Want to Ascend? Then Fall in Love

Gu Jianshen knew that it was wrong for him to do this, he forced himself to look away, but it was as if he was attracted by something, and he couldn't do it at all.

The golden sand and beautiful toes, like pearls dug out from the deep sea, were innocently thrown on the beach and mixed with shells.

He wanted to pick it up, he didn't want it to be dusty, he...

"What's wrong?" Shen Qingxian's voice changed his mind.

Gu Jianshen's body froze suddenly, only to realize that he had bent down and reached out to get closer.

It was just a touch away, just a little bit away... Gu Jianshen's back was covered with cold sweat, he stiffly picked up a silver shell at Shen Qingxian's feet, and said, "It's, it's so beautiful."

Shen Qingxian followed his line of sight to look over, and immediately looked disgusted, what's so good about it?

Gu Jianshen didn't dare to move his eyes at all. He stared at the shell in his hand, as if he was staring at a rare treasure. He described the beauty of this shell in an extremely calm tone, but his mind was full of things that were more beautiful than the shell. A "pearl" that is a thousand times more beautiful.

Shen Qingxian really couldn't find any flaws, and it's not his fault, Gu Jianshen's level of hiding his thoughts is an existence that is unmatched in the Three Realms.

Shen Qingxian really thought that he liked this shell, he thought about it carefully, and it made sense.

Gu Jianshen's original hobby was Wan Xiushan's style, which was completely different from his. He used to cater to his tastes, but now that he has sealed his memory, he didn't deliberately guide him, so this guy has exposed his true nature, right?

A broken shell is so fond of it, Shen Qingxian said: "If you like it, I'll send you a box when I go back..."

Before he finished speaking, Gu Jianshen suddenly said, "Is the pearl okay?"

Shen Qingxian didn't understand: "Huh?"

Gu Jianshen was inexplicably dry mouthed, and he lowered his eyes and said, "Can you give me a box of pearls?" He lowered his eyes and saw the round and delicate toes, and he said slowly, "White ones, thumb-sized ones. ,pearl."

What kind of hobby is this?That's all, it's rare that Gu Jianshen took the initiative to ask him for something, Shen Qingxian said connivingly: "Okay!"

Gu Jian smiled deeply, but couldn't figure out what he was thinking.

Shen Qingxian said again: "You also took off your shoes, it's very comfortable to step on them."

Gu Jianshen hesitated for a moment, and Shen Qingxian urged him again, so he took off and stepped on the beach together.

Gu Jianshen felt that he was sick. He walked behind Shen Qingxian, stepping on the place where Shen Qingxian walked, as if... as if... touched his white jade-like skin.

"Hurry up." Shen Qingxian called him.

Gu Jianshen seemed to have been caught, the heat climbed up his chest, and his breathing became a little short.

As soon as Shen Qingxian grasped his hand, the coolness that suddenly soaked into the palm made Gu Jianshen feel as if he had been scalded.

He wanted to shake it off, but Shen Qingxian had already clenched it tightly, and said: "There are a lot of shells ahead, if you like, let's go and pick up some beautiful ones!"

Gu Jianshen replied clumsily, "Okay..."

In order to please Gu Jianshen, Shen Qingxian worked hard to find the shells he should like.

The standard is...he felt extremely ugly, so he showed it to Gu Jianshen and asked him, "Does it look good?"

Gu Jianshen: "It looks good."

Shen Qingxian thought that it was so, so he went to look for the ugly shell again.

There's no way, love is like this, you have to know how to tolerate each other, he can't always be coaxed by Gu Jianshen, he has to take the opportunity to coax him.

Thinking of this, Shen Qingxian was delighted in his heart, and felt that these ugly shells were much more pleasing to the eye!

The two picked up a lot, and Gu Jianshen didn't know how he was feeling, anyway, Shen Qingxian was quite happy.

As the sky darkened, the two settled down on the island.

Although it is a tropical island, it is still a little cold at night, but this kind of coolness makes people feel comfortable, accompanied by a touch of seafood, which makes people feel refreshed.

But after a long day of driving, they rested at night.

The holidays don't really begin until the second day.

Shen Qingxian got up very early, he made a simple breakfast, when Gu Jianshen came out and saw him in an apron, he was taken aback.

Shen Qingxian said: "Go wash up, and have dinner right away."

Gu Jianshen came over and said, "I... come to help."

Shen Qingxian said: "No, just wait and eat."

Gu Jianshen responded, and when he went to take a shower, he couldn't help but look back. Seeing Shen Qingxian who was so busy, his mind was full of ridiculous thoughts.

