stained with the imprint of love... me and you

Jeremy has been in a bad mood recently, and it seems that things are starting to change over there.Kanyue noticed that Jeremy used more and more dirty words in every sentence, and sometimes he would knock down the dilapidated tables, chairs and tableware around him.As long as it was something that made Jeremy angry.

Although Kanyue has always just quietly turned her face away, she doesn't pay attention to Jeremy's erratic mood swings, and doesn't want to wonder what happened to make Jeremy so anxious.Don't imagine how the life with Jeremy, which has cracked, should continue.

"What are you doing?" Jeremy saw Kanyue just turned his head out of the window.

"Me." Kanyue cast her eyes on Jeremy and said indifferently. "I didn't do anything. You were the one who threw things."

"So what?!" Jeremy said angrily.

Kanyue glanced at Jeremy, then continued to look out the window.

"I'm talking to you!" Jeremy pulled Kanyue over.

"I'm listening." Kanyue said expressionlessly.

"You're not looking at me at all." Jeremy looked at Kanyue with an indifferent expression.

"There's no need to look at you." Juyue continued to turn her face out of the window, still using the tone just now. "It's not about listening to others with your eyes."

"Look at me!" Jeremy pulled Kanyue's shoulder with some force, and said loudly.

"I don't think I should stay here all the time." Xiyue said what she had been thinking in the past few days, but she was unwilling to say it because she was afraid that she would definitely have trouble with Jeremy.But now it seems that Jeremy seems to have made up his mind to have a quarrel with Jianyue today.Therefore, Kanyue simply took this opportunity to make it clear.

"You want to leave me?" Jeremy's voice was still loud.

"It's not your adopted puppy who stays in the room every day." Juyue felt that her analogy was a little funny, so much so that she laughed too. "Even kittens and puppies need to get out in the sun."

"There's been a lot going on lately." Jeremy's attitude suddenly improved a little. "Sean gave me some new work."

"It's not a recent question." Kanyue didn't know who this Sean was in Jeremy's words.But it doesn't matter, anyway, they are all similar people.

"I can't stay here all the time." Kanyue looked at Jeremy. "Maybe I can go out and find something to do, too."

"You don't need to worry about money." Jeremy's voice became normal. "It's fine if I'm here."

"I didn't talk about the money issue." Yanyue shook her head, denying Jeremy. "Although that would also be a very important question."

"Then what do you want to say?" Jeremy asked back.

"I want to say that I can't stay in this room all the time." Xiyue looked at Jeremy's light blue eyes under the sun, clean and clear. "We can't go on like this forever."

"What do you mean?" Jeremy actually knew what Kanyue was thinking, and he had thought about similar issues before.But couldn't think of any substantively good answers, so Jeremy just kept pretending it wasn't a thing.

"I mean, I seem to be slowly becoming your burden." Juyue glanced at Jeremy, then continued to look out the window. "I know that you are very willing to carry me as a burden on your shoulders. Of course, I am also very glad that I can make you willing."

"But gradually because of the weight on your body, you can't take a step." Juyue turned her face to look at Jeremy. "What are you going to do. Or, what are we going to do."

"You're regretting it." Jeremy said in an affirmative tone.

"No. I'm not a person who regrets easily." Kanyue said seriously. "Because I never felt that any choice again would make much of a difference."

"It's just the current situation, so I have to choose the way to be with you in the future." Yanyue continued to look out the window. "The thing is, right now I don't have a choice."

"Like a powerless slave." Yanyue smiled to herself looking out the window.

"People are born to be slaves." Jeremy didn't ask Xiyue to take care of himself as before, but continued to say to Xiyue's side face. "Slaves to money, slaves to health, slaves to be given a handout of affection."

"Kneel down on the ground and beg to get these things." Jeremy's gaze also followed the direction Kanyue was looking at. "Because leaving these things is almost the same as dying. Even as a slave."

"So, we are just slaves with different divisions of labor?" Yue Yue asked Jeremy's thoughts with a smile.

"I will make the choice for us, and then leave you the power to choose for us." Jeremy hugged Kanyue. "Even if you want to be a slave for the rest of your life."

"The right to choose in this way will make me very sad." Xiyue felt that something must have happened to Jeremy.The things Jeremy didn't want to tell himself.

"It's just a short time to be sad, and it will pass." Jeremy said to Xiyue in a reassuring tone. "I'll definitely let it pass."

"I wish I could do something." Kanyue sadly imagined messing up Jeremy's already terrible life.

"You have." Jeremy smiled and nodded. "Just keep holding me tight like this."

After hearing Jeremy's words, Kanyue just hugged Jeremy's body even harder.

"Let's go to Japan." After a pause of two seconds, Jeremy suddenly made such a decision. "If you don't hate going back to the place where you grew up again."

"It's the same whether it grows or not." After being told by Jeremy, Jianyue realized that she had no news from her father.

"The question is, can you leave here?" Kanyue was a little puzzled. "Isn't it very difficult?"

"A solution can always be found." Jeremy smiled and said affirmatively. "I'll find a solution."

"I know, recently I've become manic and irritable and a little nervous." Jeremy continued to say to Xiyue. "Because I'm making changes, changes to be with you for a longer time. So, maybe I have to borrow some patience from you."

"In the future, I will compensate you several times for this patience." Jeremy kissed Xunyue's lips.

"As long as the end of this endurance is not just an illusion." Said Yueyue. "That's not patience."

"It's a kind of luck." Kanyue finally finished, kissing Jeremy's lips back.

Because hallucinations are like smoke rings, they can form however you want.But in the end it will only slowly disappear.It will eventually be blown away.No matter how beautiful it used to be.

