Chasing death and chasing north

I've been drinking since I got home.The servants, medical officers, wives and concubines came to persuade me one after another, and they all retreated in fright under my stare.

Really self-indulgent.Do you think that if you do your best for him, he must remember it and look at it differently?In the end, let alone other thoughts, even the brotherhood of flesh and blood is nothing before the righteousness of the monarch and ministers?

The world is a family, the family is the world, the Sun family has become the co-lord of the world, the father is the emperor, and the elder brother is the prince. I am just like the officials of the prefectures and counties, and I am nothing more than their servants.My allegiance is a matter of course, I am suspected of having a second heart is my misbehavior, and I deserve to be alienated and demoted.What else do you expect him to know?What are you grateful for?

I'm just doing my duty as a minister, I'm too thoughtful, it looks like I have a different heart.This is all that His Royal Highness the Crown Prince and those resourceful people around him can think of.

Their considerations are common, aren't they?With all the birds and bows hidden, I, a useless general, should have disarmed and returned to the field. Who let me still have the status of a prince, so many people saw the possibility of being a rare commodity, and they all flocked to him.

That's right, I am the second son of my father, with military merits and popularity, if I am not the prince's confidant, who else is?

In their view, my best destination is to die at the end of the war, right?If you sacrifice your life for your country, you will definitely get a good share of posthumous mourning.I'm not someone who has never tasted the taste of death. I always can't let go at those junctures. I'm always afraid that he will be unable to control the fluctuations in the rear after losing the battle. I always want to live so that I can share peace with him one day.

But when the day of peace comes, the motivation that has supported me countless times has turned into a cold and defensive gaze. I really did not expect this to happen.

When I read history when I was young, I knew that the brothers of the emperor's family had no kindness at all, but I never thought that this kind of thing would happen to me and him.I expected that I might join forces with him to extinguish the ambitions of other brothers, and I also imagined how my father's favorite concubine should come forward to settle the matter if she made a false statement. I always felt that he and I were on the same side. Always see me as one of my own...I thought this hope was small and easy to achieve, and as long as that was the case, I was satisfied.

Why can't he understand?I have already spread all the sincerity he can tolerate in front of him, why should I suffer from that kind of suspicion?

Sun Zhaoan, aren't you willing to stand behind him and silently support him without asking for anything in return?If this is the case, it is expected that his behavior will be suspected and his intentions will be trampled on. Why should he be so brooding and sad that he would rather die?

Not a saint after all.You are not a saint, but you have to force yourself to do what a saint can do.

Sun Zhaoan, you are really, you are so overreaching and ridiculous.

With a splitting headache, I looked at my reflection in the glass.That face no longer had the usual calm and stable expression, and it looked extremely miserable and desolate.This is me, I will always be anxious, never stop expecting, and never get what I want.For so many years, I have pretended so well that I feel strange to see my real self.

self-loathing.It's disgusting to feel alive, to see every part of my body wanting to disappear as soon as possible.

All the previous actions, all the attitudes he adopted when facing him, in retrospect are so hypocritical that it makes him sick.

It is simply a clown, a failed clown standing in the wrong hall, complacent about how many beautiful tricks he has played, happily thinking that he has pleased the only spectator in his eyes, but in fact, that person has never understood why you are performing here, but has attracted a crowd of passers-by give pointers.

That person never invited me to a concert, he only occasionally looked at me in confusion, only I cared about those careless glances, and took it as the best reward, as if greatly encouraged, jumping excitedly.

I am disgusting, and he is my elder brother. This alone makes my mind extremely disgusting, and I have to do so many things to make myself more disgusting.I'm destined to not be able to impress anyone, let alone him who has no heart.

I know, I know, but it's hard to get back, the matter has come to this point, if I want to win his attention, I can only get more disgusting.

After that day, I became seriously ill, and there was an endless stream of visitors, so I closed the door to thank them.

Mingyuan came and saw me sickly, and smiled very happily.