He didn't dare to continue thinking, he took a deep breath, trying to let the cold water change his sanity.

Shen Qingxian scrambled eggs humming a little song, completely unaware that her "cute" was already so capable.

When Gu Jianshen came out, breakfast was already on the table.

This restaurant is beautifully built, the two sides are opened, and the sea is seen when you turn your head. The blue and gold blend together, which is really pleasing to the eye.

Shen Qingxian said: "Try it, I haven't done it for a long time."

Gu Jianshen came back to his senses, and said in a low voice, "I didn't expect you to be able to cook."

Shen Qingxian said with a smile: "I used to only know how to make instant noodles." Now His Excellency knows that those things are not dry, after soaking them, the old altar sauerkraut beef noodles still have a special flavor.

Gu Jianshen smiled and said, "So you still ate those." After Gu Jianshen remembered the incident, Shen Qingxian had already returned to the mode of being pampered and pampered, as if he was an elegant and noble son who didn't touch Yang Chunshui.

Shen Qingxian said: "Before you were born, I was very down."

Gu Jianshen asked curiously, "Lost?"

"Hmm..." After he mentioned it, Shen Qingxian was quite nostalgic, and he said, "We lived in a small fishing village when your mother was pregnant. Although it was a little poorer, it was beautiful, just like here. It is the sea."

Hearing what he said, Gu Jianshen suddenly lost all curiosity and didn't want to continue listening at all.

Shen Qingxian liked that time very much, he said: "Your mother's cooking is delicious, but I don't dare to let her into the kitchen after she is a month old, it's too scary, such a small person, so big Stomach..." Mother is such a magical and great creature, she has lived for tens of thousands of years, and Shen Qingxian also feels that the continuation of life is a very miraculous thing.

Gu Jianshen listened to his words, his mouth was full of bitterness, and he couldn't taste the delicious food in front of him at all.

However, Shen Qingxian seemed to be talking, and said: "After you were born, we..." He thought it was funny when he thought of the little baby who was clinging to him at that time, and couldn't help but want to say a few more words.

Gu Jianshen suddenly put down the knife and fork: "I'm done."

Shen Qingxian was halfway through talking, and he hadn't finished talking yet, but he had to stop. He looked at Gu Jianshen with doubts in his eyes.

Gu Jianshen got up and said, "I'll go outside for a walk." After that, he turned and went out.

Shen Qingxian looked at Gu Jianshen's plate, the sandwich inside was only bitten...

Is it because he made it too bad and it didn't suit his taste?Shen Qingxian took a bite by herself and thought it was not bad.

So what happened to him?Think he's nagging?

This hurts my heart. Shen Qingxian has read too many parenting books, and she is always afraid that she will accidentally become an unpleasant "old man". After all, he is going to fall in love with him on this trip, but there is a difference between the two 17 years old... It's hard to say whether Gu Jianshen, who has no memory, will dislike him.

There is a saying in this world called "three-year generation gap". There is a 17-year difference between the two of them. There are almost six generation gaps stacked together, which can almost catch up with the Straits of Malacca!

Shen Qingxian couldn't eat anymore, he went back to the bedroom with complicated emotions, and looked at himself in front of the full-length mirror.

Although he is a mortal fetus, he has his own way to keep young.

It stands to reason... Doesn't look old?

Shen Qingxian was tangled up, feeling the difficulty of this task like never before.

First of all, Gu Jianshen must be made to treat him as his father, but he must also be allowed to develop such and such emotions.

But where is this degree?How can we grasp it perfectly?

Shen Qingxian was not sure.

Gu Jianshen, who turned around and left, regretted it after walking a few steps. He regretted it so much, but he didn't want to go back. He really didn't want to go back and listen to him talk about his past, not even a word.

But in fact, he had already sketched that scene in his mind.

The young lovers elope to a deserted island, giving up everything for love, as long as they have each other, no matter how hard or difficult the days are, they become unparalleled sweetness.

This... this... is his parents, their love.

Gu Jianshen felt that he was crazy, downright crazy.

He couldn't suppress the bitterness in his chest, as if he had lost someone who was important to him, as if he had lost someone he had longed for all his life... His soul was clamoring unwillingly, and the indescribable despair made his eyes dark.

Why is this happening, why is this happening?

Gu Jianshen questioned himself, but couldn't find an answer.

Sitting alone by the sea, he felt that his long-awaited vacation had become the most terrible purgatory.

