Is the director bent today?

[Discover a bigger world - Zhihu]

The single ward of Pingcheng People's Hospital was very quiet, only the beeping sound of some machines, and the air was filled with the smell of disinfectant.

Gao Xiaotian sat on the chair in front of the hospital bed, propped his elbows on his knees, crossed his hands under his chin, stared blankly at the person on the hospital bed, his eyes were red as if they were about to drip blood.

Chi Luyang lay quietly on the hospital bed, with the corners of his mouth slightly raised, and there was no trace of pain in his brows, as if he had entered a sweet dreamland.He has slender eyebrows, deep eye sockets, and a high nose bridge. What a good-looking person and what a vivid face. At this moment, he can only rely on the oxygen mask to maintain his breathing with difficulty. When the gas is inhaled, he makes a "hissing" sound, like Someone was pulling a broken bellows that was about to fall apart, and every move was extremely difficult.

Gao Xiaotian stretched out his hand and brushed aside Chi Luyang's broken hair that blocked his cheeks. He never expected that this trip to City C would have such a result.

The little bastard who attacked Chi Luyang at the end was beaten to the point of being delirious and bloody. If he didn't have a bit of reason to remind himself that he had to send Chi Luyang to the hospital quickly, he would kill him if he didn't keep it all together.

Chi Luyang was clearly a few centimeters taller than him, but when Gao Xiaotian carried him into the car, he felt light in his hands.He drove like crazy to the nearest hospital. The initial diagnosis was a concussion. Because he didn't trust the medical level here, he immediately asked to be transferred back to Pingcheng.After all this tossing, Gao Xiaotian was exhausted physically and mentally, but he still had one most important thing to do.

Pick up Chi Luyang's mobile phone and unlock it with his fingers.The phone was connected, and a familiar female voice came from the other end of the receiver: "What are you doing, brat?"

Gao Xiaotian: "Boss Chi, it's me, Gao Xiaotian..."

Knowing the cause and effect, Chi Zhenzhen didn't get angry on the phone. After all, she was a person who had been in the shopping mall for more than ten years, so she still had some composure. She asked the address of the hospital and hung up the phone.

Gao Xiaotian remembered that when he was eating at Chi Luyang's house, he had personally promised Chi's mother to take good care of Chi Luyang. Only a few days later, Chi Luyang was lying on the hospital bed.His heart was filled with pain and remorse, and wished he could turn back time and return to that dilapidated parking lot. He would definitely not hit so lightly, and beat those little hooligans so hard that they couldn't even stand up.

Chi Luyang's mobile phone made a light "ding", and a push was pushed to the screen.Gao Xiaotianxia glanced at it consciously, and the APP that was pushed was Zhihu: User XXX commented on your answer "What is it like for a gay to fall in love with a straight man?"

Gao Xiaotian suddenly stopped moving, staring at the screen, his mind was blank, he swiped the screen several times before he clicked on the notification, the densely packed small characters came into view, he looked at the person on the bed, and then slowly Sit back in the chair and read word by word.

What's it like for a gay to fall in love with a straight guy?

When I saw this question, I wanted to answer it, because I didn't know if he was playing Zhihu, so I hid it.

Let me talk about my situation first. There is only a little turtle. I have only returned to China for a few years. When I met him, it was the most chaotic period for me. I changed jobs, moved, and broke up with my ex-boyfriend. Everything had to start all over again.

Our acquaintance was full of drama, because the ex-boyfriend was going abroad, we were bumped by him when we said goodbye (bie) at my door, yes he was my neighbor.

It’s not a big deal, I went to report to the new company the next day, and the boss introduced me to various departments. I found out that he was the account director of the same company as me, and I was a new designer.

We were both quite surprised, he pretended not to know me, I wanted to tease him, and to avenge him for messing with me in the corridor, so I deliberately said that we were neighbors.It's so funny how he's upset and unable to have a fit.

This is considered to be an acquaintance, but at that time I didn't have any other thoughts about him, I just thought he was fierce and poisonous, but he was indeed in good shape.Since we are neighbors and colleagues, it is not bad to be friends.

At noon the next day, I had dinner with my colleagues from the design department, and I ran into people from their department in the restaurant. They were all from the same company, so we sat together as a matter of course.Chatting at the table, everyone asked me if I had a girlfriend, I said no, and asked me if I had a boyfriend, I said no.

What I said was true, but I am afraid it is not so in his eyes.

Maybe because of this, he seems to have some prejudices against me. Except that we are still in sync with each other at work, no matter who opens his mouth first, there will always be a verbal confrontation.

In the afternoon, there was something wrong with the design of the event site, and I, a new idler, was called by him to help.The weather was bad that day, and when we came back, there was a heavy rainstorm. He rushed into the rain without hesitation to drive, and asked me to wait for him at the door. I didn't listen to him, and ran to the car in the rain.

he is very angry.

He is right.

The next day I had a fever due to rain and wind, so I rested at home.He actually came to see me in the afternoon, I was surprised, we have only known each other for less than three days.

Of course he didn't have such good intentions, he was entrusted by the boss to visit me, and I could see that he was reluctant to do what he had to do.I seldom get sick and don't know how to prescribe the right medicine.He found that the medicine I was taking was not right at all, so he cooked a pot of ginger soup for me, and also brought me a box of medicine for throat from his house, which was very effective.

He looks carefree, he can't even take care of himself, but he cooks ginger soup for me. I feel an indescribable feeling in my heart.

Some people look tough and indifferent on the outside, but they are actually very soft on the inside. He is, and I am afraid that even he himself does not know this.

A few days later, my illness was cured. In order to thank him for taking care of me, I planned to ask him to go fishing.I don't know if he can fish, but I think it would be a good choice for the two of us to spend a day in a place with mountains and rivers.Unexpectedly, he is a master at fishing. We caught [-] to [-] catties of fish that day.