"Marshal Sun, you are a model of physical fitness! Leading troops into battle and beheading thousands of enemies without blinking an eye, how did you become so useless this time?"

Looking at his paler face, I responded to the provocation with my eyes, and he sat down on the floor in front of my bed without further entanglement.

"It's been rumored outside that you were scolded by His Highness the Crown Prince so sickly? Tsk tsk, it's embarrassing."

"The prestige of His Royal Highness is naturally incredible." I said calmly.

Mingyuan stretched out his hand to touch my forehead, and exclaimed strangely: "Are you a ghost? It's really unprecedented to mention him in such a tone!"

"He only thinks of himself as a prince, what am I calling big brother?" I tried my best to sound indifferent, but I still accidentally let the resentment come out of my mouth.

Ming Yuan stuck out his tongue, leaned his head closer, and asked softly, "Is there a lot of noise?"

I stared at the brocade quilt, and said dumbly: "Sure enough, as you said, it is the most ruthless emperor's family. Brothers and sisters, this is my wishful thinking."

I felt his eyes looking at me without blinking, as if trying to capture something in my heart that I couldn't express.This guy is very sensitive to some things, so I always feel embarrassed when talking about my brother in front of him.

"So, you've changed your mind?"

I looked down and didn't answer.

The comfortable days in the capital are really sad for Lu Shuanghu and Ruan Changrong who are used to hacking and killing.They are not evil in nature, and in the army, under my restraint, they never did anything too outrageous, at best they were just drinking and fighting.As long as the orders are obeyed and the enemy is bravely killed on the battlefield, I usually don't care about such small details that only appear in leisure time.

But it was these completely negligible details that caused a lot of trouble at the feet of the emperor.Less than two months after the class teacher, there were seven or eight generals who were appointed generals, because they were drunk and disturbed the people in the market, and were repeatedly impeached by Yushitai.

The emperor mostly laughed when he heard it, and the most serious thing was to call people to him to persuade him.The rough man couldn't turn his head around, thinking that the emperor was so conniving because of his great military exploits, so he reluctantly came out of the palace, turned around and remained the same.

There is no limit to anyone's tolerance, and the father is only accumulating resentment from the government and the opposition to offset their original positive impression.In the end, the merits and demerits are balanced, and the hero becomes an ordinary person.If you still don't know how to restrain yourself, and the hero becomes a sinner, then there will be no difficulty for the court to take care of it.Speaking of it, it was always their own arrogance that sowed the root of the disaster, and the responsibility for slaughtering heroes did not fall on the head of the emperor.

Throughout the dynasties, if the generals did not know how to retreat modestly and preserve their safety, it would always be difficult to end well in the end.

It is better to call these guys my brothers and friends than to call them my subordinates. I brought them from the grass bandit village to the temple. Even if there are all kinds of things wrong, the promised glory and wealth can only be enjoyed for a few days. How can I just sit back and watch them break their wings? In the planning of the father.

Today I summoned them to Xu Bo's residence, and before we got to the point, the steward came to report that Jiang Rulun, Zuo Sanqi's regular attendant, and Qin Wanzhong, an admonisher, signed a letter asking to see them.Xu Bo and I looked at each other, shaking their heads indifferently.In short, it may not be a good thing for important officials from the province to visit a reporter and join the army.

The few of us gathered in private, and when we came, we either walked or hired carriages without badges. We were afraid that if it was blatant, it would spread gossip.Now if they find out that there is no carriage man, they will inevitably become more suspicious, so after a little discussion, they first avoided the inner hall.

Both Jiang Rulun and Qin Wanzhong were guests who helped their father in his schemes. Although their official positions were not high, their official ranks were in the second rank because of the addition of "special advancement".The governors of the sect refuted the censorship, and most of the bullets they sent to the father were effective. In addition, these two people were narrow-minded and easy to vent their personal grievances. The people in the court both hated and feared them.

Through the screen, one could vaguely see Xu Bo leading the two into the main hall, bowing to each other non-stop and saying, "I didn't know that your lords are coming, so please forgive me for being far away."