Shen Qingxian wanted to call the Youth Research Center, and ask him what he should do now so as not to annoy his children...

Later, Gu Jianshen calmed down. Although it was uncomfortable, it was really a hard-won vacation. It was hard to be alone with him for such a long time, so I didn't want to miss it like this.

Gu Jianshen found Shen Qingxian: "Is it possible to snorkel here?"

Shen Qingxian was the worried old father right now, and upon hearing his question, he quickly said, "You can dive deep."

Gu Jian smiled deeply: "Let's go play."

Shen Qingxian quickly responded: "Okay!"

Naturally, one had to change clothes when going diving. Gu Jianshen kept his eyes on the whole time and didn't look at anything.

Shen Qingxian didn't think much of it either, he just asked someone to bring the equipment and Gu Jianshen went into the water.

The seabed is so beautiful that even Shen Qingxian, who hates blue, feels quite happy.

Because there are always all kinds of beauty hidden in the deep blue, the small tropical fish are red and bright yellow, and the beautiful corals are as golden as gold sunk into the bottom of the sea.

It was fun. After landing, the slightly stiff atmosphere between the two eased a lot.

Shen Qingxian was cautious with his words, he didn't dare to say more, and only talked along the topic of Gu Jianshen.

Gu Jianshen also slowly let go of his worries, enjoying this fleeting good time.

On the last day, Shen Qingxian relaxed and said with great interest: "Shall we come to the game?"

Gu Jianshen asked, "Compared to what?"

Shen Qingxian said: "Swimming, of course."

Gu Jianshen continued to ask, "How do you compare?"

Shen Qingxian pointed to the front and said, "Did you see that small island? Let's swim from here and see who is faster."

Gu Jian was very interested: "Okay!"

Shen Qingxian said: "Don't underestimate me, I will definitely win."

Gu Jianshen said, "I won't lose either."

Shen Qingxian unbuttoned his jacket and said, "Come on, let's have a showdown!"

Why did I suddenly think of swimming with Gu Jianshen?Shen Qingxian's move was not rash, he had seriously thought about it for many days.

If he wants to win, he has to prove that although he is old, he is not old. He has a good physique, and he is much stronger than the young man Gu Jianshen!

It's really sad to taste it carefully, the Lord Lord, who is long live, will have a day of fear of old age.

You must know that in the cultivation world, age is also part of the charm, not everyone can live that long.

Chapter 134 When the bullet jumped out and shot through the bull's-eye, Gu Jianshen felt a kind of morbid relief.

In order to show that she is young, victorious, and physically strong, Shen Qingxian puts all her strength into it and never relents, vowing to swim to the island first and win the competition.

He was so excited, Gu Jianshen was also very interested. It was the last day, and it was a good time for the two of them to swim.

But this thought disappeared after Shen Qingxian took off her clothes.

Gu Jianshen couldn't remember what swimming, what competition, what he lost and what he won.

In front of him is only the beautiful body touched by the sun, white, delicate, with beautiful lines... so unique.

Shen Qingxian was warming up and urged him: "Hurry up!"

Gu Jianshen didn't know how he looked away, and he didn't know if he moved his wrist, but when he got into the water, the cold sea water brought back his sanity, allowing him to swim forward quickly.

He didn't want to win, but he didn't dare to fall behind.

When he thought of Shen Qingxian in front of him, when he thought of his body, and when he thought of him being so close, that maddening heat swept through his whole body, even his soul was hot.

He swam with all his might, trying to fight for the lead, but Shen Qingxian refused to admit defeat, he chased him very closely, and even overtook him when he was a little tired...

When the two walked head-to-head, Shen Qingxian still looked at him and smiled at him.

The bright sun, wet black hair, and splashes of water made everything have a fairytale-like light and shadow.

At this moment, Gu Jianshen didn't know anything.

He stared blankly, intoxicated in vain fantasies.

He watched him leave, watched him walk away, but stopped himself, with the sea water in his nostrils, he couldn't think of struggling.

Consciousness gradually blurred, and the pain and entanglement disappeared for a moment, and there was only a strange expectation, looking forward to the end of everything, and to the beginning of everything.

Shen Qingxian swam happily, leaving Gu Jianshen far behind made him very happy.

30 years old, even in the mortal world is still young, how old?

What a naive little kid!

Thinking like this, Shen Qingxian swam faster, until he noticed something strange...

Haven't caught up yet?Is it too far away?Logically speaking, Gu Jianshen's physique shouldn't be so different from his, right?

Shen Qingxian turned his head, the empty and calm sea behind him gave him a chill.

