Forbidden color

Si Tian was determined to be obedient, he went to class with swollen eyeballs, and when he came back, he pretended to be happy and told Si Lin that he could ask for accommodation, and many classmates wanted to hang out with him.

"...There are four of us now, and we have to ask our parents to decide." Si Tian's college is mostly girls. He looks so good-looking, and his personality is easy-going and docile. Many friendships are easily gained by opening your mouth.

He just came back from the outside, changed into a loose vest, scooped up watermelon with a small spoon, and the corner of his mouth was full of juice.

Si Lin nodded, pulled his eyes away from the bruise on his knee, turned back to stare at his experiment overview, and asked, "Are there any girls?"

"There are two who said they want to go as companions, and the rest are boys."

"Take care of other girls, don't make a fuss, and don't go out too late at night, you know?"

"know."

"When you go to the beach, you should wear sunscreen. Don't be lazy, it will peel your skin."

"Ah."

"Call me immediately if you need anything."

Si Tian raised his head from the watermelon, his almond-shaped eyes turned to Si Lin, his brother sat in front of the computer with his back to the light, his summer shirt was blown up by the wind from the window, and he could see the straight and thin torso inside, He also knew that when he turned it over, there was a row of strong abs that could only be seen when he took off his clothes.

"What's the matter?" He deliberately gnawed the watermelon loudly.

"..." Seeing that he asked the question knowingly, Si Lin glanced at him, and finally said, "When there is no money."

Si Tian wanted to say, "If you go with me, there won't be so many things", but he remembered Si Lin's attitude last night, and he didn't even dare to be coquettish.

He changed the subject and said, "Li Zixiu wants to take his girlfriend there."

Si Lin frowned, with a disapproving expression, but still said: "Then book a bigger place, it's best for you to have a room for each of you."

"Yeah." Si Tian nodded, hesitated for a moment, and asked, "Do you want to eat watermelon?"

He dug out the middle piece of the watermelon with a spoon and stretched it towards Si Lin.

Si Lin glanced at the water-red flesh, and then turned to the corner of Si Tian's juicy mouth.

Si Tian felt uncomfortably stared at by him, he hesitated to withdraw from Si Lin's unclear eyes, and stuck out his tongue to lick the corner of his mouth.

Is this because you think you look ugly?

"Eat it, don't get it all over the place." Si Lin turned around and said, with an obvious evasive attitude.

Si Tian looked at the sweetest piece of melon, and took a long time to move it, put it into the fruit bowl, and carried it into the kitchen.

In the end, a girl and four boys were settled, plus Si Tian, ​​and eight people booked a villa facing the sea. There were many rooms, the couple slept in one room, the other two girls slept in one room, and the rest could do whatever they wanted. up.

After finishing the last one of the final exam, Si Tian slowly packed up his things and went home. He had to go to the hospital tomorrow before going to the beach.

In order to avoid any out-of-control situation.

"Si Tian—" came a shout from behind.

Si Tian turned his head, it was Xu Qingyang who was going to the beach with him.

He came running panting, grinning with white teeth, and said, "How did you do in the exam? You won't fail?"

"It's okay." Si Tian replied, noticing that he was wearing a sleeveless basketball uniform and wristbands, showing his strong muscles under the bright sun, "Is that why you came for the exam? Are you going to play now?"

"Yes, the teacher doesn't care anyway, and it's not convenient to hide the cheat sheet." Xu Qingyang shaved off a piece of hair behind the ear, and the earrings reflected a little dazzling light under the scorching sun. It was clearly a rebellious dress, but it was surprisingly strange Refreshing and unrestrained, he carried his schoolbag over his shoulder and walked side by side with Si Tian.

Si Tian smiled and said nothing.

"Hey, Wang Haifeng said, let's go together by chartering a car, and meet at the gate of the school the morning after tomorrow.

He paid and said thank you for letting us live in the villa. "Xu Qingyang said heartily, just about to reach out and pat Si Tian like a basketball teammate, looking at his clean shirt collar and white nape of the neck, he put it down embarrassingly.

Si Tian didn't pay attention, raised his head and said to him: "It's okay, what time did you make an appointment?" He smiled with two small dimples around his mouth, which made Xu Qingyang stunned for a moment, and when he came back to his senses, he quickly opened his mouth and said: "Not yet. I'll call you when the time comes. Hey... why don't I pick you up? Aren't you renting in the Changchun Community? I'm passing by, so I can help you with your luggage."

"No need, you have your own luggage." Si Tian refused. He was not used to getting too close to his classmates, and he didn't want others to know about his home situation.

"It's okay, Wang Haifeng and I will take the bicycle, he is carrying the luggage, and I will take you." Xu Qingyang made some calculations and proposed a solution.

Faced with Xu Qingyang's enthusiastic invitation, Si Tian couldn't refuse firmly. He was never good at rejecting other people's kindness, so he had to agree.

Xu Qingyang smiled happily, waved goodbye and ran to the stadium.

Si Tian stood there looking at his strong and tall back and tanned skin, envious and sad in his heart.

He doesn't play well, and he doesn't fit in with others. He doesn't like to play with everyone, at most, he goes for a run in the morning.But Si Lin is different. Before he rented a house with himself, he probably lived the life like Xu Qingyang.He has seen that scene, his brother dribbled the ball and made a layup in one go. The sweat on his forehead was shining brightly. break.

