Golden Stage

This night in the barren mountains and outskirts was actually very dangerous when I thought about it carefully.The two were wounded, it was raining heavily outside, there were many poisonous insects and beasts in the mountains, and there was a risk of landslides at any time.But every time Fu Shen thinks about that night, the deepest memory is the gentle comfort of falling on his back to lull people to sleep.

So many years later, when he fell into the arms of the same person again, he would still feel familiar.

In the early morning of the second day, the rain stopped and the birds chirped in the mountains. Fu Shen and Yan Xiaohan left the cave and walked out along the canyon.After the rain, the air is fresh and humid, and many mushrooms grow in the forest.Fu Shen was hungry all night, eagerly glanced into the woods, the word "want to eat" was about to fall out of his eyes.

Yan Xiaohan had no choice but to drag him to the right path, coaxing him, "It's poisonous, don't eat it."

"Grass mushrooms and mushrooms growing under pine trees are not poisonous and can be eaten," Fu Shen insisted. "I have picked white mushrooms on the grassland before, trust me."

Yan Xiaohan was almost moved by his firmness, but when he thought of the current situation of the two of them, he ruthlessly refused: "It's important to escape. If you want to eat mushrooms, I'll send you a box when you return to Beijing, okay?"

Fu Shen lowered his head and pondered for a while, and felt that he was a little unreasonable just now.He is usually able to pretend to be a mature and stable adult, but it may be because Yan Xiaohan took care of him tenderly and considerately all night, which made the few mischievous in his nature eager to show up.

"But I'm hungry." He looked at Yan Xiaohan helplessly, and emphasized, "I'm too hungry to walk."

In fact, the temptation of mushrooms is not that great, and Fu Shen doesn't have to eat this meal. He just misses the warm embrace and obedience last night, and wins more attention from his colleagues in a world where there are only two people. Slightly dilute the fear and anxiety caused by hunger, fatigue and the unknown.

To put it bluntly, it's just acting like a baby.

Yan Xiaohan lowered his eyes and glanced at him, unexpectedly he was not impatient, nor did he expose him.His eyes are very soft, like a handful of melted snow, cold and clear, but there is a revived warmth inside.

He turned around swiftly, knelt down on one knee, and turned his back to Fu Shen: "Come up, I'll carry you on my back."

There must be a measure of nonsense, Fu Shen couldn't do such a thing that pushed his nose and face, backed back again and again: "Don't stop, I'm joking! Let's go."

"I'm not kidding," Yan Xiaohan turned his head, with a smile on his lips, "Just let me pay you a meal of mushrooms. It's okay, come on."

Fu Shen showed hesitation, that not-so-broad but extraordinarily straight back seemed to have an extraordinary attraction, luring him to take a step forward, stretched out his hand out of nowhere, and wrapped his arms around Yan Xiaohan's neck.

Yan Xiaohan carried him up steadily.

There was a dull pain in his ribs, the weight of a living person could not underestimate the pressure on the wound, Yan Xiaohan was not in the mood to care about this, he focused all his attention on the people under his feet and on his back.Fu Shen was as stiff as a coffin board at first, trying his best to keep the distance between his chest and back, after a while, his body softened slowly, and he stuck it up carefully.

To use an inappropriate metaphor, it's like a small animal timidly approaching with furry hair, and then it fell into his palm with a snap.

After a while, his shoulders were heavy, and it was Fu Shen who put his chin on his shoulders.

Yan Xiaohan was forced to relive the tingling itch when he was held hostage by Fu Shen, and heard him whispering in his ear: "Brother Yan, I did help you twice, but that's not a kindness, it's just a small effort. That's all. You... don't need to accommodate me too much in order to repay your kindness."

Yan Xiaohan lightly lifted him on his back, and said casually, "I want to make you happy, how can this be called accommodating?"

Fu Shen: "What's that called?"

Yan Xiaohan thought about it seriously, and said uncertainly, "Father's love is like a mountain?"

Fu Shen: "..."

He knocked Yan Xiaohan on the back of Yan Xiaohan's head with his forehead, and his folded arms could feel the slight vibration of his lower chest, Yan Xiaohan said with a smile in his voice, "Aren't you dizzy? Be careful, don't knock silly." gone."