The slightly hunchbacked Jiang Rulun snorted, ignored him, and swaggered down on the main seat.Qin Wanzhong was a skinny old man with two beards, hehe heyed sullenly, and sat on the right side of Jiang Rulun, accompanied by Xu Bo, the prime minister.

Xu Bo waited for the two of them to put down the teacup, and then respectfully asked if there was anything important to do.

Jiang Rulun asked: "Master Xu, do you know a man named Xu Yongye?"

"Master Huijiang, Xu Yongye is my nephew."

Jiang Rulun's face darkened, and he mocked: "Master Xu is a good tutor!"

"My nephew doesn't know the heights of heaven and earth. If there is anything that offends Mr. Jiang, I will hope Mr. Jiang will forgive me! I will apologize here first."

Xu Bo stood up and gave another deep bow. Jiang Rulun's eyes slanted, and he turned his body to not accept it.

Qin Wanzhong explained from the side: "Master Xu, you don't know that your good nephew broke an arm of Master Jiang yesterday!"

Xu Bo was shocked. "What, what's going on here?"

"It's just a matter of joy and jealousy, but it's really wrong to make my nephew hit such a heavy hand."

"Uncle! Don't listen to their spitting! That stinky boy is robbing the girl. I couldn't see it before I helped. I just twisted his arm. I have a sense of propriety. How can I break it? He was so angry that he ordered the servant Beat me up like this!"

Xu Bo's nephew Xu Yongye limped out from the door, his face covered with bruises and bruises was full of displeasure. He wanted to get a notification from his family, so he had been eavesdropping outside the door for a while.

Xu Bo looked at him, and turned his questioning gaze to Jiang Rulun.

Jiang Rulun pointed at Xu Yongye, and said sharply: "What are you, how dare you disrespect this old man? My son is still lying on the bed, could it be possible to cheat?"

Xu Yongye did not show any weakness, and replied: "In this case, let's go to your house to confront each other! Many people in Chang'an Square saw what happened that day with their own eyes, and they can know it when they ask!"

Jiang Rulun was so angry that his old face turned into a pig's liver, and the finger pointing at Xu Yongye kept trembling.

Qin Wanzhong hurriedly helped him to sit down, and persuaded Xu Bodao: "Master Xu, you see Mr. Jiang is so angry, I think it's better to ask nephew Ling to kowtow to Mr. Jiang first, and let's talk about the next thing later. "

"I'm right, why do you kowtow?"

Xu Boyanxu said slowly: "If Yongye is not at fault for this matter, then kowtowing and apologizing is probably inappropriate, right?"

Jiang Rulun was furious. "The old man is a servant of the dragon who personally issued an edict to praise you, Xu Bo, you are just a wild man, you survived on the battlefield, and the emperor rewarded you with great grace to join the army in the palace. I can't imagine that you dare to be so lawless and climb on the old man's head. You don’t want this poor life anymore, do you?”

Xu Bo turned around abruptly, and took down the saber hanging from the wall. Jiang Rulun was taken aback, and jumped up together with Qin Wanzhong.

"You, what do you want to do?"

"Although the lower officials are not talented, they also have two principles of life that cannot be put on the stage."

Xu Bo approached step by step, Jiang and Qin were only weak scholars, who had been stabbed by swords before, they hurriedly staggered back.

"First, people don't attack me, I don't attack others; second," Xu Bo drew his sword out of its sheath, held the hilt and pressed it on the ground casually, and the tip of the sword sank deeply into the floor, "Anyone who dares to deceive me will be killed by gods and ghosts." .”

Jiang and Qin screamed as if the sword had stabbed them, and ran away. Xu Bo snorted contemptuously, and drew his sword back to its sheath, truly majestic.

Xu Yongye looked at his eyes and said, "Uncle, you have finally become my role model again!"

Xu Bo looked at his nephew with a half-smile, and hit him on the head with his scabbard. "In the future, use your brain more!"

