poor water

Recently, a winter clothing endorsement was going to England for filming. Before leaving, Yu Ruining went to see He Jin and asked him if there was anything he wanted to bring.He Jin smiled and said: "There is nothing necessary. Speaking of which, I haven't been to England for a while."

Yu Ruining nodded with a smile, the conversation and eyes were only at the level of a teacher and a student.

Back then, He Jin took several students to study in the UK. After staying for a while, Yu Ruining was one of them, and he also did a project related to British drama.

Yu Ruining clearly remembered how his feelings for He Jin changed qualitatively in England.

There are too many places in London that make him feel sad.

With An Jingshu's arrangement, the work is carried out step by step. In the rest of the time, he will privately invite photographers to accompany him to take street shots, most of which are He Jin's silhouettes that remain deep in his memory.

There are watching performances in the Globe Theatre, and there are only hats and documents under the drizzle outside the British Museum to shelter from the rain, and there is a lonely back in the Dowitz Gallery.On a cruise on the Thames, in Trafalgar Square...

In London, he realized that He Jin had never really left him for a moment.Or, it was because he never let go of He Jin.

He was sitting in a cafe by the side of the street. The heating in the cafe was very good. He actually felt cold at his fingertips. Holding his mobile phone, he looked at the photo of himself and He Jin, whose expressions and movements were highly consistent. He didn't realize that he was crying until his vision gradually blurred. , in this place, he didn't intend to suppress his feelings, just like this tears wantonly.

After an unknown amount of time, he wiped his face and dialed He Jin's number.

"Hello, Rui Ning."

"Teacher He..."

He Jin could hear something strange in Yu Ruining's voice, and asked in confusion, "Ruining? What's wrong?"

"Teacher He..." The distance from He Jin was so far that he couldn't even call him by his name. "It's okay, I just happened to come to your favorite cafe today, and I miss you a little."

He Jin laughed over there: "How is it in London?"

"Well...it's okay, I often remember the time you brought us here, many places are still the same, Mr. He, do you want to miss that time."

He Jin still smiled: "I will remember it too."

The feelings for He Jin have been permeating every part of his heart for many years. He sometimes thinks that when he might be able to break free from such shackles, but because of recent events like this, , Uncovering the absurdity and tragedy of this relationship without warning, but let his feelings rebound maliciously, like a torrent, like a pouring empowerment.He also lost control so suddenly that he had nothing to think about except desperately grabbing it, and he was at a loss for what to do.

Yu Ruining sat in a daze in the store until An Jingshu called to remind him.

This trip took about ten days.After returning home, other arrangements followed.

In this way, he gradually forgot and slowly healed at work.Occasionally fell into the temporary stability of Ren Yushi, and occasionally fell into the confusion and panic brought about by Tang Lixing.

But others are like dust sticking to the clothes, only He Jin is like the lines on the clothes themselves.After washing away the dust, it becomes clearer.

Perhaps because he has never maintained such a strange distance with He Jin, Yu Ruining always feels that this winter seems to be longer than before.However, his popularity has indeed risen surprisingly in the company's biased resources.

Half a month before the new year, I was busy recording some evening parties, and when I finally got completely free, it was almost New Year's Eve.

The Chinese New Year has always been the most troublesome time for him. He won't go back to that home. During the Chinese New Year, he can't stay at home because he can't even hire a part-time job. Apart from traveling, he basically has nowhere to go.

He had just returned from Europe a little over a month ago.I don't want to travel long distances anymore.

Ren Yushi already had other arrangements for the New Year, but he was very considerate to help him post the couplets and decorate the room, making it look less deserted.

However, what's the use.

In previous years, sometimes he went out, and sometimes He Jin came to the rescue.This year, there's really nowhere to go.

After finishing all the work from the previous year, Yu Ruining slept at home with his head covered all day, went to a convenience store to eat fast food, and went to see an art exhibition, which was held by a photographer he often cooperates with. At the end of the year, the exhibition hall was extremely hot. He regretted a little when he got to the door.

But the friend was waiting at the door, leading him to the employee-only passage.

The friend was a little apologetic: "I'm really sorry, I didn't expect so many people to bump into a foreign cultural relics exhibition in the museum. Although the fee is expensive, it hasn't stopped most of the current art lovers."

Yu Ruining smiled, put on his hat, and pressed the brim of his hat: "It's a good thing there are many people, I'm fine, I'm used to it."

As soon as he turned into the corridor, he unexpectedly ran into Tang Lixing head-on.

Yu Ruining was stunned for a moment, seeing Tang Lixing and his party of three or four people, he didn't even plan to say hello.He was about to bow his head and pass by, but was still held back by Tang Lixing: "Why, you don't even owe me your greetings?"

The person standing opposite Tang Lixing looked at Yu Ruining with weird eyes, "Who is this? The one who has become popular recently... Yu Ruining?"

Tang Lixing nodded, but smiled at the man and said, "It's not polite."

The man stretched out his hand: "I'm sorry for Mr. Yu."

Yu Ruining only shook hands politely, and was about to leave: "I won't bother you."

The man stared at Yu Ruining's back, thoughtfully, and turned back to Tang Lixing and said, "Finally, I see the true face of Mount Lu. You can see both public and private, you."

Tang Lixing smiled wryly: "My uncle taught me well." This sentence is true at all.Whether in public or private, Yu Rui would rather carry He Jin's brand.

The man let out an "oh" with a trailing sound, "It's a pity, did you take advantage of it for nothing?"

Tang Lixing: "What nonsense."

The man was a little mocking: "It's not easy to chase. It seems that I don't like you very much." Tang Lixing just smiled helplessly and said nothing, which was a tacit consent.It is rare to show a frustrated look in front of friends.