Of course he was kind to Fu Shen in order to repay, but it was not just repayment.

In the relationship between people, it is easy to become acquaintances, but it takes fate to become friends, and Fu Shen seems to be in his heart, and there are unexpected surprises from time to time.

Last night in the cave, the two of them snuggled together to keep warm. Yan Xiaohan said "I don't have a father", but that was actually just a word in his head. Tiredness and cold made his rationality slacken, and when his defenses were slightly relaxed, some deep-seated emotions were released Spilled out along the crevice.

It was because of his lack of concentration, but Yan Xiaohan didn't intend to confide his secrets to anyone, and he didn't need false comfort and sympathy.

Fu Shen's way of thinking is very mature, and his words and deeds have always been restrained and polite. Yan Xiaohan had already anticipated what he would say, and was thinking about how to get over this topic, but Fu Shen said nonchalantly: "If there is no one, then there will be one, and neither will I. mother."

His attitude has always been the same - if you want to talk, I'll listen, if you don't want to talk, I won't ask.

Candid.

Yan Xiaohan breathed a sigh of relief, and it was also at that moment that he truly regarded this "little friend" as a "friend".

The two trekked in the valley for nearly a day.Fu Shen asked Yan Xiaohan to carry a distance, and then jumped down to walk by himself. The scenery in the valley is beautiful, with gurgling water, lush vegetation, and a hillside full of wild orchids.If one ignores their current desolate situation, Si Qing Si Jing can be called pleasing to the eye.

The two rested here for a while, Fu Shen wanted to pick a branch to play with, but was stopped by Yan Xiaohan again, he was not angry, and asked with a smile: "I won't let you pick this or break that, what's the point this time?" Stop me for a reason, is there poison in orchids?"

Yan Xiaohan gave him the wild fruit he hadn't eaten, sat down with his ribs slightly pressed, and sighed, "No. I just think that he grows well in the valley, and if he didn't meet us, he could live for several years in safety. Dongxia, you broke off a branch, I'm afraid it will wither tomorrow, why bother?"

Fu Shen laughed and said, "The ancients said, 'If you don't pick it up, it will hurt Yu Lan'[1], but why did it come to you, instead, it became 'If you pick it up, it hurts Yu Lan'?"

Yan Xiaohan said: "'Grasses and trees have their own hearts, so why ask for beauty'."[2]

Fu Shenxiao fell on top of him, and the two of them were so close that half of their bodies were stuck together.Yan Xiaohan said in his heart that this young master is innocent enough, and the two of them have shared adversity together once, and yet they are so close to him.

But it could also be that there were only the two of them in the mountain, and he was a little scared after all, so he kept leaning towards him unconsciously.

Yan Xiaohan stretched out his arms to hug him, and the two of them leaned back, lying side by side on the grassy slope.

Fu Shen looked at the pristine blue sky, and suddenly said seriously, "Since brother Yan is a person who cherishes flowers, a wild orchid can still get your mercy, why do you want to make a storm?"

Yan Xiaohan said: "You're talking nonsense again. Thunder and rain fell from the sky, 'Time and destiny are beyond my control.'[3]"

Fu Shen sat up straight: "Then I'd better go and pinch that flower. No one dies in life since ancient times. If you have wine today, you will be drunk today..."

Yan Xiaohan pulled him back, not knowing whether to laugh or cry, and hugged him tightly: "Come back for me! You...do you have to wade into this muddy water? Whether the Jin family lives or dies has nothing to do with you!"

Fu Shen: "Have you guessed everything?"

"There's no need to guess?" Yan Xiaohan snorted lightly, "A group of people stood in the middle of the road improperly, with 'guilty guilt' written on their faces. That means I can't offend you, otherwise Feilong Weishen would have been arrested earlier If you're under criminal punishment, you don't need to beat him, you just call him if you're scared."

Fu Shen laughed dryly: "Hahahaha..."

Yan Xiaohan: "Before I came, I heard that many adults in the court interceded for Jin Yunfeng, including General Fu. You saved those two people for this reason, right?"

