mad dog

For a second or two, Gou Sheng felt that his mind was in a mess. Ye Feilan clearly understood every word, and when they were combined, they couldn't make a complete meaning.But then, he understood - Ye Feilan wanted to break up with him.

why?

Is it because he did something wrong?Or is it because he likes someone else?

At this time, Gou Sheng felt a "boom" in his head, and his flesh and blood were blown up, his soul was blown out of his body. After a long time, he came back to his senses, a pair of red eyes fixed on Ye Feilan's face, Hoarse voice: "Is it... because I put the blame on Gao Haotian's head? Do you like him?"

"..." Ye Feilan couldn't laugh or cry, "It has nothing to do with him."

"That's because I made up my own mind and caused you trouble," Gou Sheng lowered his head, "I'm sorry, I did cause you a lot of trouble in the past two months. I don't know what to say and what not to say Say, what should be done and what should not be done, but I will try to adapt, understand, think, and change..." He raised his head and looked into Ye Feilan's eyes: "I hope you can give I have a chance, from now on, I will listen to you, I will do what you ask me to do, and I will do what you ask me to do. I also promise you that I will discuss with you before making any decision , I won’t make my own decisions anymore, otherwise the sky will strike five thunders, and I will die a terrible death, my soul will be scattered, and I will never be able to enter reincarnation again.”

Ye Feilan only felt that his heart had been hit by something, it was sour, astringent and warm. When he heard the last sentence, he wanted to laugh, but he was so heartbroken that he couldn't help but want to cry.He slightly raised his head to look at the ceiling, and almost exhausted all his strength to suppress the tears, and smiled as calmly as possible and said, "It's not because of you..."

"Ye Feilan, you can beat me and scold me and ignore me," Gou Sheng interrupted him, staring at Ye Feilan, like a dog staring at a fleshy bone, domineering, fierce and focused, with a little Hushi was just as unreasonable, "You can do whatever you want to me. If you don't feel at ease, you can also tie me up with a chain. But since you provoked me, in this life, the next life, and life after life, you will be punished. Don't try to get rid of me!"

His eyes were deep and deep, with a kind of deep-rooted love and stubbornness.He thought of how the young and rebellious Ye Feilan rescued him from the dog butcher so many years ago.From that moment on, that radiant man was deeply engraved in his heart, bone marrow, and soul. Even after experiencing a soul reincarnation and drinking the Mengpo soup that broke the fate of the previous life, he still couldn't let it go. can't forget.

He originally wanted to return to the world to repay his favor, but since he met Ye Feilan again, all the details of his previous life, bit by bit, strand by strand, all memories, feelings, emotions, strong love and attachment, have all crashed into him. His mind and mind, and the little things he got along with after meeting again made him re-acquainted with the Ye Feilan in his memory from a new perspective.

The more you understand, the more you feel distressed, the more you like it.

I don't know when, he is no longer satisfied with following Ye Feilan as a dog, but wants to stand beside Ye Feilan as a person, possess him, protect him, accompany him, love him, for life, life after life , he wanted to be with Ye Feilan.

Scum master...

Gou Sheng looked into Ye Feilan's eyes, his eyes were burning like fire, with a hint of stubbornness, but his eyes were very gentle and gentle.

Scumbag master, you could have ignored me back then, but you saved me, raised me, and provoked me, so you must be responsible for me.I, Gou Sheng, have been the dog of you, Ye Feilan, for life and life, so you must also be the scumbag master of me and Gou Sheng.

You can't escape.

Ye Feilan was stunned for a moment. This was the first time that Gou Sheng was so fierce and domineering in front of him. He was so domineering that he was a little stubborn. His eyes were very complicated, so complicated that he had been in the entertainment industry for many years and had always been quite transparent. Some people can't understand it, but the love in Gou Sheng's eyes is so intense that he can't ignore it no matter what.

Although Gou Sheng gave him a very familiar feeling from the very beginning, even though he just got along with him for two months, he felt that he couldn't do without Gou Sheng, but... it was just a little bit inseparable, It's still far from heart-piercing.But the look in Gou Sheng's eyes gave him the illusion that they had been in love for many, many years, and that they had vowed never to leave each other, but he cruelly abandoned him.

But at best...they had only known each other for two months.Even... have not had time to officially start a relationship.

Even if Gou Sheng was his fan before, how strong can that kind of liking and admiration be through the screen?

So it's just an illusion...

"As I said, it's not your fault," Ye Feilan looked straight into his eyes, "It's my fault. You know, I have a mental block. At that time..."

It was because of this...

Gou Sheng breathed a sigh of relief, and interrupted Ye Feilan: "I don't care." The wrinkles between his brows suddenly loosened, and his eyes softened: "You don't need to worry about this at all, I like you because you are Ye Feilan, That's all, it has nothing to do with you. And the doctor said, as long as you are willing to open your heart, it is not impossible to cure. I know you are worried about the news leaking, I can tie the doctor to take a set of pornographic photos , if he dares to act rashly, his reputation will be ruined immediately, so he will definitely not dare."

Ye Feilan: "..."

"If you don't want to see a psychiatrist, that's okay. If you trust me, you can give yourself to me with confidence, and I will make you very happy." Gou Sheng's voice suddenly became very gentle and gentle, " If you're not ready, I can wait and wait until the day you want."

