Yu Huan

When the things in front of him became clear, Xue Yang had already returned to Jinlin Terrace. The huge loss of spiritual power made his legs weak uncontrollably, and he simply sat on the chair with the child in his arms and began to casually look at it.The teleportation talisman was given to him by Su She for emergencies, but he didn't expect it to come in handy.Looking at the layout of the house now, Jin Guangyao's secret room is gone, it really saves him to look for it, he just needs to wait for the person to come back at night.

Xue Yang changed a comfortable position and leaned in the chair, looked down at the sleeping child in his arms, and stroked her back with his right hand a few times. The originally quiet baby let out a weak cry, and Xue Yang quickly patted it a few times. , shaking her carefully, coaxing her to continue to sleep.

This was when I lived with Jin Guangyao in previous years, I saw Jin Guangyao used it on wood, so I remembered it in my heart.Children are fragile, and loud noises will scare them. This method can prevent children from hearing those movements while sleeping.At that time, Xue Yang was still in the mood to joke with Jin Guangyao, saying that this was a good move, if Mu Mu prevents you from messing around with that nonsense surnamed Nie in the future, you can use this to make him deaf, so as not to cause any psychological shadow.

At this time, it was still interesting to think of these things again, Xue Yang leaned on the back of the chair and kissed the baby's chubby little hand, watching silently.Their business was so complicated that even he couldn't figure it out himself, and the kid shouldn't even listen.So as soon as Xiao Xingchen kicked in the door at that time, he used that method to separate her five senses and let her fall into a deep sleep.

All the past is an entanglement between them, right or wrong is not up to this child.

Xue Yang raised his head and exhaled softly, bent his straight back, and curled up there lazily.The quarrel just now was too exhausting for the mind, and the body didn't feel tired until it relaxed.But before he recovered from the exhaustion, he heard a creak, footsteps came in from outside the door and stopped not far away, followed by the sizzle of tables and chairs being pulled away and the sound of talking.Xue Yang recognized that one of them was Jin Guangyao, while the other was very unfamiliar.

"Why are you so anxious to find me all of a sudden?" Jin Guangyao rolled up his sleeves and poured a cup of tea to the person opposite, with a gentle smile on his brows and eyes.

Mo Xuanyu held the teacup with a restless look and looked very disturbed. With trembling hands, he brought the tea to his lips and took a sip, without even realizing it was scalded.His head was hanging low, only peeking at Jin Guangyao from under his eyelashes, docile and timid.

"What's wrong?" Jin Guangyao asked again with a smile.

"I, I, succeeded in forming the alchemy." Mo Xuanyu said in a soft voice.

"Isn't this very good? Why didn't you say it earlier? Otherwise, I will definitely ask someone to make a saber for you." Jin Guangyao patted him on the shoulder, feeling a little joyful as an elder brother in his heart. "It's too late now, follow me to see my brother later, and then go to the Treasure Pavilion to pick out some fairy artifacts I like."

"Brother Ayao, am I useless?" Mo Xuanyu suddenly asked, "The alchemy is so late, and my aptitude is mediocre."

Jin Guangyao was stunned for a moment, then smiled, "Don't say that, you're still young."

"But when you were your age..."

"How can you and I be the same?" Jin Guangyao smiled and shook his head, "At that time, everyone was in danger when there was a war. How can we compare in the peaceful days now? You see that Huai Sangjiedan is later than you, and every day Isn't it fun to be taught by his elder brother? Don't think too much about it."

Mo Xuanyu bit his lower lip tightly, and shook his head imperceptibly.

Different, different.Nie Huaisang is the suzerain, but he is just an idle young master, how can it be the same?He originally thought that Jin Guangyao was the same as him, and the status of an illegitimate child was very embarrassing on this Jinlin platform, so it was inevitable that some sympathetic dependence would arise.

