Chasing death and chasing north

Jumping around me, waving my left hand happily, my right arm hangs weakly by my side. "Brother, you are so late today!"

Zheng Bingzhi, who was by his side, saluted me - this old servant never called me "Your Majesty".I asked him, "Is Erlang obedient today?"

Zhao An hurriedly answered: "Erlang is very good, he wrote two big characters, and Uncle Zheng rewarded Erlang with sweets!"

He can no longer use his right hand and is now learning to write with his left hand.

"Really? Let big brother take a look."

I took his hand and walked to the second floor of Huifeng Garden. Facing the questions he would ask every time, I fluently fabricated that he had been sick and slept for many years, that his father and mother went to the border to fight, that Wulang went to be a child of his uncle's family, and his aunt Going to the south of the Yangtze River to visit relatives, Mingyuan was sent to live in the home of a genius doctor and other lies.

"Then, is it just me and brother?"

"……right."

"very nice."

I stopped abruptly.

Ignoring my shocked expression, Zhaoan smiled innocently on the left side of his perfect face, stood behind the railing on the second floor and looked into the distance, repeating: "It's great that only Erlang and Big Brother are together."

I looked back to the west in a trance, only to see the colorful clouds in the sky, and a touch of blood-colored setting sun, slowly sinking into the mountain depression.

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extra warmth

Youdao is an autumn rain and a cold, even in the south of the Yangtze River, which is said to be warm and suitable, the cold rain when it suddenly turns cold is quite unbearable.

Sun Zhaogong held an oil-paper umbrella in one hand, and lifted the hem of his clothes with the other, and hurriedly walked on the road. His cloth shoes were already splashed with muddy water, and his shoulders and back were already wet.Finally coming to the door of a small house, he shook his wet clothes, put away the oil-paper umbrella, and opened the door to enter.

"Master is back!"

An old woman in her 50s was leaning anxiously at the entrance of the front hall, and when she saw him turn around, she showed a relieved expression.

Zhaogong's heart tightened, he covered his head with his sleeves, and ran across the small courtyard in three or four steps.

"What's wrong brother?"

"No, no, Second Master is fine!" The old woman couldn't help waving her hands, apologizing for causing him to misunderstand, "It's the old man who is worried about his own child. He has a fever in the morning. Before going out, he told me not to go to the street market today. I don’t know if you’re obedient, but it’s raining again this afternoon, so don’t get drenched.”

Zhaogong understands. "In that case, Aunt Lin, go back and have a look. I will clean up the dishes later."

The old woman was very grateful, took the umbrella and left in a hurry.

Zhaogong turned around and walked into the back hall which was used as the dining room. In the dark sky, he could vaguely see that the dishes had been set up on the square table against the wall.

The hired maid was very dedicated, taking care of the meals he cooked when he came home, but it always felt that the hot and cold were not suitable for eating.It was only when Zhaogong came here that he realized that the food was so easy to get cold, and he also realized that the attendants served him warm food at any time. It seemed simple, but in fact it took a lot of effort.

Zhao Gong lit the lamp and put it on the table, went back to the room and changed into a wet suit, then slowly walked to the next room, looked at the window lattice with peeling red paint, hesitated a little, raised his hand and knocked on the door.

After only one knock, the door was forcefully opened from the inside, and the younger brother shouted loudly with an excited expression on reunion after a long absence.

"Brother! You're finally back, I'm so hungry!"

Zhaogong pushed his left hand away from his shoulder, smiled and said, "It's time to eat." Then he turned around.

The younger brother followed him bouncingly, the wing room and the main room were connected by a simple corridor, and the two of them did not get wet.

After washing his hands, he sat down on both sides of the square table. There were two dishes and one soup on the table. It was very simple, and the taste was only average. The advantage was that his brother could easily eat it with a spoon in his left hand.

The younger brother excitedly pointed to a plate of scrambled eggs and said: "These are the eggs laid by Mrs. Wang's wife next door. She gave us five!" I heard it there.

Everyone in the neighborhood knows that Zhao Gong has a crazy younger brother, and lives by monetizing the meager property of his ancestors, and at the same time works as a teacher in the academy to subsidize the family.The maid was clean, honest and reliable, and was also introduced by Li Zheng.

"Oh? Did you thank me?"

The younger brother nodded heavily, "I said thank you very loudly in the room!"

The younger brother's face is half ruined, and he is afraid of going out to scare people. Zhao Gong once asked the servant woman not to let him run around.This exhortation is actually superfluous, the younger brother has hardly ever stepped out of the gate, and every day he is practicing left-handed writing or flipping books in the room.

In daily life, the old palace people have taught them hand in hand before, so apart from being clingy, life with my younger brother is much more worry-free than expected.

