[Yan Zan] "In short, find the time machine first!"

Everyone in the forum tonight was looking for Yanke.But where did Yan Ke go?

He sat across from Shining.

After exchanging mobile phones, the two Sarkaz each transferred the important text messages and files in the mobile phones.Yanke deleted all the pictures of Yanbu fans he saved, with a decisive attitude and no nostalgia.The Shining has nothing to delete.Her phone is always as clean as new.

The lounge on the ground floor, which is decorated in the style of a witch spirit banquet, is not often visited by people.The huge electronic screen emits a faint blue light, and the resin melons rolling all over the ground and the fake candles scattered high and low support a mysterious world of half-truths and half-fakes.Two dark-clad guests sat next to the bar counter that entered the room randomly, with a small yellow candle lit in a champagne glass between them, and the atmosphere seemed a little weird for a while.

After a long time, Shining raised the phone in front of her and pressed it away: "I feel now that I shouldn't have listened to that child and exchanged phones with you."

"Why do you say that?" Yanke asked.

Shining didn't answer him directly, but asked instead: "How do you feel now?"

"Which aspect are you asking?"

Shining sighed: "If someone confides his heart in front of his face, unless he is a real fool with a hard heart, he should be more or less touched in his heart, right? I'm asking about this touch in your heart. How does it feel to have someone who is not close to you care more about your body than his own?"

"I was completely misunderstood by him." Yanke said, "Actually, I don't have so many complicated reasons for writing fanfiction. It was just for fun at first."

"what about now?"

"It's also for fun? I do have plans to spend the rest of my life with him, but if there is any motivation for this plan, it should be outside the novel. Fan fiction does not mean anything, even if the protagonist's name is me and him .I won’t be clouded by fanfiction.”

"I haven't read what you guys wrote before. Can you explain it to me? What does this sentence mean?"

"I once recommended the Rhodes Island Forum to him. At that time, I explained to him that there were only novels written in our names, not us, and had nothing to do with us." Yan Ke said, "When I started writing, there were not many funeral articles on that website. It was mainly written by the three of Warfarin and the others, all of which were unreadable. So I started to write by myself. What I thought in my heart was: I will write by myself. If you write about your own fanfic, no matter how crooked it is, it won't go anywhere.

"But then I found out that it really wasn't. The longer I wrote, the more I felt that I would not write the role of The Undertaker. Although the material was taken from real life, but before I wrote it, I would definitely tell me what I wanted to write. The "undertaker" in my life has a basic judgment. But when the next time I need to collect materials, his actions will often overturn some of my judgments about him. Just like this, I keep collecting materials and overturning... I discovered that I I don't know anything about him at all. For example, his code name. How do you understand the code name 'The Undertaker'?"

Shining pondered for a moment: "From my understanding, it's because his profession is the executor of the Rutland Notary, and he himself is indeed dedicated to his duties, eliminating all difficulties just to execute the will of the Rutland citizens. His codename 'The Undertaker' fits perfectly with his job description."

"Want to know the real answer?" Yan Ke smiled.

"The real answer?"

"His colleagues told me that it was because the head of the notary watched a science fiction movie."

Shining didn't say anything, but subconsciously raised his hand to cover his lips.

"You see, our guesses about him are reasonable enough, but they are still far from the truth. In this chaotic land, anything can happen, and human imagination often can't catch up with the absurd facts. After experiencing that You and I in this war should be very aware of this."

"Indeed." Shining nodded, picked up the thermos cup at hand and took a sip of wolfberry tea, "You are one of the few people in Rhodes Island who knows the past of the 'Absolutionist', so I didn't The need to hide it from you. Since that incident, I have re-examined my power and the state of mind in which it is exerted. The power used to heal wounds is not enough. As a healer, no, a guardian, It must be protected together with their will."

"I've heard your famous saying in Rhodes Island." Yan Ke said casually, "'If a dedicated and reliable operator is very important to Rhodes Island; The same goes for the patients who died by themselves'. It’s hanging on the wall of the medical department, it’s quite impressive.”

"Your memory is very good." Shining nodded, "But you didn't understand this sentence. To me, you are an unqualified patient."

"Oh?"

"You don't cherish your own life. This is what that kid tried his best to convey to you tonight. Even a sniper operator like him can see it. How can we doctors not be aware of it? It's just because you know you can't shake your determination."

