Forbidden color

Wen Sitian stared out the window in a daze, and after a long time he realized that the "little boyfriend" he was referring to was Xu Qingyang who was wandering downstairs.

Why is he here?

"Aren't you going to explain clearly to him?" Wen Sirin gently pressed him on the window sill, and kissed the tip of his ear.

Xu Qingyang had been wandering downstairs of Wen Sitian for nearly 10 minutes, and the palms holding the phone were sweating profusely.Wen Sitian had disappeared for several days, and he didn't even reply to the message. The class teacher said that he had called for sick leave, but he knew it was not the case.

He must have been shut up and reprimanded at home by his elder brother who couldn't accept homosexuality, and beaten with a feather duster.Xu Qingyang has been restless for the past few days, and Wen Silin's attitude that day was very bad, even in his sleep, he was awakened once by the eyes burning with anger. I don't know how he will punish Wen Sitian, whether he will tie him up Do electric shocks.

This thought made him terrified, he paced back and forth anxiously, and decided to go to the door to rescue Wen Sitian, Wen Sitian was as delicate as a spider plant, how could he withstand the beatings of his senior brother, and the consequences of searching for his teeth all over the floor would be too You have to protect him.

He wants to save their pair of fateful mandarin ducks with his own hands.

Having made up his mind, Xu Qingyang was just about to enter the corridor entrance aggressively when he saw Wen Sitian walking down the stairs.

He was wearing a very large white shirt, the sleeves were rolled up twice to reveal his thin wrists, like his brother's clothes, with pajama pants underneath, and he walked over slowly.

Xu Qingyang was stunned for a moment, stepped up and grabbed his hand and said, "Wen Sitian! You...where have you been?" He was a little incoherent, "Why didn't you go to school? Where is your brother? You...you Are you okay?"

Wen Sitian seemed to be in good spirits, although his body was thin, his cheeks were still round, like a white and tender peach.

"I'm fine, I was sick a few days ago..." Wen Sitian's voice was gentle, but he looked at him with hesitation and sadness.

Seeing that he was fine, Xu Qingyang breathed a sigh of relief at first, but then felt lost. He found that he was still holding Wen Sitian's wrist tightly, and quickly let go, saying: "...why didn't you reply to my message Ah, I'm worried." His voice sounded a little aggrieved that "you didn't call me when you went out to play".

Wen Sitian unconsciously twisted the hem of his shirt with his hands. Just as he took off his sweat-stained shirt before going downstairs, Wen Silin surrounded him with his own shirts and tied them one by one for him. Button up and roll up the cuffs.

He did it on purpose, Wen Sitian was wearing Wen Sirin's clothes, facing the ignorant Xu Qingyang, a sense of taboo shame slowly rose in his heart.

"I... I didn't check my phone..." Wen Sitian lied, his eyes were wet by the lies and the dishonesty he showed in front of others, but in Xu Qingyang's eyes, it had another meaning, he made his own decision Confirming his conjecture, he asked eagerly, "Does your brother disagree with us being together?"

Wen Sitian stared at Xu Qingyang blankly, not knowing how to explain it, but if she had to say something, Wen Silin really did not agree with them being together...

But it was all his fault in the end.

"Xu Qingyang, I'm sorry." He lowered his head halfway, covering the emotion in his eyes with his fan-shaped eyelashes, "I can't be with you anymore."

Xu Qingyang was choked by these words, and it took him a long time before he said slowly: "...Why? You...your brother..."

"It's not because of him." Wen Sitian gently interrupted him, "I have... someone else I like."

The feeling of hurting others made him feel painful, and he couldn't hurt Xu Qingyang without apology like Wen Sirin hurt him.

Xu Qingyang's eyes widened, and it took him a while to force his mouth: "Is it because your brother doesn't want you to be with men?"

Wen Sitian shook his head: "The person I like is also a man."

Xu Qingyang heard his heart tremble, as if the words hit his heart, he looked at Wen Sitian's pitch-black hair, and couldn't say a word.

"It's not that you're bad, it's that I'm selfish... He doesn't love me, so I want you to love me." Wen Sitian's voice trembled, and he forced himself to speak in one breath, "Because you are kind to me, so I am To use you."

He heard Xu Qingyang's breathing stagnate, and his heart throbbed. Xu Qingyang was like a golden sun, but he did such bad things to him, like a basin of sewage was poured on him. No matter what, he shouldn't be cheeky Ask for his forgiveness.