Where's Gu Jianshen?

He spread his perception to the maximum and found the drowning boy.

Shen Qingxian only felt the blood flow backwards, swam back without thinking, and quickly rescued him.

This idiot!Drowning in a swim?What the hell are you doing!

Shen Qingxian was angry and distressed, and hurriedly brought the person ashore, doing first aid measures.

I never thought that their first kiss in this life would be like this...

But Shen Qingxian didn't care about thinking too much, and just tried to give him artificial respiration, hoping that he would wake up soon.

Not long after, Gu Jianshen's consciousness returned, he felt the softness and sweetness on his lips, and when he opened his eyes, he met Shen Qingxian's gaze.

In an instant, all the nerves in his body exploded, and Gu Jianshen remained motionless, as if his soul had come out of his shell.

Seeing him open his eyes, Shen Qingxian breathed a sigh of relief, but then said angrily: "If you can't do it, just rest, is winning and winning so important!"

Gu Jianshen: "..."

Shen Qingxian frowned tightly, her eyes full of distress: "Don't make fun of yourself, you scared me."

After speaking, he hugged him tightly, and through his slightly trembling arms, Gu Jianshen could feel his panic and fear.

After a long time, Gu Jian lowered his eyes and said hoarsely, "I'm sorry."

——I'm sorry to make you sad; I'm sorry that you care and love such a crazy person.

Shen Qingxian was so distressed that he couldn't bear to say anything more, so he quickly settled him down and guarded him carefully.

Because of this little accident, they delayed their return journey.

Although there were a lot of things on the desk, Shen Qingxian didn't care about them all. He took care of Gu Jianshen carefully, and only hoped that the drowning did not cause any shadow in his heart.

But the more he took care of him, the more uncomfortable Gu Jianshen became.

The better he treats him, the more ashamed Gu Jianshen feels. The feeling of being roasted on the moral fire is really painful.

All he could do was not look at Shen Qingxian, ignore him, and try to distance himself from him, but the physical distance only increased his spiritual desire, which only aggravated his longing when he dreamed back at midnight.

Miss, deep-seated miss.

It was as if every drop of blood and every nerve in the body was shouting his name.

Close your eyes to see his beautiful body, his smiling face in the sun, his soft lips...

Can't think about it, these things are all unthinkable, Gu Jianshen can only keep his eyes wide open, and survive one long night after another.

After returning to City X, Shen Qingxian was busy for a while, which gave Gu Jianshen a chance to breathe, but also made him feel even more uncomfortable.

Every day in the old house, the only thing that can relieve the spirit is the shooting range.

When the bullet bounced and shot through the bull's-eye, Gu Jianshen felt a kind of morbid relief.

It seemed that the bullseye was his dirty heart. The moment he was hit by a bullet, the pain came to an end.

He wished he could stay here forever, and fantasized about stealing a gun and going out, making his imagination a reality instead of a momentary relief.

No way...he will be sad, sad, and desperate.

How can I make him sad?Gu Jianshen would rather endure the lingering fire of hell day and night than see him in the slightest pain.

So be it, at least he is his for the rest of his life, his close relative, the only one he can neither abandon nor get closer to.

Shen Qingxian was busy for a few days, and finally got free, so he called Gu Jianshen: "Come out for lunch?"

Gu Jianshen paused and said, "I made an appointment with my classmates."

Shen Qingxian said disappointedly: "That's it."

Gu Jian listened deeply to his voice, and forced himself to be calm: You must not soften your heart, why are you eating with him?Added to the torture.

Shen Qingxian said again: "That night you come back early, we will eat at home."

Gu Jianshen said again: "Don't wait for me, we might go to sing."

Shen Qingxian was even more disappointed: "Will it be very late?"

Gu Jianshen said, "Yes."

Shen Qingxian had no choice but to agree: "Let's talk about it later." He has business tomorrow, so he doesn't have time to have dinner with him.

Gu Jianshen held the phone extremely hard, his protruding knuckles were like his out-of-control heart, hopelessly pale.

Where does he have an appointment?But it's an appointment.

It was also very easy for him to make appointments. He sent a wechat message in the class group, and there was a lot of response. Everyone went out in a lively manner and played late.

Shen Qingxian returned home early, seeing the emptiness of the room, couldn't help pursing her lips.

The son didn't want to stay, and even left his "old father" at home!

He was too lazy to eat alone, so he simply nestled on the sofa and watched TV.

After watching one episode after another, after watching six episodes in a row, one case is over, and his bastard hasn't come back yet!

