Bear Diary

2010. 12, 20

When I got home, it was snowing in Chengdu, which was very suitable for me who was lonely. It was a bit like the ending of some romantic movies.It's a pity that no director came out to call cut, and then asked me to get a box lunch, telling me that all this is just a play.

I waited outside the door for a while before opening it, I didn't want anyone to see my depressed mood.But the scene after opening the door really made me unable to go down - Xiaotao was standing on the bench to give full play to his advantages of long hands and long feet, carrying a string of colored lights to hang high.Standing at his feet and supporting the bench was a beautiful girl, and the two of them were chatting and laughing.

The bright spot is that Xiaotao should call that girl's sister as soon as he looks at it.

Well, the Christmas party is a good way to catch up.

2010. 12, 22

On Christmas Eve, I received a long-lost greeting from An Xiaoguai, who was traveling in Turkey with his classmates.He cryptically told me that his classmate with witch powers had just used Turkish coffee fortune-telling to tell him many things.

I asked if you could do the math for me?I wonder if something will turn around.After asking, An Xiaoguai told me with regret that the coffee cup must be fresh, and it must be authentic Turkish coffee.He also said that otherwise I would go to Türkiye to find him.

Haha, I laughed and told him I was joking, but if he would take the Turkish bath with me, I would consider it.

He said: How come I didn't realize you were so bad before?

2010. 12, 26

Last night, the house was not a rowdy place that can be described. I found that I couldn't bear to be crazy with this group of children, so I slipped out halfway.

The dazzling lanterns and crowds of pedestrians on the street also have a festive atmosphere.Hehe, I can't stand the noise at home, but feel lonely when I come out, it's a bit of a low bone.

My mother kept urging me to go back, saying that my grandma wanted to see me, and complained that I didn't go to see them after coming back for so long, so I called and said that I would go back tomorrow.

I remembered that MM Yang said that if there is no accident, she will get married next year.When I called, she was in the world with the good boy, and MM Yang still asked me about the recent situation. I was embarrassed to interrupt, so I only said a few words lightly.

I received calls from several classmates who were at a party, and they collectively criticized me for running around all day, and I couldn't find anyone at the party.After exchanging pleasantries, Boss Yang went to the side with his mobile phone and explained to me about the donation to the deputy squad leader. He said that the money was almost collected, and the operation had already been scheduled for the next year, so I could rest assured.

Boss Yang has always been very safe in his work.

In the end, I called Xiao Jiang and chatted about the current situation. The unexpected news was that he and Xiao Yu were getting married, and a new house was also booked.Although there are many things to say, we are all adults and we are responsible for the decisions we make.So I just say I hope they can be happy.

I was sitting on the side of the street, and a pair of lovers passed by hugging each other in front of me. It reminded me that he should be in the same situation in the distance at this moment.Looks like it's snowing again...

2010. 12, 28

Going back to my mother's house is fine except for a little bit of nagging, and after I acted like a baby, they didn't pursue it anymore.It's just that my mother called me aside and asked me if I was having any trouble with my father.It sounds like Dad didn't say much.

But this is indeed a matter of time.Even if I'm alone again now, I won't compromise.I'm afraid this bad temper can't be changed in this life.

One more joyful thing when I go home is to see Zhuang Zhuang whom I haven’t seen for a long time.The little guy is too big for me to recognize, but it still remembers me. When I let it come over, it sniffed around my hand for a long time, and finally got into my arms with a meow.

Zhuang Zhuang, maybe you are the only one who understands my thoughts, miss my mother, right?I miss him too...

2010. 12, 29

Went to Dad's company today.

Although I feel that I am a little childish, but I really feel that if it weren't for him, Serena and I would not be where we are today.So I can't treat our relationship normally for the time being.

I told the truth about what my father interrogated me, and I also said my thoughts: even if I have nothing, I won’t want your company, so you can give it to whoever wants it.When I said this, I glanced at Xiaobai, but he avoided my gaze.

2010. 12, 30

The 101st call from the muscular man in the gym finally got through, saying that he wanted to invite me to dinner. Seeing his sincerity, I couldn't refuse.

I was dumbfounded the first time we met. The muscular man sat at the table and greeted me, and the person beside him who was looking at him affectionately was not his ex-girlfriend or new girlfriend, but an equally thick man.It took me about half a minute to remember that the man was the one that the muscular man often mentioned, and his ex-girlfriend always said that he was a better friend than me.Before Muscle Man broke up, I saw the two of them fighting at the gym.

I really didn't expect that the two of them would have such a relationship...

I jokingly asked the man how he bent the muscular man, and the two of them turned into two red tomatoes, and they stammered for a long time without saying anything.In the end, it can only be attributed to nature and that's it...

A woman's intuition is sometimes terrifyingly accurate.