He thought that since Jin Guangyao was so good, maybe he could do it himself.So he took Jin Guangyao as his goal, and walked forward silently with ignorant affection and admiration.But no.Jin Guangyao is far superior to him.He walked so hard, but he could only watch the man get farther and farther away from him, and he couldn't keep up no matter how he chased him. For three years, he was full of fear, confusion, restlessness and powerlessness, walking on the road at a loss, but he didn't even know the direction. Can't find it.

He was very scared, because he knew very well that no matter how hard he tried, he could only get so far.The inexplicable pressure on his shoulders made him breathless, what would outsiders say?What would my brother say?What would my mother say?What will the Mo family say?What would Jin Guangyao say?Can he really not care about it? For more than 1000 days and nights, it was like being on the edge of a cliff all the time, trying hard every day to keep myself from falling.But that alone is already exhausting.He tried to grab something, but there was nothing.

Seeing his complexion, Jin Guangyao couldn't help being very worried, and gently held his hand.But he didn't want Mo Xuanyu to cry in an instant, tears streaming down one after another, his whole body trembling with sobs.

"I like you, I really like you."

That desperate tone made people's hearts jump with fear, like the last struggle of a dying person.

"Xuan Yu, you are my younger brother, so I naturally like you." Jin Guangyao comforted in a soft voice.

"You don't understand, you don't understand." Crying and crying, Mo Xuanyu suddenly laughed, holding his head and burying himself tightly between his knees, his body kept shaking, crying and laughing for a while.

Which do you like?I don't even know what kind of love I have for you.Brotherhood, admiration, or... the pain of lovesickness?That's all, it's always just wishful thinking, is there any difference in which kind of feelings?

No, no, I can't, I'm so scared.

Mo Xuanyu suddenly raised his head, staring at Jin Guangyao closely, his dark eyes were soaked in tears like obsidian, but his eyes were chaotic and crazy.Jin Guangyao's scalp went numb from the look, and he felt a hint of danger, so he subconsciously pressed his hands on his waist.But Mo Xuanyu just looked at it for a while, smiled and shook his head with tears all over his face, got up and left.

It's all fake, everything in these years is unreal, hard work can't be rewarded, and feelings can't be responded to.It's all fake.But among these falsehoods, my love for you is true.

Jin Guangyao couldn't help but heave a sigh of relief watching him go, and raised his hand to wipe the cold sweat off his forehead, feeling that he was very strange today.But before he could completely relax, he was startled by the sudden noise in the room and almost jumped up.

"I said little man, let me out quickly."

Jin Guangyao walked up to the floor-standing bronze mirror where he usually groomed himself and put his hand on it. After a while, the original hard mirror swallowed his hand like water.Jin Guangyao reached out and pulled Xue Yang's sleeve to pull him out. As soon as he saw that smiling face, he couldn't help feeling tired.

"Chengmei, have you gotten into trouble again?"

"Shut up! Don't call me that in front of the child." Xue Yang gritted his teeth.

Jin Guangyao hesitated to speak and glanced at the baby in his arms, then suddenly seemed to remember something, left Xue Yang in the room and hurried away.Xue Yang couldn't figure out what he was going to do, so he put the child on the bed and wandered around the room by himself.

Every door and window is pasted with big red "囍" characters.On the changing rack over there was a set of bright red robes made of the finest brocade. The style was simple, but the workmanship was exquisite.Xue Yang took a closer look and found that the robe was embroidered with dark patterns all over it, very gorgeous.On the chest of the robe, a golden star and snow waves are embroidered with brighter gold threads.The outside of the robe is covered with a layer of red tulle, which hides the luxury and luxury inside, but it is faintly visible and makes people daydream.The gilt hairpin crown matched with this robe is placed on the dressing table, and the meticulous carving makes the animal heads engraved on it lifelike, luxurious yet majestic.A long brocade hair band is neatly stacked and pressed under the hairpin crown, which is also bright red in color.

Xue Yang counted the days, the three-year mourning period had expired, and his return this time coincided with the wedding day.I can't believe it's been so long.

