It Is Said That I Give Out Sugar Everyday

When Xu Luoyang asked this question, it took him a long time to build up his mind.After all, in front of him, Qi Changan has always appeared in the image of a human being.

It is one thing to know that the other party is a monster, but it is another thing to know the real body - he must confirm that no matter what Qi Changan's real body is, he can accept it well.Besides, Qi Changan can't choose his own origin, so he must not let the two of them create a gap because of this issue!

But after asking, Xu Luoyang was still very anxious. After waiting for a few seconds, he found that Qi Changan hadn't answered. He leaned into the other's ear, "Changan, if you can't say anything, I won't ask, our little secret!"

In this posture, Qi Changan hugged the person in his arms.He held Xu Luoyang's waist with one hand, and gently kneaded the back of the other's neck with the other hand, "I really want to know?" There was a slight smile in his tone, and there was some helplessness hidden.

"I want to, I really want to think very much." Xu Luoyang was kneaded so comfortably, he simply switched to a state of weakness all over his body, leaned his head on Qi Changan's shoulder, and quickly licked the skin on the other's neck with the tip of his tongue.After succeeding, he half-closed his eyes again, obviously enjoying such intimacy very much.

Qi Changan turned his head to the side, bit Xu Luoyang's lip, "Noisy."

"Ok?"

"What do you think my body is?"

Xu Luoyang organized his wording, "To be honest, Mr. Qi, I have a lot of guesses about this question." He counted on his fingers for Qi Changan, "I first speculated that you should be a half-breed half-demon. Because Your health is so poor, it may be caused by the inability of the blood to integrate smoothly. And you will be allergic to some foods, I guess it may be that your body cannot tolerate human food!"

As he said that, he frowned in confusion, "But I have never been able to guess what your body is. Usually, your body temperature is very cold, and when you have a fever, you will be very hot. It may be racially incompatible with red roses. You can speak ancient Greek and Latin, the eyes are cobalt blue, the demon power is very powerful, and it can teleport to fulfill my little wish, but it cannot have intimate contact with me in a mosaic."

Sighing for a long time, Xu Luoyang poked the back of the opponent's hand with his finger, "It's really hard to guess!"

Holding Xu Luoyang's fingers in his palm with his backhand, Qi Changan's voice was astringent. After looking at him for a long time, he asked in a low voice, "Then... even if I am a monster of unknown origin, are you still willing to be with me?"

"Why don't you want to? Of course you want to!" Xu Luoyang's voice was a little nasal, very soft but firm, "I actually knew you were a monster a long time ago, but I still fell in love with you. This really doesn't matter at all. ways to control."

He scratched Qi Changan's palm twice with his finger,

"I know that there are many problems in interracial dating. For example, your life is very long, and my life is very short. Not 30 years, 20 years later, I will be old, but you will always be so young and so good-looking. But I love You, you love me too, so I think I can work harder."

Feeling that he was too idealistic, Xu Luoyang was a little embarrassed, but he continued to emphasize, "Anyway, I still have to work hard to know if I can do it. For example, I can try to cultivate, maybe I can live longer, and You stay together longer."

As he spoke, he bent his eyes and smiled at Qi Chang'an again, "My Chang'an is so good, I don't want to be separated from you at all."

"I... am not as good as you imagined." Qi Changan's voice was a little hoarse, and even revealed a little panic and uncertainty.Turn off the program that was playing, and the room became quiet. He raised his hand and gently covered Xu Luoyang's eyes. After the other party closed his eyes with his strength, he carefully kissed Xu Luoyang's eyelids again, and repeated, "Really, I'm not as good as you think."

"You're fine." Xu Luoyang opened his eyes and corrected him, "If you don't believe in yourself, you can believe in me and my eyes."

At this moment, Qi Changan's heart trembled violently. He looked at the person in his arms, and couldn't help kissing the other person's forehead, nose tip, and lips one by one—it was this person who was willing to be with him even if he knew he was a monster. together.Even though I know there are many difficulties, I want to try hard.

In comparison, what is there to be timid about him?

Xu Luoyang noticed that Qi Changan's arm holding him was slowly tightening, which made him a little uncomfortable, but he sensitively sensed that the other party's mood was not right, so he didn't move, but asked again, "Can't this be a secret? ? Shall we change the subject?"

Kissing Xu Luoyang's forehead heavily, Qi Changan looked into his eyes very intently, "Naonao, I'm really not a monster."

Feeling that something was wrong, Xu Luoyang sat up straight in Qi Changan's arms, "But, but you said it yourself before, it wasn't the time in the horror house, it was before."

Qi Changan was very patient, "Can you tell me the exact time?"

"It was the time you mentioned before, Director Chu invited you to a barbecue, and when you came out, you were not feeling well and hit a car in the parking lot."