The muscular man said he was able to get together with men, thanks to me.This flattered me, and then I guiltyly hid my ending.So the muscular man said, when he comes back from studying abroad, he will treat him to dinner again, and then the four of them will be together...

2010. 12, 31

Today is the last day of 2010. Every year on this day, I will write a diary as a year-end summary to see what I have done this year, what achievements and regrets I have.But this year, I don't know how to write.Simply stop writing, in 2011 I hope I can look forward to everything.

come on!Chen Haonan!

In a daze, I seemed to hear a knock on the door, so I got up and went to open the door...

"Brother, I'm back."

I froze at the door, watching this big boy looking at me with a sunny smile. "How do you..."

"I'm not getting married anymore, I want to be with you!" He threw away his full luggage and rushed over.

"But... your family... Nana... your grandpa and mother... the company... I..." The most serious incoherent in my life. "Could it be...you sneaked away again? This time you escaped marriage?!" This kid has a criminal record.

"Brother, calm down. I didn't sneak back here." Serena took out a letter from her jacket pocket in preparation. "Nana's letter to you, you will understand after reading it."

I should have known what Lina majored in earlier. If I had worked harder, maybe I could have become her colleague—psychology.In fact, she is far from being as superficial as I imagined (I'm a little sorry for using such a word).

damned!Who knew how she would have chosen a psychology topic between men.

Brother Chen:

In fact, when I first saw you, I knew that the relationship between you and Eric was unusual.Hehe, don't be nervous, Brother Chen is very manly, maybe it's just a girl's intuition.I grew up with Eric and I have never seen him like this for anyone.

I originally thought that I liked Eric the most. After feeling the relationship between you, I also worked hard.I think the 20-year relationship between me and Eric is not as good as the short time you have known each other?

So I, who was unwilling to admit defeat easily since I was a child, agreed to marry Eric willfully.But after getting along with you, especially the experience in Xiecheng, I understand that I am different from you in Eric's mind, and there is no comparison between two existences.In the past two days, I stayed up late to read your blog and found out that you love him as much as I do. Maybe the real love between you is the real love.It made me feel like I was being taught a lesson.

Your story makes me very entangled and envious, so I can't make the same mistakes and get engaged to Eric.Now I give him back to you, I will try my best to appease my family, Eric will be on your own.come on!

Lina

"You, you, you..." After reading Lina's letter, I was still too surprised to speak.

"I came back because of the child? Didn't Nana make it clear in the letter?" Serena reached out her hand to read the letter.

I grabbed his hand quickly and very hard, maybe it hurt him a little bit, I saw his brow wrinkled.My face must have been very serious at the time, which made him nervous when he was originally smiling: "Brother..."

"You two are kidding me?!" My emotions have nowhere to vent, a complex sense of surprise and anger is stirring.

"No!" He must have thought that I was really angry, and became anxious all of a sudden.

But I am undoubtedly very willing to be played like this.

I didn't want him to explain at all, so I pulled him in, closed the door, and pressed him against the door pretending to be fierce. "Gao Jiawei!"

"Yes... yes!" He was frightened by my yell, and agreed in a daze.

"I'm asking you seriously now, and you answer me honestly! Do you hear me?"

"Yeah." Serena nodded with a serious look.

"Are you really choosing to be with me? Are you really not going to give up? Even if it's for me, won't you say leave again?"

Serena looked into my eyes without hesitation and said firmly. "Yes, I really want to be with you, I won't give up again, even if it's for you, I won't say leave again. I love you..."

I held him with all my strength, and felt him responding to me with the same strength.We hugged each other like lunatics and giggled, but the tears couldn't help falling down...

On the first day of 2011, the alarm clock woke me up.I rubbed my sore eyes and wiped away the marks from the corners of my eyes.I laughed nervously, because although I had told myself countless times to wake up, I still indulged in this cycle of surprise and disappointment again without repentance.

Beside the bed is packed luggage, and I am leaving the city today.I closed the door, and at the same time closed the emotions I left here.I will go to a brand new city and start my otaku life from scratch.

As for the "Otaku Bear Diary", which records the story of Xiaonan and Serena, let it draw a meaningful ellipsis in this both true and imaginary... (End of the full text)

Postscript: Previously I left a definite happy ending at the end of Bear Day on my blog.After I settled down in the new city and adjusted my mentality, more than half a year has passed.Many readers are grateful for the success of the story, but I have always felt guilty that I lied to everyone.That's why today's "Otaku Bear Diary", reproduced in the form of a novel, came into being.

Because Xiao Nan is not a liberal arts student, it is really difficult to express his thoughts well with the meager pen and ink in his chest.So if this novel can resonate and touch even one ten-thousandth of you, the little man will feel very relieved, and feel that his painstaking efforts in the past few weeks have not been in vain.

I am very grateful to the friends who accompanied Xiaonan to reminisce about this unforgettable experience.

2012.4.21 night