He was thinking that Jin Guangyao came back with a child over there, and the door was closed and restricted after entering, which seemed very mysterious.Xue Yang's eyes fell on the child, and Jin Guangyao didn't need to speak to know anything.He could see Song Zichen's appearance on that still immature Baozi's face with no facial features yet opened, but on that well-behaved, serious and indifferent face, a pair of bright black eyes revealed an unyielding arrogance, showing a bit of completeness. Inconsistent and unruly.

This is his child.

"Master?" The boy tugged at the corner of Jin Guangyao's clothes, frowning slightly in confusion.

"Isn't Ah Lin clamoring for Daddy? No, that's it." Jin Guangyao squatted halfway to talk to him, put his hand on his back and gently pushed him forward.

Xue Yang stood there and watched the boy staggering towards him. The three-year-old boy was not very tall, and his little hands were so cute.He lowered his head and looked at those eyes that were very similar to his own, almost being burned by the light in them.

"They all say you're a bad guy, really?" The boy raised his head, struggling to make his expression look serious.It's too funny for such a steamed bun face to make such an expression, but he couldn't laugh.

"Yeah, I'm a very, very bad person." Xue Yang pretended to be indifferent on purpose, with a frivolous tone. "How? Are you scared?"

The boy shook his head, and suddenly jumped forward and hugged his calf, "Big villain, I caught you, don't leave."

Xue Yang stared blankly at his determination for a while, then suddenly bent down and hugged him tightly in his arms.After a few weak struggles, the boy hugged his neck tightly, buried his flushed face in his arms, and hiccupped while whimpering.Xue Yang also felt uncomfortable, trying to restrain himself from the urge to cry, cheek to cheek, slowly rubbing comfortingly.

Jin Guangyao couldn't help but make a very sad expression when he saw the two of them hugging each other and crying when they reunited after a long absence, and said, "Ah Lin really has a father and forgot about Master, Master is very sad."

"..." Xue Yang rolled his eyes without hiding anything.

Jin GuangYao smiled indifferently, shrugged and went to the bed, picked up the baby who had woken up, and played with her.After teasing for a while and seeing that the two of them had calmed down a lot, he opened his mouth and said, "Your note is blurred. I wanted to ask for a long time. Whose child is it? A boy or a girl?"

"This is my daughter. What? Do you have an opinion?"

"I know it's yours, but I'm asking if the child's father is..."

"Xiao Xingchen."

"Huh?" Jin Guangyao was stunned for a moment before he could react, and when Xue Yang repeated it impatiently for the second time, his hand trembled and almost dropped the child.

"You? You have been in these years?? Xiao Xingchen?? Wait??" Jin Guangyao was completely confused, and after he figured it out, he looked at Xue Yang's indifferent face. He really felt that he might be mentally ill. It's fine to live with the enemy, and to have such a big child, normal people can't do this anyway.But looking at what Xue Yang did, I know that it cannot be measured by the standards of normal people.He sighed softly, and continued to hold the child in his arms with complicated emotions, thinking that this was really a bad fate.

At this moment, the boy in Xue Yang's arms suddenly asked, "Xiao Xingchen... is that my father?"

Xue Yang choked for a moment, met Jin Guangyao's gloating eyes, cursed silently at him, and replied stiffly, "No. Xiao Xingchen is Tao Tao's father. But Tao Tao is your sister."

"Ah?" The boy was still young, and such a complicated relationship sounded incomprehensible. After a moment of daze, he asked, "Then who is my father? Master said he left me a jade pendant, but I I don't even know who he is ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!"

"Your father is an asshole. You look very similar to him, but don't be an asshole like him." Xue Yang said in a very serious manner, but his hands did not stop kneading the boy's cheek, "Little wood, Daddy, let me tell you, don't always keep a straight face when you're young, you look like your father, it's so ugly."

Xue Lin responded aggrievedly, the tears on her red face were still wet, she looked really pitiful.Xue Yang wiped him off with his sleeve, stared blankly at that face for a moment, and said in a low voice, "Take good care of my sister from now on."

These words couldn't be more normal, but children's hearts are extremely sensitive, and Xue Lin almost immediately felt the loss and sadness hidden in these words, as well as the meaning of separation that he didn't like the most.

