love you very special

Yi Chu couldn't bear the yin and yang way of speaking, and probably felt that it was a waste of youth to sit down with hot eyes, so he got up and was about to leave, but was held back by Lin Yi.

Lin Yi wanted to let Yi Chu know that he had no scruples, no avoidance, and no secrets from his sincerity.

But Yi Chu saw that Xiao Zhou didn't like it.

Lin Yi still held Yi Chu's arm and said to Xiao Zhou: "Zhou Qing, let me tell you, my brother Chu is really very good, very good, open your eyes and take a look, how handsome and handsome you are!" charming."

Xiao Zhou was about to suffer from convulsions: "Don't be numb in front of me. When I leave, you look at his face hard, watch enough, and blow enough." Then he paused and changed his tone: "I'm talking about business, I didn't want to tell you about this at first, so I couldn't open my mouth. But there is no way, there is no way out. You know my friend, her father spent too much money after being ill for so long, I took the money twice, and came again yesterday Borrow money from me, you know that I just bought a house here without tens of thousands of dollars left, and I don’t know how to talk to you, just watch and give it to me. I will definitely pay it back to you before the end of the year.”

The so-called friends are ex-girlfriends who came back from abroad and made friends. Back then, his girlfriend didn't dislike his poverty and followed him all the way. She originally planned to get married, but she couldn't support her this year and broke up.

Not long after we broke up, my girlfriend’s father was sick, and the serious illness cost money, and the family was empty. I guess the girl really has no choice, otherwise, who would borrow money from the ex-boyfriend who broke up? When I borrowed money for the second time, I asked Lin Yi for his opinion. What do you think, and I haven't experienced asking for help in this regard, I only know that I have survived the most difficult times abruptly, but through this incident, Lin Yi feels that Xiao Zhou is usually mercenary and quite generous.

According to this amount of loan, it would be difficult for the ex-girlfriend to repay at least five or ten years, and now Xiao Zhou must come to Lin Yi for help as a last resort.

The reason why it is necessary is because Xiao Zhou and Lin are the same type of people, you don't owe me, and I don't owe you, they are equal to each other.

Xiao Zhou values ​​love and righteousness. After all, the girl has been with her for so long, and when she was relatively poor, it was difficult to break up the relationship easily for so many years. She lent her more than [-] yuan with guilt and previous affection.

To be able to speak to Lin Yi today must have made a lot of determination.

If Xiao Zhou is in trouble and needs money, Lin Yi will try his best to do his best, but there is a layer of relationship with his girlfriend, and she is also an ex-girlfriend.

Yi Chu could see that Lin Yi was a bit embarrassed, and dragged him to the bedroom.

Yi Chu asked: "How much are you going to lend him?"

Lin Yi also had a headache: "I don't know."

Yi Chu asked him again: "What is your inner endurance?"

Lin Yi: "If Xiao Zhou has something to do, I have to give him [-] yuan. That's all I have spare money. The rest are the accounts of the factory and I can't touch them."

Yi Chu: "Then how much do you want to give him?"

Lin Yidao: "Fifty thousand, no more, no less, I can make do with it."

Yi Chu asked: "Ever made do? What do you do?"

Lin Yizhen didn't cry for poverty, and explained: "I can take out [-] yuan, as long as Xiao Zhou says that I can eat instant noodles every day with this money, and it is also difficult for him to do business, and he can't get it back after borrowing so much. If he can help me, he will definitely help. It’s just that I’m all alone now, and I’m fine with no illness or disaster. I’m most afraid of getting sick and spending money. Wouldn’t I be dead if I lose all my savings? And if the factory closes due to poor efficiency, I’ll be in debt again, you I don’t know how uncomfortable it is to be in debt, last year the factory paid off the debt better and bought a second-hand house.”

Yi Chu's brows moved slightly, and after thinking about it, he said, "Then you will give him [-]."

Lin Yi didn't ask the reason, he must have a reason, he just said: "Is it too little?"

