Boundless benevolence

Li Shixi's home is a detached villa in a well-known wealthy area in Taipei City.When he was young, Li Shixi was very proud of the size and spaciousness of his home, but as he grew up and became estranged from his father, his sense of belonging to his home became weaker and weaker, so he chose to study abroad and went to I work in a hospital far away from home so that I can go home less.Looking at the familiar but unfamiliar buildings, Li Shixi realized in a daze that he hadn't been back here for a long time.

Hearing the sound of the car, Li Shijie ran out of the house - he is Li Shixi's younger brother, six years younger than Shixi.He rushed directly in front of Li Shixi and hugged his brother: "Brother."

Just one word, I heard a faint nasal sound.

"Huh? Are you crying?" Li Shixi deliberately teased his younger brother.

"You're the one crying." Li Shijie said stiffly.Different from Shixi's flamboyant personality, Li Shijie's personality is more stable and restrained, but he is very small and a little baby fat, so he always looks a bit old-fashioned.Li Shixi rubbed his younger brother's hair lovingly - his younger brother was probably the only reason he was willing to go home.

"Okay, you two stop talking at the door." Shao Jing parked the car and walked over, "Go into the house."

The three walked into the door.Li Shixi followed behind Shijie, and subconsciously looked at the shoe cabinet at the door when he entered the door. Li Shijie knew what he was worried about, and explained: "Brother, don't worry, Dad has a meeting today, and he won't be back for a while."

Li Shixi nodded, the expression on his face softened a little.

Walking into the house and looking around, Li Shixi felt a little strange, as if he hadn't been back here for a long time.Li Shijie poured a glass of water for his brother, and then began to ask him questions.Li Shixi answered a few times, and then took the opportunity of his brother to pause and said: "I heard from Shao Jing that you have a video of Zhuo Xuan?"

Li Shijie glanced at Shao Jing quickly, then turned his gaze back, and admitted, "Yes."

"Where? I want to see."

Li Shijie was about to say something, but Shao Jing said first, "Shijie, let your brother use your computer to watch."

Li Shijie was startled for a moment before he understood what Shao Jing meant.So he nodded: "Let's go, brother, go and watch in my room." Then, he got up and took his brother into his room, took out the computer, found a video, and said, "This is the video before Zhuo Xuan's operation." That day, Shao Jing and I were specially asked to record it. He also said, please don’t blame Uncle Gu and the others... Brother, take your time, I’ll wait for you outside.” After Shijie finished speaking, he left the room considerately.

"Is your brother interested?" Seeing Li Shijie coming, Shao Jing asked.

"En." Li Shijie nodded, walked to Shao Jing and sat down.After a while, he said softly: "Tell me, will my brother feel better after watching the video?"

"Maybe, but it will take time to get out." Shao Jing replied, seeing Li Shijie's worried expression, he patted him like Li Shixi did, "Don't worry, your brother can get through this."

Li Shijie nodded, but there was still worry in his eyes.

A few minutes later, there was the sound of the door opening.

"Brother." Li Shijie immediately got up and greeted him.He walked in front of Shixi, and said cautiously, "Brother, have you finished reading?"

"Yeah." Li Shixi nodded, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, "I have an early shift tomorrow, so I'll be going back." After speaking, he turned and walked out.

"Eh, bro?" Before Li Shijie could ask to stay, Li Shixi had already walked to the door.Just as he was about to open the door, it suddenly opened.

An old man in his 50s and in a suit stood at the door.And he seemed to be quite surprised by Li Shixi's appearance, so he was stunned and didn't speak for a while.

At this embarrassing moment, Li Shijie reacted quickly, and hurried up to meet him: "Dad, why are you back? Didn't you say you have a meeting today?"

"Well, the meeting was earlier, so I came back earlier." The old man nodded - he was Li Shixi's father, Li Yongzhe.

Li Yongzhe is more than 50 years old, with a Chinese character face, he has a sense of majesty.He glanced at Li Shixi, did not speak, then turned his gaze to Shao Jing, and said in a gentle tone: "Shao Jing, thank you for your hard work, Shixi's matter is really thanks to you."

"Where, Uncle is being polite, this is what I should do." After Shao Jing finished speaking, he glanced at Li Shixi.

Li Shixi was silent, without any expression on his face.

"Dad," Li Shijie saw the scene in front of him, and suddenly had an idea, "Brother Shao Jing said, brother's case has been withdrawn. There are so many people today, why don't we have a meal together?"

When Li Shijie said this, the other three were taken aback.Shao Jing just wanted to refuse, but when he raised his eyes, he saw Li Shijie winking at him non-stop.He realized it instantly, so he smiled and said, "You don't need to be so polite."

"No, Shijie is right." Li Yongzhe said, "It's time to express my thanks. Shao Jing, then stay for a meal."

At the same time, Li Shijie also walked over and grabbed Li Shixi's arm: "Brother, let's go after dinner."

Li Shixi was taken aback for a moment—frankly speaking, he didn't want to stay here any longer, but it was obviously inappropriate for Shijie to come up with the reason of "thanks to Shao Jing" and leave by himself.Li Shixi looked at his younger brother who was posing with him, and nodded helplessly.

In order to thank Shao Jing and welcome the young master who hadn't come home for a long time, the aunt in the kitchen of the Li family cooked a very sumptuous dinner.The four sat at the dining table, but the atmosphere was a little awkward.Li Yongzhe said a few words to Shao Jing from time to time, but he didn't speak to Li Shixi, and Li Shixi was even more silent, only saying a short "um" when Shijie spoke to him, and there was no extra words.This was a pain for Li Shijie and Shao Jing, they had no choice but to keep raising the topic, trying to ease the embarrassment.

