Do nothing

The darkness that can't see five fingers.

There is no window, so it is very stuffy, and the hands are tied behind the back, so you can only lie on the ground.

The body is forced to maintain a very uncomfortable state, so every minute in the small black room feels like a year.

Hunger prolongs the sense of time.At first it was irritability, my stomach was gurgling, and my throat was itchy.And then the stomach starts to digest itself, and the guts come up in the throat—dead rats, dead chickens, dead pigs, that's what fresh warm animals smell like when they're gutted, the stench of guts.If you still don’t eat at this time, your stomach will give up and stop making noise, just throbbing from time to time, reminding you: this body still needs to eat.However, you can't feel time through stomach pain, because gastric acid secretion has lost its rhythm, and there may be an interval of 5 minutes or five hours between the last stomach pain and the next stomach pain.

The cold also lengthens the sense of time.The concrete floor will continue to take away body heat, and finally the skin becomes as cold as cement.The whole body seems to have only the heart that still has warmth, but the blood pumped from there can no longer warm the limbs.The human body is amazing, shivering in the cold is actually muscle tremors, and it is decomposing glycogen to provide heat.When your muscles give up on the environment and stop trying to save you with tremors, the peripheral nerves begin to rebel.It joins the cold and injures you with pain.This kind of pain is deep into the bone marrow, large, numb, and heavy dull pain.Since the pain started from the inside, rubbing hands and feet didn't help.The bone marrow also rebelled.

The human will is easily destroyed.In fact, what is really destroyed is not necessarily the will, perhaps only the body.

This is the experience they have summed up from years of "teaching": when the body succumbs to torture, everyone will become obedient.

……

That's a good sentence.

Yu Cheng woke up from the dream, opened his eyes, and saw the darkness where he couldn't see his fingers.

When the body yields to torture, it becomes obedient...

No, this won't work, it's too artistic.

He sat up and slowly fumbled for the switch of the bedside lamp.Silently chanting the words in the dream, chewing and revising repeatedly.

Why do you obey?Because the body succumbs to torture.

... No, it's too written.

Why do you become obedient?Because I am afraid of being abused.

That's fine.

Snapped.Warm yellow lights illuminate the room.Yu Cheng was in a trance for a moment, unable to remember where he was.He looked down at the quilt covering his body, and saw that his hands were slender and powerful, and they were the hands of an adult man.

...In total, 16 years have passed.

Coincidentally, when I was 16 years old, I was knocked out and taken to that school, and it has been 16 years until now.As if in a reincarnation, a childish and ignorant self was eliminated at the age of 16, and a more suitable self was born from this, and he is now exactly 16 years old.

The quilt is very warm.When he lifted the quilt, he clearly felt the skin's attachment to warmth, but he didn't hesitate at all.He took a pen and paper out of his coat pocket and sat down at the desk.

The pen is a blue-black fountain pen issued by the hospital, and all medical documents must be written with this pen.The paper was waste paper with discarded medical records printed on the back.

Several paragraphs have already been written on this paper.After reading it carefully, he added a caret at the appropriate place and wrote, "Do you know why I became so obedient when I came out of there?! Because I'm afraid of being abused!"

After thinking about it, he added another sentence, "Do you know what they did to me?"

After drawing the last symbol, he suddenly felt amused.Soon he became serious again, picked up the manuscript paper and read it silently.He brewed his emotions, rehearsed them in his heart, and recorded them.

So the sentence becomes:

"You know why I became so obedient when I came out of there?! (forcefully, loudly, heart-piercingly) afraid of being abused! (breathing deeply, trembling, sneering) You know what they did to me ?"

Yes, it's perfect.

Yu Cheng was very satisfied, so he took out a blank manuscript paper and neatly transcribed the words that had been repeatedly revised.

The next day.

When Yan Ke came back to work, he was surprised to find that everyone treated him as usual, as if nothing had happened.

The news of his suicide must have spread throughout the Chinese medicine hospital. After all, the medical circle is so small, maybe the doctor who rescued him that day was an acquaintance of so-and-so.But no one asked anything, which made him very grateful.

