prisoner of time

Although objective time has stopped, Yan Tuo is still hungry and sleepy, which proves that his "biological clock" is still there.

So every day after waking up, he would run to study and do research. When he was hungry for the first time, Shi Jin would bring him meals, and when he was hungry for the second time, he would run home again to be with his invisible lover. have dinner together.Then watch old movies or play outdated stand-alone games together, make love together, and finally embrace each other and fall asleep to end this "day".

Yan Tuo interpreted the fact that "Shi Yan" would give him food as that he had two personalities, and he was unconscious when switching to the second personality.Every day, the second personality will prepare meals and bring them with him. When he starts to eat, he will imagine that the meals are specially delivered to him by his lover, and imagine that he will not eat alone, but have a sweet meal with his lover. Sometimes his lover would feed him, sometimes his lover would secretly kiss him while feeding him, and sometimes his lover would hold him in his arms and feed him... Anyway, everything was imagined by him.

However, Yan Tuo has also reflected on this many times, because before that, he never imagined that he could imagine so many love and intimacy tricks, and that he could be like this... without talking about socialist spiritual civilization.

Since he believed that he was insane, Yan Tuo felt that there was nothing difficult to explain in his "thinking" that he could feel the entity of the other party.

Yan Tuo realized that something was wrong when he started talking in "Fantasy Lover" and communicated with himself.

They had a lot of communication before, but it was all through small notes, and the content was also related to daily life, such as "What do you want to eat today", "Is there any game you want to play, I will find a game card for you", "Come back soon, otherwise I will I'm going to bring you back."Yan Tuo rationally thinks that these are written by the second personality in the tone of an imaginary lover, but he is still very happy every time he receives them.

But since Shi Jin started talking, things have changed.

At first, Yan Tuo thought that the conversations between himself and his imaginary lover must actually be talking to himself, but he imagined that he was communicating with the other party.I can imagine, even "hear" the other party talking to me in reality, which means that my "disease" has worsened again, and it may continue to develop, and one day he may see the other party's appearance.

But logically, the appearance of the other party will definitely be the one I imagined to be my favorite.Yan Tuo thought about it and found that he didn't have any idol stars he liked, and he didn't have any realistic references, so he began to secretly worry that when Shi Yan showed up, he would have a face like Monkey King - after all, it was the only one he really liked for so many years since he was a child. He used to be an idol, but he was so tired of being in love with the Great Sage all day long. After thinking about it, he still felt that he couldn't accept it.

But later he found that his worry was unnecessary, because he found that Shi Yan would say something that he never thought of.

For example, once after two people were in love, Shi Yan hugged him from behind, and suddenly said softly: "Baby, you are mine, only mine."

Yan Tuo replied in a daze: "Why is it yours?"

"You are trapped by time." The other party smiled lightly, looking very happy, and kissed his shoulder, "You are trapped by me."

Yan Tuo suddenly shivered for no reason, and woke up from his drowsiness.

He studied Marxist philosophy when he was in junior high school.Marxist materialism believes that matter determines consciousness, and consciousness is the reaction of matter.

So if "Shi Yan" is just a "fantasy lover" conceived by himself out of self-protection, in order to avoid his complete collapse in the boundless loneliness, then Shi Yan's actions, thoughts and words will not exceed his own The scope of cognition and imagination - he is "imagined" by him, so he shouldn't say things that he can't imagine anyway.

For example, based on his own positioning and assumptions about his lover, Shi Yan shouldn't have said such things.

Because it never occurred to him and it was difficult to imagine that "time" could be something conscious.

Even if he is now trapped in a static moment, he has been looking for various external causes and seeking breakthroughs from other aspects. He has never imagined that this will be the subjective behavior of "time"-it is "time" that consciously puts him Stuck here.

It may not matter once or twice, after all, this is an abnormal world in itself.Moreover, Yan Tuo can't guarantee that he knows himself well, and he can't be sure that he must not have that kind of conjecture or idea.It's like he has never been in a relationship before, and he doesn't think he would like a man, but in fact Shi Yan appeared as an aggressive male who demanded and plundered from the beginning, but he adapted well and liked the other party very much, maybe he Subconsciously, he likes Shi Yan, but he has never noticed it himself.

But after all, the two have always been so intimately together, the more times his self-deceiving explanations and excuses for the other party become more and more feeble and untenable——Yan Tuo gradually sees a terrifying truth from his lover's words , The truth that makes his hair stand on end: the other party is an independent, real consciousness, not a fantasy created by him for self-protection.

And his current situation is closely related to the other party, Yan Tuo began to suspect that all of this was caused by Shi Yan, and the other party even had the ability to let him go, allowing him to return to normal time and the normal world.

It's just that the other party doesn't want to do it.

After realizing all this, Yan Tuo made many attempts.

He begged him, he tried his best to please him in Shi Shen's favorite way; he broke down and cried, he cursed, and even punched the other party.

But Shi Yan always just stood there quietly, like a bystander without sympathy and empathy, unable to understand his situation and mood at all.

It's like time overlooking the earthly creatures in the torrent of time, joys and sorrows, pains and struggles, but they are indifferent, still walking forward step by step, no one can make it stay, no one can make it go backwards, no one Who can make it change.

He would only try to coax and hug Yan Tuo, kiss his eyes, without saying a word, as if silently asking him: Is this not good now?Is it bad to be like this all the time?

Not good, not good at all.I want to go back, I want to see my relatives, and my friends, I don't want to be here alone.

If he said that, Shi Yan would not respond, but would only hug him tighter.

Before I got it, I didn't know what it was like; but once I knew it, I never wanted to let go.

Yan Tuo couldn't get out.

Because man cannot fight against time.

Each of us is in a time-linear cage, pushed forward by the tide of time, no one can resist, no one can be exempted, no one can escape this restriction and bondage.The same is true for Yan Tuo today, he is the same as all of us, except that he was locked in a single point, guarded by time himself.

Even though he already knew that the unidentified guy beside him might be the key to solving everything, Yan Tuo quickly adjusted his emotions after the initial hysteria when he learned the truth.

Obviously, Shi Yan is unwilling to help him leave now, and even his ability to let him leave is just an assumption, and the other party may not have the corresponding ability at all.

So Yan Tuo still carried out everything according to the original plan, continued to study and study, and looked for opportunities and methods to save himself.

He also continued to live a lover's life with Shi Yan.

The first is because it is undeniable that there are signs that in this abnormal world, Shi Jin occupies a stronger position than himself. He can often do things that Yan Tuo cannot, and Yan Tuo can't beat him; the second is that Because even if he knew the truth, Yan Tuo was still reluctant to lose the other party and return to a life of only one person, then he might really go crazy.

Yan Tuo always likes to look at problems from different angles. After discovering the real situation that existed in Shiji, he also found a side worthy of celebration: he is not crazy, nor does he have a second personality, and he has found it when his mental state is completely normal. A guy who should not be a human is a lover, and a happy family is still formed in a world with only one person.

That seems like a good idea.

However, self-consolation is self-consolation. After knowing that his long-time lover is probably the culprit for trapping himself in this static time, his attitude towards the other party has become visibly colder to the naked eye.

This time he was looking up information with a book in his arms, when Shi Yan approached him from behind and murmured in a low voice: "What form do you want me to appear in today?"

He is invisible most of the time, but sometimes becomes visible in a special form.

"Whatever you want." Yan Tuo said coldly.

As soon as the words fell, a big black snake appeared on the bed, its icy body coiled around his body, the snake's head was wrapped around his neck, and it "hissed" out the snake's message.