stained with the imprint of love... me and you

"Mom said, do you want to get you another Aupair?" Matthew, who was going to attend Sally's birthday, and Dominic found a random place outside today for lunch.When paying the bill, Matthew said while paying.

"But I think your answer must be no." Matthew asked himself and answered. "Just like you always do."

"Because it's never been necessary," Dominic replied.

"That's right." Matthew continued to drink his unfinished bottle of beer. "You still like that Mizuki, though. Don't you?"

"I prefer the current state." Dominic didn't answer Matthew's question directly. "The state of a person."

"That's because you never know the state of someone else." Matthew smiled, pointing out the flaw in Dominic's words. "Like, what it's like to be with another person."

"I know you know better." Dominic gave Matthew a deadpan look. "And a lot of different other people."

"I'm talking about you now... of course I know myself." Matthew said with a smile, not minding the allusion in Dominic's words. "What about yourself? Don't want to know what it's like to be with another human being?"

"You mean what it's like to be in another person." Dominic looked at Matthew. "I already knew it."

"I think it would be interesting to tell adult jokes with your face paralyzed..." Matthew purposely leaned closer to Dominic's face for a look.

"Funny jokes are as funny as anyone can tell." Dominic turned his face away.

"Do you always forget the common sense that people are different... I said." Matthew sighed deliberately. "Especially you, a very different guy."

"Won't Kira come back next month?" Dominic suddenly changed the topic to Kira who was already in LA.

"What's wrong?" Matthew asked curiously. "Don't tell me you still miss her..."

"Her birthday is next month," Dominic said.

"Hey...there is such a careful side..." Matthew asked, deliberately trying to tease Dominic. "Then do you remember my birthday?"

"November 11." Dominic said in a still lukewarm voice.

"That's surprising..." Matthew smiled as he pretended to clap his hands. "You guys are actually such a person."

"What kind of person." Dominic asked following Matthew's words.

"I will remember people who have nothing to do with me." Matthew replied.

"How do you define the concept of 'irrelevant matter'." Dominic said his own opinion. "Sometimes, you don't know exactly what counts as being about you."

"Interesting thought..." Matthew smiled. "Maybe it's time to put this interesting idea into action..."

"Like...find yourself someone to relate to." Matthew didn't use the word 'girlfriend'.Instead just use 'person'.

"And yourself." Dominic threw the question to Matthew first. "Did you find anything?"

"Too many..." Matthew said deliberately helplessly.

"Too much. It's just an illusion." Dominic glanced at Matthew who was drinking beer again from the beer bottle. "Those too many people are really just the same person. The same person you don't really want. You're just fascinated by appearances."

"Seems like I've found someone different." Matthew looked away, thinking about how things were going.

"Are you afraid?" Dominic asked suddenly.

"What are you afraid of?" Matthew asked in confusion.

"Afraid that I'm just like that group of people to that person." Dominic explained what he meant by his words. "Someone he doesn't really want."

"You used 'he'…" Matthew found something wrong with Dominic's words. "So...the person you're afraid of who's different from the others...is 'him'?"

"It's weird." Dominic didn't show any strange expression at all by Matthew's question.

"It's essentially the same." Matthew put the empty beer bottle on the table and shrugged. "He's fine, and she's fine."

"It doesn't have to be qualitative..." Matthew said in a slightly joking tone. "It's just that person anyway."

"There was a period of depression." Dominic rarely confided his thoughts. "There's not even a single person who can make me think about it. Even if he doesn't like me. Since he left."

"After he left, my heart was empty." Dominic continued, while Matthew just put away his usual jokes and listened silently and seriously.

"Actually, maybe it's just that I have forgotten about him." Dominic lowered his head a little. "Forgot what he looked like. Forgot the taste of his lips."

"I promised him that I would bring him an ending that he will remember well." Dominic gradually had a painful expression on his face. "It's like when he expected me to give him a happy beginning. But, I still broke my promise."

"However, I can't find the process anymore." Dominic lowered his head, so that Matthew couldn't see the expression on his face clearly. "Maybe I lost it."

"When you reach out to the old place to find something, but it's not there." Dominic adjusted his expression and raised his head again. "Then it's probably lost."

"For those people you can't forget. The at least way is to make him no longer think of seeing you." Matthew was silent for a long time after watching Dominic finish speaking, and finally spoke. "After all, there is no way to update things like memories."

"The problem seems to be." Dominic thought hesitantly. "He may have been amnesticized."