They stood facing each other for a long time, and the playful children ran after each other, dropping silver bells all over the ground, but they were out of tune with the afternoon leisurely fun.

Unable to wait for Xu Qingyang's response, he couldn't think of any way to make up for it. Unable to bear the pressure in the air, he said in a trembling voice: "Do you hate me? Hit me..." He went to grab Xu Qingyang hand, but the other party shrank back, avoiding his touch.

Wen Sitian took a moment to stare at his hands for a moment, and finally mustered up the courage to look up into Xu Qingyang's eyes.

His eyes were red, he tried his best to squeeze his lips tightly, and there was unstoppable sadness in his eyes, Wen Sitian had never seen him like this, and it was probably the first time in his life that he was subjected to such a bad deception.

"I'm sorry..." Wen Sitian knew that this sentence was useless, but he had nothing else to say. He really hoped that Xu Qingyang could give him a heartwarming kick, so that he could pay off his crime a little bit.

Such a handsome boy who is always happy, was bullied and cried by himself, a monster.

It took a long time for Xu Qingyang to squeeze out a word from his throat: "...um." It was filled with choked sobs.

Wen Sitian couldn't wait for the reproach and anger he wanted, so he stared at Xu Qingyang pleadingly with his wet eyes.

But Xu Qingyang didn't speak, he took two deep breaths, and tried his best to swallow back the emotions surging up from his chest, he didn't know what else to say, he just looked at Wen Sitian silently and bitterly.Suddenly he stretched out his hand to Wen Sitian, Wen Sitian shrank reflexively, closed his eyes, felt a slight touch in his hair, Xu Qingyang gently picked off a piece of sweet-scented osmanthus that fell on his head, and then took two steps back .

His eyes were still red, and he half-opened his mouth as if he wanted to say goodbye, but he turned his head and left without saying a word.His young and tall body disappeared at the corner of the street without hesitation, Wen Sitian stood there blankly, he didn't suddenly wake up, rushed back and kicked himself to the ground, just left like that.

With his untimely love and eyes full of sadness, he didn't even blame and question Wen Sitian a little bit.

Before facing Xu Qingyang, Wen Sitian didn't know that his hasty impulse would cause so much harm to others that could be seen by the naked eye. He came back from the outside without saying a word, and temporarily lost his dependence on Wen Silin. He lay face down on the edge of the bed in a sinful gesture.

When night fell, Wen Sirin saw that he insisted on pretending to be dead in the bedroom, instead of cooking dinner, she had to cook two bowls of noodles with scallion oil, and called him at the door of the bedroom: "Tian Tian, ​​it's time to eat."

Wen Sitian responded sullenly, rubbed his face back and forth on the bed sheet a few times, and said in a low voice, "You eat first."

Wen Sirin was silent, went to pick him up from the ground, he avoided to let him see, but Wen Sirin found the red eyes and nose from crying, and there was a funny picture on the bed sheet that was printed with tears. Face.

"Are you happy now?" Wen Sitian said suddenly, he was forced to arouse a little anger buried in his heart for Xu Qingyang's injury, "What did he do wrong? You have already punished me, and he didn't I didn't offend you, why did you..."

"Because I regret it." Wen Sirin's voice was exhausted, and she pressed her forehead against him. Was he regretting insulting himself?Or do you regret letting yourself make friends with others?

"I don't want others...everything he does to you is to offend me." Wen Sirin didn't give him a chance to ask questions, and lowered his head to kiss him. He struggled for a while, and finally fell on Wen Silin like giving up. Perhaps it was the short time of the kiss that made Wen Sirin calm down. He hugged him and walked towards the kitchen, saying: "It's my fault, I shouldn't force you to find someone else, you are right, Xu Qing Yang is a good boy, you can be friends..."

"You're lying...how could he still be my friend? He must hate me..." Wen Sitian finally got some comfort from the culprit, and burst into tears, "It's all your fault...brother..."

These are all hypocritical scenes, and I thought he couldn't hear them.

Wen Sirin hugged him silently, finally waited until his crying subsided, then kissed him on the top of his hair, and said softly: "Tian Tian, ​​I'm sorry..."

He could hear the sincere heartache inside, Wen Sirin finally softened his heart after tossing him over and over again from the inside to the outside.

Wen Sitian sobbed blankly, rubbed his face on his shoulder, and whispered: "It's okay..."

I forgive you.

Xu Qingyang may not forgive me, and the whole world will not tolerate me, but I forgive you.