It's just that he doesn't live in the dormitory anymore, and his time is out of sync with his classmates, and his tutor is desperately dispatching him. His free time has been greatly reduced, and even his skin color has quickly returned to white.

Si Tian lost his mind for a while, and continued to walk home.

With her oil bottle gone, Si Lin can always live freely for two months as she pleases.

The next day, Si Lin was going to the laboratory, and said that he would buy mosquito repellent and anti-heat medicine on the way back, so that he would not go out and run around in the poisonous sun.

His voice was steady, and he took care of everything for him as usual.

Si Tian agreed, and when Si Lin was about to go out, a mouse quickly hugged him like stealing oil, and then quickly bounced away when the other party had no time to push him away, so agile that Si Lin could not catch him and reprimand him at all.

He knew that Si Lin hoped that these two months of isolation would allow him to mingle with his companions, return to nature, and see how normal people live.

But he still wants to ask for more within a limited range.

Si Lin frowned slowly, and he immediately waved at Si Lin pretending to be nonchalant before he opened his mouth, urging him to leave quickly.

As long as he runs fast enough, Sirin will be too late to hit him.

He made an appointment with Dr. Luan at ten o'clock in the morning. The psychiatrist was very busy and the schedule was full.

When his parents passed away some time ago, he had a severe emotional breakdown. Luan Jian changed him to four kinds of medicines and took them together, but the side effects were too great, and he dared not tell Si Lin that Si Lin was already embarrassed enough. , I don't know if it will be crazy.He kept begging Luan Jian to stop the drug for him. Luan Jian saw that his attitude was firm and his condition was still stable, so he agreed that he could stop the sleep aid, but he still had to continue taking the antidepressant.

But now he is a little worried, he is going to leave Sirin, and he doesn't know what will happen to this hypocritical body.

After all, it was since Si Lin lived in school for a long time that he began to suffer from insomnia.

At first, he just had trouble falling asleep, but later he woke up early. When Si Lin left home to go to university in the provincial capital, he could only sleep four hours a day.He didn't even dare to answer Si Lin's phone call. Once he said something that touched his fragile nerves, or mentioned Yan Qing, he would stare at him all night until dawn.

He didn't dare to tell anyone, especially his parents, he couldn't find any place to confide in other than random writing on his personal homepage.

People are going crazy.

Fortunately, Li Dongshun invited him to take the Provincial Experimental Science Examination together, where non-local students were not allowed to study outside. When he left home, the sense of guilt did not follow him so closely, and he was freed from the monitoring of his parents, so he secretly went to see a doctor.

At that time, Luan Jian had not been in the medical system for a long time. When he met a tender and pitiful little boy who was alone, he was very kind and caring. The two got along very well and have been working together ever since.

In the blink of an eye, Si Tian grew up into a handsome young man. After studying at university, he was still sitting in the outpatient clinic, bald from exhaustion, and her lumbar intervertebral disc was still herniated.

That's why he earnestly advised Si Tian not to study medicine.

"Dr. Luan, you should continue to prescribe mirtazapine for me. I'm going out of town for the next two months. I'm afraid I won't be able to sleep..." Si Tian curled up on the sofa, showing a defenseless dull expression. No place, even at home, dare not be depressed casually.

"No insomnia now? How many hours can I sleep at night?" Luan Jian made him a glass of juice, which was orange flavored.

"It's fine now...my brother is here, so I'm fine..." Si Tian murmured while holding the glass of orange juice.

Luan Jian asked about other things, prescribed some sleep aids for him, and told him: "You always know yourself well, don't stop taking the medicine now, if you suffer from severe insomnia, ask me first before taking the medicine."

Si Tian nodded, took a sip of juice, and fixed his eyes on one spot.

Seeing his appearance, Luan Jian sighed, he couldn't persuade this person, and he didn't know how he could be so thoughtful at such a young age, but he just refused to tell his family.

"I've been telling you that the treatment of depression requires the care and company of your family and friends. You are always alone, and you don't talk to others when you encounter problems. This will get twice the result with half the effort." Luan Jian rubbed the center of his brows. He talked about it for four years, but he couldn't make a decision.

I have never seen such a naughty child.

Sure enough, Si Tian pretended not to hear.

When he was leaving, Luan Jian repeatedly told him not to take the medicine indiscriminately. Si Tian once had the experience of stopping the medicine privately. When he called himself, he cried so hard that he couldn't speak. As a result, Si Tian didn't mess around again afterwards.

But he is still very worried, he likes Si Tian very much, and sincerely hopes that he can get better and be happy.

Si Tian bid farewell to Luan Jian and took the bus home.

The body of the car is dangling, and the rings are waving around in confusion. The whole world looks normal, but it is weird everywhere.

He remembered that he was on vacation, and rushed from school to find Si Lin, but because of the medicine, he was always drowsy. Si Lin was worried that he would get sick, so he insisted on taking him to the hospital, so scared that he stopped the medicine.

It's been a long time since he experienced that gloomy feeling of suffocation, like being buried alive in cement and covered by sewage, and his loved ones are walking around outside, but they can't see him being sealed here.

His tear ducts can only lead to his heart, and day after day he soaks his heart in gloom.