mad dog

Ye Feilan suddenly laughed.

It is neither the kind of polite gentleman in front of the media, nor the kind of cold and narrow-minded smile that Gou Sheng saw in the background today. With the gentle smile he had seen before, he suddenly stretched out his uninjured foot, raised a splash of water, and raised his chin: "Really? Promise to anything?"

"of course."

"That's good." Ye Feilan's eyes were even more curved, "I won't have a show tomorrow morning, so you accompany me to the hospital."

"it is good."

Gou Sheng thought that Ye Feilan was going to the hospital to have his feet checked, so of course he was more than happy to go with him, but when he walked into the hospital wearing a mask and Bluetooth headsets in his ears, he realized that there are some things that should not be said nonsense.

At the same time, Ye Feilan was wearing sunglasses, sitting in a coffee shop not far from the hospital, sipping coffee leisurely: "Are you there?"

"Here we are," Gou Sheng said in a low voice, "I'm registering as an expert account."

"Very good," Ye Feilan smiled into the receiver, "Turn up the volume a little more, wait for me to say something, what's your answer?"

Gou Sheng smiled wryly: "Yes, Master."

"So nice."

So cute... In his previous life, occasionally he was obedient, and when the master was in a good mood, he would reach out and rub his head with a smile, and say, "So cute."

He can still clearly recall the touch of Ye Feilan's warm fingers gently touching his head, with a little bit of rare tenderness, and he can still smell the faint fragrance of orchids and male hormones from his nose Mixed taste, smells very good.

I don't know if Ye Feilan will have red eyes and panting slightly when he is working hard in the future, and while moaning/groaning, he will reach out to rub his big head and say, "You are so good."

Gou Sheng thought about it, and couldn't help but tighten his lower body.

"..."

He was wearing Ye Feilan's old casual clothes today. Ye Feilan wore them a little too big and could almost be worn as pajamas, but he wore them a little tight, so if there was a little trouble, the fine hair would be exposed.

Also wearing a mask, another man who was waiting for the expert number noticed his movement and gave him a crazy, hostile look.

If he went in like this later, he would probably be beaten out by an expert.

As Gou Sheng thought about it, he stared back fiercely.The man held on for less than two seconds before being defeated and moved a little further away from him.

At this moment, the patient in front of the line came out of the consultation room with a receipt, and a little girl in a doctor's uniform pushed the door out: "No. [-], Gou... Gou Sheng."

This name was very embarrassing to read, especially when she glanced over and found that his lower body was abnormal, it was even more embarrassing.

Gou Sheng calmly took off his coat, wrapped it around his waist, and walked into the consulting room.

Sitting behind the desk is an old specialist in his 60s, hired by Haicheng Hospital from abroad, who only visits the clinic one day a week.The old man's eyes were very poisonous, he only glanced at it, and asked: "Is it hypersexuality? Long-term erection can't reduce the swelling?"

"No," Gou Sheng forced himself to talk nonsense calmly, "I won't."

The little girl couldn't hold it back, she covered her mouth and laughed, and then couldn't help but coughed in a low voice.

"In that case," the old expert's smile was still very kind, "Xiao Xue, you go and prepare first, and give him a routine examination later."

"No need to check," Gou Sheng listened to Ye Feilan's voice in the bluetooth headset, feeling a little more excited, "I will have nocturnal emission, there is no physical problem, but when I am awake, I have no desire for anyone, and I have no response to stimulation. .”

After Gou Sheng repeated Ye Feilan's words, he silently added in his heart: "But I'm not a human, I'm a dog. Dear scumbag master."

The old man raised his hand to stop Xiao Xue who was about to take him for an examination, and asked with a smile, "Anyone? A man or a woman?"

This time, Gou Sheng hesitated for a while: "Not at all."

"It is true that many of these diseases are caused by psychological factors," the old man nodded, and said while writing wildly on the paper, "but all psychological disorders have their causes... Since when did you not Lifted?"

"puberty."

"It must have been caused by childhood experiences," said the old man. "Ask him if there was anything sexual that impressed him when he was a child. I must know all the details as much as possible before I can target It is a very long process to make psychological adjustments. The most important thing is that he is willing to open his heart and face the psychological trauma he was unwilling to face back then, so... I suggest you let him come over in person. Of course, today we can also do a simple understanding in this way to determine the direction of diagnosis and treatment."

Gou Sheng: "..." It turned out that he had been exposed for a long time.

This time, there was a long silence on the other end of the phone.

Ye Feilan looked down at the foam on the surface of the coffee for a long time, and finally let out a sigh of relief: "Forget it, come back."

Like this method, once or twice is okay, but after a long time, it will definitely be exposed, and it is even more impossible for him to go there in person.What's more, he is really not ready yet, to open the old scars bloody, and face everything that he has deliberately forgotten for so many years.

Forget it...

Anyway, he has been here all these years by himself.it's not a big deal.There are many male stars in the entertainment industry who are not married at the age of 40 or [-], and there is no shortage of him.

Besides, there is Gou Sheng.He knows that he won't give up, but he still pursues him all the time. If the two of them are really together in the future, he doesn't mind blindly letting him penetrate. It's no big deal if it hurts twice.If he dares to mind, he promises that he will never be a man for the rest of his life.

