Shi Hai's legacy

When the prince really knew me, I was 17 years old, and I was still an age who was not afraid of anything.Like most of my peers, I thought I would have a stable life, be successful, marry a few concubines, and have many children.I will love my elder son and younger daughter very much. When they grow up, they will become more powerful people than me, and their children will not be ordinary people.

When I was 15 years old, I went to the prince's side as a servant of the prince. Although I said that I was by the prince's side, in fact, I didn't have the chance to meet the prince a few times.Although the chances are pitiful, every time I see the prince, I feel very happy in my heart.I don't know the reason for my joy, after all, the prince has never looked at me directly, maybe it's because he is too handsome.I remember one time when I was accompanying the prince with a few other colleagues and heard him discussing Yuefu related matters with another adult. I am not a refined person, but the prince's burning eyes and sharp tongue still bewitched me that day.I went back and read a lot of Yuefu lyrics, and one of my favorites is "Haoli".

Whose land in Artemisia?There is no virtue or fool in gathering souls.What is Guibo urging?Human life has to be hesitated.Maybe I saw equality in this song, so it lingered in my mind for a long time like a ghost.After I die, will my soul meet the prince's soul in Artemisia?

When the prince really met me, he was no longer the prince, and I was no longer a prince.The reason why I emphasize "true" is because the prince has never paid attention to me in the past. He is too busy fighting for power and keeping his position as prince. He never pays attention to anyone who has nothing to do with the throne Or things, these people or things naturally include me.

It didn't snow or rain that day, there was no sunny day, and there was no mist. It was just an ordinary cloudy day. I was doing the same thing as usual, and then His Majesty suddenly appeared in front of my eyes. .Thinking about it later, maybe it was fate, on such an ordinary day, he would meet me.

I don't know his expression at that time, because according to the rules, courtiers cannot face His Majesty squarely.But I guess, he may have a smile that he didn't even notice.He came up to me and talked to me. He didn't say anything that was fresh in my memory, but I still remember how I felt at that time—happy, very happy.At that moment, I felt like I was the center of the world.At that time, I didn't know what my happiness meant, I just answered every question he asked me with my heart.That day, we chatted for nearly half an hour under the steps beside the hall. Before he left, he still told me that he would let me see him again at this time tomorrow.

Before entering the palace the next day, I adjusted my clothes for a long time facing the well water at home, for fear that I would not be perfect enough.

After finishing my official duties, I hurried to look for him next to the palace yesterday, but who knew he had been waiting for me there for a long time.

"Let's have dinner together," he said to me.I nodded.

After that day, His Majesty always found various reasons to see me and chat with me.It's also really strange, when I was by his side in the past, he never remembered who I was, but now that I'm far away from him, he keeps me by his side all day long.I know very well that I am not some kind of talented person that I have never met in several lifetimes, and I am useless except for being good-tempered and able to talk, and I don't deserve to be treated differently by him, but I still look forward to this meeting that seems like a dream come true.

I still remember one time, His Majesty invited me out of the palace for an outing.We went to the outskirts of Chang'an, got out of the carriage, and he and I walked on the field ridges. There are farmlands on both sides of the field ridges. Large areas of green sway with the wind. There are farmers standing in the green, facing the loess and back to the sky. .The wind blows on my face, I smell the fragrance of flowers, and I look into the distance, it is a golden rapeseed field.His Majesty walked in front of me, turned around and smiled at me: "This is my country, isn't it beautiful?"

"Beautiful." I said.Looking at the person in front of me, my ears suddenly became hot, and so did my face. I didn't need a bronze mirror to know that they must be red.

His Majesty also noticed my blushing face, patted my shoulder lightly, and said, "Let's go, go."

After going back that day, I felt empty in my heart, as if there was a gap, and only His Majesty has the means to fill it.

"Brother, tell me, if a person thinks about another person every day, when he eats, when he sleeps, during the day and at night, he always laughs unconsciously when he talks to that person, and when he talks to that person After we separated, I felt as if someone had hollowed out my heart, so what does that person mean to this person?" I felt extremely confused, and couldn't help but ask my elder brother who was almost ten years older than me.

My elder brother laughed loudly after hearing this, as if he heard something interesting, he held his stomach and asked me out of breath: "Who are you in love with?"

like?This is like?I thought of His Majesty's face, His Majesty's words, and the details of the two of us getting along, and felt my face heat up again.

But, so what if you know that I like Your Majesty?He is the best person in the world, no one does not love him, no one does not respect him, I, I am a mortal, what can I do?I'm very sad, I don't know how to face Your Majesty in the future, and how to hide my dirty thoughts.

When His Majesty was free, he sent me to drink tea with him and chat with him. I pretended to be sick and shied away, because I haven't sorted out my mood yet, and I don't know what to say when I see him.People are so strange, they fall in love with others but don't know it, and after finally knowing it, they start to be afraid of being alone with their sweetheart.

I pretended to be sick at home for three days, and His Majesty came to my house early in the morning on the fourth day.He was dressed in the same way as the children of rich and noble families, and it seemed that he was visiting privately in a micro-clothes.When I saw him, my face turned red instantly, and I hurriedly got out of bed to salute.He stopped me, touched my forehead, and said with concern: "Don't worry about etiquette, your face is so red, you really are sick."

I was afraid that he would be worried, so I hurriedly said: "The illness is almost cured, please take care of your Majesty." Sure enough, one should not lie, and one lie needs to be covered by more lies.

After I finished speaking, His Majesty did not answer, and my room was extremely quiet for a while, only our breathing could be heard.Our eyes met for a while, and I blushed again, and buried my head down.His Majesty took out a wooden box and stuffed it into my hand.

"What is this?" I asked.

"My grandmother passed it down to my mother, and now I want to give it to you," he said to me, sitting on the edge of the bed.

With trembling hands, I opened the wooden box, and it was a piece of mutton fat jade pendant.I gently stroked the jade pendant with my hand, raised my head and asked him: "I am a mortal, what can I do?"

"Because you deserve my kindness." He looked at me tenderly, as if water was about to overflow from his eyes.

The author has something to say: no one is watching, sad o(╥﹏╥)o