[Ghost Slayer: Blade] My big move is locked!

I was standing in the corridor, I couldn't see very clearly, the periphery of my vision was fuzzy, and even my feeling was hazy.

But I know very well that I fell down at the last moment on the battlefield, and I was so seriously injured, and the blood flowed a lot. Maybe my current state is a death revolving door?

When I thought that I might be dead, I couldn't help feeling a strong astringency in my heart.

I couldn't even lift my feet. I stared at the floor with my eyes lowered. I was stunned for a long time. There were mixed emotions in my heart. No matter how many flavors there were, they would eventually become bitter when mixed together.

And at this time, I dare to think about what will happen to Tanjiro after I die?will he cryBut even if I cry, I have no way to coax him...

However, I still want to see him, to see him for the last time, and I don't want to leave with the regret of not seeing him.

Thinking of this, I walked uncontrollably into the ward of Butterfly House.

Looking at the familiar buildings that have been in the past three autumns, I couldn't help being in a daze. I don't know what happened to Butterfly and the others in the end. Did they survive well?Was Wu Mi finally defeated?How is everyone?

With many doubts in mind, the moment I stepped into the ward and saw the young man holding my wooden box with his back facing me, only the trembling back was left in my mind.

My eyes felt hot, the tip of my nose felt sour, and the tears that I had endured for a long time still welled up.

Tanjiro sat on the edge of the bed with the box in his hands, choked up and wept unceasingly at me who was still lying on the bed not knowing whether to live or die.

I saw that my hair had turned white on the bed, but fortunately my face was still the same without any wrinkles, my hands were receiving needles, and my chest was still heaving a little. I guess I hadn't breathed my last breath.

Now in the state of a soul, I walked slowly to his side, and saw through the hazy tears that the box was opened. In addition to the cherry blossom branch that Terabashi gave me and his piece of candy, there was also the letter that I was training at the Nine Pillars. A suicide note written in a hurry.

Due to the lack of time, I wrote very sloppy, and I didn’t have any general ideas to write in detail. I basically wrote whatever came to mind, and there were even traces of alterations. It looked dirty and didn’t look like a serious article at all. suicide note.

Tanjiro pinched the suicide note so hard that the knuckles of his fingers turned white. He bent down as if he was overwhelmed, and gently pressed his forehead against the back of my hand that was exposed outside the quilt, as if he had suffered a lot. Like a serious injury, I couldn't help breathing in pain, and tears fell silently, seeping through the crevices of my fingers and soaking the quilt.

Standing beside him, I seemed to feel the slight heat of the tears on my fingers, and couldn't help curling up, my heart twitching, the pain was indescribable.

Most of Tanjiro's face was covered with bandages, almost only a small half of his face was exposed, the eyes and face on the other side were tightly covered, and he looked seriously injured. Even though he was like this, he still kept crying , The bandages are all soaked, the wound will be infected, what if there will be scars in the future?What other girl would like him?

No... not necessarily, Tanjirou is so good, even if he has scars, there will definitely be many people who like him, even without me...

"Meizi, can you get up and see me?"

He spoke suddenly, his voice was hoarse beyond recognition, full of fragile hope, even though I could no longer respond to him on the bed, he still hoped and called me softly.

I covered my eyes fiercely, crying and wanting to hug him: "I'm here... Tanjiro, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"

I knelt beside him and watched my hands penetrate his body, even if I hugged him countless times, it was just in vain.

"...I'm sorry," in the end I could only stare at him weakly and sadly, "I'm sorry, I can't touch you..."

He took a deep breath, as if in severe pain, and forced himself to tremblingly open the suicide note in his hand. I feel deep regret at this moment. I shouldn't write any broken suicide note, and I shouldn't let Chana Pass it on to him, and once again stab the knife into his battered heart.

It's all my fault. How did my cheerful and smiling boy cry in front of me?