Yi Chu: "[-] is within your acceptable range. If it will not affect your life to the greatest extent, you should give it to him. If he doesn't say anything, he won't ask for it back. It won't do it if you save your friends."

Lin Yi was startled: "...this... like this??"

Yi Chu said affirmatively: "That's it. I know you have a good relationship with him, but you have nothing to do with his ex-girlfriend. As a friend, you can only go so far. Do you still want to give more than your ex-boyfriend?"

When Lin thought about it, he was right. In fact, taking out 2 yuan did not have much impact. It was acceptable to him, and the amount was moderate and he didn't feel too much about offering a reward.

So decided.

When he was about to go out, Yi Chu suddenly grabbed Lin Yi's arm and asked, "Would you chip in one hundred thousand if something happened to him, if it was me, how much would you give?"

Lin Yixiao: "Don't make trouble, I won't be able to get the money from your big money."

Yi Chu's eyes were firm and he was still waiting for the answer.

Lin Yi: "Is there something particularly urgent?"

"Ah."

"Human life is at stake?"

"Ah."

Lin Yi: "Then I'm sure I won't be able to give you a single penny. Your life is at stake. I guess I just passed out. I don't have time to think about how much money I'll give you."

Yi Chu was stunned for a moment, and immediately released affectionate eyes, Lin Yi stretched out his hand and closed it in front of his eyes: "Are you satisfied, are you happy?"

Yi Chu replied softly: "It's okay."

Lin Yi: "You are too naive."

Lin Yi kicked his leg, and the two went out together.

Xiao Zhou knew that Lin Yixian didn't have much money, so he didn't expect anything at first. Watching the two of them go in together, he was worried that Lin Yi would borrow money from Yi Chu. Yeah, forget it, I'm not going to be a holy father anymore."

Lin Yi: "It's right for you not to be a holy father. Let me rest here at night, and give me the bank card to transfer [-] yuan to you later."

In addition to the 5 yuan in Xiao Zhou's hand, it happened to be enough to make up [-] yuan.

Lin Yi finally felt that he would give him a little more, so he would call [-] first.Give Xiao Zhou another [-] to live on.

Xiao Zhou knew that this could only be the last help to his ex, there was nothing he could do, and now he has a clear conscience.

Lin took the meal Xiao Zhou brought to the kitchen to heat it up, leaving Yi Chu and Xiao Zhou sitting on the sofa...embarrassed.

It was Xiao Zhou who was more generous, and took the initiative to say: "I know that it is difficult for Lin Yi to give out a little money, I hope you can help him in the future, and I will definitely pay him back before the Spring Festival."

Yi Chu's voice was cold: "I don't need you to remind me."

Xiao Zhou smiled bitterly, and immediately suppressed his emotions: "What do you know, friends are doing well now, once it comes to money, it doesn't matter whether you have friends or not, love or not."

Yi Chu: "Isn't Mr. Zhou making repayments for the past?"

Xiao Zhou said: "Do you think I want to? But you can't refuse that face, because you are used to pandering. You will know when this happens."

"I won't let such a thing happen." Yi Chu played with his watch and continued: "Don't let him suffer and don't make him difficult, do you think I'm like...others to live my life in a muddle?"

Xiao Zhou believed in the differences between people and the way of doing things. The person in front of him who was blown away by Lin Yi was enough to show that it was right for Lin Yi to get closer to him.

It happened that Lin Yi came over and heard this sentence, and took it over: "It must be different. Let me tell you, Xiao Zhou, he is not an ordinary person. The papers he wrote on the Internet from the first year of high school to the third year of high school are higher than mountains, and the notes are full. There are a lot of them. Yi Chu throws away every time he writes a book. The exercise books and textbooks of the third year of high school are piled up, and he has the least books on his desk. You said that the handwritten notes were not thrown away and sold to juniors. Not all Tsinghua University and Peking University?"

Xiao Zhou: "Why don't you review his papers? Otherwise, you would also go to Tsinghua University and Peking University."

