Difficult to break up ABO

"For her? You think I proposed it for her? Let me tell you clearly, I, Qi Xuan, am a layman, and I can't do this for anyone else... It can only be for you." Qi Xuan stepped forward impulsively He took a few steps, as if he was defending something.He looked down at Ruan Xiao condescendingly, looking at Ruan Xiao with eyes that he seldom used but were full of oppression.He was eager to reveal his heart to Ruan Xiao.

"She didn't cross the line after that, and I didn't mention it again. If you find it difficult for you to accept, I can go to another hospital to work. It will take some time, but it is not difficult." Qi Xuan added.

Ruan Xiao smiled at him and said, "I don't feel uncomfortable. There is no need to do such troublesome things."

Ruan Xiao did not forgive him.Qi Xuan noticed this, he felt that this time was different from usual.In the past, Ruan Xiao would forgive him, Ruan Xiao has always been soft-hearted and easy to talk, not to mention that he didn't do anything on his own initiative this time.Qi Xuan was a little panicked, he said: "Don't be angry with me just because of a few words from others."

"I don't blame you for anything. Originally, I didn't have the right to ask about your private life. It's just that at the end, I want to ask things that I don't understand clearly, so I can end it more clearly. That's all."

"...What is the end? What is the end?" Qi Xuan was stunned, and grabbed Ruan Xiao's shoulder forcefully.

"In the past, I always thought that when I can suppress my sexual period, it's time to leave you....In fact, it's all an excuse. If you really want to give up, even if you can't find an inhibitor, you can still give up..."

"Don't say such things!" Qi Xuan interrupted him, "You'd better calm down and think about it! I can give you everything you want, why do you want to leave at this time?"

Ruan Xiao looked at Qi Xuan quietly, he thought of Qi Xuan's appearance in high school, a bitter smile was slightly evoked on his lips, but his eyes became gentle.At that time, Qi Xuan was a little shorter than now, and there was still baby fat on his cheeks. His facial features were handsome as a teenager, but now he is handsome as a man.In addition, Qi Xuan's appearance at that time has not changed from his current appearance. The years are wonderful, and ten years are enough to bring about earth-shaking changes in this ever-changing world, but Qi Xuan is still the big boy who never grows up. boy.

"From the sports equipment warehouse at the high school graduation ceremony to today, almost ten years have passed. Ever since I fell in love with you, I have fantasized about having such a home that belongs to us. Even if our relationship is not clear later, I will be with you When I get closer to me, I secretly think about it wishfully. In recent years, I have been fantasizing a lot less. I know that you can be happy for a while and treat me well, or you can disappear for ten days and a half months without hearing from you. Now you are because of a dream , I suddenly realized that having a home with me is not so bad. One day in the future, maybe you will wake up and realize that I am not the person you want to spend your life with, and find that a home is not as good as you imagined. You regret it, after all The reason is that you will accuse me of ruining your freedom if you choose me on a whim. I don’t have the strength to fight with you anymore, and I can’t go on.”

Qi Xuan tremblingly said: "Why do you worry about things that didn't happen? Why do you always think about things so badly?"

"You still don't understand what I mean," Ruan Xiao said softly, "The key is not whether something will happen in the future, but that I have been exhausted by all these years of bad things one after another, and I feel tired I have no way to trust you, and I don’t want to have illusions anymore. There will be ups and downs in the future, but I don’t have the confidence to face it with you. We are really not suitable. Qi Xuan, I don’t know you How many more decades will it take to really grow up, but I can't afford it, and it's meaningless to spend it like this."

"Let's separate."

Ruan Xiao said the same thing many years ago.The two stared at each other for a long time, but neither of them spoke.

"You don't want me?"

Ruan Xiao opened the sliding door, stepped into the room, and suddenly heard Qi Xuan behind him asking himself, like a dog abandoned by its owner, whimpering vaguely.

"You don't want me?"

Ruan Xiao, who was half asleep and half awake, seemed to hear this sentence again, like an auditory hallucination.He was wide awake.

He got up and sat for a while, then changed his clothes and took a shower.After tidying up, he unlocked the bedroom door.

The sky turned white, and a cold light came through the gap between the curtains.There was a person sleeping on the sofa, with a chicken nest head on his head, sound asleep.Ruan Xiao looked down at him, hiding the emotion in his pupils.

Half a month ago, Ruan Xiao proposed to end the relationship with Qi Xuan.Whatever emotional entanglements there had been between them was over.Ruan Xiao packed Qi Xuan's things at home and asked Qi Xuan to pick them up, but Qi Xuan refused, so Ruan Xiao sent them all to him.Ruan Xiao said that he would take full responsibility for selling the house, but Qi Xuan refused, saying that he would not sell it.Ruan Xiao hoped that Qi Xuan would return the key, but Qi Xuan refused. Sometimes when Ruan Xiao came home, he saw Qi Xuan had booked a table full of Chinese people and was still working hard at the housework. When he turned around, he was full of praise.Ruan Xiao changed the lock.

On the first and second day after changing the lock, Qi Xuan did not come to Ruan Xiao again.On the third day, Qi Xuan waited in the lobby of Ruan Xiao's office building, and it was Ling Feng who told Ruan Xiao.Ling Feng said that there were already three circles of people around Qi Xuan, like a small media meeting.Ruan Xiao called Qi Xuan, and Qi Xuan said aggrievedly that he just wanted to pick Ruan Xiao off work.Ruan Xiao spent a lot of time to send him away, and even agreed to his request to cook another meal for him.After this meal, a few days later, Qi Xuan knocked on the door of his house again drunk, with a pitiful voice.Ruan Xiao asked him to go, but he refused.An hour later, Ruan Xiao went out to take out the trash, only to find Qi Xuan leaning against the door of his house and falling asleep.It was late at night, so Ruan Xiao had no choice but to move him back to his sofa.When he touched Qi Xuan's hand, it was a little cold, and inexplicable and complicated emotions surged in his heart.Ruan Xiao covered him with a thick quilt, then went into the bedroom without looking back, and locked the door.

With Qi Xuan's appearance, he looked like a child who couldn't get any sweets and insisted on sitting on the ground and acting coquettishly.After a while, when he finds candy that looks more novel and delicious, he won't pester him anymore.Ruan Xiao thought.

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