Monday happens to be November 11st, the respiratory department has officially entered the peak season, and both wards and outpatient clinics will be busier than ever.

Yan Ke has been on leave for more than two weeks, and the patients in the ward have changed, so he is not familiar with the condition.Yu Cheng led two interns to round the ward, and he followed behind with the medical record cart, looking at the patient's medical records one by one.

Probably because he hid behind and didn't speak, the patients thought he was an intern, and asked him to study hard with Mr. Yu, so that he would be promising in the future.

Yan Ke smiled awkwardly, and Yu Cheng explained for him: "This is not an intern, but a doctor who just came back from studying outside. He just looks younger."

When it comes to "returning from studies", the patients are not aware of it.Coupled with the phrase "look young", it seems to imply that Yan Ke's seniority is not low.After Yu Cheng finished these two sentences, the way the patients looked at Yan Ke changed.

Walking out of the ward, Yu Cheng said, "You can take care of this room. There are two rooms at the back with nine beds for you."

Breathing Group 1 has a total of 30 beds. In the past, each of them had 15 beds. Now it is obvious that the little uncle is taking care of him.

Yan Ke immediately wrote down the bed number.Yu Cheng looked at the two interns behind him again, and said to one of them, "Xiao Wu, just follow Teacher Yan."

Xiao Wu is a boy wearing glasses.Compared with the other intern, he looked more quiet and composed.Yan Ke understands that the junior master specially selected capable students for him.My heart can't help but warm.

After checking the room, Yu Cheng took the students to get a doctor's order.Yan Ke suddenly received a call from Zhang Xingduan, asking him if he still had a bed.

"A patient asked you to manage the bed by name."

"Call my name?" Yan Ke couldn't believe that he would have a repeat customer, and suddenly remembered that he had fooled his little uncle that he had an old patient that day, so he couldn't help laughing, "Did he confuse me with Yu Cheng?"

Zhang Xingduan also smiled: "No, he really came here for you. His name is Yang Minghuan, do you still have any impression?"

"With so many patients, I can't remember who is who."

"It's the old man you rescued on the plane."

Yan Ke was taken aback.Zhang Xingduan continued: "The old man has a very good impression of you. I want to be hospitalized for a comprehensive physical examination this time, so I specially contacted me through an acquaintance and asked me to arrange a bed for you. It is sincere enough to go around such a long circle and ask for you by name." Yes."

Yan Ke vaguely remembered that this was a scientist engaged in nuclear energy, and he had received the award back from Hong Kong that time.Yan Ke couldn't help being flattered that such a well-known figure favored him so much: "When does he want to come?"

"He's here with me, and I'll bring him up if there's a bed."

Yan Ke hurriedly looked at the computer: "Yes, yes."

Zhang Xingduan said: "Okay...by the way, is Yu Cheng here?"

"Yes, I'll call him."

"No need." Zhang Xingduan smiled, "Anyway, I'm going up."

Yan Ke thought so, and hung up the phone.He was a little excited, and told Yu Cheng about it, and Yu Cheng was also very happy.

Yan Ke called Xiao Wu and asked him to follow the patient for a while.Before the patient came up, Yan Ke chatted with Xiao Wu at the nurse's station.Xiao Wu asked him if he still remembered Ling Lu, the boy who came to practice in August.

When Yan Ke was asked this question, he felt a strange feeling in his heart.Sui Dao: "Remember. Are you in the same batch as him for an internship?"

Xiao Wu smiled and said, "Yes, I'm his roommate."

Roommate?Isn't that the one who was having an affair with Xuanxuan?Yan Ke suddenly wanted to laugh.He took a closer look and found that this roommate was really different from what he had imagined. He was gentle and gentle, and he didn't look like someone who would cheat.

But whether he cheats or not has nothing to do with Yan Ke, as long as he can do his job well.

Zhang Xingduan brought Yang Minghuan up, along with his wife.Yan Ke saw a scroll of pennants in Yang Minghuan's hand from a long distance, couldn't help but blushed, and went up to meet him.