This time, when friends gathered in the exhibition hall, it was rare for Xu Zhiyao to come, but he only arrived when the group returned to the living room. He happened to have not met Yu Ruining. Xu Zhiyao heard about Yu Ruining from a few friends.

Xu Zhiyao smiled maliciously: "I thought Mr. Tang's temperament was only waiting for someone to chase him."

Everyone booed: "Did you chase him back then?"

Tang Lixing answered, "No, I'm the one chasing after you." Tang Lixing's words were correct, although he was high-minded, he didn't like holding it when he met someone he liked.

Xu Zhiyao looked at his face and said with a smile: "It seems that you are still not enlightened. You don't know how to chase people, you only keep people by your side and perform the duties of a lover. A lover is like a position to you. You Do you understand what I mean? It was me at the beginning, and we were in love with each other, but now I meet this person, how about it, I have a headache."

Tang Lixing picked up the cup and touched Xu Zhiyao's cup, and thanked Xu Zhiyao inexplicably but with deep meaning: "Thank you."

Xu Zhiyao just smiled and said, "Good luck."

During dinner at night, it was Xu Zhiyao who took the initiative to ask about Yu Ruining. The two of them had already stopped worrying about the past, and Xu Zhiyao had a stable same-sex marriage.

Tang Lixing told the truth, Xu Zhiyao was a little surprised, and sighed: "It's really difficult."

Tang Lixing seemed to be summarizing Yu Ruining's character: "It's not too serious, I messed up once, and I still hate me."

Xu Zhiyao asked suddenly: "What do you like about him? Love at first sight?"

Tang Lixing thought for a while: "The first time I saw him, I thought Sunshine was cute. I ate with my mother and uncle, made the elders happy, and called me brother, which was so painful. Later, I found out that behind this smiling face, there was such a smile. It’s hard work, I can’t love my uncle, I’m lonely on the stage and screen, but I’m not good at dancing in the circle, and I feel distressed step by step to the present.”

Xu Zhiyao nodded: "It sounds like it won't be easy for you to break his highly self-enclosed ecosystem."

Tang Lixing said with a smile, "I'm at the end of my rope."

Xu Zhiyao also smiled: "People, there are always flaws."

Tang Lixing: "Yes, I know, all his flaws are my uncle."

Xu Zhiyao thought for a while: "I have an idea, but it's a bit too damaging, so I don't want to talk about it."

Tang Lixing said with a smile: "Don't say it, I'm afraid I won't be able to control it alone."

Tang Lixing still had his heart, and asked He Jin specifically how Yu Ruining spent the Chinese New Year in previous years.

He Jin said that most of them were alone, and had never seen his family members, nor heard him mention them.

The next day was New Year's Eve. Tang Lixing arrived at the gate of Yu Ruining's community early in the morning before calling him. Yu Ruining might not have woken up and answered the call before he had time to see who was calling. The electric wave still carried a meandering wake-up breath: "Hey... who is it..."

Tang Lixing's ears were a little crisp: "It's me, don't hang up."

Yu Ruining was silent for a few seconds before speaking again, but it was much colder than before: "What's the matter?"

Tang Lixing felt relieved, thought about the wording many times, suddenly seemed to have forgotten, and paused before answering: "Uncle mentioned you yesterday afternoon, saying that you probably won't celebrate the New Year with your parents, and my mother heard it. You know my mother, if I don't invite you today, I might end up living on the street too. Can you... help?"

Yu Ruining couldn't think of a word to answer for a long time, he was afraid that if this went on, he would really be confused.

"Talk to Auntie, I will definitely find time to visit her and Mr. He in these two days."

Tang Lixing refused: "I'm downstairs with you, you should go back with me. When I went out, my mother was already cleaning up your room. Uncle is also there, so you are not alone at home."

Yu Ruining thought for a while, and agreed, but still left a very clever trick: "That's fine, but I have a trip to Southeast Asia in the afternoon on the first day of the new year. I planned to travel there for the New Year before."

Tang Lixing smiled and said, "Okay, I'll see you off then."

After hanging up the phone, Yu Ruining looked at the flight information and randomly booked a round-trip ticket to Malaysia.

Tang Lixing waited downstairs for three full hours before seeing Yu Ruining coming out of the gate. At that moment, Tang Lixing felt that it was worth waiting another three hours.

He saw Yu Ruining holding a potted plant in his hand, and thought to himself, why does this person like potted plants so much, all the souvenirs seem to be potted plants, and when he got closer, he saw that it was a potted asparagus, a thin and small plant.He looked at the potted plant and smiled.In fact, Tang Lixing didn't know that Yu Ruining would only send potted plants if he sent congratulatory brocades.

Yu Ruining glanced at him: "What are you laughing at, I sent it to Mr. He."

Tang Lixing still smiled: "It looks good."

Knowing that the potted brocades he sent would not be taken back, most of them were still kept in the Tang residence.But he will still give it away. For some things, it is one thing to say it verbally, but it is another thing to change the habit.

When Tang Lixing arrived at the Tang residence, it was time for lunch. Because of He Jin's relationship, there were many dishes that Yu Ruining liked to eat on the table, and He Xiu liked Yu Ruining very much, which made him a little flattered.

Yu Ruining suddenly felt a sense of guilt. He shouldn't have had unreasonable thoughts about He Jin, and he also turned his eyebrows coldly at Tang Lixing.Everyone here is too tolerant of his willfulness.He was stunned for a moment, and when Tang Lixing handed him the juice, he came back to his senses, looked at Tang Lixing, smiled, and thanked him.

This smile made Tang Lixing feel like a crack opened on the glacier between the two of them.