Before Fu Shen nodded, he heard him continue: "Listen to my advice, don't take everything on yourself, and don't care about your loyalty. Yingguo's mansion is on the cusp of the crisis. I really think the emperor doesn't know about General Fu and His Highness King Su. thing?"

Fu Shen: "Then my second uncle..."

"He can ask for mercy, because he is half of Jin Yunfeng's student. There is nothing wrong with heaven and earth, master and teacher. And there is no need for real feelings, just go through the motions. But you are different." Yan Xiaohan on the back of his neck Squeeze, "You have nothing to do with Jin Yunfeng, you are the son of the Duke, if you cover up the remnants of the Jin family, it will involve the position of the entire Duke Ying, understand?"

Silence, like the setting sun, slowly descended on this grassy slope.

Yan Xiaohan lowered his eyes to see his pensive face, and felt that what he said seemed to be too serious, but on second thought, if this made him see clearly the pros and cons, it wouldn't matter if he was more severe.

In fact, he should not have said a word. Whether others live or die, whether they are wronged or deserve it, has nothing to do with him.Feilongwei is a knife in the emperor's hand, a knife does not need to "judge" who deserves to die.

But Fu Shen is different after all——

"Brother Yan," Fu Shen said suddenly, "You are doing it for my own good, I understand."

Yan Xiaohan didn't feel relieved at all, because it was obvious that he would definitely say "but" later.

"But you're wrong about one thing," Fu Shen said, "My second uncle made the petition because he sincerely wanted to intercede for Jin Yunfeng, not just for formality. If Jin Yunfeng was really guilty, he wouldn't rush back from the border all the way, and His Royal Highness King Su would not. He would not entrust this kind of thing to him, and hide by himself to be lazy.

"Jin Yunfeng was wronged. If that's the case, I can't just ignore those two people who begged me."

Yan Xiaohan was almost mad at him to death.

"Who dares to say that he is innocent in the matter of the court? He communicated with Han Yuan in private, sent news to Prince An's mansion, and found several letters and gold and silver property in his home. His words were disrespectful, and there were a lot of criticisms about the cutting of the feudal clan... The emperor himself gave it to him." He was convicted, what wronged him?!"

Fu Shen sighed: "I heard that Feilongwei presided over the investigation of this case. Whether these 'evidences' are true or fabricated, shouldn't you know better than me?"

He is also courageous enough, lying in someone's arms, while insinuating that others "worked for the tiger" and "helped the evildoers".Yan Xiaohan could strangle him to death with his bare hands, but Fu Shen didn't seem to care, grabbed his collar and continued, "Brother Yan, I didn't want to lie to you, so I told you this. I don’t know much, but I know that the prince is the emperor’s confidant.”

"I know you still..."

"I also know that my second uncle won't go all out to plead for the treacherous minister." Fu Shen's eyes fell on the slender and swaying orchid, "'The orchid is like a gentleman, and the hui is like a scholar-bureaucrat. There are probably ten hui in the mountains and one orchid." '[4].

"Manchu civil and military, he is the only one who dares to stand up and speak for King An."

Yan Xiao said coldly: "After all, I'm still obsessed with it."

Fu Shen said: "It's not that I don't realize it. It's because some people insist on going astray."

Yan Xiaohan: "Be careful with what you say."

"What can't you say? What can't you dare to say!" Fu Shen stared at him, "Luo weaves charges to concoct unjust prisons, ransacks his family and exterminates his family to frame him. The emperor is wrong! Wrong is wrong!"

Yan Xiaohan suddenly turned over and covered his mouth, his chest heaved in anger, his breath was short of breath, the two moved up and down, their eyes met, they smelled each other's breath, and they could see their own reflection in each other's pupils.

"Today's words, let it rot in your stomach. Let me hear it again, without anyone else, I will personally send you to the prison, remember."

Fu Shen frowned, said "Mmm" twice in his palm, and pushed him with his knee.

Yan Xiaohan moved his hand away.

Fu Shen's screams went straight to the sky: "Get down! I've got the wound on my back! It hurts!"

Yan Xiaohan realized that he actually had nothing to do with Fu Shen: Call him smart, but he always makes mistakes inappropriately, call him mature, sometimes ridiculously childish.

