver scolded his mother again.Ye Ran's drowsy mind seemed to be cut open bit by bit by a sharp knife, which was extremely painful.His stomach began to cramp, his chest felt uncomfortably tight, and he felt nauseous.He wanted to scream, to grab something and throw it at these people, to silence the world.

Ye Ran pinched his left arm fiercely until he took off a small piece of flesh, only then did he feel that a new piece of flesh had grown in his empty heart, pulling back the three souls and seven souls that he refused to obey and wanted to break free from the shackles.

Ye Ran handed the driver three ten-yuan bills, and pushed the door twice before opening the door. When he got out of the car, his knees were weak. If he hadn't held on to the telephone pole in time, he would have almost fallen into the green belt.He straightened up trembling, with his back pressed against the telephone pole, and he managed to raise his right hand to wipe the cold sweat from his forehead——in N City, which was ridiculed as one of the four major furnaces in the country, the evening wind in May was no longer cool up.

Ye Ran scratched the wound on Cai Cai's left arm again, the pain made him tremble, and he was instantly sober.He greedily enjoyed this moment of sobriety, and tried hard to restrain his desire to tear open the wound again.Relying on this weak consciousness, Ye Ran dragged his tired body, step by step into the deeper night.

The scattered residential buildings in front of me are like giant beasts, squatting quietly in the dark night, and the dots of fluorescent yellow street lamps are the faint pupils of the giant beasts, which flicker and raise their breath, staring at the prey at the door.This road is very familiar to Ye Ran.In the past three years, at countless dawns, he and that person were running and panting against the light of the sky.When the sun sets and the dusk falls, they come back from school, lie on the wooden round table, discuss a certain question in the examination paper that is controversial, plan the arrangement of a long vacation, flocks of birds fly across the radiant sky, just like all 17-year-olds so-so.

Now, the end of the alley is a gnawing secret that cannot be touched, and it is all the sadness in his chest that sustains him to confirm it.

Then, Ye Ran wiped the cold sweat from his forehead.

He didn't dare to think about "then".

Ye Ran supported the handrail of the stairs and climbed up to the third floor step by step. Spring Festival couplets were pasted outside the anti-theft door of 301, and they were written by the man begging Ye Ran to write them.The sound-activated lights in the corridor are dim and dim, which makes the door couplet quite old, as if it has gone through a long time.

Before he stepped forward to press the doorbell, the door was slowly opened from the inside, and a thin figure stood in the shadow of the entrance, looking down at Ye Ran, who was hunched over and almost lying on the handrail of the stairs.The light was dim, and the man's face was dim.

Ye Ran straightened his back, licked his chapped and peeled lips, forced the corners of his mouth to smile, and said, "Zhou Si, it's really not easy to see you now."

The man was still silent, ignoring Ye Ran's ridicule, he just stretched out his left hand and grabbed Ye Ran's arm violently, pulling him towards him.Ye Ran was already extremely weak, he staggered, almost threw himself into the arms of the man, and was hugged and pressed to his chest by the man.

"What are you doing?" Ye Ran laughed, struggling to get rid of the restraint.Zhou Si didn't want Zhou Si to press even tighter, and Ye Ran's nasal cavity poured into the familiar smell that belonged to the other party, which reminded him of some unforgettable nights, these gentle and long-lasting breaths would linger at the tip of Ye Ran's nose, waiting for him to take it with him. After falling into a deep sleep with exhaustion and soreness, he was filled with wonderful or treacherous dreams.

"I've been in city B."

"I--"

"It doesn't matter." Ye Ran said softly, his eyes were indelibly black and frighteningly dark, "You know me, I always understand your difficulties."

Zhou Si was a little panicked: "Ah Ran, I—" The arms around Ye Ran became even tighter, making him almost out of breath.

"I'm very tired." Ye Ran couldn't break free, so he had to sigh, "After my father jumped off the building, I haven't closed my eyes very much. When I close my eyes, my mind is full of... all of him. Looks like blood."

But Zhou Si buried her head into Ye Ran's neck and rubbed against Ye Ran. The tall man of more than 1.8 meters, hunched over, was a bit pitiful.The two of them couldn't tell who was snuggling up to whom.

Ye Ran rubbed the messy hair on the top of Zhou Si's head: "Go to your room and talk, it's not a good idea to stay here."

