Xia Bao

With the help of his father's colleagues and friends, he dealt with Qin Yuan's funeral in a daze, and Qin Feng never cried.

I can't tell what's going on, but the pain is dull, like a plastic film.Very unreal.

On New Year's Day, Qin Xia called.

Ma Xiuli was crying on the kang, it was Qin Feng who answered the phone.

Qin Xia was so keenly aware that something was wrong, and cautiously asked about Uncle Qin's condition.

Maybe it was because Qin Xia was on the other end of the phone, or maybe this phone call was the last straw that broke the camel's back, or maybe it was because Qin Feng couldn't handle it anymore, and with just a flick of a finger, he could put the seemingly powerful iron King Kong completely fell apart.

Qin Feng was crying so hard on the phone.

All the numbness came back to life, and his liver and gallbladder trembled from the pain.

Qin Xia, I don't have a father anymore.

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Before the Spring Festival, Qin Feng received a letter from Qin Xia.

This is the first letter between them.

Qin Xia's handwriting can't be said to be very beautiful, it is delicate and neat, and it seems to be in harmony with him, and his handwriting is exactly the same.

Qin Feng read through a thin piece of paper with red eyes on the parallel bars on the playground. It took him half an hour, and his hands and feet were almost numb from the cold.

"Xiao Feng, good morning letter.

Some words, I don't know how to say on the phone, it's better to write a letter.

In fact, to be honest, I don’t know what to say when writing a letter.I'm clumsy, don't mind if I'm wrong.

Uncle Qin passed away, I am very sad.real.Although I only met him once, I was very touched by his openness and sincerity. You have a good father. He is not upright, but he carries you and this family.

I can imagine your helplessness and pain at the moment.

I don't know if Uncle Qin mentioned it to you, I don't have a father.Perhaps strictly speaking, it is wrong to say that. I must have a biological father, otherwise there would be no me.

My dad is from City S. When he was supporting the Great Northern Wilderness, he was studying in Beijing. He responded to the country's call with enthusiasm, and went to Donglin despite the dissuasion of his family.

But as the saying goes, the ideal is full, but the reality is skinny.Passionate blood cannot be eaten, let alone persist for a lifetime.

He met my mother in Donglin, got married and had me. His life was ordinary and mediocre, with disputes and helplessness.My mother didn't read much and dropped out of elementary school.My dad can be considered an intellectual, and my mother has different ideas in many aspects, so we can't talk about it.Very depressed.I guess he should regret it.Regret your impulse.Impulsively went to Donglin, and impulsively found a woman who was beautiful but uneducated and unable to talk to get married.

Then life played a big joke on him.Just when he was discouraged and planned to muddle along, he had the opportunity to return to S City, and he could only be alone.At that time I was less than half a year old.

My dad left anyway, promising my mom to go back to S City and settle down, and then pick us up.He left for five years.

My mother is strong. She told everyone back then that it was my father who sent us a letter asking us to go to S City after he settled down. The truth is not like this. It was my mother who couldn’t stand the long-term separation between the two places, so she gritted her teeth and made a decision regardless. He broke the boat and went straight to S City.

At that time, my grandparents and grandparents didn't agree, and we didn't send them off before we left. It was very tense.

Of course, these are what my mother said later, with some of her own subjective emotional factors.

As it turned out, my grandparents' hunch was right.

When my mother and I arrived in City S, we could see my father's reluctance and helplessness to accept, and then there was the endless quarrel that lasted half a year in my memory.

My grandparents look down on my mother and don't like to see me.My mother's self-esteem was all used to quarrel with my father, endlessly, the more we quarreled, the more we hurt, and the more we hurt, the more we quarreled.What is ugly, what is chilling, what is scolding.

My mother thought I was young at the time, but I still remember it until now.

I know you don't like my mother, but to be honest with you, actually, I got into city A, which is a kind of betrayal and escape. I don't want to stay in city S, I feel out of breath.For this matter, she is not less angry with me.Just like when she scolded my dad back then, her words were unscrupulous and mean.

So actually, I quite understand my dad's insistence on getting a divorce now.Even if the house is gone, you have to get rid of this kind of life.Really, I understand.

My dad has never appeared in front of me since he left.I don't know if it's because of his cowardice and doesn't care, or because of my mother's strong obstruction.All in all, I've been a dadless kid all these years.