Lin Yi crossed Erlang's legs and said with a "cut": "Do I need his notebook for my homework? Precepts and deeds, teaching in person, is useless! Now I have to admit that my brain is indeed not as good as his, and the grades of teaching in person are still not improved. .”

Yi Chu corrected him: "21 points."

Lin Yi: "That's useless. It's true that I didn't study hard. During the two years abroad, I was half playing and half crazy. What are textbooks? I haven't heard of them."

Xiao Zhou: "Hehe, it seems that you won't be able to graduate if you don't drop out of school."

Lin Yi: "Don't mention the past, no matter how you read it, it won't be as good as Yi Chu after 100 years, so just don't read it."

Yi Chu: "Reading is not for comparison, but to increase knowledge and breadth of thought."

As soon as he opened his mouth, the other two stopped talking, fearing that if he opened his mouth to educate them, he would not be able to play.

Both of them were hungry, but Yi Chu took the chopsticks and didn't eat much, so Lin Yi ate everything.

In the end, he tried to persuade Lin to stay again, and finally Xiao Zhou didn't take advantage of the rainy day to leave and slept next door.

Lin Yi naturally slept with Yi Chu.

On rainy days, sleeping with willing people is a great treat.

After taking off their clothes, the two lay on the bed and chatted without saying a word.

Lin Yi popped out a sentence: "It would be great if we were like this forever. You are much cuter now than when you were a child. I like it. Haha."

Yi Chu took off the watch and put it aside, tidying up the clothes that had been taken off.

Originally, Lin Yi was waiting for him to boast that he was much cuter, so he kept silent, so he said very embarrassedly: "Am I also cuter than before?"

Yi Chu: "There is no difference."

Lin Yi joked: "Yes, Yushu Linfeng has become an inspirational young man who can take care of the disabled and suave."

"Don't talk nonsense!" Yi Chu turned over, and the two people's faces were facing each other, so close at hand, they didn't care about looking at each other, looking into each other's eyes, "It won't happen in the future."

Before Lin Yifu had time to react, he saw Yi Chu leaning slightly, as if he was about to do something.He didn't know if he really wanted to do it, this trend was very similar, Lin Yi immediately rolled over and turned to the edge of the bed.

Yi Chu looked at him and smiled when he was avoiding shyness and didn't do anything tough.

Lin turned around and found his playful smile, impulsively, got up and kissed Yi Chu's face heavily, "How is it? Are you happy?"

Yi Chu still had a smile on his face, without any shame, nor did he get angry when he was teased like he was in school.

People who are usually serious have the most beautiful smiles.

For a moment Lin lost his mind, turned around with his back on his back and fell asleep.

Xiao Zhou got up early in the morning, and Yi Chu just came over after washing his face when he knocked on the door to say hello.

"Stop knocking, he's resting."

Xiao Zhou said: "He never sleeps in."

Yi Chu: "There is no one who doesn't like to sleep in."

Probably Xiao Zhou was worried about what he would say and said immediately: "I'll go first, and you can thank him when Lin and his party are gone."

Yi Chu didn't even bother to answer "um".

It rained continuously for two days, and today finally turned into cloudy and light rain. Together, Lin went to the factory to check the equipment and products, and checked the weather forecast. It will still be rainy tomorrow.

In the WeChat group, I was notified to go to work next Wednesday.

After returning home, he brought some breakfast and saw Yi Chu calling on Lin Yi's mobile phone.

Yi Chu sat down to eat while holding the phone, and finally turned on the speakerphone and put it on the table.

It's so strange, it's the first time I heard him talking on the phone with his mother, except not rushing to find a partner, usually his mother will say what his parents say, such as don't drink too much beer in summer, and smoking less is not good for your health, it's okay Cooking at home, the food outside is unhygienic, how to put the quilt, and how to put the pillow.

After speaking, he finally hung up the phone.

Lin Yi: "You have a cold face every day, I thought your mother didn't care about you."

