Bear Diary

Saturday, November 2010, 12

Recently, many friends who have read my stories have advised me to give up, saying that my love is too hard.A friend also sent me a sentence, let me think about whether I really love him, or just not reconciled to myself.To be honest, I don't know what the so-called love without hard work is like, and Serena is my first real love.And I can't answer that friend's words, because I don't have the answer myself.Maybe I'm a stupid person in this regard...

Ben said that this year may be the coldest year in Europe, the legendary millennium extreme cold, but my heart has been restless.I dare not call Serena often, for fear that he will be annoyed and that it will affect his class. Lina is different, she has a good temper, even if it is inconvenient to talk about something, she will tell me softly, so I call her when I have nothing to do.Occasionally, when she meets Serena by her side, she can still know a little bit about him.Taking advantage of these opportunities, I basically figured out their work and rest time, so I carefully proposed an invitation, saying that I would like to invite them to dinner and let them take me to play along the way.In the end, Lina readily agreed, but Serena hesitated.

When Lina came with a helpless Serena, I was discussing with Ben how to let Serena and I have a chance to be alone.After exchanging a few pleasantries, the four of us went out together.It's just that except maybe Lina, none of us put our minds on shopping.

There is a big shopping mall in Manchester. Although the streets are not as crowded as those in big cities in China, it is not inferior here.With the three of us, Lina had a great time shopping.Although Christmas is still a month away, the atmosphere has already begun. We also met a choir performing in the hall and stood by and watched for a long time.

Just had lunch here, the four of us really talked and laughed like friends.During the period, Lina went to the bathroom, and Ben said tactfully that he was going to buy drinks, leaving Serena and me alone.

Serena's hair has grown a bit, and compared to the sunshine of the hedgehog head before, it is a bit more stable now.The stubble on the chin is trimmed to create a sexy jawline.He was wearing a black down jacket, a pair of dark blue jeans, and a pair of sneakers with white bottoms and blue trims.There is still no jewelry on the whole body.

"Brother, why are you doing this." Just when I was about to start a conversation with Serena, Serena spoke first.

"What about me?"

"You are reluctant to accompany me and Nana alone, you are uncomfortable, don't you see it, can't I see it?" Serena sighed.

The corners of my mouth rose because I thought he still cared about me. "Didn't you say last time that we can be friends? I'm working hard."

"I don't want you to wrong yourself."

"You should know that I did this for the sake of the child."

Serena didn't speak, she lowered her head and didn't look into my eyes. Lina and Ben came back together, Serena quickly got up to pick up the things in her hands, and asked her if she was tired and if she wanted to go back. Lina smiled and said it was all right, but her smile was a little pale.It didn't take long for Serena to forcefully take Lina back.

I couldn't just accept a life without Serena all at once.To become ordinary friends with him first, and then slowly forget the surging feelings in my heart, this is what I think rationally.But why am I less hopeful that things will work out this way?Like the opening question, I don't have an answer myself...