Seeing that the matter is over, the generals and I walked out from the rear.

"Good job, old Xu! I never thought you would be so kind."

"Those bastards who have no credit for their farts will show off their power all day long. Grandpa has been unhappy with them for a long time!"

"Don't make it up to me next time, and make sure they scare the shit out of me!"

A group of people talked about how to deal with the useless ministers in the court, which ran counter to my purpose of gathering them, only Xu Bo laughed and said nothing.

I shook my head and sighed softly, and said to him: "Tomorrow in the court, there will be someone who will cry to the father that I am not strict with my command and insulted the gentleman."

Ming Yuan squinted at me, strode to the table and drank a whole pot of tea, took out a handkerchief to wipe his mouth, and said: "Isn't this what you want?"

I was stunned, and then I showed my face, and each looked at each other and smiled.

On the second day, Jiang Rulun really complained to his father.After I was summoned to reprimand me, I felt "deeply terrified" and "pained" that these rough people did not read too much and did not understand the principles of ethics, so that they often made mistakes. Let's be Taiping people and read sage books together.

My father was very appreciative, and I asked a self-selected scholar to serve as an official of the palace, and he agreed without hesitation despite the objections of the prince's faction.

The money and silver rewarded by the emperor for military merits will not run out for decades. I have always valued the truly talented people, so after I ordered them, more and more scribes came to join me.It didn't take long for Prince Wei's mansion to be full of talented people. A group of scholars read scriptures, discussed Taoism, compiled books and compiled chronicles while teaching, and it was passed down as a good talk in the capital.

Lu Shuanghu and the others were forced to read and write for the first time in their life. They were as big as fights and mourned loudly. They racked their brains every day to discuss how to escape, so they didn't have time to go out and mess around.

The timing is about to enter the seventh year of Yongchang, and my brother and I have ignored each other for four or five months. The discord between the crown prince and King Wei has become a well-known matter in the ruling and opposition parties. Except for the father, the emperor has not yet expressed it. It is obvious who the dignitaries of China are on.

The weather was very cold, the father and the emperor took his concubine and young son to visit the Xiashan Palace, and when he left, he ordered the prince to supervise the country.It is said that it is the "heavy task" of supervising the country. The appointment and removal of officials above the fifth rank still needs to be decided by the emperor. The prince does not have much real power, but only handles some routine government affairs.

The powerful officials behind me knew that they had to behave with their tails between their legs at this time, so they were more cautious. There was no major conflict between the two parties, and it seemed much calmer than when the two factions attacked each other when the father was in Beijing.

The 23rd of the twelfth lunar month is the day when Zao Jun went to heaven. Not long after my family and I finished a simple sacrifice, the noise outside the house broke the peaceful atmosphere.

Dian Jun Xue Fan came in and reported: "My lord, the people from Donggong Yifu have surrounded the palace and said they want to come in and search!"

The family members were shocked, so I took off the sword on the wall and walked out quickly.

The lights outside the gate were brightly lit, and horses could not stop neighing.

Lu Shuanghu and Ruan Changrong led my men and horses from the left and right guard mansions to confront Yi mansion.

I stood still on the steps, pressed my sword and asked, "What do you want to do?"

The leader of the Yi Mansion, Ge Zhonglin, dismounted from his horse and cupped his fists and said, "Report to the King of Wei, His Royal Highness the Crown Prince of the State of Jian has received a secret report that the Palace of the King of Wei has privately hidden armor, and ordered me to come and investigate!" After he finished speaking, he handed over his brother's warrant to me.

"You want to search the Palace of Guards?" And who gave the elder brother the idea?Knowing that nothing can be found out, did you come here just to kill my prestige?I really miss him so much.

Ge Zhonglin bowed again, and said, "I've offended you!" After speaking, he waved his hand and ordered his subordinates to rush in through the door.

No matter how willing Lu and Ruan were to give in, they immediately commanded their own troops to stop them, and it seemed that the two sides were about to fight hand to hand.