There were too many fish to eat, so he took some of them as gifts, and he also sent a few to his parents.That was the first time I went to his parents' house. Before I got out of the car, I heard someone arguing in his house. He walked into the house with a sullen face and carried the fish, and the quarrel calmed down.I waited in the car and he came out after a while, looking in a bad mood.

It was late when we got home and I promised to cook fish for him, the first time I cooked for him.He felt better when he was eating.

By the way, he likes cats, and he fed all the offal from my killing fish to a stray cat.

Later, the two of us often ate together, I was in charge of cooking, and he was in charge of washing dishes.I put a cat climbing frame on the balcony, and half kept the stray cats he fed at home (we live on the second floor, and the cats can come and go freely).

Actually, I don't really like furry animals, but he does.Every time after eating, he would smoke on the balcony while pawing the cat. The number of times was too high, and I felt like we were like a family in a trance.

I can’t tell when my feelings for him changed. When I realized it, this man with a fierce appearance and a soft heart had completely entered my life, but I still couldn’t open his mouth. heart door.

For example, he won't tell anyone why he never takes the elevator, and he doesn't talk about his family. I once saw his ex-girlfriend hurt his arm in KTV. When I asked him, he just said That relationship is over in one sentence.

I still know the story of him and his ex-girlfriend from his childhood.For that relationship, he paid too much but was bruised to the point that many girls showed affection to him later, but he avoided them all.

He is a straight man, and he can't even accept the feelings of other girls, let alone me.

Until one day, I thought I discovered his secret.

We were flying on a business trip and had a turbulence, and it was literally the bumpiest plane I've ever been on in my life.I've always wondered why the stewardess still doesn't let me write my last words, but she's still calm on the surface.

He sat next to me and slept on the plane until he was woken up by the turbulence, and then he looked very uncomfortable, bent over, with his head on the back of the seat in front of him, sweating profusely.If this was a reaction to airsickness, it would be too exaggerated, and his face was ashen.

I put my hand on his lap to ask if he was okay and he grabbed my wrist.That was the first time I felt needed by him. Although I knew intellectually that such a thing as a plane crash would never happen, but emotionally, I felt that if this was the last time in our lives, maybe we could let it go. Be romantic.

We are like the only life-saving straw for both sides, relying on each other so as not to be blown away by the wind.

Facts have proved that I was thinking too much, it was a relatively strong airflow, and my romantic imagination was also wiped out after the plane landed smoothly.

I planned to live in the same room with him. He drank too much at night and was sent back by another colleague. I couldn't wake him up, so I covered him with a quilt and let him go to sleep.When I came out of the shower, I found him shaking under the quilt, talking in sleep, don't lock me up, don't turn off the lights, let me go out and so on.He might be having a nightmare. I lay on his back, hugged him tightly, and comforted him until he fell into a deep sleep.

That night, I searched for claustrophobia on Zhihu, and all those strange behaviors and overreactions suddenly had reasonable explanations.

I pretended not to know anything, in line with his carefully maintained self-esteem.

One night, we were playing truth or dare on the beach with my colleagues, and he, who has so many secrets in his heart, would definitely choose dare.And the content of his big adventure is to say I love you to the person on the right.

I'm the one on the right.

He said those three words to me very reluctantly, but I felt a different kind of satisfaction in my heart. I couldn't hide my fox tail anymore, and I had to tell him that I was too.

Of course it's just a game.

After we went back, we still worked overtime as usual, and had violent meetings as usual, and we hardly had time to eat together.One night he knocked on my door suddenly. Normally, he would not come to my house unless I asked him to come to dinner.He asked me, is there anything to eat?He said he was hungry.

My kitchen is always open for him, doesn't he know that he has been eating for so long?

It's not that I haven't thought about applauding for love, I just want to go crazy, not to mention that he is so handsome and has such a good figure.His appearance is the kind of handsome that can be used by men and women, but he is a bit unkempt. Seeing him in a formal suit, he is so handsome. I didn't listen to a single word of what he said when he made the proposal. As long as he talked, I became hardened.

I feel that in the dark, God still favors me. During the annual meeting, he kissed me with the strength of wine.We just played a goofy ancient costume skit together, he played the emperor, and I played the concubine (who told me I was so hot and pretty).He seemed to have not come out of the play yet, and said to me, Aifei, you are so beautiful.Then he came up for a kiss.

I'm dumbfounded.He let go of me.I pressed up again and kissed him like losing my mind.Finally he fell asleep in a daze.

The next day, he said he couldn't remember what happened last night, and if he did, it would be considered a drunken maniac.

He's obviously testing me, but can't I see it?But he also rejected me after probing, and I could see it.

He deliberately avoided me, didn't eat with me, didn't talk to me, didn't dare to face me, let alone face himself.

I didn't think about what to do next, what should I do to let him know how sincere I am, I want to pull him out of his little shell, see the world together, and tell him not to be afraid of those nightmares , Nightmares are paper tigers.

What I want to tell him most is that I really like him, come and knock on my door, I will always wait for him in the room.

that's all.

The author has something to say:

Gao Xiaotian: How does it feel for a gay to fall in love with a straight man?

Chi Luyang: ... Who told you to peek at my phone, give it back to me!

Gao Xiaotian: Why do you save so many unreal photos of me in your phone?

Chi Luyang: In the dead of night, we must dispatch some loneliness~

Gao Xiaotian: Did you think of doing this when you tricked me into taking pictures?

Chi Luyang: I haven't told you yet that I had a nosebleed when I took a picture of you.

Gao Xiaotian: Can you show some face!

Chi Luyang: There are even more shameless ones, do you want to see them?

Gao Xiaotian: Get lost~