Yi Chudao: "I didn't ask before, but when I grow up, I ask a lot."

"What's wrong? Your parents are still in the northwest?"

Yi Chu nodded: "Well, they voluntarily stay there for most of the year."

Lin Yi: "What about the other time?"

"I do research and go out for a walk, and I seldom go back."

Lin Yidao: "Poor child, we both suffer from the same illness."

Yi Chu: "No, I used to hope that they could accompany me, but now I don't need them."

Lin Yi put his arm on his shoulder: "Then hang out with me from now on, I promise you will be happy and happy."

Being happy means that there is no food, so the two of them went to the supermarket to buy things while it was raining.

Two people each push a shopping cart, and they buy completely different things.

One is down-to-earth and buys practical things, while the other buys expensive ones, all of which are about nutrition and health care.

What can Lin Yi say, he took something powerful to pay the bill, so just be happy.

When the big and small bags were brought home to tidy up, Lin Yi found out what the hell were they?

Chewing gum is acceptable, but there are... condoms?

Is this thing a joke?

Lin Yi didn't dare to ask directly, after all, it's impossible to imagine someone like Yi Chu who doesn't accept immortals.

"You are..."

Yi Chu said calmly: "Adults should bring their own at any time."

Lin Yitiao said with a smile: "You also have times when your blood boils and impulsively."

Yi Chu smiled without saying a word.

They cook together at noon, Yi Chu is assigned to wash the vegetables, and Lin Yi is the chef.

It's not that Yi Chu believes in his cooking skills, but that he is full of confidence and insists on cooking, and he must really want to perform in front of others.

I have tasted the true love and happiness in the world, so I cherish and long for this ordinary time.

Such delicate emotions gradually sprouted and took root.

The typhoon was supposed to be cloudy and rainy for a week, but it stopped after only two days.

Yi Chu goes back to work in a very different state of mind.

Originally, the schedule was tight enough, but he had to come twice a week, without traffic jams for more than two hours, and if there was a problem, he would be almost ten o'clock in the evening when he saw Lin Yi after Yi Chu got off work.

What can I do?

Eat something, lie down and sleep together, drive away at [-]am.

Even if we meet for such a short time, we are still happy and happy.

Another typhoon crossed the border, Lin Yiqian advised Wan not to come over, Yi Chu thought about him, and couldn't wait for a moment.

It happened to be raining heavily when we arrived, and Yi Chu hugged Lin Yi when we met.

Although Lin Yi was inexplicably agitated these days, he secretly had a different feeling, and he wanted to quickly dismiss the idea.

Lin Yi was suffocated by his embrace, "Yi Chu, don't do this."

Yi Chu kissed his hair delicately, and refused to let go.

The body of the two touched faintly, and with the broken kiss on the face, they trembled.

Lin Yi pushed him away: "Yi Chu, what's wrong with you?"

Yi Chu held his head with one hand, and stretched out the other hand directly from the back of the short sleeve. His fingers slid lightly, and he seemed to smile, "What's wrong with me? I miss you so much every day, I think you are in my arms."

As soon as he finished speaking, he lowered his head and kissed her cheek.

Lin Yi can be described as "faint in beauty", took his hand away, and took a step back: "Yi Chu, we are friends, what are you talking about?"

Seeing Lin's non-joking tone, Yi Chu's mind went blank, and he calmed down in a few seconds, still suppressing the deepest thoughts in his heart and unwilling to admit it: "That's right, it's a friend, it's a boyfriend, we want to To live together, to live together forever. Don't you want to?"

As soon as Lin opened his eyes wide, he couldn't open his mouth because of the shock of his words.

Yi Chudao: "Lin Yi, we've known each other for so long, do you really feel nothing? I'm so obvious to you, can you really not see it? Could it be that everything we experienced these days is my illusion? ?”

Lin Yi was completely stunned, shocked or shocked, and stammered: "You...you...Yi Chu, you are used to living alone, did you make a mistake? We are friends, we are brothers, we can be brothers forever."