"why?"

Xue Yang was slightly taken aback, then made a grimace, and said with a smile, "Because I'm a bad person."

"Yes, but you are also my father!" The boy leaned on his shoulder and said loudly excitedly.

"I'm a bad guy, what they said is right. From now on, just follow along...Your master, don't think about me anymore." Xue Yang lowered his eyes and put him back on the ground, no matter how Xue Lin shook the corner of his clothes and cried. Ken speak again.

Jin Guangyao stepped forward helplessly, and pushed the door out with one dragging the other to undo the restraints, leaving him here alone.

In order to avoid people's eyes and ears, Xue Yang nestled in Jin Guangyao's secret room without making a sound, and did not come out again until the lights were turned off at night. After a few mouthfuls of food, he slept on Jin Guangyao's bed as before.

Jin Guangyao was curious about how Xue Yang got involved with Xiao Xingchen in the past three years, but judging by his uneasy expression, he decided not to gossip.He only said that Tao Tao would stay in the Jin family to take care of Jiang Yanli, because he really couldn't explain to Nie Mingjue why Xue Lin had an extra sister.His connection with Su She and Xue Yang must not be exposed, otherwise there will be trouble again.

Jin Guangyao will not take risks for things that threaten him.Now this is the best of benevolence.Xue Yang also knew it in his heart, so he just responded, closed his eyes and didn't speak anymore.Seeing him like this, Jin Guangyao had no choice but to stop talking and sleep quietly.It's just that I don't know the child's name yet, and I'm afraid I have to find it myself again.

The two of them had their own thoughts, and they didn't sleep well.This night I made do with it, woke up and slept for a while, and woke up at dawn.

Jin Guangyao stepped on the ground with bare feet and walked to the hanger, raised his hand to lightly touch the wedding gown, looked at it tenderly for a while, and then went to wash up.Xue Yang yawned and leaned on the bedside to watch him work lazily, but when he sat in front of the dresser and opened a box of cinnabar, he couldn't help but ask, "Is there any more?"

"I don't need to order it after the past, but you also know what price I paid to return to the Jin family. I can't let go of this identity."

Xue Yang shrugged, expressing his understanding.Immediately, she got out of bed, walked to him and grabbed the pen, touched the four fingers of her left hand along the cheek and slid it to the chin to lift his head, and said with a grin, "I'll do it."

Jin Guangyao didn't object either, and let the pen tip leave a cool mark on his forehead.Xue Yang looked at it for a while and felt that it was not festive enough, but a maid happened to ask Jin Guangyao if he was awake.He whispered a few words in Jin Guangyao's ear, and winkingly asked him to follow suit.Jin GuangYao didn't know what he was going to do, but as he said, he asked the maid for a box of rouge and handed it to him.

The reddish grease was stained and hydrated in the palm of his hand, Xue Yang took a new writing brush, and asked him to close his eyes after getting the liquid.The warm touch passed over the eyelids, and when Jin Guangyao opened his eyes again, the corners of his eyes were bright red.

"That's what it looks like." Xue Yang threw away the pen and washed his hands, picked up the Qiankun bag that Jin Guangyao prepared for him last night, and left quietly before anyone got up.

But he didn't want to bump into an acquaintance at the gate of Lanling just after leaving Lanling.

Mo Xuanyu stood there with a small burden on his back, looking in the direction of Jinlin Terrace in a daze, he didn't even see Xue Yang walking in front of him.Xue Yang flicked his forehead with his thumb and middle finger, and then he refocused his eyes.

"Shouldn't you be waiting over there to see off your relatives?" Xue Yang asked.

"No. I want to go home. Goodbye." Mo Xuanyu smiled and said goodbye to him in a low voice.

Xue Yang felt strange in his heart, but suddenly felt that this might be the last time he saw him.He shook his head to put this thought behind him, took another look at the thin and thin figure, and then walked in the opposite direction without looking back.

But sometimes when we say goodbye, we really never see each other again.