Difficult office romance

Forget it, let's not talk about this first.

Cen Jing stood up and motioned to Ke Ran to move to the living room.

The atmosphere in the restaurant was too depressing, and he felt that he was going to be overwhelmed.

Ke Ran didn't refuse, he poured two glasses of boiled water and handed one to Cen Jing.

The two walked to the living room one after the other, and each occupied a sofa, sitting upright and facing each other.

"And why would you—"

Cen Jing took a sip of water, worked hard, and said those two words, "Break up?"

The pronunciation of the two words is very simple, but it is extremely jerky when it comes out of his mouth.

It's like a person who has been mute for ten years once he speaks, just two words are about to tear his vocal cords and torture the listener's eardrums

In such a dull and breathless atmosphere, Ke Ran smiled.

He just moved the corner of his mouth slowly and stiffly.

His smile made Cen Jing suddenly realize that the atmosphere in the living room was not much better than in the dining room.

When you were reluctant but want to break up, no matter where you are, it will not be easy.

It doesn't matter whether it's sunny outside and the wind is clear, or it's raining heavily, it's all the same.

Same dark and damp.

Cen Jing stood on the only high ground that could only accommodate his feet in a small room of a few square meters without windows. Neat pant legs.

"Are you tired?" Ke Ran asked.

"I am not tired."

Cen Jing didn't know what Ke Ran wanted to say, but he felt that Ke Ran was always like this, with big brains and big thoughts, and he would jump the topic if he didn't pay attention.

Whether he is tired or not, his intuition tells Cen Jing that he is not tired.

He can only prevent the situation from continuing to develop in an uncontrollable direction if he is not tired.

Stop it, is there any space stagnation button that has been hiding around me but I have ignored it?

However, for a person who is determined to break up, you can stop it by showing a gesture of rejection.

"Nonsense." Ke Ran said, "Even I feel that sometimes it's tiring for you to follow me."

He looked at Cen Jing, "Actually, our three views are quite different."

Cen Jing shook his head, "Indeed, we have had more disputes, but there is no need to rise to the height of the Three Views."

"Okay, don't go up." Ke Ran was surprisingly obedient at this moment, "Disputes have always been a way of communication. I think we can reach an agreement on this point. We cannot deny that the more quarrelsome couples are, the better their relationship will be. Being able to solve the problem can indeed achieve the effect of promoting the relationship. But the way we are unhappy with each other... It is never a quarrel, not even a dispute, just pass it by in a daze, what do you think it is? "

"I thought it was a solution... It's over, it's over."

Cen Jing also looked at Ke Ran.

Neither of them looked good.

"Put the thorn into the flesh and you can't see it, so it's taken out?" Ke Ran said.

Cen Jing didn't speak.

Ke Ran snorted softly, and said sharply: "You are always like this, always calm and calm, trying to whitewash the peace."

What is whitewashing peace?

Don't you think your statement is too exaggerated?

Cen Jing sighed and defended himself: "I just think some disputes are unnecessary."

"Then what do you think is necessary?" Ke Ran was aggressive, "Arguing is not part of our relationship? It's not a relationship if the atmosphere is always relaxed."

Why not? Cen Jing was shocked by Ke Ran's words.

Why do you have to argue when you can choose to relax?

What is there in the quarrel that is worth pursuing?

Do you feel your own existence only when you are arguing upside down every day?

He always thought that the relationship between two people should be calm and stable, and it can be maintained for a long time without big ups and downs.

So despite the disputes and contradictions, he tried to smooth things out in the least "confrontation".

Is he wrong?

Cen Jing heard Ke Ran's sad voice, and Ke Ran said, "Cen Jing, the stagnant water is only slightly rolling."

Clenching his fists involuntarily, Cen Jing tried his best to calm down the turmoil in his heart.

He wanted to tell Ke Ran, look, in my heart, come and see, this is Wei Lan.

But the words are well controlled, "No, Ke Ran, I just want our relationship to be more rational and mature."

But it seemed that Ke Ran had suddenly touched a sensitive nerve. Cen Jing only saw Ke Ran swinging his arm, and his fist landed heavily on the armrest of the leather sofa, making a sound that was not sharp but extremely ear-piercing.

There was a heavy bang, as if it hit his heart directly.

"But I don't want to!" Ke Ran said this sentence almost roaring.

"I'm immature, I'm irrational, I'm emotional, I'm stubborn!"

"You didn't." Cen Jing hurriedly comforted him, "You really didn't, you've seen me so many times, you understand me very well, you don't disturb my work, you don't have principled disputes with me, you've done a good job. I don't even think your emotionality in this relationship is as obvious as it is at work."

