Lin Zhengqing

28.

After Du Wenjie left, Bai Haoyu didn't go back to sleep in his own room, but stayed with him because of the cold weather.

Lin Zhengqing pushed him and said, "Go back and sleep at your side, there is no one there."

Bai Haoyu hugged the person and did not let go, saying: "I won't go back, the two of you will sleep warmly."

The person in his arms looked up at him, it was obvious that this person was playing a rascal.

Bai Haoyu looked down at him and said, "Are you going back with me?"

Lin Zhengqing shook his head.He knew that he did not have the ability to face so many unknown people and live in a completely strange environment.Thinking about it will make you feel very anxious, and the whole person will be in a state of anxiety.

"Go." Bai Haoyu said, "I'll be with you. Don't you want to go out and have fun?"

But it's one thing to be afraid, and another thing to think about it. He wants to see where Bai Haoyu lives, and also wants to know if the people in the city are lively during the New Year, and whether the atmosphere of the New Year in a family will be strong. But if he came to Bai Haoyu's house, he would be an outsider. He was afraid that they would reject him, he was afraid that he would do something wrong, and they would not welcome him.

He has too much fear of unfamiliar places, and he hesitates to take the first step.But there was always a yearning idea in his heart, he wanted to go.

Since Du Wenjie left, he has been thinking about whether he likes Bai Haoyu.After thinking for a long time, I was also wondering how he felt about Du Wenjie.

He admitted that he fell in love with Bai Haoyu.But he was not sure about Bai Haoyu's feelings for him, and he didn't know exactly what Bai Haoyu's feelings were.He wanted to be close to Bai Haoyu, to walk into his life, and to be with him.He cherishes Bai Haoyu too much, and is too reluctant to leave him.

I was also very afraid that Bai Haoyu would leave him.

As for Du Wenjie, those were two completely different feelings, and it was his appearance that made him know that the two feelings were completely different.That feeling of wanting to be with someone, that feeling of wanting to see him appear, that feeling of wanting him to care about me.

This feeling can make him very happy, but also makes him very scared.

Here, Bai Haoyu treats him very well.He couldn't bear to refuse his request.Lin Zhengqing just wanted to treat him better, and even better.

Under Bai Haoyu's hard work, Lin Zhengqing still agreed.

Bai Haoyu intentionally prevented Lin Zhengqing from telling Lin Zhicheng about this matter, so when Lin Zhicheng knew about it, Lin Zhengqing had already packed everything.

Lin Zhicheng stared at Lin Zhengqing with wide eyes and said, "Why have you never told me that you are going to his house, and why are you going to his house instead of mine?"

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Lin Zhengqing didn't know how to explain it, said he wanted to go out and have a look, or didn't want to be separated from Bai Haoyu?

Bai Haoyu said: "Zhicheng, why are you so excited, you just go to my house to spend a new year, what a big deal it can be, look how nervous you are."

He is nervous?Can he not be nervous?Du Wenjie just left over there, and here you, Bai Haoyu, said to take him away. Can't you live a little more worry-free?

It's worth it to come back this time!

Lin Zhicheng wanted to pull Lin Zhengqing out, and said to Bai Haoyu who was about to follow up, "Don't follow, I want to talk to Zhengqing."

Bai Haoyu raised his eyebrows and said, "What do you want to talk about?"

"Anyway, it's none of your business."

"You might as well talk to me directly."

"Let's talk later." Lin Zhicheng dragged you out anyway.

Lin Zhicheng took him to the small house in front of the vineyard and sat down on the chair.It was already evening at this time, and no one was here in the vineyard.

Lin Zhengqing sat down opposite him.

"Zhengqing, are you really going to Bai Haoyu's house?"

Lin Zhicheng was very serious, he nodded a little uneasy, and said, "He said let me go and have a look."

"But," Lin Zhicheng said, "you really don't think about it anymore, I'm afraid you won't be able to adapt."

Afraid you will get hurt.

"Just go for a few days, and I'll be back soon." Lin Zhengqing said.

In fact, he was also very scared. When Lin Zhicheng said that he wanted to retreat again, it was still too late to regret it. Should he tell Bai Haoyu that he was not going?

"Zhengqing, me," Lin Zhicheng didn't know what to say, and asked directly, do you like Bai Haoyu, and are you planning to be together?

Let him how to ask the outlet.

Or do you want to ask if you like boys?

What if he said yes?What should he say, bless them?

Lin Zhicheng's head was about to explode.

Lin Zhengqing looked at him, wondering what exactly he wanted to ask.

Lin Zhicheng scratched his head in annoyance, and said, "Zhengqing, I don't know what to tell you, but, alas, I, anyway, you need to know what you are doing, and make a decision after thinking it through."

When he said this, Lin Zhengqing was even more dizzy by him, and said, "Zhicheng, what are you talking about?"

Anyway, Lin Zhengqing would never admit that he likes Bai Haoyu even if he is beaten to death. If Bai Haoyu has a girl he likes, if Bai Haoyu doesn't have this kind of affection for him at all, when he finally confesses, he can still smile and bless Bai Haoyu. Can be in front of everyone as if nothing had happened.

Lin Zhicheng looked at him for a long time, but he still didn't say anything.I still didn't have the heart to say something that would make him unhappy, and I couldn't bear to hurt him!

"It's nothing, you can call me if you need anything, and I can find you anytime."