"Of course I know how to cherish life, but I don't have the self-consciousness of being an infected person. I only know that I am a warrior, nothing else, and no one else can give me any title." Yan Ke said, "It's just that the world in this world In the end, there are things more precious than life. For me, that is a hearty battle. If there is any price to pay for a battle that I can devote myself to, then life is just one of them. Insignificant chips."

Shining didn't answer his words.She just sighs.

Yan Ke changed the subject: "Don't you have something that you are willing to give up your life to exchange? It's just that the thing you pursue is packaged in a more noble way, while my reason seems straightforward. In the end, you can't understand me the other way around."

"That was not what I meant……"

Chatting so far, it's like a new candle has burned to the end, leaving only a small ladle of wax with a pool of bright wax oil in the middle.For Shining and Flame, who know everything, it doesn't make much sense to continue to delve into those past topics, and in the end it's just a futile slap in the face.The Shining tried to bring up a new topic: "You said you wouldn't be influenced by fanfiction, but why did you choose The Undertaker?"

"Of course it's because of the real him." Yanke said, "On the night when we went deep into the Chernobog ruins square, I was in charge of guarding the second half of the night with him, and the topic talked about his childhood. Through the gas mask, I saw his face. eyes."

"Just because of a look made you choose him?"

"No one has ever seen him like that. He hugged his knees like a child, with his head hanging down, looking straight at me. His eyes were completely empty, bright and clean. Clean things are of course People like it, but I know what it should look like inside, and the worst thing it should look like is clean." Yanke said as he tapped his chest, "It's a human heart inside. People like you and me , no matter how simple it looks, there are a lot of secrets in his heart. Seeing that his age is past the age of ignorance, there is only one explanation: he has seen a lot, but never left anything in his heart , that’s why he’s clean. In other words, he’s a perfect machine with eyes but no heart.”

When he said this, he remembered the urge to hug again.In fact, he didn't have to send a hug at that moment, but he had to do something so that the untimely cleanness in the depths of the mourner's eyes could be shaken for a moment.He remembered staying at Longmen overnight, and the mourners asked him how he felt in the darkness of midnight.There is also the mint candy stuffed along the lip, the fingertips are stained with finely crushed sugar, and the soft feeling of the lips is still lingering in my mind.

Of course it was easy to deal with Undertaker's innocence with Yanke's sophistication, but he couldn't ignore it.What he told Nightingale the day after the intercourse incident was all the truth: The Undertaker was asking him for help, and he was thinking of helping the Undertaker.

Their feelings have been mutually reinforcing from the beginning of their germination.

Shining drank up the remaining goji berry tea in the thermos: "So you and I switched phones, what's the next plan?"

"It's very simple. I now know that he has been reading fanfiction. I can keep myself from being influenced by those things, but he may not. Give me a little time, just for him to figure out whether he likes me because of the novel or because of the novel. Because it's real."

Seeing that Yanke got up and was about to leave, Shining couldn't help standing up too: "Then you have to give him enough confidence...he is very worried about your physical condition."

"Don't worry, I will come for this month's routine inspection."

Yanke waved his back to her, and strode out of the dimly lit lounge.

The mourner lay sprawled on his dormitory bed, like a robot that had run out of gas.The mobile phone in his hand still displayed the post from Ke Luxie urging people to get the book quickly. The number of floors has reached more than 400 in a blink of an eye, and it may be surpassed in one fell swoop tonight. The land has been broken?", which has become the trend of the new generation of high-rise buildings in Yanzhu town circle.It's just that that time was called "Collective New Year's Eve in the flame burial circle", but now it's the worst winter in the flame burial circle.Countless cp girls from food giants cried in the posts, venting their bitter tears because of cpBE.

Undertakers feel that they should be like them.But strangely, he had no tears and no pain in his chest. Although his thoughts were wandering, his mood was unprecedentedly peaceful.

Based on this, he judged that he was not "sad" at all now.

Gone is the pre-Christmas Eve feeling of worrying about gain and loss.

The electronic clock beside the bed beeped twice, indicating that it was already two o'clock in the morning.The mourner belatedly thought, not to mention how abnormal it is that he, who has always had a regular schedule, hadn't washed or even taken off his clothes at this point in time——Yan Ke was his roommate, and now, this roommate At two o'clock in the morning, he has not returned yet, and his whereabouts are unknown.

The Undertaker sprang from his bed.

(TBC)