I heard they all love me

Chu Li has always felt that he is a very thoughtful person, and in a sense, he is contented and happy.

Think about it, he lived in the environment of Jiang's family since he was a child, without a mother, bearing the name of an illegitimate child, his father ignored him, and his brother showed a little "dislike" of him.In high school, a circle of good friends alienated him one by one for no reason.He showed his sincerity to Qin Mu, but Qin Mu was indifferent, and in the end he joined forces with Ning Weidong to deceive him.When he died in a daze and came back to life, what did the family want, and he still owed a lot of debts... All these things, if he couldn't think about it, he would have already twisted his mind and retaliated against the society.

Ordinarily, he now just suspects that he may be one of the twins who was abandoned by his "mother".Things have not been clarified yet, and it is still doubtful whether they are twins.Even if it is true, what if the "mother" had difficulties back then?What if he wanted to take him away but was forced to stay?In the past, he struggled with such "little things" for a few minutes at most. Anyway, he was used to living without a mother, so it didn't matter if he was the one who was abandoned.

He knew all this in his heart, but for some reason, being held in Jiang Xingjian's arms, Chu Li's grievances were like mushrooms after the rain, popping up in clusters, and he couldn't stop them.

He seems to have returned to his childhood. After he had fought with the children in the kindergarten, he went to his brother crying alone.He was probably wronged at that time, although he may be too young to understand what wronged is.But it's not sad to find his brother. This idea has been deeply rooted in his mind since he didn't know when.It was one of the few truths he insisted on, as he said that eating a small cake when hungry is equal to being happy.

After a long sea of ​​time, with tears and snot all over his face, he dragged his favorite little rabbit and stood in front of Jiang Xingjian crying sobbingly.Jiang Xingjian stood condescendingly, looking at him silently.Different from the indifference in memory, Jiang Xingjian in front of him squatted down after a moment of stalemate with him, and hugged him into his arms while wiping his nose.

"Brother... brother, um... beat..."

He slurred his words and still remembered the "grand" vows he made in front of the kindergarten children.

Jiang Xingjian patted him on the back lightly, and echoed, "Hit! Who are you hitting?"

He squeezed into Jiang Xingjian's arms, biting his fingers and counting the children who were about to be beaten.As Jiang Xingjian said, he will definitely do the same.

The little boy with snot and tears gradually overlapped with Chu Li, and he rubbed against Jiang Xingjian's shirt embarrassingly.This was probably the first time Chu Li cried since elementary school, and it was still in front of Jiang Xingjian.He thought gloomily that this was too embarrassing, but the sourness in his heart was like a water-filled sponge, and tears came out as soon as he twisted.He pretended to be nonchalant and sniffled, trying to say that he was fine, but Jiang Xingjian's embrace was too warm, which made him reluctant to leave.

Until Jiang Xingjian's kiss fell on his forehead... like a feather brushing gently, Chu Li trembled, and a feeling of warmth and happiness slowly rose.He was a little overwhelmed, not disgusted or anything, but...

"Let's go home." Jiang Xingjian hugged him hard and made a soft decision.

The home in Jiang Xingjian's mouth specifically refers to the small apartment that once belonged to Jiang Xingzhe.Chu Li passed the word "go home" on the tip of his tongue, and said "um" vaguely.It's just that he was influenced by Grandma Xie after all, and his mood has not been very high.

When I got back to the apartment, it was past eight o'clock.Jiang Xingjian made a simple dinner, Chu Li ate a few mouthfuls, and went to bed early for the first time without playing games.Jiang Xingjian followed in and wanted to say something, thousands of words piled up in his heart, but he just sighed silently, raised his hand and rubbed Chu Li's hair, and said softly, "Go to bed early."

Chu Li subconsciously said: "...brother, you can sleep with me."

As soon as the words came out, Chu Li realized that the words were too ambiguous.He looked at Jiang Xingjian with some embarrassment, and explained embarrassingly: "I'm not..."

The once young Jiang Xingzhe liked Jiang Xingjian the most. For a while, he hugged the quilt and cried to find Jiang Xingjian to sleep with him every night.Of course he never got his wish.After so many years, Chu Li thought that he had forgotten those days, but Jiang Xingjian's embrace tonight evokes childhood memories.So much so that Chu Li seemed to have turned back into that little kid who was completely dependent on his brother, and blurted out - he wanted to sleep with Jiang Xingjian.

Chu Li shifted his gaze uncomfortably, and it was hard to tell Jiang Xingjian that he was really "acting like a baby" unconsciously just now.Most people are like this, they are always confident when they are loved, because they know that the other party will satisfy all their wishes.He remembered that he was always blocked from Jiang Xingjian's door when he was a child, and suddenly he didn't want to explain.

Chu Li lowered his head and said nothing, a shadow gradually came over from the bed.With dry and warm palms on top of his head, he heard Jiang Xingjian say, "Okay."

Because Chu Li likes to roll when he sleeps, when he renovated this apartment, the beds in both the master bedroom and the second bedroom were deliberately enlarged, which was more than enough for him and Jiang Xingjian to lie down.Sensing the breath of the people around him, Chu Li lay flat on his back in an unusual manner, trying to pretend that he was a mummy.

There is no light in the bedroom, only a small amount of moonlight outside the window swaying the light light uninvited.Chu Li closed his eyes and tried to fall asleep, but his mind became clearer.He resisted the urge to turn around to look at Jiang Xingjian, and couldn't help but think wildly, wondering what Jiang Xingjian was thinking now?are you asleep?

