stained with the imprint of love... me and you

"This world doesn't need you. Just like this family. You gave me the joy of raising you and living with you for 18 years. Now is the time to seek the happiness you want, and I give you the freedom to seek happiness. "

The speaker is the father.

Dystocia also insisted on giving birth to my mother, who was the love of my father's life.The father who loved his mother couldn't understand his mother's persistence.

Some just accept it.

But it was never me who accepted it.

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The sky that had just turned from Japan seemed to be the same in America.

This was the first choice I made after taking over the so-called 'freedom' from my father.

Came to the United States to become the Aupair of the Spencer family.

Upon exiting the airport, I was greeted by a man with short blond hair and a beret.

His hairstyle is a bit unusual, for a man.Such a Sassoon head is usually a hairstyle that women would choose, especially his bangs with his forehead pressed down by a hat.

"Good afternoon." The man greeted me in unskilled Japanese.

I don't know if the man in front of me, who looks about 190 centimeters and slightly hunchbacked, is considered tall for a European or American.However, in comparison, I am not considered short in Japan and have a height of 180 cm_, but I am still far behind him.

"Good afternoon." I followed him in Japanese.

"Are you Mizuki?" The man stopped using Japanese and asked me directly in English.

Seeing the moon and clearing the sky.

is my name.And the Mizuki mentioned by the man just now is the pronunciation of the surname '観月'.

"Yes." Kanyue immediately replied in English. "Hello, Mr. Spencer."

"Matthew. You can just call me Matthew." The man in front of him called Matthew stretched out his hand and said to Xiyue in a friendly manner. "Nice to meet you."

"Nice to meet you too, Matthew." Kanyue shook hands with Matthew politely.

"So we're off?" Matthew said in an interrogative tone.

"Okay." Yue Yue replied simply.

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After following this man named Mathew into the passenger seat of the car, I turned my head sideways to look at the moving scenery outside the car window.

"It's still some distance from the airport to home." Matthew suddenly interrupted the silence between me and him.

"It will take about two hours to get it."

When Matthew spoke, Kanyue glanced sideways and caught a casual glimpse of the tattoo on his wrist.

It seems to be a pattern of dark red and navy blue intertwined into flames extending from nowhere on the wrist.Hidden by the sleeves of the long dark gray shirt Matthew is wearing, it's only clear when turning the steering wheel.

"Oh, okay." Kanyue replied in a low voice.

"If you feel tired, you can sleep for a while." Matthew said while looking at the seat behind the car. "If you don't mind, you can lie down and sleep in the back."

"No need." Juyue briefly refused. "You can just sleep here."

"That's good." Matthew looked at Kanyue who put his head on the seat and closed his eyes after answering his own question.

Life is like an endless repetition of the same thing.

The essence is the same from beginning to end.

Every day, watching such painless 'repetition' crush the body.Apart from being old, I don't know anything about the other marks on my body.

Maybe there is no need to know.

Anyway, the purpose of this repetition for me is to live in a space I can’t like, face a group of people I can’t like, use a body that is getting old and I can’t like it, doing things that I have never liked, After living this kind of insensitive and unlovable life.

Will there be something different after this is over?

It seems that things like that have the ability to capture my occasional curiosity.

It's just a short moment.

But never long enough for me to act on it.

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"Hi, nice to meet you, Mizuki." The first words of the woman who came to meet him after the door was opened by Matthew.

This woman with a friendly smile and dignified attire should be Mrs. Spencer.

"Hi, nice to meet you too. Mrs..."

"Mrs Spencer." Just as Xiyue was hesitating whether to make sure to pronounce Mrs. Spencer again, Matthew answered for Xiyue. "There's only one Mrs. Spencer in this family."

"The other one who's old enough to be someone else's wife and still alone," Matthew added jokingly.

"The bastard who treats women like Durex every day and throws it away doesn't seem qualified to say me." The woman who walked down the stairs while talking replied to Matthew in the same joking tone.

"Stop making trouble, you two." Mrs. Spencer shook her head helplessly, and then said to Xiyue. "I'm really sorry that I let you see such a scene as soon as I entered the door, Mizuki."

"No, that's not true..." Kanyue, who didn't know what to reply to Mrs. Spencer's words, said in a low voice.

"Go inside and sit down." Matthew said thoughtfully.

"Or put the luggage in your room first?" Matthew asked after thinking about it.

"Let's put the luggage in the room first." Kanyue gave Matthew and everyone the answer.

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"The room is the bedroom where Eddy lived in for a while." Matthew said to Kanyue who was following him as he walked up the stairs.

"Eddy is..." Kanyue suddenly realized that she even forgot to ask the name of the woman who was joking with Matthew just now.

"Eddy is the second son in the family." The woman who had just joked with Matthew replied behind the moon.