——This temper is too difficult.

However, even though he was so rebellious, Yan Xiaohan only hoped that he could hide it well, and didn't force him to change, nor did he want to do anything to him.

After such reflection, he suddenly understood Fu Shenfei's desire to help the descendants of the Jin family.

With no one to help him, Fu Shen slowly got up from the grassy slope. The passion in his blood passed, he calmed down, and realized that he was a little too reckless.

He is not a radical person in essence, but the "Tao" he walks is different from others, and he is young and naive, so he always has some arrogance and arrogance who don't know the sufferings of the world, and he hasn't learned to hide his edge.

Yan Xiaohan got up first, without turning his head, he said, "Let's go."

Before he could take the first step, his wrist suddenly tightened. He looked down and found that Fu Shen was pulling his sleeve, but he didn't dare to look up at him. He lowered his head, looking a little pitiful.

oh.This is finally waking up from insanity.

Yan Xiaohan narrowed his eyes, secretly amused in his heart, pretending not to move at all, and asked calmly, "What?"

Fu Shen: "I... just spoke inappropriately and offended you, I'm sorry."

Yan Xiaohan didn't speak, his face was cold.

Fu Shen said honestly: "I admit my mistake, it's my fault, if you want to beat, scold or punish, you will do as you please."

"Come on," Yan Xiaohan said coolly, "Yan has the guts to beat and scold Mr. Fu? You are right, it is me and other treacherous people who are wrong."

Fu Shen lowered his head even lower, he really regretted it, and it was also the first time he lowered his figure to apologize to someone, who would have expected that the other party would not accept this.

"I never regarded you as a traitor, but..."

just what?

It's just that the way is different and they don't conspire with each other. It's just that I firmly believe that Jin Yunfeng was wronged. It's just that "a gentleman cultivates morality and establishes virtue, and he changes his morals without being in distress." [5]

He couldn't continue, and let go of Yan Xiaohan's sleeve.Dejectedly said: "I'm sorry."

The slipping hand was suddenly caught and fell into the dry and cool palm.

Yan Xiaohan knelt down in front of him: "Who said just now that you accept punishment, admit scolding and accept punishment, and just do what you want? You made me angry, and I can't stand it if I say a few words about you? Is your apology so insincere, eh? ?”

Fu Shen's ears felt hot inexplicably, with mixed feelings in his heart, he didn't even dare to look up at him.

When Yan Xiaohan thought about it himself, he felt that it was quite sinful. He was such a noble and noble son, and he was injured and fell off a cliff. He has suffered so much and not suffered so much today.In the end, he was bullied like this, too wicked.

Fu Shen didn't know what to say, so he could only repeat: "I'm sorry."

Yan Xiaohan clicked his tongue and said, "What about sincerity?"

He raised Fu Shen's chin with his free hand, making him look up at himself: "Look up. You don't even have a title, who are you saying sorry to? The previous ones don't count, start over, what should I call me?"

He originally wanted Fu Shen to call "Brother Yan" and apologize, so he wouldn't embarrass him anymore.Unexpectedly, Fu Shen misunderstood the meaning, and was silent for a long time, timidly probing, and said in a very soft voice: "...Brother?"

When Yan Xiaohan was called out by him, his whole heart went numb in an instant, and he unconsciously withdrew Fu Shen's hand tightly.

The breeze blows, spreading the fragrance of orchids all over the sleeves.

"You and I……"

Yan Xiaohan stuttered too, leaned over and picked him up from the ground, patted the grass leaves and soil on his body, and said in a word: "...Let's go."

Fu Shen hadn't turned the corner yet: "That's... alright?"

"Okay, my young master," Yan Xiaohan looked down at him, sighed silently in his heart, and slightly curled his lips, "If you call again, I will turn my back on you."

The author has something to say: Quote:

【1】Han Yu's "Yi Lan Cao"

【2】Zhang Jiuling's "Feelings (Part [-])"

【3】Applying "Lu Mengzheng's Maxim"

【4】Huang Tingjian's "Book Youfang Pavilion"

[5] "Confucius's Family Sayings in Ecuador"