Ke Ran smiled wryly, "Because being emotional at work means losing your job, and being emotional in a relationship means losing you."

Cen Jing was stunned.

"Cen Jing, do you know that I suspected that you didn't love me?" Ke Ran said sadly.

Hearing such doubts, Cen Jing felt that he should be angry, but he had no choice but to hear Ke Ran's sad voice.

Fortunately, it was "suspected".

"I, I don't love you. I thought you knew it. I just don't know how to say these three words." Cen Jing said seriously.

"But why can't I feel your emotions? I think I'm like a dense grid on your schedule, which is used to complete, not to treat. I keep saying, I want to stand at the same height as you , I want to stand with you, just want you not to treat me with such... so no ups and downs. I want to see more of you. "

Isn't being together day and night enough for you to see all of me?

But I am like this, look again, I am also like this.

Do you want to see more of me, or a different me...

...Or did you finally realize that what you wanted to see wasn't me at all?

"Are you really not tired?" Before Cen Jing answered, Ke Ran returned to the question, "But I'm tired. It's really tiring to keep trying to keep pace with you. I used to think I could, Knowing that you want a mature and stable relationship, I will give it to you. Because I love you, I am motivated to do everything for you. But I ignore it, and I will be tired. One week can be one One month is fine, even one year is barely enough for me, but for a lifetime..."

Ke Ran's eyes were red.

Cen Jing stood up, walked up to Ke Ran, and wanted to reach out to hug Ke Ran, but Ke Ran avoided him directly.

This was also the first time Ke Ran avoided him with resistance.

Ke Ran turned around and stared at Cen Jing with his red eyes.

He said, "Cen Jing, it turns out that love is not omnipotent."

Tears welled up in the corners of his eyes, but never fell.

Cen Jing finally couldn't bear it anymore, regardless of whether Ke Ran resisted or not, he hugged him forcefully into his arms.

Don't let me see your face like this, please.

Cen Jing felt that his heart was about to break.

Ke Ran didn't resist this time, he leaned his head gently on Cen Jing's shoulder, as if he had no weight.

"Is there no way to see me like this. Sometimes I also want to see you lose control of your emotions for me, and see you become immature and irrational because of me."

There was a strong sense of powerlessness in Ke Ran's tone, "But you are no longer Cen Jing."

"I can." Cen Jing repeated with a trembling voice, "I can lose control, I can be emotional, I can be hysterical. I can do it all."

"Be yourself." Ke Ran said. "I know how tiring it is to put on a show, and I don't want you to."

Cen Jing tightened his arms, how would he tell Ke Ran, he didn't put on a show, and he couldn't control his emotions many times.

It's just that he took it for granted that a mature relationship should be calm and rational. He thought that he had done a good job, and he thought that every emotion he endured was a success.

He is even proud and complacent.

What should he say so as not to irritate Ke Ran anymore.

He was afraid that one of his unreasonable words would drive Ke Ran to a complete breakdown.

Many words came to my lips, but only one sentence remained: "I'm sorry."

"Don't say I'm sorry." Ke Ran chuckled, "It was you who said sorry so many times. In fact, I was the one who should say sorry. I blamed me for being reckless and provoking you without seriously thinking about the consequences."

He put away his smile and said again: "I don't know if I feel right, but I still want to tell you. I think that being a mature person is not the same as being in a mature relationship. Mature people may not necessarily be able to fall in love maturely .”

Some are calm, some are impatient, some are empathetic, and some are unkind.

Everyone has their own way of living.

Everyone has their own emotions in a relationship.

But I can't see your emotions, and your "maturity" prevents me from touching your heart.

Cen Jing was silent for a while, then said, "Yes."

He has no way to speak longer sentences, because as long as he speaks a few more words, Ke Ran can directly feel that he is trembling badly now.

Even at this time, Cen Jing still couldn't directly express his emotions.

Ke Ran felt a little disappointed.

He thought that at least breaking up would allow him to see Cen Jing completely out of control for him.

He doesn't rule out that there are some people in this world who are extremely calm, who can always think calmly and stay calm, maybe he was hit by this tiny probability.

Originally thought that Cen Jing was just an excellent person, but who would have thought that he was already close to the point of "being called a god".

It seemed that, as it seemed at the beginning, Cen Jing was not something mortals like him could blaspheme.

"Let's break up, shall we?"

"……it is good."

The author has something to say:

It's officially broken up!have a good weekend!