five years later

Liu Youxia finally went to the hospital.

I didn't say a word on the road, I closed my eyes, I don't know if I fell asleep or I was thinking about something.

An Yuan is a beginner, so he dare not use his mind and mind while driving.He forced himself to take back his worries, looking at the road ahead as if it were a dragon's pond and a tiger's den.

The illness didn't come out in a day, but Lu Zhe contributed to the long-term torment.

Standing in front of the hospital bed, Liu Youxia looked at the weak and sleeping woman, not knowing what it was like.

"I thought you wouldn't come." Lu Zhe was peeling an apple, and it broke in half.He froze for a moment, threw the apple peel into the trash can and continued to peel it.

"When the person lying on the bed is you," Liu Youxia paused for half a second, then said softly, "I won't come."

"I know, she's your mother anyway." Lu Zhe handed him the peeled apple, but the other party ignored him and only returned him with a sneer.

"What do you know?" Liu Youxia stepped back to An Yuan's side and said, "You killed her, but you are the one who deserves the most death."

Lu Zhe saw that he didn't pick up the apples, so he put the things in the fruit plate and removed the fruit knife from his hand.

Silence filled the ward for a while, and a few north winds leaked in through the open windows, making it a bit cold and desolate.

"Go back, I'll call you when she wakes up tomorrow." Lu Zhe held her hand.They have been old for a long time, the skin on the back of their hands is no longer smooth and tender, it is drooping layer by layer, and there are also age spots.

Liu Youxia stood for a while, and finally pulled An Yuan out.His steps were hurried, and his whole body was tense and restless.The two did not go home and stayed in a hotel near the hospital.

An Yuan kept hugging Liu Youxia and didn't speak, but the other party was silent for a long time and suddenly spoke first.

"Actually, that's fine. Leave early, and then find someone you like in your next life to marry." Liu Youxia turned around and nestled into An Yuan's arms and said, "I don't have to hate her anymore. , otherwise it will always be so ugly."

"I'm sorry, today is your birthday, but something like this happened. I'm sorry."

An Yuan raised his hand and turned on the bedside lamp, and the dim light poured down, forming a small piece of heaven and earth.He stroked Liu Youxia's hair, and said softly, "It's okay, it's not important. Do you want to do it? I can't sleep."

Liu Youxia was sleepy at first, but now he is extremely sober.All those old memories rushed up like ghosts one after another, making his eyes sore.

An Yuan suddenly felt that it would be good not to have children in the future.As a father, he and Liu Youxia were both unqualified.The passion between the two of them is only enough to keep each other warm, and if they are separated a little, it is easy to harm others.

Liu Youxia raised his head and looked at An Yuan, there was a vague pleasure in his eyes, as if the end was coming.In fact, according to him, death is not necessarily a bad thing.

For Liu Manning, death is far more praiseworthy than living.The evil she committed may not go to heaven, but Liu Youxia will no longer have any resentment.

He would think of the truth that "a hateful person must have pity", and then put on the sacred cloak of "mother" for her.

And she, too, would be freed from Lu Zhe's grasp.There is no love, no hate, the stupid life will be buried, and even the gleam of meteors will glow in the years.

The three of them were originally a stable triangle, and one party surrendered first and collapsed first. Although the posture was tragic, it was still the best way to quickly cut through the mess.

Liu Youxia kisses An Yuan.He is not that sad, and does not need to rely on drugs to relieve pain for the time being.

"Go to sleep, tomorrow may be busier."

An Yuan let out a soft "um", raised his hand and turned off the light, and the two of them immediately hid in a dumb darkness.

The call came around five o'clock.Liu Youxia had sharp eyes and quick hands, and didn't listen carefully after connecting. She hurriedly picked up her clothes, got up and walked out.

An Yuan also stayed up all night, and hurriedly got up from the bed when he heard the bell.The two trotted all the way into the ward, fortunately, enough for the last time.

Things have come to this point, the so-called last side seems full of hypocrisy.

But Liu Manning was sober, she recognized Liu Youxia in the light of day, and her eyes were soft as they drifted past.At this time, she was gentle and peaceful, she was no longer hysterical, and she did not regard Liu Youxia as the eldest son who died early.

She raised her hand, but she lacked strength, and when she fell, Liu Youxia caught her.

"... Axia, don't blame me, okay?"

Liu Manning would talk like this when she was young.In Liu Youxia's dusty memory, Liu Manning who pops up occasionally is delicate and charming, and the grievance in her almond eyes can overwhelm people.