"Because there is a new replacement memory? Or, a new person?" Matthew continued to ask.

"The person who likes you and the person you like, which one would you choose." Dominic didn't answer Matthew's words.

"Which one has the bigger breasts." Matthew returned to his usual self.

"Is the physical sense important?" Dominic looked at Matthew.

"At least for me, this sense is more important." Matthew continued to explain. "If there is no other more important thing to replace it."

"It's very important to me. It's just people." Dominic said that he had a different opinion from Matthew. "Not a physical orgasm."

"You always have a dead face like this, and you keep your mouth shut every day, as if you have to charge by the hour for what you say." Matthew said with a smile. "Who knows who is important to you or not..."

"Emotions..." Matthew looked at Dominic and said suggestively. "Sometimes it needs to be expressed."

"When some feelings become inexpressible, I usually use a method." Dominic told Matthew his thoughts very succinctly. "Do."

"Hahaha..." Matthew laughed out loud at Dominic's last word. "This is indeed a good expression..."

"What's so ridiculous." Dominic didn't understand that Matthew had already taken this kind of 'inexpressible' as a profession...

"Don't you keep expressing yourself every day?" Dominic said. "It's like work."

"Like you said...it's like a profession...or...basic exercise?" Matthew couldn't find the right words. "It's not really an expression at all...Sometimes, there's even no emotion in it. What else is there to express?"

"It's not fair to them." The fact that Dominic hated Matthew was the main reason why he never liked going to where Matthew worked.

"There's nothing fair or unfair..." Matthew defended himself. "How much do you think they like me? And how much do they know about me?"

"It's just a feeling of 'Hey! That DJ on that stage is cool! It would be fun to hang out with him.' or 'Would it be a different experience to have a boyfriend like this for a change? ’ or whatever,” Matthew said with a laugh.

"So you took advantage of them," Dominic said sharply.

"'Utilize'… such a sharp word…" Matthew faked a frown. "Everyone just gets what they need. Making love is not a sacred thing... People all over the street can casually drag someone together after being drunk..."

"I just think it's disgusting," Dominic said with disgust. "It's fine to use it, or whatever you want."

"Meaningless pumping and thrusting." Dominic said coldly.

"I find it boring too..." Matthew checked the time. "But I just don't want to stop..."

"Are you leaving?" Dominic saw Matthew look at the clock hanging on the wall of the shop.

"It's almost time to go..." Matthew put his beret on his head. "Tonight it's time to resume the pumping and thrusting that disgusts you."

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"Did you buy this birthday present for Sally? Or did you buy it for Matthew?" Erica, who had been looking at the store for a day, looked at the birthday present that Jesse and Candice, who had reconciled, bought for Sally from outside.

"Isn't it good-looking?" Candice looked at the women's sexy underwear in the box. "Jesse wants me to buy one too."

After that, Candice turned to look at Jesse.

"Yeah. Isn't it good looking, Erica?" Jesse looked at Erica with a puzzled expression. "I think as a man, it's very desirable."

"That's the point..." Erica looked at the contents of the box again. "So who is this thing bought for..."

"You don't know Sally." Candice said, waving at Erica. "She loves these things."

"And it was she herself who said to buy some interesting and useful gifts. Otherwise, don't waste your money." Candice continued.

"That's really an efficient gift... I guess it will be used on the birthday night." Erica said with a smile.

"However, I really admire you." Jesse said suddenly. "Accepted all this indifferently."

"Maybe I'm wrong." Jesse glanced at Erica. "You don't like Matthew. That's why you don't care."

"Anyway, you were the one who started saying that I love him to death." Erica smiled, still with an indifferent attitude.

"Shall we go together tonight?" Candice suddenly thought that Erica hadn't given a clear reply, but Candice also probably understood that this kind of vague reply was actually a way of reply from Erica.

"Who went to look at the store." Jesse and Candice forgot about this.

"You can close the door earlier." Jesse looked at Erica and said. "Or you've already made up your mind not to go."

"Did you always think that my 'we'll talk' was an affirmative answer." Erica shook her head. "Anyway, I have known me for more than three years..."

"Then call us if you change your mind." Candice also knew that her words were just words.

"Okay." Erica responded.

"Then we should probably be leaving." Jesse checked the time.

"Are you sure you don't want to go?" Jesse asked Erica again seriously.

"Go away..." Erica replied with a smile.

"Let's go, Jesse." Candice replied with a smile.