Ge Zhonglin drew out his saber, and said solemnly: "Will King Wei disobey?"

I held on tightly to the hilt of my sword. "Did the prince tell you, what if you can't find it?"

"The crown prince ordered that no matter what is found or not, you must go back and answer your orders."

The implication is that if you can't find me, you can only consider yourself unlucky?Forget it, this kind of behavior like a child throwing a tantrum can't hurt me at all, and it's up to you.

"Make way for General Ge!"

"Your Highness!" Lu and Ruan blew their beards and stared unconvincedly.

"I said get out of the way."

The two roared in hatred and ordered to withdraw the team, and the soldiers of the Guarding Army stood on both sides in an orderly manner, with faces full of anger and daring to speak.

It was a trumped-up charge, but Ge Zhonglin dug three feet and found nothing, showing no signs of disappointment, he perfunctorily confessed his crime to me, and then led the crowd away.

"I'm going to fuck your grandma, if this goes on, life will never pass!" Lu Shuanghu yelled loudly, pulling his thunderous voice.

I watched their horseshoes raise dust, but my heart was very peaceful.This is not the first time my brother has done this kind of flaunting action, and I don't know how many times it will happen in the future.

At the beginning, I was as angry as the generals, but now I am too tired to deal with it.Those people around him, besides teaching him to show off their power, can't they think of useful ideas to suppress me?Or are they too comfortable with the advantage in front of them, thinking that Wei Wang Sun Zhaoan is the kind of bastard who just needs to be scared, and the shit will go away?

On the battlefield that year, I had several enemies who were evenly matched, and some of them even beat me to the point where I was almost powerless to fight back. Those days of strategy and fighting, although forcing you to tense your heartstrings, can never be ignored for a moment, but Every day is full of joy.Looking back on the past, looking back at the past, the current life of muddling along is really too boring.

"Where's Xu Bo?"

"Huh? Oh, I'm back home."

"Tell him to come and play chess with me."

"Don't you want to do something? The prince and Lu Wang are always making such a fuss, and the brothers can hardly bear it."

"What are you talking about? Hurry up and call someone!"

"Really, why are you playing chess when your head is about to drop, and Xu Bo said that he doesn't like to play chess with you, and you don't care about playing chess every time, which doesn't appeal to him at all." Ruan Changrong walked out slowly , muttering incessantly.

"Why do you talk so much, kid? It's annoying!"

Lu Shuanghu took two steps forward and kicked his brother's butt hard. Ruan Changrong flew forward for a while with his body flat, and then fell to the ground, howling like a pig.Looking at the situation, his righteous brother vented all his grievances just now on this kick.

On the 28th day of the twelfth lunar month, my father returned to the capital and called our two brothers to the palace.The elder brother arrived first, and when he saw me coming, he and the emperor did not respond, and the atmosphere seemed a little stiff.

I greet you, Father Huang casually waved his hand to signal to get up, while Elder Brother was still kneeling in front of him.

"It's a mere Donggong Yi's mansion, and you actually broke into the prince's mansion to search, who gave you the power?"

The elder brother panicked and said: "My son is guilty. My son just received a secret report that King Wei had hidden hundreds of armors in private. In a hurry, I..."

As soon as the father slapped the royal case, the superimposed seals bounced and fell apart. "I'm not dead yet!"

The elder brother's shoulders trembled, he bent down to the ground, and repeated again and again: "My son is guilty."

"Erro."

I cupped my hands and stepped forward. "My son is here."

"The crown prince's secret letter to the guard of Xiongzhou, it is said that Xizhou Sima, who intercepted it and sent it to the Eastern Capital Palace, is the nephew of Yao Wenci, the chief minister of your mansion. Is there such a thing?"

I lowered my head slightly, just in time to meet my brother's venomous gaze. "yes."

"Why are you doing this?"

There was no joy or anger in the father's voice, I didn't think I could be convicted of anything based on this, so I boldly said: "My child is in a very dangerous situation now, I just want to struggle to the death."

