after death strike

Having wandered outside for a long time, Li Zhizhi can understand their vigilance higher than ordinary people.If he was accosted by a stranger suddenly, he would definitely feel that the other party is very inexplicable, and even doubt the other party's intentions.

For this, he just spread his hands openly, indicating that he has no evil intentions, and is just an ordinary passerby.

"Brothers, don't worry, I have no other intentions, I just want to chat with you."

The two homeless men glanced at each other again. It was true that Li Zhizhi was very friendly, and he didn't have a superior attitude, unlike some people they met in the past.Although the vigilance has been lowered, one of them still showed some doubts and asked, "Are you a reporter?"

Li Zhizhi shook his head, "No, I'm just a person with no job and no income." In order to shorten the distance with the other party, he described his situation in a somewhat miserable way—although he was not lying, but Consciously guide the other party in the direction you want.

Sure enough, after hearing what he said, the two homeless men finally put down their guard completely and let out a long sigh.

"Is it so hard to find a job now?"

"That's right," Li Zhizhi couldn't help smiling wryly as he remembered the job hunting experience of his classmates in the previous graduation season.If he didn't study for a Ph.D., he should be working hard in a small hospital at this time. "College education is worthless now. I have no skills and no relationship. It is difficult to be hired. I have been unemployed for several months."

"Oh..." The homeless man on the left couldn't help but wryly smiled, "You don't want to beg for a living like us, do you?"

This should be a breakthrough point of the topic, Li Zhizhi thought about it for a while, and said seriously: "What if I say yes?"

"Hi!" Before the person who asked him the question could react, the homeless man sitting on the right waved his hands excitedly—he was also the one who was more vigilant at the beginning, and it was obvious that he had a quick temper, "I tell you , you must not."

"How to say?" Li Zhizhi pretended to be puzzled, "I really can't find a job, so I come out to beg, so I can get some food expenses anyway—"

It can be seen that the homeless man was about to die of anxiety from his flirty words, and his brows were clenched together, "Then you can dream! What's the matter with you young man, even if you do hard work, you can earn money." It’s money—what’s the matter with your idea?!”

His words were not worried about Li Zhizhi coming to grab their territory or anything else, but really admonishing him to use his hands to make money instead of thinking about getting something for nothing - Li Zhizhi was easily taken by such kindness from strangers moved.

"Little brother, I don't think you have a bad heart, so let me tell you clearly." The homeless man on the left came out to smooth things over, "If we could work, we wouldn't be begging here. It’s just that we haven’t studied, and we can’t do anything but hard work; but we’re getting older, and the construction site doesn’t accept us anymore.”

Once the chatterbox was opened, it seemed to be suppressed. The words in the bottom of my heart finally found an audience. The two homeless people talked about their experiences one by one.

The two are acquaintances who grew up together in the same village. The family had no money for them to study outside. Both of them only graduated from elementary school, and then they have been managing the family's fields and farming for a living.Until a severe drought a few years ago, the family had no crops. Hearing from young people that working in big cities was more profitable than farming, the two combined their savings and came to big cities together.

At the beginning, they did get a lot of money to send back home, but after a while, the two encountered the situation that the contractor was in arrears of wages.They had to stop working and collect debts with other workers. After collecting for more than half a year, not only did they not recover their hard-earned money, they even squandered their savings and couldn't even pay the rent.Although unwilling, the two had no choice but to continue to look for other jobs, but they never expected that life would become more and more difficult. They could only find part-time workers, and then ushered in the old city renovation project in the city-they were completely gone at once. affordable housing.

Let's go home, I'm really not reconciled.But if you don't go back, you can't hold on anymore.

Monkey Sun, who seemed to be played by the Tathagata Buddha in the palm of his hand, just when the two were confused and hesitant, even greater bad luck appeared.After running around in vain during the day, when they returned home at night, they found that the house they temporarily lived in had been demolished—no one notified them in advance.

With nowhere to go, they couldn't even save up the travel expenses to go home. With helplessness and compromise, they became the bottom of the city at some point - picking up people's leftovers to fill their hunger, and taking the sky as their ground. Homeless people who live by begging for beds.

"You said we don't want to go home, that's impossible. But we can't go back—" The homeless man on the left smiled, with pity for himself in his eyes, "I have no money, and I don't know the way home .”

"Isn't there a homeless shelter?" Li Zhizhi was shocked, but also very puzzled, "Can't we go there and ask for help?"