Zhang Xingduan made a brief introduction, and Yang Minghuan solemnly thanked Yan Ke, waved out the banner in his hand, and even bowed.Yan Ke was so frightened that he quickly bowed in return.The nurses behind them giggled at the behavior of the two of them, Yan Ke felt his face burning, but his heart was happy.

Zhang Xingduan entrusted the old couple to Yan Ke, and went to the office to find Yu Cheng.Yan Ke put the pennant at the nurse's station, and then led the old couple to the bed.

At that time, the situation on the plane was urgent, and the two elderly people inevitably lost their composure. Only then did Yan Ke realize that both of them were polite.As soon as I entered the ward, I greeted the patient in the next bed first. When the nurse came to measure the blood pressure and temperature, he was also polite and said "thank you".All in all, they're a lovely old couple.

Yan Ke felt very relieved, and took out his notebook: "Have you had any discomfort recently?"

Yang Minghuan said: "Nothing, everything is fine."

The wife on the side said: "He has been coughing for the past two months, and he doesn't take it seriously."

Yang Minghuan said with a smile: "I don't cough every day, but I cough twice when my throat feels uncomfortable. I guess it's chronic pharyngitis."

Yan Ke asked: "Have you had chronic pharyngitis before?"

"No, I just want to come in and check this time."

Yan Ke took apart a tongue depressor and leaned in front of the old man: "Come on, open your mouth and let me see. Ah——"

The old man opened his mouth wide in cooperation, and his wife smiled and looked at it, as if looking at his own child.

Yan Ke threw away the tongue depressor and said, "I do have chronic pharyngitis."

Xiao Wu asked curiously, "Teacher, what do you think about chronic pharyngitis?"

Yan Ke saw that everyone in the ward looked eager for knowledge, so he explained in detail: "First of all, there must be clinical symptoms, continuous pharyngeal discomfort for more than 3 months. The specific manifestations are different for everyone. Some people feel that there is a foreign body sensation. Some people have an itchy throat and want to cough, while others have a sore throat."

Yang Minghuan nodded and said: "I just feel that there is something in my throat and I want to cough, but nothing comes out."

Yan Ke said: "Symptoms alone are not enough, we also need to look at physical signs." He removed a tongue depressor again, asked the old man to open his mouth again, and illuminated it with a small flashlight, saying, "Patients with chronic pharyngitis will have throat mucosa hyperemia. There will also be a small amount of mucous discharge. You can see his mucous membranes are very typical—"

Xiao Wu leaned over, watched carefully, and nodded seriously.Yan Ke turned off the flashlight, only to find that the patients in the next two beds were also gathered around him to probe their brains.Seeing that he had finished reading, the two patients said in unison: "Doctor, please help me to read it too!"

Everyone laughed.After Yan Ke checked the two of them, Yang Minghuan praised: "Doctor Yan is really considerate and patient, and he is responsive to every patient's request."

Yan Ke was overwhelmed by his praise, and hurriedly said: "It's nothing to do with a little effort. I just took a rough look-I'll ask you for an otolaryngology consultation. They have a laryngoscope to see more clearly. Treatment And more experienced."

The old couple gave another burst of thanks.Yan Ke continued to ask the doctor, Yang Minghuan said that there was no other discomfort.Because of his special work, he has to have a comprehensive physical examination every year.In the past, I went to the Western Hospital for examination. This year, since I met Yan Ke once, I went to the Traditional Chinese Medicine Hospital for the examination.I also took this opportunity to thank him.

Yan Ke thought of the pennant, and his face turned red again: "You are too polite, it is a doctor's bounden duty to save lives and heal the wounded."

Yang Minghuan said sincerely: "But you saved me. This is a fact. I can't take it for granted just because your profession is a doctor. I'm really grateful that you saved my life."

Yan Ke was full of a sense of accomplishment in his heart, and couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth.

"Then this time, let's take a full chest X-ray, abdominal ultrasound and head CT." Yan Ke's tone became more relaxed with a happy mood, "There are also a few routine tests, blood, urine and feces biochemistry, plus tumor indicators .If there are other tests you want to do, let me know anytime."

