Bear Diary

Sunday, March 2009, 11

In fact, I didn't want to go back to my mother's house at the time, because she would definitely chase me and ask me what was going on when she saw my appearance.But when I came out, I left my bag in the house, and I didn’t have any money on me. It was almost ten o’clock in the evening when I walked there.

The first thing I said when I saw my mother was, I'm so cold...

That night, my grandmother cooked a big bowl of egg noodles for me, and then stood by my side to watch me gobble it up.And when my mother wanted to question me, she saw that I didn't want to say anything, so my grandma blocked it for me.Before going to bed, my grandma came to my bed and chatted with me for a long time. She first asked about the work situation, then Xiaotao, and finally MM Yang.The old man may know that I am doing this because of feelings, but all she can think of is Yang MM.I answered very carefully, because I think my mother seems to like MM Yang very much.So when I said I broke up with her, I was prepared to be scolded by my mother.But grandma was only silent for a few seconds, and then said that young people should look at it more, only if it suits them, boys are not in a hurry.I asked her strangely, didn't my mother like Yang MM very much?Grandma just smiled and said, the important thing is that I like it.

I haven't slept in my mother's bed for a long time, and without accident, I have insomnia again.I can't help but think back to the past few months since I met Serena, which makes me feel like a mess.With Serena, he brought me a lot of happiness, but also brought me a lot of pain.Maybe the pain is self-inflicted, if I let go of things like self-esteem, can I still be happy with him now?Maybe at least until he says gameover...

When I got home on Monday, there was no one in the house.I thought Serena had gone to work, but after thinking about it, I felt wrong, so I went to his room to check, and the big bear on the bed was gone. I left the half bottle of XO and put it on the bedside table. A note with only three words "Sorry" on it.Opening the closet again, he found that his clothes had disappeared.Serena left, leaving only some furniture that could not be moved.

I went back to my room in a daze, and found that the clothes I lent to Serena were neatly placed on the bed, and he never returned my clothes.I really don’t know how to describe my mood, say I’m at a loss, I don’t seem to have that panic, say I regret it, and I don’t have the urge to redeem, in the end I only think of two words, helpless...

When Xiaotao came back, he asked me strangely why I was drinking alone, and I realized that the half bottle of XO was almost empty before I knew it.I raised the corner of my mouth and said, this wine is very expensive, don't waste it.Xiao Tao grabbed the bottle and asked me if I was okay.I said nothing, just a little tired.Xiaotao asked me to take a break, and he went to get me something to eat.I said no, I'm not hungry.

Covered in the quilt, the head hurt like it was about to split, but he didn't feel sleepy at all, so he just got up.Xiao Tao had already cooked two bowls of noodles, but he couldn't resist him, so he had to eat them.The noodles he cooked were as delicious as grandma's last night, and I did feel a little better after eating them.Then Xiaotao went to do his homework, and I remembered that there were still downloaded movies in the computer that I hadn't watched.

"Dining Out" was recommended by Serena Williams, who said it was very good, so I downloaded the latest one to watch with him when I had time.I remember when I asked him what kind of movie this was, he smiled badly and said it was a movie about a lot of handsome guys, I said it must be GV, right?He cut it and said that I was full of evil thoughts.

Today is Sunday again, and it has been so long without knowing it, it seems that the days are not as difficult as imagined.

Hu Ling called me the next day to ask me about the gambling. I said it was nothing. From her tone, she probably didn't know that Serena had moved away.I wonder why Xiaotao didn't ask when he saw that Serena was gone. He said that when Serena left, he called and told him that something happened, so he couldn't live here anymore, but he didn't tell him where he went now. Just tell Xiaotao not to worry about him, he will take care of himself.Xiao Tao asked me what happened to Brother Serena?Can we help him?I don't know how to answer.

MM Yang has returned to being professional and capable. Although I still talk and laugh with everyone including me, I feel that I am a lot unfamiliar with her.The case of this business trip has entered the implementation stage, and the boss has given me all the specific powers, so now I am in a state of working overtime every day without holidays.Although it's good to be so busy, I still can't help but think wildly when I'm free.

Is this the story?I don't know, maybe time will tell...