Quickly reacting, Qi Changan asked, "Is that... your car?"

"That's right, it's my car. It's so predestined! That night, my friend and I also had a barbecue there. When we came out, we found that the front of my car was damaged, and your car was left on the windshield. business card."

Xu Luoyang remembered the situation at that time very clearly, "Well, I didn't plan to look for you, but because my friend is Ye Shanshan, he always said that my name is Luoyang, and I must have a long-lost brother named Chang'an. So When I found out that the name on the business card was 'Qi Chang'an', I was very curious."

"So you contacted me with another identity?"

"That's right." As he spoke, Xu Luoyang's tone became a little anxious, "I went to find you at the appointed place, and it was a lot earlier. But it seems to be too early. If you call in the corridor, I won't Be careful and saw your eyes, the colors on both sides are different, one is black, the other is blue, and I heard you say a word."

Guessing this sentence is the key, but the memory at that time has been blurred, Qi Changan asked him, "What did I say?"

Xu Luoyang repeated carefully, "You said, 'a monster like me in human skin shouldn't live in this world at all'."

It turned out to be the case.

Noticing that Xu Luoyang was still looking at him seriously, Qi Changan took a deep breath, "At that time, I was suffering from repeated attacks of illness, and my heart was filled with negative emotions, and I even thought about...death, that's why I said if that is the case."

Hearing the word "death", Xu Luoyang's heart seemed to be clenched suddenly. He suppressed all the messy thoughts that came out of his head, and tried to calmly ask, "Recurring... What is the disease?"

The moment this question was asked, Xu Luoyang suddenly became flustered. He grabbed Qi Changan's wrist and looked eagerly into Qi Chang'an's eyes.

"If you explain it, the reason will be longer."

Xu Luoyang still looked at him steadily.

After being silent for nearly half a minute, Qi Changan spoke again, speaking slowly, "My... the person who gave birth to me is named Shen Zhemei. She married my father when she was 22 years old because of a family marriage. Years later, my brother Qi Changyin was born.

My father is a standard family and work-centered helmsman. He is very busy every day and doesn't have much time to go home.She gave birth to me again when my brother was six years old and started studying with a tutor, because she was lonely. "

The more Qi Changan spoke, the more flat his tone became, as if he was telling someone else's story, with the indifference of a bystander.

"When I was three months old, she took me from a nanny to her own care on the grounds that people around me were trying to be bad for me. From then on, she started telling people in the family that I was not well and very She is prone to allergies and has severe asthma. In order to complete this lie, she bought all the family doctors."

Soon realizing something, Xu Luoyang called "Chang'an" subconsciously, his voice flustered.But after calling out his name, he immediately stopped what he was going to say, because he knew and had tasted this kind of feeling-to tear open his wounds that could not heal, bit by bit, and tear away the rotten flesh and blood inside. revealed.

He understood, so he didn't speak again.

"By the time I was five years old, Qi's was undergoing an internal reshuffle, and my father was even more busy. He would only come back every year for family birthdays, Christmas and Spring Festival, and would leave soon. Shen Zhemei hated things that her father didn't care about. attitude, so she found a solution, which is to make my body worse."

"Chang'an..."

"Well," Qi Changan responded, her tone still plain and straightforward, "so according to her thinking, my illness is getting worse. I have to have an oxygen tube inserted every day, and I can't do strenuous exercise. I was put in a wheelchair. At that time, I didn’t know much about it, I only knew that I was not in good health and had to cooperate with treatment.”

"But two years later, on my seventh birthday, my father couldn't come back to celebrate my birthday because of a very urgent business. That day Shen Zhemei was not in a good state of mind. She sat by my bed at night and kept crying. She He grabbed my hand and asked repeatedly, why hasn't your father come back? Does he not want you? Does he not want me? Will he never come back again? "

A trace of sarcasm appeared on the corner of Qi Changan's mouth, "That night, my 'condition' deteriorated rapidly, and I was quickly inserted into a nasal feeding tube. I couldn't eat or breathe on my own. I listened to her discussing my condition with the doctor. , for the first time, I felt... Strange and puzzled, because unlike what they said, I didn't feel the discomfort that I should have.

I asked her, Mom, am I really very sick?She was very gentle and sad, and she answered me, yes, you are very sick, you are so sick, why doesn't your father come back to see you? "

At this time, Qi Changan was stunned when he found a tear falling on the back of his hand, "Nao Nao—"

"What about your brother?" Xu Luoyang's voice was choked up, and he clenched Qi Chang'an's sleeve, "What about him?"

"When I was six years old, he was sent abroad to study in a private boarding school." Qi Changan moved lightly, wiping Xu Luoyang's tears with his soft fingertips, with a wry smile on his lips, "Sorry, I made you cry."

