Go with the flow

memories four

Mu Zibai and Zhou Hua reconciled. He carefully recalled how good Mu Zimo was since he was a child. The elder brother he loved the most was just a little slower than before because of illness. My brother has committed countless crimes, my brother has never disliked me, and Mu Zibai feels that he is too stupid.

Zhou Hua finally went to his house with Mu Zibai. When he entered the room, he saw Mu Zimo sitting at the dining table crying. He seemed to be waiting for Mu Zibai to come home. The food on the table was already cold. As if he had eaten, Mu Zimo looked a little bit wrong. Only then did Zhou Hua realize that the bottle of wine that Mu Zibai secretly took out last time was on the table, and Mu Zimo drank.

"Brother Zimo, are you drinking?" Zhou Hua hurriedly stepped forward to care.

"Brother, I'm sorry, don't cry, it's my fault, I shouldn't say that about you."

Mu Zimo ignored him and just started talking to himself. Mu Zibai could only go to deliver food to his parents first, and let Zhou Hua stay to take care of Mu Zimo.

"Zibai, brother is wrong, brother will be careful in the future." Mu Zimo was a little out of his mind, and said excitedly while holding Zhou Hua's hand. "I don't care how others scold me or belittle me, but don't dislike me, don't ignore me."

"Brother Zimo, don't be sad, Zibai knows he was wrong." Zhou Hua comforted him by rubbing his hair.

"Why did I become so stupid, why everyone doesn't like me... why..." Mu Zimo fell asleep while talking, Zhou Hua could only help him to lie down on the sofa first, Wiping his face with a towel, the sleeping Mu Zimo was more attractive than usual, his lips looked so soft, Zhou Hua couldn't help kissing him.

"What are you doing?" Mu Zibai's voice interrupted the sweet and brief kiss.

"I...I..." Zhou Hua couldn't say it.

"You bastard, what did you do to my brother?" Mu Zibai swung his fist over, Zhou Hua didn't have time to hide, he was hit again where he was hit, his teeth chattered in pain.

"Get lost, you are not allowed to appear in front of my brother in the future." Mu Zibai pointed in the direction of the door.

Zhou Hua knew that Mu Zibai was angry now, and he probably wouldn't listen to any explanation, so he had no choice but to leave first.

In the next few days, no matter how much Zhou Hua wanted to talk to Mu Zibai, Mu Zibai ignored him.He could only grab Mu Zibai and not let him leave when school was over, and Mu Zibai didn't struggle anymore, and Zhou Hua didn't let go until there was no one else in the classroom.

"Zibai, I know you were surprised that day, but I really... really like Brother Zimo." Zhou Hua thought of getting Mu Zibai's support.

"And then? Does he like you? Just kiss him casually." Mu Zibai stared fiercely at Zhou Hua.

"Yes, I was wrong. I was going to confess to him, but I was afraid that he... was afraid that he would reject me." Zhou Hua was a little disappointed and asked, "You didn't tell him, did you?"

"I don't have that chance, my brother ignores me now, he moved to the school dormitory, and I can't even see him now." Mu Zibai sighed and said: "We are now brothers and sisters. "

"How come... Didn't you admit your mistake to him?" Zhou Hua only thought about himself, forgetting that Mu Zibai and Mu Zimo were also having conflicts.

"Before I had time, he left. I went to their school to look for him, but he didn't come out to see me. I really hate myself." Mu Zibai was very distressed.

Zhou Hua thought in his heart, what should I do now, should I go to him?The more Zhou Hua thought about it, the more courageous he became.

Zhou Hua never saw Mu Zimo again, and even Mu Zibai hadn't seen him for a long time. After the exam, Mu Zimo just went home and packed his things and left in a hurry.

After Zhou Hua's liking for Mu Zimo was discovered, the relationship between Mu Zibai and Zhou Hua faded away. Later, when the two went to different high schools, they almost had no contact with each other. Until the third year of high school, Zhou Hua came to Mu Zibai's school is looking for him.

"Zibai, long time no see." Mu Zibai has grown a lot taller again, and has become more like a good student than when he was in the third grade.

"Zhou Hua? Why are you here?" Mu Zibai was taken aback.

"Please, please."

The two found a drink shop, ordered something and sat down by the window.

"You have changed a lot. You used to look bad, but now you look like a top student." Zhou Hua teased Mu Zibai.

"You haven't changed much, you are still so handsome and so indifferent." Mu Zibai looked at Zhou Hua: "Tell me, what's the matter."

"I want to know where Brother Zimo is now, and I want to go to his university."

"It's been so many years, haven't you given up yet?" Mu Zibai couldn't believe his ears. "Based on your conditions, what kind of person can't be found, why are you obsessed with my brother?"

"Why, I don't know, I just know that no matter who I'm with, I will only think of him." Zhou Hua fell into memory.

"Actually, even if I want to tell you, I don't know where he is now?" Mu Zibai was a little sad: "He dropped out of school and never went back home. I only know that he is in T city now, and nothing else is there. I don’t know, it’s always him who contacts my parents, we don’t even know where he lives, and he doesn’t even want to tell us by phone.”

"Enough is enough. As long as he is in T City, I will find a way to find him." Zhou Hua said with certainty: "Zibai, thank you for still being willing to tell me."

Zhou Hua went to T city to go to college, and stayed in T city for 6 years. During this period, he was looking for Mu Zimo, but there was no news at all, until Mu Zibai told him that Mu Zimo brought his girlfriend back to his hometown. Knowing that he had lost his chance, it was obvious that he was broken in love before he even confessed.

Zhou Hua became promiscuous, and often went to bars to find attractive people. Friends around him were shocked by such a big change in him.Mu Zibai went to T City to look for him. At the beginning when he saw Zhou Hua's lover, he thought he had let go of Mu Zimo. It was only later that he found out that he was changing people almost every day, and those men didn't look like the same. Too serious, seeing Zhou Hua become such a person, Mu Zibai had a big fight with him again.

"What are you doing now, changing people every day? Have you ever thought about what would happen if my brother found out that you are such a bad person?"

"What do you want me to do? He's about to get married. He might not even remember me."

"Then do you have to live like this? Are you not empty?" Mu Zibai didn't want to see Zhou Hua like this.

"Empty? I don't know how happy I am when there is someone next to my bed every day." Zhou Hua even lied to himself.

"Well, I've made you a friend in vain." Mu Zibai left disappointed.

"Brother Zimo, I love you, I love you, can you hear me?" Zhou Hua said loudly into the empty room, but no one answered him, only his own crying echoed.