Speaking of this, Gou Sheng suddenly reached out and hugged his shoulders, lowered his head to touch his forehead, then buried his head in the hollow of his shoulder, and rubbed it lightly: "Master, don't leave me behind, okay?"

His voice was muffled, with a bit of coquettishness and flattery, very much like the big dog he had raised for 12 years.

Ye Feilan couldn't help thinking of some long, long, long past events.

At that time, he was just a young boy who had just come out of a small place and had nothing but cheap pride and dreams.Occasionally, I passed by the dog meat restaurant and saw the little milk dog trembling under the butcher's knife. I felt a strange feeling of sympathy for the same disease, and I was moved with compassion for a moment, so I rescued it.

At that time, he was too busy to take care of himself, and he was not in the mood to raise a dog.Besides, being an artist is not like ordinary people who can work and live in one place for ten years. In the future, he will have to catch up on announcements, hold concerts, film movies, and fly around the world. He may not be at home for several months. With a dog, it was such an inconvenience.

So when it grew into an adult dog with a strong body and sharp claws, and was able to protect itself, Ye Feilan let it go.

But it refused to go.

Every night, when Ye Feilan came back from the practice room, it would guard the door of the basement where he lived. Whenever it heard his footsteps, it would swoop over with its big, fluffy tail, stick out its big, grainy tongue to lick his hand, and Rubbing his big head against his leg.Occasionally, they would put a pair of big paws with thick plum blossom pads on his shoulders, lick his face, or use the big dog head to arch back and forth in the hollow of his shoulders.

It grows so big, even taller and stronger than ordinary large dogs. It is as thick as a Tibetan mastiff. It looks extremely fierce, but in fact it is the most coquettish.

Ye Feilan's heart suddenly softened.

He has never been resistant to this kind of large creature that can act like a baby, and he really wants to rub his big head with short, stiff hair. He said yes, I promise you.I promise you anything.

But he knew he couldn't.

"Okay," Ye Feilan forcibly pushed Gou Sheng away, "A big man is always acting like a baby, what's wrong?"

Gou Sheng pursed his lips and looked at him aggrieved: "Master..."

"Listen to what I have to say," Ye Feilan made a gesture to shut up, "If you are still obsessed with it after you finish speaking, it's up to you. Every adult needs to be responsible for his own life, I don't know what to say for Hello, maybe I am afraid of dragging you down, so I want to break up with you, but before that, I think there are some things you should know, and you should be given a chance to choose again, otherwise it will be unfair to you. But..." Ye Feilan raised his head slightly, Looking into his eyes, his eyes were cold and firm: "If you still choose to be with me after hearing these things, then you have no right to regret it anymore. My Ye Feilan's man is born to be my Ye Feilan's man, and he will die as Ye Feilan's man." It's Ye Feilan's ghost. If you regret it then, go to hell with me."

Gou Sheng frowned again, and his expression became serious: "Okay, tell me." After he finished speaking, he paused for a second, and added: "No matter what you say, I will never give up on you, nor will I I won't regret it."

Ye Feilan smiled.

"Gou Sheng'er," he stretched out his hand and scratched Gou Sheng's chin, just like he did to his dog for many years, "what to do, I feel like I can't bear to let you go."

After saying this, without waiting for Gou Sheng to answer, Ye Feilan walked to the window of the lounge, turned his back to Gou Sheng, and said in a low voice: "The doctor was right that day, I did have psychological trauma..."

In August, although autumn has already begun, the hot summer is far from over. At eight o’clock, the sun has just set, and the sky is not yet completely dark. , The cicadas on the tree are still chattering endlessly.

Ye Feilan's voice was very low, but every word was clear.

Except for the bloody past of his childhood, which he vaguely brought up, he told Gou Sheng everything else, including his psychological state in his youth, including his later resistance to hugging and intimate contact, including Then it gradually improved, at least on the surface, I could shake hands and hug like a normal person... until I met Gou Sheng.

"At that time, I thought I was completely healed, except that I had no desire/desire," Ye Feilan turned around and smiled at Gou Sheng, "I didn't have any obsession with being top or bottom. We're really together, so it's no big deal to let you fuck. So I promise you. But..." He turned his head and continued to look out of the window, with a mocking smile on his lips Meaning: "I just realized now that I was still too naive, those engraved in my bones... the past that I can't forget no matter how hard, how could I let me go so easily?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to kick you," it was dark, and the night light behind it turned on, and the two of them overlapped on the glass window, Ye Feilan looked at Gou Sheng in the reflection, and said softly, "At that time I just found out that I can't accept any close contact other than handshakes and hugs. Seeing the desire/lust in your eyes almost broke me. Of course, it may get better one day in the future, but the bigger Probably not. Take a step back, even if it will get better, then no one knows if it will be a year, two years, ten years, 20 years... You and I are adults, we both understand what a sexless marriage means You don't have to answer me right away, I hope you can make a decision after careful consideration."

Gou Sheng never interrupted him, he stood behind Ye Feilan and listened silently.Ye Feilan's voice was always calm, but Gou Sheng could hear the pain and struggle under his calmness. When he thought of what he might have encountered in the past, his heart ached.

After Ye Feilan finished speaking, Gou Sheng took half a step forward, and hugged Ye Feilan tightly from behind. He looked at Ye Feilan in his reflection softly and firmly: "I can think about it carefully. But no matter how many times I think about it, or how many years I think about it, My answer is always the same——Ye Feilan, my heart is very small, and if I hold you alone, it will be full."