Shen Qingxian looked at the clock, it was already nine o'clock, when will he be crazy?

He was a little angry, but he just endured it.

The puberty kid is at the time when he is the most disobedient. He wants to be an enlightened father and give him the space to be free.

Shen Qingxian resisted the urge to call and continued to wait.

This wait actually put him to sleep.

After returning from the island, Shen Qingxian has been busy day and night, and these days he only slept for an hour in total, even Superman should be tired.

So he fell asleep, nestled on the sofa, listened to the sound on the TV, and fell asleep in a daze.

In order to avoid Shen Qingxian, Gu Jianshen came back very late on purpose, but it was so late, yet he still saw him.

On the large sofa, the man sleeps on it.

Scattered black hair, beautiful side face, loose pajamas can't cover the beautiful body, and the straight long legs, and the smooth ankles that fall outside...

Gu Jianshen's longing that had been pent up for several days finally broke out of the cage, turning into a ferocious and terrifying beast.

His eyes were burning hot, and he lowered his voice to call him.

Shen Qingxian fell into a deep sleep and didn't move at all.

Suddenly, as if bewitched, Gu Jianshen's hand touched his cheek.

It is softer and smoother than imagined, and more charming than imagined, just like a magnet meets iron, and the huge gravitational force sticks them tightly together, and there is no possibility of separation.

Gu Jianshen's mind was empty, and he could no longer control the wild beast in his heart. He lowered his head and kissed Shen Qingxian with extremely trembling lips.

With just one touch, he stood up suddenly as if he had been scalded, and strode back to the house.

The door slammed shut, and Gu Jianshen leaned against the door, slid on the ground, and grabbed his hair with both hands in embarrassment.

As soon as he left, Shen Qingxian opened his eyes abruptly.

He was asleep, but the days of drinking blood from the tip of the knife for so many years had already made his perception to the limit.

As soon as Gu Jianshen entered the room, he woke up, but he was a little angry and didn't want to look him in the eye.

When he called him, he called him by his name. At that moment, Shen Qingxian's heart itch, and he pretended not to hear it on purpose.

Who knew that this guy actually kissed him!

Although it was only a light touch, it couldn't be lighter, but it was definitely a kiss!

What... What's going on... Shen Qingxian really couldn't believe it.

Shen Qingxian stayed for a while, then got up and went to the study room. He turned on the computer screen, and saw Gu Jianshen sitting by the door with his head in his arms.

This is not an invasion of privacy, it's just because of security reasons, surveillance is everywhere, including Gu Jianshen's room.

Gu Jianshen, who had done such a transgressive thing, could no longer deceive himself or others.

He touched the most taboo that should not be touched, and indulged in it crazily, without any hope of relief.

When did it start?Is it when the classmates are discussing whether they like this or that?

Or earlier?he can't remember...

He didn't dare to think about it, because thinking about it was like counting his sins in detail, like exposing his worst side to the public.

Unacceptable, how could he do this?He lived in the beautiful world he gave, under his umbrella, in a world full of love and joy, why would he have such crazy thoughts?

The insurmountable morality became the shackles that fettered him, and he dared not break free, because if he moved, he would be dripping with blood.

But he couldn't control himself, like being obsessed, like an addiction, he kept thinking about him, thinking about the kiss that wasn't considered a kiss on the island, thinking about the kiss that was stolen just now.

Thinking about it... He took out his mobile phone as if he was resigned.

Looking at the photos of him secretly taken inside, looking at his smooth back, looking at his beautiful collarbone, looking at his beautiful body...

A huge pleasure exploded in his mind, Gu Jianshen panted slightly, his mind went blank...

After the short happiness is the endless abyss.

The stickiness in his hands wrapped around him like a poisonous snake, leaving him hollow and desperate.

He finally fell in, and the weightlessness of stepping on the ground made him lose the strength to struggle.

If you can't hide, then run away.

Shen Qingxian was dumbfounded, this guy is only 13 years old! Is 13 years old so capable!

Shen Qingxian's mood is indescribable...

He wholeheartedly played the role of father, wanting to give his lover who has sealed his memory a good childhood, but... the cart before the horse?

This bastard is thinking... thinking...

Shen Qingxian blushed a little, feeling very embarrassed.

But it's easy, looking at his bear, he must be regarded as his father, and then he still wants to do this or that, so it's painful.

But the problem is that he is not yet an adult!Although the main body is long live, the meat fetus is still very immature!

Shen Qingxian pondered for a while, and felt that he couldn't pass this hurdle.