Don't bother me after nagging so much.I really haven't told anyone about this old sesame seed and rotten millet in my family.

Actually, I just want to say, Qin Feng, you are not miserable at all, don't be sad, you are very happy.Your father has always been by your side, from birth to death, even if he had to leave due to illness, he still has love for you and has never been absent. "

Qin Feng kept shaking in the cold wind, it was not cold, or the main reason was not cold.

He couldn't control his teeth, they collided extremely quickly, and his muscles trembled out of control.He couldn't control his eyes, blurred yet clear, a small flower bloomed at the end of the letter paper, like the beautiful suffix of Qin Xia's name.

With stiff fingers, Qin Feng carefully smoothed and folded the letter paper, reluctant to throw away even the torn seal, put them together in an envelope, and carefully put it into the pocket of the school uniform.

The cold wind of more than twenty degrees below zero was still so cold, but Qin Feng walked faster and faster, as if he had a small heater on his body, it was warm, from the inside to the outside, his muscles and bones were numb, and his whole body was comfortable.

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After the Spring Festival and the start of school again, Qin Feng regained his fighting spirit. In other words, he was more urgent than ever.

Those forms of urgency that are not reflected on the surface, from the outside, the loss of his father made him even more reticent, and even Lin Weimin and the others were no longer embarrassed to drag him out to eat, drink and have fun.

Qin Feng's urgency was included.The fire in his heart could hardly be suppressed, and it ignited a prairie fire.

He wants to be strong, extremely powerful.Like his father said, support the family and take care of his mother.Admitted to University A, standing in front of Qin Xia proudly fulfilled his promise, and gave him a hug without saying a word.

These thoughts scorched his heart, making Qin Feng work harder than last semester. He wished he could not even sleep, and raced against time to read books, read books, and solve problems after problems.

In the first exam in the second semester of the second year of high school, Qin Feng's score unexpectedly slipped to below [-]%.

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Teacher Chen poured Qin Feng a glass of water, and solemnly floated a few tea leaves in it.

"Qin Feng, drink some water, let's chat casually."

"I'm sorry, Teacher Chen." Qin Feng lowered his head, feeling his face flustered with embarrassment: "I don't know how to pass the exam... I read the book carefully before the exam..."

"Xiaofeng," Teacher Chen called him that for the first time. He spoke earnestly and with the warmth of an elder: "You are just too preoccupied. Let me tell you what is good about you. The teacher does not mean to blame you. Grades are important, but you In the current state, the teacher is very worried." Teacher Chen pondered over his words, and pushed his glasses: "I understand your urgency to study hard, but Xiaofeng, do you understand the truth of haste makes waste? Especially in studies , Steady action is the truth, your current behavior is undoubtedly messing up your position."

Qin Feng gritted his teeth, raised his head to meet Teacher Chen's gaze, and frankly confessed his plan: "Mr. Chen, I want to get into A University. Please give me some guidance and help."

"University A is a good school, with ambition." Teacher Chen nodded, "You are very happy to be admitted to University A. You can't eat a fat man in one bite. Let's take your time. Isn't there still a whole year? I see it." Xiaofeng's clever mind is really interesting."

When he really said it, Qin Feng lost his confidence again: "I checked, and since the establishment of the school, our Donglin No. [-] Middle School has not had any students who have been admitted to University A."

"No past doesn't mean no future," Mr. Chen reassured: "If you don't have records, you will be the one who creates them. Besides, our school's enrollment rate is not high, but we have also been admitted to Beijing, S city. Ah, top student, you have confidence and I think you will succeed."

Qin Feng exhaled slowly, facing up to his impatience, "I know where my problem is, thank you Teacher Chen."

Teacher Chen smiled, stood up and patted Qin Feng on the shoulder: "Young man, work hard, Teacher Chen believes that you can do it! By the way, I think it's a very good idea for you to pair up with Huang Tao to study. Huang Tao has a solid foundation and has been playing steadily. He can help you improve your grades. But I have to say, ahem, I'm not praising you. Huang Tao is not as smart as you. He is dumbfounded when he encounters more difficult questions. You study hard. If you can't do it, just go I still don’t believe in finding teachers of various subjects, but with the strength of the entire teaching and research group, I can’t send you to University A!”