Both his father and the old eunuch Zheng Bingzhi who had been with his younger brother passed away one after another last year. Zhaogong abdicated the throne to his son at the beginning of spring, and with tacit consent, he took his younger brother out of the palace and settled in Jiangnan, where neither of them had ever set foot.

The house has been prepared before coming here. The layout of a well-off family is not eye-catching at all. Who would have thought that there are two generations of kings living here?

After eating, he sent his younger brother back to his room, and Zhaogong took the dishes and chopsticks into the kitchen to wash.

What he is living now is the civilian life he yearned for the most during those days when the sun was out of sight, from rich clothes and fine food, servants like a cloud, to living within his means and doing everything by himself. I'm almost used to it now.There is not much fun in this kind of life, but the peace and ease in my heart can't be exchanged for any amount of prosperity and wealth.

It would be better if there were fewer strangers milling around the house.

"Brother! I want to take a shower!" Not long after the younger brother left, he appeared with clean clothes in one hand, his feet dangling, and stopped on the threshold.

"Wait a minute." Zhao Gong slowly tidied up the cupboards, went to prepare hot water, and said to himself: If there is no such sticky guy, the life will be much quieter - but if it is not for him, I will not make up my mind Let's go out.

There are no luxurious baths here, and in the summer, he takes a shower in the courtyard, but now that the weather is getting colder, Zhaogong is greedy for the convenience of getting water to boil, so he puts the place for washing in the kitchen for the time being.Together with his younger brother, he filled a large wooden bucket half a person's height with water. He tested the temperature of the water and said, "Go in."

The younger brother let out an "oh", stripped naked, and stepped into the barrel with his long legs.

Zhao Gong went back to his room, tidied up his change of clothes, and just sat down to watch the lesson to be taught tomorrow when he heard his brother yelling.

"Brother, wash my hair!"

He shouted back loudly: "Didn't you just wash last night?"

There was no sound for a long while, until——

"Brother, I forgot to take my panties!"

Zhaogong clicked his tongue, put down his pen and walked into his room, found the underwear from the suitcase, and went to the kitchen.

As soon as he saw him, the younger brother immediately stepped out of the barrel, revealing his wet and muscular figure.

Zhaogong subconsciously turned his gaze away and urged, "Wipe dry quickly, and be careful not to catch a cold."

After a while, there was still no movement there, Zhaogong raised his head suspiciously, and saw his younger brother standing naked by the barrel, staring at him for a moment.

"What's wrong?"

The younger brother pursed his lips and said in a low voice: "Brother hasn't looked at my face for a long time, why doesn't he always look at me?"

Zhao Gong was dumb.

"Is it because my face is ugly? Then just look at this side, brother, can you look at me?" He took two steps barefoot, grabbed his brother's arm with his intact left hand, and used his handsome half The faces are opposite.

Zhaogong bowed his head and remained silent. After being urged repeatedly, he finally raised his head, but he looked towards his right shoulder. The dead white scar on the top snaked down to the abdomen. It was hideous and terrifying. The most shocking thing was that once The face that has fascinated countless people is now blurred by burning.

For a long time, he was afraid to look directly at his brother's face because of fear, and now he still doesn't want to look more, but it's not for this reason.

About him, there are too many things that are difficult to face. If he had to face it, Zhao Gong would rather look at the crippled half of his body.Only such a disability can prove that this person has received the retribution he deserves, and only such a disability can allow Zhao Gong to get along with him day and night with a normal heart...

"Okay, I've seen it." Zhao Gong patted his younger brother's wet back, "It's not a pretty girl, she just wants to be seen all day long, go get dressed."

The younger brother seemed to be dissatisfied, opened his mouth, but after all he didn't say anything, he turned back obediently to dry his body, put on his underwear skillfully with one hand, and with both hands and mouth, wrung out the bath towel and hung it aside.

Zhaogong watched silently, until his younger brother pushed the door out step by step, and a gust of cold wind leaked in, then he woke up.

I seem to be quite redundant.

In the middle of the night, there was a creaking and rubbing sound from the old door hinges in the room. Zhao Gong was not a deep sleeper, so he immediately opened his eyes when he heard the sound, and saw a tall figure tiptoeing to the bedside.

"What's wrong?"

"Brother..." The younger brother was speechless.

This is not the first time this kind of thing has happened, Zhaogong knew his temperament of never giving up until he reached his goal, so he raised his voice and said, "Come up."

In a blink of an eye, the fiery body happily got into the quilt.

"Brother, I'm hard again, it's so uncomfortable down here." With a mournful tone, the hot hard object pressed against Zhaogong's body one after another.

The body that has already known the taste of it is not without desire, but even if there is no blood defense, such a thing is too contrary to common sense.From the first time his younger brother ran away crying and saying "I can't pee" in Huifeng Garden, Zhao Gong has always taught him to vent with his hands.In the past, he was obedient, but since he moved here, there have been many times when he came here in the middle of the night and insisted on helping him.