Imagining these depressing things, Kanyue entangled with Jeremy intensely.It seems to be another better way of dialogue, to appease each other's uneasy scruples and fears.If one day I lose this way of talking to Jeremy, will I be able to be as calm and fearless as I have always been?

There always seems to be something different.in my life.

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Probably Jeremy also realized that it would be boring to leave me alone in this dilapidated and dark room, so he suddenly decided to take me to the bar tonight.

I didn't tell him that the store I was going to was actually where Matthew worked.

In fact, I don't really miss Matthew and them.However, I always feel that I want to see how they are doing.

I was also surprised by this idea.

"Would you like something to drink?" Jeremy asked at the door.

"Just beer." Kanyue replied casually.

"Then I'll go buy it." Jeremy walked in quickly.

Kanyue just followed Jeremy, looking at the people around him casually.

The DJ on stage today is not Matthew.

It's a guy with colorfully dyed hair, and he's slightly shorter than Matthew.The skin was a wheatish brown, a little different from Matthew's pale complexion.

Kanyue, who turned around casually, soon saw Jeremy walking towards him with a bottle of beer.

"Here you are." Jeremy handed the beer to Kanyue.

After Kanyue took it, he looked around and suddenly saw Candice who had only met once.

"Oops." Kanyue's voice was buried in the noise of the nightclub.

"I think we have to get out," Kanyue said to Jeremy. "Here's someone who knows me."

"So?" Jeremy didn't think this would be a problem.

"So, it's better to leave." Kanyue said simply without wanting to explain. "It's always good to avoid trouble."

"Then go to the back door and stay for a while." Jeremy smiled. "After all, that's where we met."

"Okay then." Kanyue followed Jeremy to the back door.

It seems that Kanyue can't recall the part of Jeremy's rescue that day, but she can remember the sporadic details clearly.The man's screams of pain when he was blown off his body, the smell of blood in the air, the smell of sweat on Jeremy's skin when he leaned towards him.

"Erica?" Kanyue heard Jeremy pronounce the name he seemed to have heard once somewhere in an unexpected and uncertain voice.

"Jeremy." The girl named Erica next to her also seemed surprised by Jeremy's appearance.

"Thought you were dead." Jeremy said in a tone that didn't sound like a joke.

"That disappoints you." Erica smiled. "I am still here."

"Are you still with that bastard Neil?" Jeremy seemed to already know the answer to the question.

"Now?" Erica thought for a moment. "Since he got him into the emergency room last time...it seems to be really separated."

"Last time..." Jeremy thought about it seriously, and asked a question uncertainly. "When was the last time?"

"Probably three or four years." Erica replied uncertainly.

"You should have left that piece of shit long ago," Jeremy cursed. "When he first got you in the ER."

"People are always stupid." Erica smiled, revealing two large and deep dimples on her cheeks. "Okay, forget about the stupid things I did."

"This is Mizuki." Jeremy seemed to have a good attitude towards Erica, and took the initiative to introduce Kanyue to Erica. "My most important person."

"Mizuki..." Erica looked at Kanyue and thought hard. "You know Matthew, right?"

"And Candice." Erica added.

"You are..." This time it was Kanyue's turn to be surprised.

"This guy's situation... is more complicated." Jeremy seemed to see something. "So, don't tell anyone about seeing him today."

"Okay." Erica smiled and didn't ask any more questions.

"Then I advise you to leave here quickly." Erica looked towards the door. "Maybe later you will accidentally bump into those people whose names I mentioned."

"Alright then." Jeremy patted Erica on the shoulder. "take care of yourself."

"Good night." Erica replied with a smile.

Then Kanyue followed Jeremy and left quickly.

After getting into Jeremy's car, Kanyue was curious about the relationship between Jeremy and Erica.

"Who is she?" Kanyue asked bluntly.

"When I wasn't on Cooper's team, I was with an asshole's girlfriend." Jeremy pronounced the word 'asshole' very hard.

"You seem to have a pretty good relationship with her." Xiyue said her thoughts.

"She's a nice person." Jeremy started the car. "But the man I met was an asshole."

"How should I say it?" Juyue suddenly became interested in such a topic.

"Just do what an asshole would do." Jeremy glanced at Kanyue. "what do you want me to say."

"Is she like you too?" Juyue thought that Erica didn't look like a guy who would pull out a gun and shoot people at every turn.

"She's different." Jeremy replied, at the same time denying Kanyue's idea. "It was completely different from me from the beginning."

"It doesn't seem to be complete." Jeremy thought for a while. "I don't really know much about her. It's just that Neil would ask me to go see her when he got her in the emergency room."

"She doesn't do things that will get her into trouble." Jeremy looked at Kanyue. "Like the things I do all the time."

"I thought you guys would have to do things that got you into trouble." Juyue was surprised by Jeremy's words.

"The greater the cost, the greater the reward." Jeremy explained, "it depends on what you think."

“All I know is that the greater the cost, the greater the risk,” Yue Yue responded.

"Risk and gain mean the same thing." Jeremy looked at the road ahead. "It depends on your luck."

"Then what about your luck?" Kanyue asked with a smile.

"Probably, it's like the weather forecast." Jeremy smiled and said helplessly. "When it is accurate, most of the time it is not accurate."

"But don't worry." Jeremy glanced at Kanyue, then continued to look ahead. "I said I'd take care of everything."

"There are always some things you can't control." Kanyue didn't want to hurt Jeremy, but she still said what was in her heart. "It's like you can't control your fear."

"If you feel pointless and want to give up, maybe it's not too late." Jeremy said without looking at the moon.

"It's meaningless to talk about giving up or not giving up now." Said Yueyue. "Probably, I just put some cruel things in front of me. Bring back the issues that I have been evading."

"Then now is the time for us to brutally face the status quo." Jeremy seemed relieved by Kanyue's answer.