Silently far away?the past

Being together depends on fate, but separation may not be because there is no fate. God always likes to make bad jokes, even if he doesn't want to accept it, there is nothing he can do.

The acquaintance with Yun Mo was like a joke, I must have been terrible at that time.That day, I was heavily drugged, my consciousness was on the verge of collapse, and there were still people chasing after me. If it wasn't for Yunmo, it's hard to predict what would have happened, because "that night", we became a couple, and he It was like the salvation that God gave me, which allowed me to get out of the sadness I couldn’t ask for, and accompanied me through the loneliness and despair of my parents’ divorce. However, I seemed to be unable to firmly grasp this ray of light bestowed by God.

On the first New Year’s Eve after my parents divorced, Yunmo sneaked from home to my house in the middle of the night and waited for the countdown. It was the first time in so many years that someone accompanied me to welcome the New Year. It felt very good to have someone say “Happy New Year” face to face at the first minute of the New Year. good.

On the morning of the first day of the new year, I sent him home and kissed him downstairs like a ghost. At that time, I sincerely hoped that I could hold his hand and grow old together.However, I didn't know that it was that kiss that made him come out to the family, but I couldn't be by his side during the whole process. At that time, where was I?I was on vacation, and together with Meng Xun, we had a routine "winter excursion" in our annual winter vacation. I didn't know what he went through that day until a long, long time later, and how unforgivable I was. Maybe fate started from that day. The absence began to turn upside down...

However, that is not the most unforgivable, there are more earth-shattering things.Three days before the college entrance examination, the senior three students in the school had a collective holiday. I sent Yunmo home, and I received a call from Meng Xun downstairs at his house. He told me that he had a stomach problem again, and there was no one at home. I was anxious at that time. Stomach problems are always big or small, so I rushed over in a hurry. I don't know if this is the second mistake, but it is definitely the beginning of another big mistake. When I went to Meng Xun's house, I saw him With the usual facial expression, I knew he had lied. I don't like people lying to me very much. Even Meng Xun turned around angrily and wanted to leave, but Meng Xun hugged me from behind and didn't let go.

So the two of us fought, my skill was no worse than Meng Xun's, but I couldn't withstand his entanglement and my reluctance to hurt, so we got together smoothly. I still remember that time, he was face to face He hugged me, his face was very close, and he breathed and smelled each other.

"I like you, will you be with me?" I can't remember what he looked like when he said this, the only thing I remember is his serious eyes.

I like Meng Xun, I liked it a long time ago, or it can be said that he was my first love, my first secret love.There is something irresistible about first love for everyone.

Everything that followed was out of control. I don’t know when the clothes on both of us disappeared, and even those hidden desires burst out. I like Meng Xun’s, so why don’t I have desire for him?

However, that longing is different from that for Yunmo. I think, I have fallen in love with Yunmo before that, but I don't know it.

That day, in fact, I couldn’t make it to the end, because I couldn’t do it. At that time, I thought I was reluctant to break Meng Xun. This road was not easy. I didn’t know it until a long time later. Yunmo, I can't do it...

What I didn't know was that Yunmo was outside the window that day, across a yard, and he could see clearly.

Three days, those three days of vacation, I spent with Meng Xun, I accepted his liking, because I liked him for too long, maybe this was another wrong start, and there was no room for redemption.

The day before the college entrance examination, I wanted to go to Yunmo, and I always wanted to see him to be at ease, but I was followed by Meng Xun. In the alley where I met Yunmo, I found him, and then?

Then, just like all the bloody plots, I couldn't resist the temptation of my first love in the end, and went back with him. That night, that alley, if I could recognize the whimper for help, or go to have a look, right? different?

It was I who buried all the opportunities with my own hands, and let the darkness annihilate the sunshine bestowed by God, so I deserve to die alone...