Yi Chu's eyes were bloodshot, and he approached oppressively and asked, "Is it true that you said you like me?"

Lin Yi: "It's true, but"

Yi Chu interrupted him but continued to ask: "You slept in the same bed with me, covered with a quilt, and kissed me."

When one side is strong, the other side is weak. These are indeed Lin Yi's own actions, which are misleading and unexplainable.

Lin Yi also argued in a low voice: "A good friend can wear a pair of pants and underwear together, this...it's nothing..."

How irritating this kind of words is to a person, it is so great that a person who is usually calm is furious.

Yi Chu said sharply: "Don't fucking tell me brother, I want to marry you, sleep with you, have sex with you, and want to be with you forever! Now you are fucking talking to me brother, It's a friend, do you disgust me by saying such words?!"

Lin Yi has lived such a long life, and he has never been confessed so openly by a man, and he doesn't know how to answer, especially when facing this person, he doesn't like him very much, he can be said to be the closest and most respected person in this world.

Reason told him that in the past, even though he hadn't been in love in the past few years, he still wanted to marry a wife and have children in his heart, and he didn't like men.

Before Yi Chu said these words just now, he was sure that his life was an ordinary life. Now at this moment, looking at the face and expression of the person in front of him, he fell into a blur.

Yi Chu came here this time to confess that he was right. He originally prepared flowers and wine and even wanted to be more romantic, but he didn't expect to express his true feelings in such a way, by yelling.

Seeing that Lin Yi lowered his head slightly, he knew that he had lost his composure, so he lowered his voice and said angrily, "What about now? What do you think now? Do you want to be with me? I know you can't accept it for a while, and you don't care. You should think about it." ?"

Lin Yi raised his head to meet those fiery eager eyes, he couldn't deceive himself, let alone him, "I don't know, I don't know, why are you saying this? Let me think about it, let me think about it first."

Not reconciled, Yi Chu stretched out his arms to hug Lin Yi, kissed him, pried open his lips and tongue, stirred and sucked fiercely, panting slightly, "Don't you feel it? Do you really not feel it?"

If he was still in the state of ravioli just now, he could not help being a little angry at the moment, which is understandable for the pursuer, and Lin Yi would be furious in such a way.

"Yi Chu, don't do this."

Yi Chu didn't want to believe it, but he knew that it was just wishful thinking in the past, and gradually his own illusion was always his own problem, his eyes gradually dimmed, and he just wanted to ask one last sentence.

"For so many years, have you ever thought about me? Have you ever thought about looking for me and being with me? I want you to tell the truth."

Yi Chu knew what the answer was.

He always knew.

The answer was obvious, Lin Yi remained silent and did not speak.

Yi Chu let go of his hand, watched him for a few seconds, turned around and quickly walked to a room that was opened arbitrarily, and closed the door.

In his life, he was doing two things.

One thing is studying for higher education, and I have been studying for 18 years.Another thing is that there is a person hidden in my heart, and I have loved him for ten years.

Originally, I wanted to never say anything and keep it in my heart forever.

But the time together is so beautiful that it makes people shake their minds, want to hold on, and not let go. In fact, I know countless times that he cares about me as an ordinary friend, but I think too much and take other relationships for granted.

Now that it has come to such a point, my heart hurts and I am sad.

It was only now that Lin Yifang realized that he actually didn't know him at all, and he had never even really walked into his heart, thought about what he thought, understood his views and thinking.

Lin Yi sat on the sofa and looked at the door in a daze, he couldn't think about what Yi Chu would do inside.

After an hour, the wind outside picked up again, and when he went to close the window, he heard the sound of the door opening.

Lin Yi hurried over, the face of the person who greeted him was pale and his eyes were empty, Lin Yi stepped forward to caress his face, almost crying, but what else could he say.

Yi Chu gently moved his hand away: "I'm sorry."

Lin Yi's voice was a little hoarse: "You didn't apologize to me."

Yi Chu said nothing, instead, he walked away, opened the door, and went downstairs.