"But he has been away from the United States for three years." The woman who had just joked with Matthew continued. "The last time I contacted him on Skype, it seemed that he was in Tibet, China."

"Oh, I forgot to introduce myself." The woman who was joking with Matthew just now smiled suddenly, and then introduced herself to Xiyue. "My name is Kira. I am the eldest daughter of this family."

"And will continue to stay in this home for a long time." Matthew, who had already walked to the door of the room, continued to joke with Kira. "Because I can't get married."

"The woman you take to bed every night doesn't seem to want to marry you." Kira regretted it after she finished speaking, because she knew Matthew didn't like this at all.

"It's enough to be taken to bed by me." Matthew said with a smirk, and suddenly saw the tongue ring on his tongue in his mouth.

"Eddy's room is the smallest of the four of us." Kira said as she opened the door. "Because that guy always likes to run outside."

"Now they have left the United States and never came back," Kira added.

"Four?" Kanyue repeated what Kira said just now.

"The youngest one should be back soon." Matthew responded to Xiyue. "Dommy's a guy who doesn't really like to talk to people."

"But what can we talk about?" Kira joked to Matthew. "You can't just greet each other when you meet. 'Hey, did you orgasm today.' That's the case."

"You're going to scare little boys, Kira," Matthew said with a laugh.

"...Actually, I don't know exactly what to do as an Aupair in Spencer's family." Feeling embarrassed, Kanyue asked a more substantive question.

"That's true." Matthew leaned against the wall and thought about it. "Generally speaking, Aupairs go to the family to share the work of taking care of children."

"However, as you can see." Matthew shrugged and continued. "We don't have any kids here who need someone to look after them."

"It's what mother meant." Kira continued from the side. "She worked as an Aupair in Japan for a while when she was young. She likes it very much."

"I think it's mainly because of that guy Dommy." Matthew held a different opinion, looked at Kira and said.

"Dommy is the youngest one in the family. At the same time, there is something special...he was not born to Mrs. Spencer." Kira explained Matthew's thoughts to Kanyue. "Since you have chosen to be part of this family, there are some things that you need to know."

"Dommy is the illegitimate child of our father who made a mistake when he was young." Kira's unabashed explanation on the other side made Xiyue very surprised.

"Dommy's mother is also Japanese." Kira didn't notice the not obvious surprised expression on Kanyue's face. "After giving birth to Dommy, I gave him the surname Spencer, DominicIvanSpencer."

"Our mother also knew such a him, and accepted him very tolerantly." Kira paused. "Especially, after Dommy's biological mother died."

"It was four years ago that he took over." Kira seemed to want to finish the story together. "At that time, Eddy, who hadn't left the United States, would still go back home from time to time."

"My mother still gave Dommy the largest bedroom that Eddy lived in before. So this bedroom that Eddy left after less than a year should have been reserved for Dommy." Kira said while using Pointing to the ground.

"So... Eddy left because of this?" Kanyue asked cautiously.

"Huh?!" Matthew, who had been silent on the sidelines, laughed. "That guy doesn't care about such things."

"He left because he wanted to." Matthew denied Kanyue's speculation and said thoughtfully. "From a long time ago, that guy wanted to leave."

"What did you say that you are a smoke after being lit...you have to float everywhere to belong..." Matthew said in a helpless and joking tone, as if he was talking to himself.

"It seems to be a little far away." Matthew straightened his body against the wall. "In short, working as an Aupair in this family is much simpler than you think. You only need to buy the fixed things on the list at a fixed time, and you can clean and clean the room when you are happy. Of course, you can cook for us occasionally a meal."

"Actually, I really like sushi." Matthew finally added.

"...I... don't know how to make sushi..." Kanyue replied a little speechlessly.

"Oh. So. Thought every Japanese would do that." Matthew smiled. "Like we cook spaghetti here."

"That thing is different from cooking pasta." Kanyue explained. "It's much more difficult."

"Okay, okay," Kira interrupted. "Anyway, the situation in this family is probably like this. If you don't understand anything, you can ask me or Matt."

"Although I also encourage you to talk to Dommy more, after all, that guy seemed to speak Japanese when he lived with his biological mother before." Kira said finally before leaving. "But it's really not easy to get him to speak."

"But I said." Matthew looked at Xunyue before leaving. "You guys don't seem to be very willing to speak."

"It is said that Asians like to hide their feelings." Matthew said with his back to Kanyue. "It seems that there is such a thing."

"Then you should pack up quickly and take a rest." Matthew, who had already reached the stairs, said with his back to Kanyue. "I'll call you again at dinner time."

"That's right." Matthew, who was halfway there, suddenly stopped and turned around. "You should take a good rest. There are other places to take you after dinner."