The two old men nodded and thanked him again.

Yan Ke returned to the office, explained the key points of the consultation to Xiao Wu again, and asked him to write the medical records.The joy in his heart couldn't be calmed down, he wanted to have a good chat with the little uncle, but found that the little uncle was not in the office.

The door to the deputy director's office next door was closed. He turned the handle and the door was locked.Just as I was about to take out my phone and send a WeChat message to my uncle, the door suddenly opened.

Zhang Xingduan came out and almost bumped into him.He quickly smiled and said, "Yo, Mr. Yan, are you done asking?"

Only then did Yan Ke remember that Zhang Xingduan had something to do with his junior uncle, so he didn't think much about it, and just said with a smile: "It's over, it's nothing, just a routine physical examination."

"Okay. Then you take good care of him. This old man is a man of dignity." Zhang Xingduan patted him on the shoulder, smiled and walked away.

Yan Ke walked into the director's office, saw Yu Cheng sitting behind the desk, and asked casually, "What are you two talking about, and the door is still locked."

"..." Yu Cheng paused for a second and said with a smile, "A patient in the outpatient clinic stuffed a red envelope, and I ran away before I could return it. Mr. Zhang is here to investigate the situation."

Yan Ke clicked his tongue twice.Yu Cheng asked again: "How is your old patient? What kind of examinations will be done?"

"Just the admission routine, and a full set of tumors. (Note)" Yan Ke took out his notebook and glanced at it. "Oh, there is also an ear, nose and throat consultation. His throat is a little uncomfortable."

"Why are you uncomfortable?"

"Foreign body sensation. I've seen my throat, chronic pharyngitis."

Yu Cheng thought for a while: "Give him another neck B-ultrasound."

Yan Ke was taken aback: "Why? Get rid of the tumor?"

"Well. Isn't he a nuclear energy researcher? He is often exposed to radiation and belongs to a high-risk group. His tumor screening is not enough to rely on blood draws, and imaging studies need to be more detailed."

"I didn't expect that." A trace of self-blame flashed in Yan Ke's eyes.

Yu Cheng smiled and said, "Did you subconsciously not want him to get this disease, so you didn't think about it?"

Yan Ke nodded guiltily.Yu Cheng said: "This is normal. Therefore, doctors try not to see acquaintances as much as possible. If you care about it, you will be confused. Your emotional tendency will affect your judgment."

Yan Ke sighed, turned his head to leave: "I'll go and change the doctor's order."

Yu Cheng suddenly stopped him: "Wait, Beibei."

Yan Ke was taken aback.

Yu Cheng said: "Close the door, come here. Come to me."

Yan Ke's heartbeat suddenly accelerated, and he obediently obeyed.He came behind the desk, Yu Cheng held his hands, looked up at him and said, "Beibei, you have to have confidence in yourself. You can complete the rescue independently on the plane, and now you are in the hospital, with us The entire respiratory department is backing you, so what are you afraid of? Do it boldly, and I will watch over you. Don’t be afraid of making mistakes. Mistakes will impress you and make you grow. This is the process you must go through to become a talent .”

Yan Ke's eyes became hot, and he sniffled and hummed.

Yu Cheng smiled encouragingly, and suddenly remembered something, and said apologetically, "By the way, I have something to do tonight..."

"Aren't you coming back for dinner?"

Yu Cheng thought for a while: "No, I'll make the meal when I come back. I just have to go out after dinner."

Yan Ke nodded, and said obediently: "Okay, I understand. Junior uncle, don't tire yourself out. Then I'll go to issue a B-ultrasound order."

Yu Cheng smiled softly at him, let go of his hand, and Yan Ke left the office wagging his tail like a puppy.

After a while, Yu Cheng also walked out of the office and went to the locker room alone.

Then he took out a room card from the pocket of his white coat, glanced at the name of the hotel, and put it in his closet.

Note: Admission routine refers to a set of doctor’s orders that are carried out as a routine after admission, generally referring to basic examinations such as full chest X-ray, head CT, abdominal B-ultrasound, blood, urine and stool, biochemistry, and coagulation function.