It's normal for him to go out to relax, but Lin Yi was really worried, so he followed.

When I went downstairs, I saw him walking into the rain, and Lin Yi ran over to pull him back.

"Yi Chu, are you fucking sick? Emotional matters are nothing! Are you afraid that you can't find better things if you have everything?"

Compared to Lin Yi, Yi Chu was extremely calm: "I'll just ask for a day off, and I have to go to work tomorrow. I'm afraid I won't be able to make it in the morning."

Lin Yi couldn't stand scolding him at all, and his voice softened: "Trees are easy to break when the wind is strong. It's so late now, can we walk tomorrow."

Yi Chu was very stubborn, bowed his head and said, "No, I want to go back soon."

Lin Yi almost begged: "I know you are unhappy, you don't want to see me, you will be embarrassed, I won't say anything, I won't say anything. Don't leave."

Only then did Yi Chu raise his head and lower his face, "Lin Yi, I can't see enough of you all my life, why don't I want to see you, no matter what you do, I can accept it. I'm worried about going to work late, don't worry, I drive slowly on the road Some."

Lin Yi was very excited and grabbed his arm and refused to let go. No matter how good the weather is for a driver, it would still be very dangerous to pay attention. This kind of life-related matter is what Lin Yi fears the most.

"Yi Chu, just take it as me begging you, leave tomorrow when the rain stops, I won't stop you."

With his pleading eyes, Yi Chu knew that he lost his composure: "Okay, I won't go, I won't go."

As soon as Lin pulled him upstairs, he locked the door and took the key away as soon as he entered.

Lin Yi tried to treat it as before: "Are you hungry, do you want to eat?"

Yi Chu's internal organs have been emptied a long time ago, so he doesn't have any appetite, so in order to avoid him worrying, he still said: "Okay."

"What do you want to eat?"

Yi Chu's eyes were empty: "It's all right."

According to what Yi Chu said before, Lin Yi brought over a bowl full of eggs, instant noodles, beef, and chili sauce.

Yi Chu sat aside and waited.

Lin Yi stirred and put the chopsticks in his hand: "Eat."

Seeing that there was nothing in front of him, Yi Chu instinctively pushed to Lin Yi: "You eat, I'm not hungry."

Lin Yi couldn't resist such care and love, so he made up a lie: "I ate it in the kitchen, a big bowl, and I'll give you the rest."

Yi Chu didn't give in too much, so what identity could he use to care about someone?

It was the first time for Lin Yi to see Yi Chu eating so quickly, eating a bowl of noodles in a few minutes, even finishing the soup.

It's good that he can eat.

While Yi Chu was sitting and resting, Lin made the bed.

When he came back, Yi Chu had already slept in the guest bedroom.

Lie down without even taking a shower.

Yesterday they were the most harmonious and intimate relationship, but today they are like passers-by.

Lin Yi pushed open the door to watch him fall asleep, and went to the balcony to smoke a cigarette. He hadn't touched this thing for a long, long time, and he would still be addicted to it after tasting it.

When two people are in a state of madness, one must wake up first.

Otherwise, they will all become lunatics and hurt each other.

This kind of thing may just be sad and evasive at the beginning, but it has a great aftereffect. Yi Chu takes a nap, opens his eyes, and when he regains consciousness, he repeats what Dr. Chen said before like a repeater in his mind.

He never had you in his heart.

At this moment, Yi Chu understood that for so many years, only he himself was heartbroken, sad, sad, looking forward to, and excited.

Tried the suffering and unhappiness in the human world, only then did I realize that that person never knew.

I don't know that there is such a person in this world who is hard to let go.

Suddenly his stomach churned, Yi Chu got up and went to the bathroom, vomited up the dinner he ate at night, but still couldn't calm down the discomfort in his stomach.

Finally spit out the sour water.

Lin Yi saw clearly at the door, didn't go in, didn't speak, and didn't try to comfort him, just kept his head down and didn't speak.