He widened his eyes, and looked at the letter in his hand without blinking. In fact, there were only a few sentences in it, and he should have read it after a while, but he read it for a long time like masochistic, pondering over every word, Until that letter was also stained with his tears, completely wet.

"Let's stop looking at it, okay?" I wanted to snatch the paper, but I couldn't get it anyway. Seeing Tanjiro biting his lower lip to bleed, I felt for a moment as if I was in a Hell, how else would it feel so bad, so scary? !It might not be so painful to take out your heart and throw it on the ground.

At that time, I had already accepted the fact of my own death. When a person dies like a lamp going out, no matter how hard I try, it will be of no avail.

I helplessly watched Tanjiro cry for a long, long time, and I also cried with him for a long, long time.

I don't know how he became so capable of crying, even more so than Shanyi, his eyes were swollen from crying, and he couldn't shed any tears. He just sat silently on the chair, took my hand, and The voice that became hoarse was chattering, as before, I listened carefully, even if I knew the current state and responded to him, he couldn't hear him, but I still insisted on talking, just like we used to Get along like that.

He said: "Meizi, Wu Mi has been defeated by us, and all the ghosts have been wiped out...Although everyone was seriously injured in the battle, they all survived very well, it's really great Already!"

"Well, I see." I smiled, thinking that this is rare good news, which can make me feel better.

He also smiled as he spoke, "And Nezuko, she has turned back into a human, and she also remembers you, she was very sad, she cried until she fell asleep just now, and Zenitsu and Inosuke also..."

I restrained my smile and said, "Sorry, I still made you sad."

He paused, sniffed his nose and rubbed his eyes, "Mr. Yihei has disappeared since the end of the battle. Miss Ganlusi has been looking for him since she recovered from her injury... Actually, I have recently smelled Mr. Yihei's faint scent. Appearing near Miss Ganlu Temple..."

"Why aren't they together yet?" I complained speechlessly, "What is Yi Hei doing?! What kind of bad taste is this?!"

"Miss Shinobi visited you once before. Although she has been disgusted and said bad things about you, I accidentally caught her wiping her eyes secretly, and Miss Xiaokui also worked hard to help you find information and let you know. Wake up... Meizi has a group of very good friends!"

I pressed the corners of my eyes, trying to push back the tears, "Well, I know, they are all super good!"

"Mr. Fushikawa and Xuanya don't know where to go. Only Mr. Tomioka, Mr. Purgatory and Mr. Shitou are all left to help deal with the post-war mess. Then I hope I get better soon and help them busy."

"Also," he helped me tuck the corner of the quilt, "I miss you very much."

"..." I looked at my gradually transparent body, raised my head and blinked fiercely at the ceiling, and took a long time before I could speak, "I miss you too."

The author has something to say: Brother Yu's suicide note:

【Kaomen Tanjiro from personally】:

Jinjiro

By the time you get this letter, I'll probably be... no, definitely gone.

If I were still alive, you would not have been able to get this letter.

Terabashi once asked me to write a similar suicide note when I was on a mission for the first time.Because even if I really die, she will still remember that I was a disciple.

She knows I'm afraid of being forgotten like a mayfly in this vast and ephemeral world, the traces of my existence erased and never remembered

The situation is urgent, so I don't have much to say, I can only write a few words as I like.

When I die, if the body is still there, burn me to ashes with that box and its contents, where you like.If the body is gone, then just bury the box, where my most precious things are kept, thank you...

I once remembered a saying: "It's good for you to remember, but it's better for you to forget."

I'm a bit selfish, I hope you will still remember me after I die (smudged traces), but if you feel that the memory of me makes you painful, then please forget me.

In the end, my lover is a simple and kind person, he treats people sincerely and kindly, and has an open-minded and generous character, but the injustice of God made him suffer misfortune. He has suffered enough along the way, and he has lost enough. If it is true With God, I hope to exchange everything I have for him to live a happy and healthy life in the future, and everything goes well.

Umeko