Although right now he can complete the task by just stretching out his fingers, but...it can't be done, it can't be done, who wants to be with such a brat, uhhhhhhh!

Wait, wait... wait!

Anyway, it's only been a few years, he now knows what he's thinking, so be careful in the future, just don't provoke him.

Although he knew that his lover was in pain, Shen Qingxian was inexplicably in a beautiful mood.

Is the task so simple?really not bad.

When Gu Jianshen becomes an adult, they will be able to love each other for many years!

Shen Qingxian thought well, but unfortunately...the plan couldn't keep up with the changes.

Gu Jianshen, who had seen through himself thoroughly, finally made a decision. Early in the morning, he said to Shen Qingxian, "I plan to go to No. [-] Middle School."

Shen Qingxian's hand holding the knife and fork paused slightly, and he asked him: "I remember that one is a boarding house?"

Gu Jianshen said without raising his head, "Yes."

Shen Qingxian asked him: "You... want to live on campus?"

Gu Jianshen replied quickly: "I want to experience collective life."

"But..." Shen Qingxian was not happy in his heart, he also knew about the school, the boarding system, he only went home one day a month, it was really...

Gu Jianshen said, "I've already decided, I hope you can agree."

Shen Qingxian remembered what happened last night, and immediately understood.

So you wanted to avoid him?

Shen Qingxian thought about it for a while, and finally agreed, it's okay... just stay here, it's better for the two of you to stay separately in this case.

Gu Jianshen always endured his bad health, and it was impossible for him to reveal it now, so he still had to get through these few years.

At first I thought five years was not a long time, but now I do the math...why is it so long!

After graduating from junior high school, Gu Jianshen chose to continue his high school studies in No. [-] Middle School.

Shen Qingxian looked at Fifteen Six's lover, afraid that he couldn't help but make a mistake, so he had to let him continue to live in school.

Waiting and waiting, finally came Gu Jianshen's summer.

His birthday is in the summer, more than a month away.

Shen Qingxian's past five years have been quite torturous. If he didn't know Gu Jianshen's thoughts, he could still treat him as a child, but after knowing... Well, he can't help but think wildly, after all, he is his lover, He wanted him, how could he let him endure it?

But I couldn't bear it and couldn't do it, so I... suffered.

After the college entrance examination, Gu Jianshen could go to any university with his grades, but he didn't want to stay in China anymore. He wanted to go to another hemisphere, to the place farthest from him, to a place where he could be completely forgotten.

In the first year of junior high school, he had a very difficult life. He left the familiar home and the person he missed, which only intensified the pain, doubled his desires, and made despair become a rope with barbs, strangling him desperately. Tighten his body and make him suffer.

Let the feelings fade?forget him?Impossible, going home once a month is like walking out of the suffocating seabed for him: he finally sees the sun, finally breathes the air, and finally relieves the longing that has been suppressed for a month.

But it was followed by more desperate pain and more obsessed love.

So he ran away and went back to school to avoid him, but soon he began to miss the meeting at the end of the month.

Going back and forth like this is really like a blunt knife hanging in the chest, sharpening the fragile heart and lungs.

It wasn't until the third year that he finally got used to it, but then he graduated from junior high school. That summer vacation was both honey and poison to him. He couldn't tell what he was eating or why he existed.

He couldn't stand the longing for him all day and all night, so he simply signed up for a summer camp and hid outside like a deserter.

He wanted to go abroad when he was in high school, but he was really reluctant.

He still wanted to see him, and no matter how he tried to avoid him, his longing would only increase. Although meeting once a month was painful, it was also his only chance to breathe.

After another two years of tossing around like this (jumping a grade), Gu Jianshen completely gave up.

I gave up on myself who might let go of this relationship.

I have tried my best to alienate him, I have tried my best to forget him, and I have tried my best to regard him as my relatives, but it doesn't work.

Everything is in vain, if you don't see it, you will miss it more, if you can't get it, you will long for it more. This morbid obsession will not wear off because of separation, but like an evil magic bean, it will flourish without any nourishment until It grows to the point of shock and despair.

Gu Jianshen conceded defeat, he knew that Shen Qingxian would not be able to go abroad because of his status, so he was going abroad, to a place where he would be completely away from him.

It was the only thing he could do.

Although Shen Qingxian would also be sad, it was better than him not being able to help hurting him.

So be it, this life is destined to be father and son, then... so be it.

Gu Jianshen was already silently preparing to go abroad, but Shen Qingxian was still planning his birthday.