……

He didn't speak for a long time.Most of the time in the past, Liu Manning would urge him, yell, and even break down and do things that hurt others and himself.

But now there is always a gentle smile on the corner of her mouth, and a pair of eyes looking over gently, like a flattering little animal.Liu Manning became the same Liu Manning before she met Lu Zhe again. She was unbelievably beautiful, just like the classical beauties in the paintings.

Liu Youxia squatted down, leaned over and kissed Liu Manning on the cheek.He coaxed her and said "I don't blame you" with all his strength.

He pulled An Yuan over and squatted down, looked at Liu Manning and said, "His name is An Yuan, and he is the one who will accompany me for the rest of my life. I love him just like you love me."

After hearing this sentence, Liu Manning blinked at him suddenly.She stretched out her other hand to touch An Yuan, but the other party held her hand and put it on his cheek with interest.

"I've seen you." She seemed to be remembering, but gave up after a while. "A lifetime is too long, you two should live a good life in the future."

"I just realized that people will become sober before they die." Liu Manning struggled to hold Liu Youxia tightly in her arms. This movement had been missing for more than ten years, and she couldn't do it by herself.

"If only I knew earlier, you wouldn't have suffered so many years."

Liu Youxia didn't refute, sat on the hospital bed and put her half in his arms, clapping her palms together as if coaxing a child to sleep.

Liu Manning was still holding An Yuan's hand, with a sad satisfaction on his face.Most of her life has been spent in chaos, and the happy time is as long as a yellowed piece of paper.It looks good from a distance, but when you touch it, it will shatter.

She half-closed her eyes, as if about to fall asleep, and suddenly woke up again.She struggled to take off the ring on her hand, but she was not strong enough, and finally Liu Youxia helped.

Liu Manning's marriage of more than 30 years was finally ended by himself.She pinched the ring and tossed it lightly in Lu Zhe's direction. It might have been on purpose. The thing fell to the ground with a "ding", causing him to take two steps back in fright.

"I can't survive the divorce." Liu Manning's tone just now had exhausted all her energy, she whispered this sentence, her head gradually tilted into Liu Youxia's arms.

"It's okay, I'll take care of it." Liu Youxia stared blankly at the opposite white wall.Liu Manning's breathing in his arms cooled down, and his hands couldn't hold back the warmth of Anyuan's palms to relax.

Liu Manning's ridiculous and stupid life ended here.

The matter of divorce was not difficult for Liu Youxia, but Lu Zhe was unwilling to sign.He shut everyone out, and lay alone in a chair until dark.But this is not a problem at all.A week later, the divorce agreement and the divorce certificate were still sent home.

Regardless of the middle process, Liu Youxia put the two things into the urn and buried them under the crabapple tree in the grandfather's courtyard.An Yuan asked for leave to accompany him, and the two sat down on the ground together after filling in the last pile of soil.

"It's the Chinese New Year, have you bought the tickets to go home?" Liu Youxia pinched An Yuan's fingers, which were covered with a lot of mud, and he carefully rubbed them off one by one.

"Well, I've bought it. Dad and uncle said that we celebrate the New Year together this year, and there are so many people, but I think my dad is lazy and doesn't want to greet us."

Liu Youxia smiled and pinched his face, "How can you be so ignorant of people's hearts. Of course the Chinese New Year will be more lively, but I don't know how well the sound insulation effect of the uncle's room is."

An Yuan pointed at his nose and cursed: "You pervert, can you think of something else after Chinese New Year?"

Liu Youxia snuggled up to his shoulder, shaking her head while laughing, "No, I'm the kind of person who is full of warmth and thoughts. If you can't bear it...you can't bear it, how can you not bear it if I hurt you so much? right?"

An Yuan's goosebumps were aroused by his pretentious tone, he shook twice, and finally exchanged a deep kiss with his arms around the man in the biting wind.

The sky is dark and the new year is approaching.

The author has something to say:

It's almost the end of writing here, and there will be some trivial things in the future.Still, it deviates from the outline by thousands of miles, and I am not satisfied. Looking back, all the characters look like paper figures, but it also has something to do with the mood.There are still a few episodes, which may not be procrastinated, but maybe I don't feel anything recently.

The following is a heartfelt thank you, thank you to everyone who is willing to see here.Although the number of words is small, I can't say anything from the bottom of my heart through the screen, and my sincerity will always be discounted.thank you all.