"It's a bunch of nonsense!" The emperor's tone was much more relaxed than when he blamed his elder brother just now. "You are a hero of Dingding, and even more so, my beloved son. You are highly respected by the government and the public. Why is there such a crisis?"

I glanced at my elder brother who was lying on the ground. "Father is wise. It is because of this "respect from the government and the public" that the crime of carrying jade has been fulfilled."

The royal father clicked impatiently. "Erlang, you are a soldier. If you have anything to say, just speak up. Don't follow the stinky habits of those scholars, who make twists and turns."

I have never been close to my father, my father must be aware of this, but in this matter, I think he is more willing to trust me.

"His Royal Highness the Crown Prince categorically told the minister that the minister's contribution is too great. Even if the minister does not want to rebel against him, someone will persuade the minister to rebel against him, so he has to guard against the minister. Zhao'an's heart for his elder brother is beyond measure. , but now I’ve been treated wrongly, I’m really upset.” As I spoke, sadness and grievances flooded my mind again, and I felt my eyes heat up.

The royal father looked at his elder brother. "Zhaogong, are you really saying that?"

The elder brother lowered his eyes and did not answer.

The royal father let out a long sigh. "You used to say that Zhao'an is your best brother. He fights the country, you guard the country, and we will glorify our great Zheng and prosperity together. Do you know? How comforted I was when I heard you say this back then. Now , those words don’t count?”

The elder brother looked up at me, his eyes were soft with nostalgia, and then he bit his lips: "'How can others snore on the side of the couch', this sentence, I didn't understand it at the time, but now I gradually understand it."

"Are you really sure that that person is sleeping soundly next to your couch, rather than guarding you to sleep peacefully? How many times did Erlang go through life and death for you? He regards you as an elder brother more than anything else. Father really doesn't believe that he will harm you." .”

My father's words made me inexplicably grateful, but my brother was not moved by it.

He still gritted his teeth and said: "The present is not what it used to be, my son dare not take risks."

My heart became angry when I heard it, and I said coldly: "Then Zhao'an can only stay with him to the end in order to save his life!"

"What kind of words are you talking about!" Father slapped the case again, I knelt down straight, it was useless to argue.

The royal father called out to the servant. "Come here and prepare a feast at Fengxuan, lock these two bastards inside for me, no one else is allowed to enter!"

He stared down at us, "You two speak clearly face to face. It doesn't matter if you quarrel or fight. If you don't make up, you are not allowed to come out!"

A servant took the order to go, and we walked into Laifengxuan awkwardly under the leadership of the other two servants.

Laifengxuan is adjacent to the Royal Garden, and it is the place where the father rests in his spare time. The place is not big, but it is open and bright, and the furnishings are simple, so it is a place where you can relax.

After serving the dishes, the servants came out in a file, and my elder brother sat down on the couch to drink without saying a word, as if I was not in front of me at all.

I know that my father has good intentions, and I also know that with my elder brother's prejudice, it is impossible to discuss any good results today, so I can only sit on the side and watch him pour himself in silence.That's not bad, I'm afraid the days when I can watch him quietly will become less and less.

If it is destined not to move forward side by side, it is indeed time to make a decision.If staying by his side is nothing but pain, it might be a good idea for me to leave home and country, and open up another world with my companions.

I don't miss fame and power, I'm still young, and I can get those things if I work hard, but when will I be able to make up my mind to cut off the connection with him?It's hard to imagine what I would be like without him in my heart, and would his butcher's knife come to me before I was freed?

I looked at him drinking with a tense face, and my heart was in a mess.

My elder brother has a good capacity for alcohol, but it may be due to his depression. He became drunk after a while. He staggered to the side where I was sitting, and put the jug heavily on the table.

"You drink too."

I shook my head slowly. "Did you even forget that I don't know how to drink?"

"If you don't drink, you look down on me." He wanted to slap the table, but he slapped my shoulder.I reached out and caught him.

"Drink or not?"

The unpleasant smell of alcohol sprayed on my face, and I frowned in disgust.I've been insane all my life, what is this man worth?