Gou Sheng could hear the exhaustion in Ye Feilan's tone.He knows how difficult it has been for him for so many years, and also knows how stubborn and strong he is. No matter what kind of things he encounters, his back is always straight, and it seems that nothing can knock him down.

But this time, Ye Feilan said in that exhausted tone: "Forget it."

Gou Sheng didn't know what he experienced when he was a child, but it must have been very painful, so painful that even a strong person like him didn't dare to touch it lightly.So before I started trying, I chose to give up.

"I... my lover said, forget it."

Gou Sheng bowed to the old man, turned around and left the hospital, and saw Ye Feilan in the cafe from a distance, wearing a baseball cap, lowering his head slightly, propping his cheek with one hand, and rubbing his temple.

He suddenly felt very distressed.

I really want to rush over to hug him tightly, and say to him: "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

Although I have no time to participate in your past, and I can't change it, but every day in the future, I will be by your side.One life, two lives... life after life.

My dear scum master.

But Gou Sheng knew that he couldn't.

Ye Feilan already has too many bad things on his mind, he can't trouble him anymore.Once he rushes over to hug him, it will probably be on the headlines of Weibo tomorrow, and all the hard work Ye Feilan has put in will be in vain.

For Ye Feilan, he forced himself to read the simplified horizontal characters that he was not used to, and forced himself to understand the rules of this world and the ways of the world.It wasn't until yesterday that he realized that even though Ye Feilan became popular because of the tanmei drama, homosexuality is still a topic that cannot be easily touched in this world.

Many people regard homosexuality as a scourge, and even the attitude of the Bare Body Bureau is quite intriguing.On the one hand, it allows filming and broadcasting, but on the other hand, it restricts the subject matter, and the policy changes from time to time.

Once Ye Feilan is labeled as gay, it means that countless contempt and slander will follow, it means that there will be no good resources, no good movies with big productions, and... The mainstream film industry cannot reach the top.

Even Yuelao knows what it means to be a base, and he likes to hear it, okay?He didn't understand why so many mortals were so ignorant, but...he also knew that, not to mention he was just a dog, even the Jade Emperor and Hades couldn't interfere and reverse all this.

This is an era when only the strong have the right to speak.

Unless one day, he is strong enough to protect Ye Feilan from all harm, he can stand beside Ye Feilan with dignity.

There will be such a day after all.But before that, he must abide by the rules of the game in this world.

So Gou Sheng just looked at him from a distance through the glass window for a while, and then said through the Bluetooth headset: "Master, I'm going to drive and wait for you at the intersection ahead."

Ye Feilan woke up suddenly from the memory, looked up, he saw the roadside not far away, Gou Sheng waved the mask at him, his shoulders were broad, his eyes were gentle, and his voice was low and steady, giving him A very familiar and reliable feeling made his wandering heart settle down in an instant, and he even couldn't help smiling.

past.

Yes, it's all over.

Those years of suffering, loneliness, despair, and the days when one person endured everything in silence are over.No matter what will happen in the future, whether Gou Sheng will leave him or not, at least now, no matter when and where, there is someone silently guarding him, who can be seen when he turns around.

Gou Sheng said that he would take care of him and protect him, but in fact Ye Feilan didn't need him to do anything at all, as long as he was by his side was enough.

He can feel that the shackles and curses that have been wrapped around him for many years are gradually collapsing and dissipating. This feeling is very strange, so that he will not wake up from nightmares in the middle of the night, bump into the bloody past, and make him entangled The knot in his heart gradually loosened, and he was no longer obsessed with whether he would become the same person as his stepfather.

He may not be as noble and great as his biological father, but he will never be as stupid and wretched as his stepfather.

Ye Feilan is Ye Feilan, she won't be anyone else's shadow, and she won't step into someone's malicious curses and prophecies.

will never.

Ye Feilan opened the car door, got into the co-pilot, reached out to touch Gou Sheng's face, looked him in the eyes, and said seriously, "Thank you, Gou Shenger."

"..." Gou Sheng never expected Ye Feilan to thank him suddenly, and smiled a little embarrassedly, "No...Master, you don't have to be so polite with me. Besides, I didn't help you either."

Ye Feilan shook his head slightly: "I didn't mean that."

"what is that?"

Ye Feilan reached out and gently pushed his face back: "Drive. Concentrate. I don't want to be in the news because of a car accident."

Thank you for being willing to listen to me about my past and my thoughts, thank you for understanding and forgiving everything about me, thank you for being willing to be by my side, and giving me the courage to break through all shackles and face everything.

Thank you for liking me.

In the entertainment industry for so many years, countless people have coveted him, and there are many female stars who want to recruit him to be a CP, but no one has ever liked him.

It's an amazing feeling to be liked.

It will make people no longer lonely suddenly, make people more confident in themselves, and make people look forward to the uncertain future.

Even if there are still so many bad things waiting for him to deal with, even if there may be countless ups and downs and storms in the future, he can still walk on with a smile.

Ye Feilan took out his phone, opened Weibo in boredom, and searched for his name.

But the news that popped up was not a homosexual scandal, not condoning the assistant beating the reporter at the airport, not the big news at the press conference, but——Ye Feilan's new assistant hospital sees andrology, suspected of having hidden diseases.There are also a few photos of him registering at the hospital wearing a mask and queuing at the door of the consulting room.

Ye Feilan: "..."