Just when the meal was about to finish, Li Yongzhe put down his chopsticks, looked at Li Shixi, and finally spoke.

"You should stop being a doctor and go back to my company."

"No." Li Shixi replied, "I'm not interested in business, I'm still suitable to be a doctor."

"If you don't have interest, you can develop it slowly. If you have filed such a lawsuit this time, even if the other party withdraws the lawsuit, your work in the hospital may be affected in the future. Anyway, the business at home must be entrusted to you to take care of. Come back this time."

"Thank you for your concern, but I still don't intend to resign. I'm full, so I'm leaving first." After finishing speaking, Shixi got up and walked out.

"Stop!" The old man slammed his chopsticks on the table, startling the other two people on the table.

Li Shixi stopped in his tracks.

"You just talk to your father like that?!" The old man's voice was low, obviously a little angry.

"Uncle Li, don't be angry." Shao Jing quickly comforted him.

"Since I was young, I have always been so self-willed and never listened to other people's advice. I am almost 30 years old, how can I still be so ignorant?!"

Hearing the last sentence, Li Shixi's tense body actually relaxed. He smiled and turned his head: "You have always been good for me. Everything you do is for my good." Li Shixi's expression became colder, "I really hope that you can stop being so 'for my own good'."

Not caring about his father's sudden change of expression, Li Shixi left.

"Shixi!" Li Shixi didn't take a few steps out of the house when he heard Shao Jing's voice behind him.

Li Shixi turned around and saw Shao Jing trotting towards him.

"What are you doing here? I'm fine, you can go back." He said to Shao Jing.

"I picked you up, and I should be responsible for sending you back." Shao Jing replied, "Let's go, are you going back to the hospital or the dormitory?"

"Go to the hospital."

"Is there work at this late hour?" Shao Jing frowned.

"If you really don't trust me, you can follow me." After Li Shixi finished speaking, he got into the car.

Shao Jing was really worried about Li Shixi, so he really followed.However, what he didn't expect was that Li Shixi actually led him outside the maternity ward.

"What are you doing in this kind of place?" Shao Jing looked around uncomfortably—they were standing outside the baby nursing room of the obstetrics department, and through the large floor-to-ceiling windows, they could see the medical staff inside giving care to the newborn baby. Baby care.The two men, he and Li Shixi, were lying outside the window looking at this kind of thing, so it felt so awkward.

"Didn't you say you wanted to come with me?" Li Shixi glanced at Shao Jing, with a slightly playful tone.

"I think you are deliberately teasing me." Shao Jing sighed deliberately.Li Shixi's ability to make fun of him at least shows that he has recovered a little.

The two of them just lay on their stomachs outside the window and watched the baby inside being picked up by the nurse, taking a bath, weighing it, and wrapping it in a new quilt.It was also the first time for Shao Jing to see these, and it was very fresh.Just when he was almost fascinated, he heard Li Shixi's voice beside him.

"When I was in school, I heard from the seniors that if you feel sad for someone's death, then go and see the newborn baby. You will understand that life has been passed on in this way, The old life disappears, and the new life comes. The life of human beings and even all things continues in this life and death. I think I have seen life and death in the past few years of work, but this time, I found that I really can’t do that. The clouds are calm and the wind is light." Li Shixi spoke slowly, without taking his eyes off the glass window.

Shao Jing looked at Li Shixi - this was the first time Li Shixi talked with him about his thoughts after Zhuo Xuan's accident.Shao Jing listened quietly, only to hear Li Shixi continue to say: "I don't think I did anything wrong, but I really hate myself for not being able to save him. I have studied medicine for so many years, and I have paid so much hard work. I worked hard, and I saved many lives, but in the end, I couldn't save the person I wanted to save the most. The only thing I could do was send him away with my own hands..." At this point, Li Shixi turned his head: " Ah Jing, can you understand that feeling of powerlessness? Realizing that your power is so small, no matter how hard you try, you can’t achieve your goals. Then, you start to doubt yourself, wondering if your choice is right, and you can still do it what..."

"I understand that I also have that kind of time. We are all human beings, not gods, so there are things we can't do. But I always say to myself, since God let me engage in such a job, it is His will. "

"Hehe, it's really a blessing to be a person with faith. You don't have to think about anything, just leave it to God." Li Shixi shook his head with a smile. He forgot that Shao Jing is a devout Christian, "Unfortunately, God can't give me strength."

"God loves the world, and the motivation to support our beliefs exists. You are a doctor. Isn't it your belief to save lives and heal the wounded? Without you, more people will suffer from diseases and may even die. You are You have failed, but you have also succeeded, do you still remember who was the last life you saved?"

"The last one?" Li Shixi subconsciously repeated Shao Jing's words, and a dark-skinned baby appeared in his mind inexplicably.

stunned.

Some pictures that had never been noticed suddenly became clear in my mind: the vast prairie of Tanzania, the extremely simple surgery in the wilderness, the happy expression of black mothers seeing their children, the happiness and devotion of fathers gently kissing the baby's forehead...

Shao Jing looked at Li Shixi who suddenly fell into memory, and finally showed a relieved smile on his face.

Back in the dormitory, Li Shixi went straight to his suitcase, and found the MSF thin blanket from it.He stared at the blanket for a moment, then went to the computer and typed "Doctors Without Borders" into the search engine.A lot of information jumped out, and Li Shixi clicked on a webpage, which contained an introduction to MSF and many photos of MSF.Looking at the staff members wearing the white T-shirts, Li Shixi suddenly remembered that among the two Doctors Without Borders met in Tanzania, a Chinese doctor asked him if he was interested in visiting their camp...

Maybe, I should really go to see you...

The author has something to say: I found that once the setting of a character changes in a story, even if it is just a change of nationality, his words and deeds will also change accordingly, even quite different.so amazing.