Shaking his head, Xu Luoyang looked at him, unable to speak, only tears kept overflowing.

"Chang Yin will come back on vacation, three times a year. Shen Zhemei likes red roses very much and has planted a lot. After Chang Yin came back once, he knew that I hadn't left the room for a long time, so he went to the garden to pick a rose The roses were given to me, saying that the sun was very good outside, and asked me if I wanted to go out to see the scenery. But this angered Shen Zhemei, she screamed and cried, saying that Chang Yin would kill me like this."

There was a little smile in his eyes, "But that night, Chang Yin quietly ran to my room and told me that he would work hard to become a very good person, so that he could find me a very good doctor , cure my disease, and then buy me a plane, a cruise ship and a car, and let me travel around the world.

I am very happy, although I don't know if I will live to that time, but even the dream I had that night made me very happy. "

Wiping his tears carelessly with the back of his hand, Xu Luoyang lowered his head and kissed his relative Chang'an's palm, trying to raise his head and smile at him.

"Later through surveillance, Shen Zhemei found out about Chang Yin's visit. She was very scared, afraid that after losing her husband and eldest son, she would lose me again. So not long after, she arranged an operation to remove me. a third of the stomach.

After that, I became very weak. In those two years, bile reflux and stomach bleeding made me suffer from insomnia.It happened that once, Shen Zhemei came over in the middle of the night and sat by my bed to talk to me. She thought I was asleep and whispered something, she no longer had to worry that I would leave. "

"Since then, I have become more certain that I may not be sick at all."

Hugging Xu Luoyang with red eyes, Qi Changan kissed his hair and sighed, "I shouldn't have told you this." These dark, even bloody past.

"You should have told me." Xu Luoyang bit his collar tightly, and did not let go until his gums became sore, and said in a hoarse voice, "What happened next?"

"Later, when I was 12 years old, my father came back and discussed at home whether to send me to school or ask a tutor to teach me. They quarreled. My father thought that even if I was in poor health, people should not be ignorant , The limitations of my body should not limit my thinking like this. Shen Zhemei blamed my father, saying that this would kill me.

After several days, I finally seized the opportunity, ran out of the room in the middle of the night, and found Chang Yin.At that time, I was very scared and very excited. I mustered up the courage to ask him, brother, do you believe me? I am really not sick.I asked him to take me out for a check-up, out of the sphere of influence of the Qi family and the Shen family. "

Xu Luoyang's breathing trembled until he heard Qi Changan's words, "He believed me."

"After the test results came out, an extremely fierce quarrel broke out between my father and Shen Zhemei. Later, Shen Zhemei shot and killed my father, and then committed suicide. After that, my elder brother who had just grown up inherited the family business, and I was sent to Go to the school where my brother studied." After a pause, Qi Changan laughed, "I'm free."

Hearing the last four words, Xu Luoyang bumped into Qi Chang'an's arms and cried out.

Hearing his sobs, Qi Changan lowered his head and gently rubbed his hair, "So, Luoyang, I'm really not as good as you imagined, and I'm not even a normal person at all. I have a lot of thoughts in my heart. Hate, a lot of greed, a lot of dissatisfaction.

You see, I tell you these things, I want you to sympathize with me, pity me, feel sorry for me, want you to feel sad for me, cry for me, and want you not to leave me, I am very humble—”

Xu Luoyang pressed his lips tightly to his lips, stopping what he was going to say next.Because the lip was bitten, a little blood stained Qi Changan's lip.A few seconds later, Xu Luoyang backed away and asked him softly, "Are you willing to leave me?"

Qi Changan looked at him silently, and finally shook his head.

"I'm also reluctant to leave you," Xu Luoyang inserted his five fingers into Qi Changan's and clasped them tightly. He tried hard to make himself laugh, but his voice was still choked with sobs, "My Qi, I Brother Changan is the best person I have ever met, no one can compare to him, he is so good, I want to be with him for the rest of my life."

"But--"

"No, but," Xu Luoyang raised his chin, with obvious determination, "If I'm not with you, I'll be sad for as many days as I live. Are you willing?"

Qi Changan met his eyes, and after a long time, compromised, "I don't want to part with it."

I don't want you to be sad, and I don't want you to be sad because of me.

Satisfied with the answer, Xu Luoyang softened his voice, "Then can you hold me tighter?"

Qi Changan tightened his arms.

"A little tighter."

Qi Changan did as he was told.

"Yes, that's it." Xu Luoyang whispered with a smile in his voice, "Chang'an, don't even think about letting me go in the future, just trap me in your arms."

At this moment, Qi Changan slowly closed his eyes, feeling that the beast that was closed in his heart was being gently comforted.