"Xiao Li?"

Jiang Xingjian's voice rang in his ears, and the heat of his breath made Chu Li's ears itchy.He was hesitating whether to continue to pretend to be a mummy, but Jiang Xingjian's hand had already reached out and held his hand accurately.Chu Li subconsciously wanted to break free, but Jiang Xingjian exerted a little force to not allow him to refuse.He hesitated for a while and gave up trying to break free, but it was a bit strange to sleep holding hands like this, Chu Li tried to find a topic to make himself less embarrassed.

"Grandma Xie said..." Chu Li opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling above his head and said softly, "She said you can do whatever you want, no matter your surname is Jiang or not, you are the grandson of the Xie family."

"I see." Jiang Xingjian agreed.

Chu Li paused for a few seconds and said, "I'm sorry, I don't know..."

He went to Grandma Xie on impulse. He might subconsciously want to ask for an explanation, but he definitely didn't want to pry into Jiang Xingjian's privacy.At that time, he didn't know that Jiang Xingjian's life experience would be an untouchable wound.He was scratching his head thinking about what to say, Jiang Xingjian clenched his hand, and said softly: "It's okay, I was going to tell you. I just regret that I said it too late, if it was earlier..."

Although both of them knew that what Jiang Xingzhe encountered was not an accident, but a deliberate car accident, even if they knew about it earlier, there might not be any change.But as soon as Jiang Xingjian thought of Jiang Xingzhe lying on the ground covered in blood, he couldn't help but blame himself.He asked: "Xiao Li, you refused to come back at first, did you doubt me?"

"...Not really." Chu Li said honestly, "I quite like the life I have now. Although my family has no money, I feel more comfortable. Actually, I came back to Haicheng quite early." At that time, he had just Waking up in this body, not yet accepting myself as another person.Shock, astonishment, disbelief, fear... mixed in the surprise of the rest of the life after the catastrophe.He was at a loss and didn't know the way forward, so he secretly went back to Haicheng. According to the paparazzi gossip report, he visited himself in the cemetery once.

"I was very scared during those days. I didn't know what was going on? Is it permanent or temporary? I don't remember everything about Chuli. What if my uncle finds out that I am fake? One day I went out to buy vegetables, and I sneaked back to Haicheng, and stayed near Jiang’s house for two days besides going to the cemetery.” After he finished speaking, he added, “Oh, you didn’t seem to be in Haicheng those few days.”

Jiang Xingjian checked the time and knew which days Chu Li was talking about. He was silent for a moment and said softly: "I went to Guangdong Province."

"Yuezhou?" Chu Li turned around suspiciously, Jiang Xingjian's face could not be seen clearly in the darkness, only a rough outline could be seen.

"Yuezhou No. [-] Prison." Jiang Xingjian said in a calm voice, "I went to see the man back then. He was sentenced to life for several crimes including attempted robbery and murder, and he will not be able to come out in his lifetime."

Chu Li guessed that this was probably Grandma Xie's handwriting, and he couldn't help asking: "Go, does Grandma Xie know?"

Jiang Xingjian heard the concern in his words, and whispered: "I can probably guess it. Grandma has been trapping herself all these years, but she never angered me..."

Jiang Xingjian has no feelings for that man, and has no intention of going to Guangdong Province to recognize his father.He is grateful for his grandmother's upbringing and maintenance over the years, but he doesn't feel that he needs that layer of whitewashing.What's more, it wasn't long before Jiang Xingzhe had an accident, so he might have punished himself in this way of self-abuse.

The two fell silent at the same time, and strangely, Chu Li's depression was relieved a lot.Most people's sense of happiness is based on comparison. Compared with Jiang Xingjian's life experience, his is actually nothing at all.

In the darkness, he closed his eyes again and was about to go to sleep. Jiang Xingjian's voice sounded again: "Do you remember the last time I asked why I refused to agree to take over Jiang Entertainment?"

Of course Chu Li remembered: "Didn't you say that you should be responsible to the Jiang family?"

Jiang Xingjian smiled self-deprecatingly: "I was ready to confess to my father at that time, Jiang's good or bad will soon have nothing to do with me. Qin Mu has done so much."

Chu Li was still digesting this sentence, Jiang Xingjian suddenly turned over and fell on him.All this was so sudden that Chu Li was completely imprisoned by Jiang Xingjian before he could react.The two faced each other face to face, breathing intertwined with each other, Chu Li said slowly: "You..."

Jiang Xingjian bowed his head and kissed him.

Different from the previous kiss on the forehead, this kiss was intense and lingering, with an indomitable momentum.This has nothing to do with desire, but instinct. Who can resist their instinct?

Jiang Xingjian only felt that the countless days and nights of waiting, pain, entanglement and depression of falling in love with his younger brother in the past seemed nothing at this moment.The people under him did not resist his closeness, which gave him a feeling of walking through the darkness and seeing the dawn.It is true that there are other problems in the future between him and Chu Li, but this kiss is a good start.

He kept kissing until Chu Li was panting and almost out of breath before letting go, feeling the honest reaction of the other party's body more clearly.There was a smile in Jiang Xingjian's eyes, and he reluctantly lay back beside Chu Li, stretching out his hand to hold Chu Li tightly in his arms.

"sleep."

Chu Li: "..."