Bear Diary

Friday, August 2010, 8

Xiaotao bought all the money from his part-time job to play games, and he took me to play games with him as soon as he came back in the past two nights.This kid is getting better at playing in his sophomore year.But when I mentioned that I should study hard, I was not convincing. Thinking about my time in high school, it was not much better.

There is another thing recently, that is, when I hear some songs, I feel very touched, I think it is very suitable for the time, and then I feel some inexplicable melancholy.For example, "Leave Me", "Every Time I Miss You", "The Fruit of Midsummer", "Remember", "It's a pity it's not you", "We agreed"... There is also a particularly powerful song, which is "Don't Come in Autumn" by Hou Xiangting...

"I know you're going to have a new relationship soon

I'm a little jealous and a little relieved

close a door and turn around

open another door and go in

that is you

come next fall

When the moon is full like last year

someone to accompany you

who will accompany you

actually, I

I also began to want to adjust myself

Just who can help me close my eyes so I don't see you

I want to forget you too

before autumn comes

不 再 想 你

don't come in autumn

I haven't forgotten you yet"

God!Could it be that I am about to become Sister Lin to sing "The Song of Burying Flowers"?forgive me!

I slammed the door and rushed out of the office. When I passed the lobby, I didn't care whether it was someone I knew or the MM at the front desk who greeted me. I guess she won't talk to me next time.As soon as I got out of the gate, my cell phone rang. I wasn't in the mood to answer it, but I couldn't get rid of the hope for a miracle in my mind, so I took it out to have a look, and it turned out to be my dad.

"Where are you?"

"outside……"

"Where is it outside?"

"Father, I don't want to quarrel with you now, can we talk about it later?"

"Are you in XX company?" Dad said exactly the name of aunt's company.

"How do you know?" I couldn't help but look around. Could someone be following me?

"You said the person you like is Gao Jiawei?"

I don't know what to say, I should have thought that my so-called little secret would be easy for Dad to know.

"So how are you doing now? Did you tell him you liked him? Did he accept you?"

"Dad..." I didn't expect my dad to care about this matter so calmly, and suddenly I was touched to the depths of my heart.Throat choked again.

"Son, you've grown up too. There are some things we as parents can't control anymore. But you have to know that we usually quarrel with you for your own good."

"I know..." I sat in the car, unable to describe the feeling in my heart with words, I covered the microphone, only feeling extremely uncomfortable.

Dad also followed me in silence for a while. "Son, come home if you're tired."

My love really ended like this.Before I left the office, Serena said that we should stop contacting and told me to forget about him and be fine.At that time, I slammed the door and shut all these behind me. When I calm down and think about it now, I really shouldn't.I hope to get together with Serena well, and what will be left to him in the end is my smile, not an expression about to cry.

But it doesn't make sense to say these now, it really is like this.Maybe I will smile knowingly when I recall this experience many years later?I've tried my best while writing this, it's too early for me...