"You can stay there for one night at most," the homeless man who has not spoken since just now sneered, "They want ID cards, but both of us have lost our ID cards, and they said we have to go home to get a replacement; but we I can’t go home at all. And—” He took a deep breath, “So what if I go back? Continue to farm? Or go back to work in the big city?”

No way out.

If it is said that they embarked on this wandering road because of the pressure of life at the beginning, then by now, the mentality of the two of them has completely become an exile of themselves.Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow, they will die quietly in the corner of the city because of hunger or severe cold, but they don't care anymore.

Before they narrated, Li Zhizhi, who had never suffered any survival pressure since he was a child, never thought that there would be such people struggling to survive in the city he lived in.

This kind of shock was deeper than what he experienced from Zhou Xiaoling or Lin Jing.

When he was still alive, he occasionally saw one or two homeless people or beggars, even if he didn't show anything on the surface, he actually didn't think much of these people in his heart.This is not deliberate contempt, but a kind of "superior" psychology that naturally arises between two very different classes.

Just like when humans look at animals, they always think that they are fundamentally different from them.

But after this conversation, Li Zhizhi found that he was essentially no different from those struggling to survive.Everyone is a living human being, and they are all working hard to survive.The irony is that he has a good life, but chooses to commit suicide; the homeless family is poor, but he has to exile himself because of unfortunate encounters.

Li Zhizhi felt very embarrassed by this kind of goal through different routes - what he and the other party were pursuing was nothing more than a stable and happy "home".

Saying goodbye to those two with mixed emotions, Li Zhizhi couldn't help but give them a few hundred dollars more.Although it played very little role, Li Zhizhi would feel uneasy if he didn't do so.

He has been running around the streets all day, talking to these homeless people from all over the country.Some of them are very outgoing and talkative, while others are introverted and sensitive.More people are unwilling to take the initiative to talk about their experiences, avoiding, being indifferent, and even yelling at him.But Li Zhizhi didn't give up, or was frustrated and lost because of it.

He was no longer the fragile Li Zhizhi who was so depressed that he committed suicide because of failure.

Talking to a homeless man like this, it is better to say that he is using others as a mirror, looking back at himself and introspecting.

Fortunately, although Li Zhizhi encountered more rejections, he still met a small number of people who were willing to talk to him.Just talking with them, Li Zhizhi got several different experiences, instead of guessing and guessing as he was too arbitrary.

Like the two big brothers he met at the beginning, some people came out to work far away from home, failed to earn money and lost their documents, and could not return home; Wishing to take care of him, he was kicked out of the house and became a homeless person.

The moment he heard it, he immediately became angry and wanted to seek justice for the old man.But looking at the other party's cloudy and helpless eyes, Li Zhizhi calmed down again, and felt a sense of powerlessness in his heart - he alone could not help them.

This was the first time after his death that he came home so late, and Ah Wang even called several times to pick him up, but Li Zhizhi refused.There are some things that he has to digest alone.

"I am back."

Pushing open the door wearily, he looked up and saw a big living person standing at the entrance, as if he had been waiting for him for a long time.Li Zhizhi smiled and was about to walk over when a meowing caught his attention again.

The white cat squatted at Ah Wang's feet, as if it was with him, waiting for him to go home.

For a moment, Li Zhizhi suddenly felt that the fatigue in his whole body was healed, and the complicated emotions in his heart disappeared, and all of them were transformed into the simplest sense of happiness.

"You're back." Ah Wang looked at him quietly, and stretched out his hand towards him.

Li Zhizhi stuffed his hand into his palm without hesitation, and after being pushed hard, the whole person threw himself into Ah Wang's arms.It was rare for him to frankly show his weakness, and put his arms around Ah Wang's neck, allowing him to wrap his arms around his waist and hug him from the front.

"Are you tired? How's your harvest today?"

Ah Wang carried him into the living room, and the white cat quietly followed his steps.

"I have gained a lot." Li Zhizhi said close to his ear, "The most important thing is that I suddenly discovered something."

"What?" Aang asked casually.

"I found that I really want to be with you and live a good life." Li Zhizhi smiled softly, "Is it too late to say such things now?"

"--not late."

Ah Wang hugged him tightly, "It's not too late at all."

Either the living or the dead.All he wanted was Li Zhizhi.

The author has something to say: I refer to the graduation thesis of my senior sister. She chose the topic of welfare and pension for the homeless elderly. She spent half a year conducting case investigations on the streets of the homeless elderly, and finally got an excellent graduation thesis.I was also very surprised after watching it. I can only say that I was very narrow-minded before and never considered it. Everyone actually has their own experience and their own life.