"You can obviously do it yourself, why do you always have to do this?"

This person seemed to have never heard of his cold tone, so he directly took his hand with his hand, and pressed down on his lower body.

"Brother, touch it, touch it here, hurry up!"

The heavy panting echoed in his ears, and Zhao Gong felt a mass of heat rushing up from the depths of his body, and hurriedly took a deep breath of air pressure.Make a quick decision, or you will be the one who looks ugly.

Breaking free from the restraints, he untied his trouser belt and reached in, stroking the man's body that was swollen to the limit.The man groaned softly, shouting how comfortable he was, he straightened his waist to cooperate with his rubbing, and soon rubbed him again, insisting that the other hand also join in the stroking, Zhao Gong also complied.

It wasn't until Zhaogong felt his hands were sore and impatient that he let out a heavy breath and finally released the hot liquid.

Zhao Gong had prepared for a long time, and took a veil to wrap the top, but unfortunately the amount was more than expected, and a few drops still fell on the bed. Zhao Gong thought about what the servants would make when they changed the sheets, and couldn't help but feel depressed, and crossed his mind. Panting body, got out of bed, turned on the lamp and went out.

When he came back, the younger brother quickly moved inside and patted the empty space on the bed, "Brother is sleeping."

Zhaogong was too lazy to say any more meaningless words of rejection, so he took off his shoes and lay down on his back.

The younger brother was resting on his shoulder, constantly changing his movements, deliberately facing his elder brother with the intact half of his face, his eyes were shining brightly, with the moisture after satiation.

Zhaogong silently stared at the source of his life's bad luck, his mind was not in the right place.

"I really love him deeply, and it's not in vain for him to do all the scandalous things for you."

I still remember the expression of hatred and sarcasm on my son's face before he left.The whole family was slaughtered by this person, but in the end they took him away, so shameless and shameless, it is shocking.

Whether there is so-called "love" or not, Zhaogong himself does not understand, and he is unwilling to sort out and face all the grievances and entanglements between him and him for many years, and he can't figure it out at all.

He is not a strong person, he has experienced too many bloody storms, and now he is exhausted, and he just wants to spend the rest of his life in peace, even though the kindness of a woman indulged the murderer, but the crooked and cramped old man in front of him is really Long, the power is no longer, his wife and children are separated, and he can no longer be a trouble in the world. If he picks him up and keeps him by his side, who can be disadvantaged?

The hatred of the first half of my life came to an end in that fire. Now I just want to treat someone well and be treated tenderly. If I am lucky, I will stay with me until I grow old.Since there is only this nominal younger brother by his side, let's treat it as having no other choice.Besides, apart from him, there is no one in the world who cares about such insignificant feelings of his own.

Zhao Gong folded his arms, making the two stick closer together, and his thoughts turned to the things that he had been hesitating for the past few days.

Forget it, now that a choice has been made, some words can be explained by myself.

"A few days ago, Yuanxi wrote a letter."

The younger brother played with his hair, but there was no response.

Zhao Gong said slowly, "Our savings are enough for our daily expenses. Are you planning to make a comeback?"

The body of the person next to the pillow stiffened, but the movements of his hands continued.

"Erlang, let's live this life in peace, don't you want to?"

"In this life?" The man sat up abruptly, his calm face instantly full of coercion.

Zhao Gong chuckled, "Finally you are willing to be an adult again?" After spending so many years together day and night, how could he not realize that he has recently recovered his memory?It's just that I didn't intend to expose it.

The man didn't answer, grabbed his arm, and asked, "You said, forever? With me?"

Zhaogong stretched his arms and hugged his neck. "To this day, there is no need to lie to each other between you and me."

The man's eyes swept over his face, his bottomless eyes never let go of any slight changes, Zhaogong looked at him calmly, and his eyes never wavered.

The man showed a complex expression that looked like he was about to cry but also about to laugh, and finally he bent down and forcefully invaded his long-lost lips and tongue.In the cold autumn night rain, two bodies that are no longer young are intertwined to death.

The dust has settled, the prosperity is gone, this little warmth is the only dependence on each other.

More than ten days later, when the two people in Jiangnan were discussing with great interest to go to the north of the city to see the evening osmanthus, the new lord who lived in Jiuchong happened to receive a secret report that the changes in more than a dozen large companies all over the country had been suspended, and the person in charge was nowhere to be found.The young emperor lightly mocked "Heroes are short of breath", and he was stunned for a long time before his expression returned to his usual coldness.

It wasn't until eight years later that all the secret sentries were evacuated around the house in the small Jiangnan town.The government and the opposition live in peace, and they will never see each other again.

——The end of the extra episode "Yu Wen"