"I don't know how to drink, you go and sit down." Even if he speaks rudely now, he won't remember it when he wakes up. I don't intend to be the deep and steady younger brother in normal times.

"You look down on me!"

I didn't bother to talk to him, and tried to throw him back in place, but he threw himself all over me.This should have been a scene I've been thinking about day and night. If he wasn't drunk into a puddle of smelly mud, I would probably hug him back excitedly.

"I didn't look down on you, can you go back and sit down?"

"You have always looked down on me, you have never taken me seriously!" He fiercely resisted my support, insisting on putting his head on my shoulder and refusing to move.

A muffled voice came from behind: "You have been very good at archery since you were young, right? You want to pretend to be useless in front of me, please let me teach you. It's very interesting to see me being played by you like a monkey, isn't it?" ?”

I didn't expect him to remember everything from so long ago, I didn't know how to answer for a while, he was even more excited when he saw that I was speechless, and slapped me hard on the back.

"Since you were young, you have always pretended to be obedient, but in fact, you don't even bother to be with mediocre people, right?

"Yeah, I'm useless. I'm not as good as you in horseback riding and archery, I'm not as good as you in marching and fighting, and I'm not even as good as you in winning people's hearts. Apart from being the eldest son of the emperor, what else can I do better than you? I deserve your allegiance to me? How can you tell me to believe you? Tell me, tell me!"

While he questioned me, he beat me on the back. Fortunately, he had little strength, especially when he was drunk. On the contrary, it was the "impact" caused by his twisting on my body, which made my whole body tense up unexpectedly.

Feeling the squirming of a certain part, I deeply felt that I was blind to stupid, looked down at his thin back, and smiled wryly: "You don't need to beat me, as long as you look at me occasionally, I will listen to you obediently if."

He was so emotional as if he had never heard of it, and he just continued to complain: "Father said, our Sun family depends mostly on you today; mother said, I want me to learn from you; Goro said, none of my brothers is your opponent; even mine The children will say that the second uncle is a great hero, and it would be great if the father is also so powerful.

"Anyway, you are powerful, so I will make you the crown prince and let you become the emperor! The eldest son, the eldest son of the shit! Do I care about such a useless and useless prince? Why would you be a child of our family? Why?"

Why don't I hate being born with such an identity?If I wasn't a prince, if I was just a military general who came from a commoner background, I wouldn't have to suffer from so many suspicions, I wouldn't have to be held back by my brotherhood, I could serve you like a dog and a horse in this life without complaint or regret, and I could also turn my back on you Refers to the throne, like now, will lock you in my arms forever.

After the elder brother vented his dissatisfaction, he muttered "why" and gradually fell into a deep sleep. I couldn't laugh or cry... At least in terms of irresponsibility, he is still exactly the same as before.

Maybe he's right, the disparity in ability is there, and I've never respected him as an even match.

"But I'm the only one who is restrained by you. I'm in a dilemma. From this point of view, the winner is still you, isn't it?"

As if taking revenge for his feverish body, I pushed him heavily onto the couch as I spoke. He grunted and complained a few times, but didn't wake up.

The man in front of him has flat eyebrows, a low nose bridge, and a thin body. His normal complexion is showing an abnormal flush after drinking too much alcohol. His eyes, which were once clean only when he had no brains, have also faded with the increase in boring and meaningless worries. It's hard to see, it's best to close it now.

He is obviously lackluster from the outside to the inside, but I can't take my eyes off him. I'm an idiot.

Stupid me was even slowly moving closer to his lips for a closer look.The upper lip is slightly thinner than the lower lip, with a little reddish luster, the plump lower lip is slightly pursed, soft to the touch, and seems to be slightly narrower than mine, perhaps accidentally suitable for being kissed...

"Second brother, what are you doing?"

As if struck by lightning, I hurriedly stood up and looked towards the door.

The door was ajar, and Zhaolong was standing there with a wooden tray of wine, his face full of astonishment.