Bear Diary

Friday, August 2010, 12

The next day the heavy snow still did not stop, besides the four of us, uncle also asked someone to take us to play.A group of five set off for the ski resort.There was no singing or laughing along the way. Needless to say, I had dark circles under my eyes. The only one who was more active was Lina, who drove the atmosphere of the audience.

In fact, Lina didn't look very happy when she went out in the morning, but she just got high again after a while on the road.I quietly asked her what happened in the morning, and she said aggrievedly that she didn't know what happened to Eric. When she went to call him in the morning, he was fine at first, but suddenly got angry for no reason.

I asked, "Did you say something?"

"Eric asked himself what he said to you last night, and I told him what we chatted. He got angry." Lina's little mouth pouted. "He's been acting weird these days."

On the way, while talking to Lina, Ben also cared about me from time to time, and I really wronged him. It almost seemed like he had a split personality. I felt that he was a very responsible person, and any girl who married him should be happy.Serena sat in the passenger seat, with her head facing out the window most of the time, and she didn't say anything other than asking Lina if she was hungry or thirsty.

When we got there, the snow had stopped and the sun was shining brightly.The ski resort is not very crowded, not as crowded as in China.I secretly looked at Serena when no one noticed, and I wanted to keep his every frown and smile in my mind.Even if he asked Lina if it was cold with concern, and handed her the hand warmer he had prepared earlier; even if Lina said that he wanted hot coffee, he immediately ran to buy it; even if Lina repeatedly said that he would Be careful, but he still has to follow closely, fearing that there will be a little accident...

Lina and a few people she didn't know were building a snowman over there, while Serena stood by and watched.After playing for a while, Ben ran over and asked me why I didn't go to play. I just shook my head and said that it would be good to watch them play.After a while, Lina ran over and called me again, saying that it was a rare occasion, she couldn't just sit in a daze, and then pulled me over without any explanation.So I stood aside like Serena and watched them play.

I didn't expect that this would make me and Serena alone almost alone, but it doesn't matter now.Serena lit a cigarette, took a deep breath, and exhaled a faint puff of smoke.I remember that in the summer, I forced Serena to quit smoking. At that time, I said that if I didn’t quit, I wouldn’t kiss him. It felt like licking an ashtray.He endured for 3 days, but he still couldn't hold on.But he thought of a solution, which is to carry mouthwash with him.I don't know if he and Lina will do the same.

I just looked at Serena's back with my thoughts flying wildly.He smoked quickly, dropped the butt after two puffs, and looked back at me suddenly.I quickly looked back, and he came over.

"Brother, are you alright?" Serena was wearing a pair of big snow goggles, so I couldn't see his expression.

"Yeah." I pretended not to look at him.After thinking about the news of his engagement, I regarded this trip as the last encounter with him.I'm angry, and I want him to experience how I don't care about him, and I want him to experience the feeling of seeing me treat others well, although I'm not sure if he will care.So before, as long as he was nice to Lina, I would also be nice to Ben.I know I'm ridiculously naive, and I'm sorry for Ben's confusion...

"Did Nana tell you last night that we were engaged for a long time?"

"Well, congratulations." My eyes still did not leave the front.

I felt that Serena was a little strange, he didn't answer, and I didn't look at him.I don't know when, the relationship between us has become like this, and my previous idealistic ideas have become fragile scum.I overestimated myself.

"Nana also said that you want to study in Manda?"

"I just said it casually, and now I have given up that idea."

"Really?" Serena lit another cigarette, he hadn't smoked so much before. "Then are you going back?"

"Yes, I will go back in these two days."

"Well, that's fine." I saw my face through his snow goggles, a little distorted. "We all have our own way to go. Brother, take care." After finishing speaking, he stubbed out his cigarette and walked towards Lina.

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"Eric pulled Lina back and said he couldn't catch a cold. He really looks like her father. Are you cold? Let's go back too? Huh? Brother Chen?"

Ben knocked on the door and told me that Serena didn't go to the restaurant. Lina took the food and went back to the room to eat. He and the guide sent by his uncle were the only two eating in the restaurant. Seeing that I didn't go, he came to see me.Seeing that I still didn't respond, Ben was silent for a while, and said that if I don't feel well, I won't go to play in the afternoon and go back to Manchester City.

I don't know how to be brave at this time, maybe I just don't want to show weakness in front of them, so I insist on going skiing in the afternoon.For the last time, let me be willful to the end.

I have never skied before, and Lina and Ben rented all the ski equipment. Lina volunteered to teach me, starting with snow walking.Serena and Ben went to the side to practice.

The three of them have a certain foundation, and after I can walk steadily, they took the cable car up the mountain together.Serena asked Lina to take me to play on the small slope next to it, which aroused Lina's strong dissatisfaction, saying that she was better at skating than him, so why could she only play on the small slope.But no matter how much she protested, Serena just wouldn't budge, she had no choice but to play elementary school with me with her lips pouting.

Serena said that he would stop playing and stay with Lina. I said it's okay, you guys can play, and I'll just stay with her.

After they went down like lightning, I gave Lina an evil smile: "Nobody cares now."

Standing on the edge of a slope with almost 75°, even if I am not afraid of heights, my heart beats a lot faster. Lina anxiously asked if I would have any problems.I said, aren't you very confident in your technology?Don't worry about me, I have so much meat, it doesn't hurt to fall.Hearing what I said, Lina put on the snow goggles, took a deep breath and said, let's go!

This is similar to the feeling of a roller coaster, very exciting, but much more difficult than a roller coaster. I have to master the balance by myself, so I tensed my muscles and did not dare to relax at all, trying to maintain an unpleasant speed. Lina swayed across the snow, cheering happily, and quickly left me far away.

Near the foot of the mountain, I saw Serena and Ben standing there, looking at us anxiously.At this moment, I somehow thought of a vulgar question, if Lina and I were in danger at the same time, who would Serena save first?

Just when I was reflecting on my mental retardation, Lina had already joined them. Serena supported Lina, and while helping her pat the snow off her body, he frowned and said something, probably blaming her for being disobedient.Is it the depth of love and the depth of responsibility?Ah!

The moment my tense legs relax, the whole world speeds up.The wind buzzing in my ears was laughing at my sadness.I saw Ben yelling, and then Lina and Serena, and even the people next to them started commotion.But I couldn't hear anything except the sound of the wind. Instead, I felt a sense of freedom from the shackles, as if I had grown wings.

My body jerked violently, and at the speed that my brain and body didn't have time to react, I actually had the illusion that I was really flying.My line of sight passed over the terrified crowd, and then there was a sudden shock, and the sky was full of snowflakes.When will it snow again?As I thought about it, I watched familiar faces fluttering in front of me, until the familiar face eagerly stayed in my sight.

Serena, how long has it been since you looked at me so seriously?