Zhou Si just let go of Ye Ran slowly, turned around, but still held his hand tightly, afraid that Ye Ran would disappear out of thin air if he was not careful.

Zhou Si was so flustered that he didn't care about controlling his strength, Ye Ran's hand was painfully gripped by him, he didn't say anything after thinking about it, but a sense of powerlessness flooded his heart like a tide.

Zhou Si's bedroom was not as crammed as it was in memory, only three or four English novels and a few physics competition guides were sparsely stacked on the bookshelves.Ye Ran pretended to casually swipe his index finger across the small desk by the window sill, and saw the dusty fingertips as expected.He twirled his fingertips and asked Zhou Si, "Where is Aunt Song?"

Zhou Si said: "She went back to Shanghai to visit relatives." Seeing that Ye Ran looked very tired, he put his hand on Ye Ran's forehead.

"Do you have a fever?" Zhou Si frowned.

"No, it probably came here just now, it's a bit hot." Ye Ran denied it firmly, "I heard some different opinions about my father's death."

"They said that he was pushed down." Ye Ran looked at Zhou Si's expression, "He was pushed down from the 33rd floor and his brains bleed all over the floor."

"What do you think, Zhou Si," Ye Ran said with a calm face, "You know that my father's business these years has not been so clean..."

"For the sake of our acquaintance for almost ten years."

"It's also because I was fucked by you for nothing for a year."

Ye Ran's words were naked and cruel, and Zhou Si looked at him like a candle wick that was blown out in one breath, and it dimmed heavily.He suddenly laughed, but the laughter bursting out of his chest was extremely desolate.He looked up at the hanging lamp hanging from the ceiling, and said, "What do you want to confirm, Ah Ran. If you ask me if it's Zhou Huaizhu, I will of course tell you that he didn't do it."

Zhou Si turned his face to look at the night outside the window, his expression was difficult to distinguish: "It's not a day or two since our father and I have worked together to do big things. My father is not clean, and your father is not innocent. This time when things happen to the east window, someone will always ask Come out to top the bag, my dad... he can't do anything..."

But Ye Ran raised his hand and mercilessly slapped Zhou Si on the right cheek.

"Zhou Huaizhu is really a good son. You and I know why Zhou Huaizhu killed my father when he was about to be promoted. In front of me, how can you speak for your murderer father? Zhou Si. "

Ye Ran's slap caught Zhou Si off guard, and he bumped his head into the bedside table, and the small bear boy sitting on it was knocked to the ground, with his feet up in the air.Ye Ran recognized it. Before Zhou Si left Yejiacun, he bought it for him, saying that it was an early birthday—actually, it was not a birthday. Zhou Si’s birthday was in February of the next year, but he didn’t take the final exam of the autumn semester. I transferred to N City in a hurry, but I just wanted to keep it in mind.

But in small villages, the supermarkets are selling real and fake products. If you are unlucky, there will be no seasoning packets when you buy instant noodles. Where can you find genuine teddy bears?Ye Ran had no choice but to take advantage of the weekend and run to the town, but he still couldn't find it.The next day, before dawn, he caught the boat at the ferry and went to the county town on the other side of the river. It was not until dusk that he found the bear cub at the Kuaishou market.Xiong Zai's left foot was not stuffed with enough cotton, it was a lame disabled bear, and others looked down on it, so Ye Ran who came all the way picked it up.At that time, Zhou Si took the bear boy from Ye Ran, held it in his hand, looked left and right, touched the bear's lame feet, and was very satisfied, so he named it "Lucky".Because the bear that Ye Ran takes a fancy to is a very lucky bear.

This very lucky bear is now on its back, watching everything in the room that is about to get out of control.

Ye Ran's hands were strong, and his slap made Zhou Si's face burn with pain.Zhou Si has lived for eighteen years, and has always been coaxed, flattered and flattered by others in different ways. When has she ever received such treatment, let alone a slap in the face, she has never received it.It's all right if Mr. Zhou doesn't show embarrassment to others. Who doesn't wink and dares to show Mr. Zhou's face.

That is Ye Ran, Zhou Si thought sadly, since he was a child, he liked to pretend to be stupid, no matter how he threatened and lured him, Ye Ran could not understand it at all.When you are in a good mood, just coax yourself.At that time, the two agreed to let go of their knots, but Ye Ran's heart was still a wilderness. Zhou Si, who vowed to conquer this land, opened up the territory and built his own kingdom.The wilderness here is quiet, there are no enemies, and there is no end to the vastness. The crown on the king's head and the scepter in his hand look lonely in the wilderness.

Zhou Sisheng suffered from this slap, but a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "It's good that you are angry."

"As a child, I was afraid that you would be silent. You are a good person in every way, except that you hide your thoughts deeply, like a wooden Buddha."

"Sometimes I really want to tie you up and lock you up at home. In this way, I don't have to guess what you are thinking about."

"Except for you, I have never served anyone in my life. In the past, I licked my face and walked around you like a grandson. When I got a good thing, I held it in front of you before you warmed it up. When you smiled, I... ..I'm fucking possessed."

"Ah Ran, do I like to be cheap sometimes? I'm really happy when you scold me."

There was neither sadness nor joy on his face: "He is going to be promoted. A few days ago, the higher authorities sent someone here. Everything under his care is very good, and there is nothing wrong with it. Ah Ran, you are a high school student and you have no one to rely on. ,useless."

For a long time, the uneasy guess in my heart has become true in just a few minutes.Ye Ran felt dizzy and dizzy, and fell down on Zhou Si's bed, coughing until his body bowed like a shrimp, as if his lungs were about to be coughed out, and a fishy sweetness filled his mouth.

"Yesterday I knelt outside your villa all night." Ye Ran lowered his head, "It rained suddenly in the middle of the night, probably God couldn't take a look at me, this unworthy person."

The rain was pouring, splashing on him, he raised his head, his eyes were so wet that he couldn't keep his eyes open.He wondered in a daze, if he ruined himself like this, would his father come and beat him up, and then punish him to squat against the wall for half an hour like he did when he was a child.But, he didn't even have the chance to be scolded and punished.Like every night after his father left, he was so exhausted and hopeless, but all he could do was kneel on the asphalt path outside Zhou's villa, watching the dawn break in the east and the night come to an end.

"I know your father is at home, and I want to hear him tell me that my father couldn't think about it, left me and my mother, and jumped from the 33rd floor."

The Zhou family's villa is in a newly developed scenic spot in N City. It is a single family, and there are no public transport, and there are few pedestrians.Zhou Si could almost imagine how Ye Ran knelt there upright, and the wind and rain were like a curtain between the sky and the earth.Zhou Si's chest felt sore, overflowing with deep distress and sadness.

He approached Ye Ran, carefully sat beside him, and gently encircled Ye Ran, as if protecting a fragile beloved.Ye Ran didn't make a gesture of resistance, Zhou Si saw this and said: "Ah Ran, I... I wasn't there yesterday. Otherwise, I must... must... "He found in despair that he couldn't open his mouth to make any promises to Ye Ran.

"Your father is gone. My father... He did something wrong. He said he would treat you and your mother well, and he would ensure that you will have no worries about food and clothing for the rest of your life."

Ye Ran's almond eyes were empty and pitch black, his soul seemed to be taken away, his head leaned against the wall, his swan-like porcelain-white neck was so graceful and thin, and the blue blood vessels under the thin skin were clearly visible.

With such a shockingly fragile beauty, Zhou Si couldn't help but snuggled up, leaned close to Ye Ran's slender neck, sucked and caressed Ye Ran's slender neck: "And... you still have me, I... I And it will treat you better than before."

Zhou Si noticed that Ye Ran's body temperature was different from the past, but this slightly high temperature tempted him to post more closely: "We are going to apply for universities in the United States, so let's go to California, we went there together. Little uncle Teaching at UCB, I asked him to write a letter of recommendation for you, grandma is there too, she likes you, let's get out of here, okay..."

Zhou Si's lips and teeth touched Ye Ran's clean jaw, and he stuck out his tongue to lick his cool chin.Seeing that Ye Ran was still calm and indifferent, Zhou Si gently pinched Ye Ran's chin, making him look at him.

He faintly felt that there was something that he could no longer hold on to, breaking away from his grasp bit by bit, and fled to a place that he couldn't see and couldn't touch.

"We have known each other since we were ten years old. We have been together for so many years. I like you so much, Ah Ran."

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