Lin Zhengqing smiled and said, "Thank you, Zhicheng."

Lin Zhicheng patted him on the shoulder and said, "We have been playing together since we were young. Anyway, I will not ignore your affairs."

Lin Zhengqing nodded, feeling a little emotional in his heart.The relationship that has been blank for so many years cannot be filled overnight.

He didn't even believe it himself. With just a few words, there was really no way to convince him completely.He has a sense of distance to many things in his heart. Many things, whether it is people or anything, he feels that he can't get close and can't touch them.

When a person lives alone, even if he is driven crazy by this feeling of nothingness, he will feel better the next day.Because he doesn't need to be in contact with too many people, he can slowly adjust his mentality.

But when facing his friends, he didn't want them to see his fear and anxiety.Because he didn't know if they would dislike him.

Lin Zhengqing thought a lot, but didn't say anything, probably because he felt that even if he said it, it would be useless. Even if Lin Zhicheng could comfort him and say a lot of reasonable things, it would be useless.If you talk too much about these things, you are also afraid that others will think that you are always holding on to your past to feel sorry for yourself and move yourself.Turning over the past, I feel how pitiful I am.

Therefore, Lin Zhengqing could not talk about these things. Anyway, isn't he living well now?

That is, once the emotion comes, it will be out of control.Like a flood that broke through, it rolled in.

The vineyard under the setting sun is very beautiful. The people in the garden planted a lot of flowers and trees in the vineyard for the sake of beauty. The road here has also been repaired, which is very beautiful.

The two sat here for a while and then went back.Lin Zhicheng didn't go to his house, but went directly to his own.

When Lin Zhengqing went back, he saw Bai Haoyu sitting on a small stool in the yard, staring at the clouds in the sky in a daze, and Rhubarb lying beside him.

If he wants to go out, he will put the rhubarb here again.

Lin Zhengqing went to sit beside him, touched Rhubarb's head, and said, "Haoyu, I can't bear Rhubarb, why don't I go?"

Bai Haoyu turned his head to look at him, and said, "Did Zhicheng tell you something?"

"No, he didn't say anything."

Maybe it's not that he doesn't believe in Lin Zhicheng, but that the relationship between the two has not yet reached the level of intimacy that permeates each other in life, nor does it have the kind of deep friendship that intersects life and death.Lin Zhengqing didn't have a feeling of dependence on him in his heart.

"Then why did you retreat?" Bai Haoyu looked down at Rhubarb.This guy was raised very well by Lin Zhengqing. Lin Zhigang was right, Rhubarb was raised as his son.

"I don't want to leave the rhubarb behind."

"Excuse." Bai Haoyu said: "You only went for a week or so and came back, or four or five days. Why don't you be reluctant, and it's not like you went for a year or so."

There are so many things to play with in rhubarb during Chinese New Year, people get together, and dogs get together.

He was scared, he wanted to back down.

Lin Zhengqing stood up and said, "I'm going to feed the chickens."

Da Huang raised his head and glanced at Lin Zhengqing, then continued lying there motionless.

Bai Haoyu stroked Rhubarb's fur, then raised his head to watch the clouds drifting by in the sky.

From the window in the kitchen, Lin Zhengqing looked at the people who raised their heads outside, and also looked up at the clouds passing by.Suddenly there is a familiar feeling, a little happy, a little warm, that is the feeling of childhood.

Suddenly, in the blink of an eye, when a person grows up, there are many things to bear.

In the end, Lin Zhengqing followed Bai Haoyu with a suitcase, and Lin Zhicheng drove them to the car, forcing Lin Zhengqing to memorize his phone number, without saying anything else.

Remembering one is worse than remembering a pair, Bai Haoyu asked him to remember his own number too.

They went back on the 29th of the year, afraid of being squeezed into meatloaf.But they are still too naive. Even if it is a day or two in advance, there are so many people that they are very desperate.

Bai Haoyu's family has an independent house in the suburbs.

When they went back, it was his brother who drove them back.

After getting in the car, Lin Zhengqing pulled his clothes and felt that they were a bit worn out. He didn't think so when he was in the village, but he was compared after he came here.

Bai Haoyu sat in the front passenger seat and chatted with his brother. Lin Zhengqing sat in the back seat, looking at the scenery outside, and felt regretful. Maybe he should listen to Zhicheng and think about it seriously.

"Here we are," Bai Haoyu said.

The car stopped, and Lin Zhengqing got out of the car and tightly held the handle of the suitcase.

Bai Haoting walked in front of them, Bai Haoyu shook his hand quietly, and said: "Don't be afraid, don't be nervous, my family is very good."

Lin Zhengqing took a deep breath and nodded.

There were a lot of people sitting in the room, including Bai Haoyu's parents and his sister, and the others should be friends.

"Haoyu," Bai's mother said happily, "I'm back."

"Well," Bai Haoyu said with a smile: "Mom, this is the friend I told you about. His name is Zhengqing, and he will come to stay with us for a few days."

Lin Zhengqing said nervously: "Uncle, Auntie, hello."

"Hey, you don't need to be so polite," Mama Bai said, "Just be casual when you come to our house."

Bai Haoyu told his family that it was not convenient for Lin Zhengqing to go home, so he had to stay at his house for a few days.

"Dad, Mom," Bai Haoyu said, "I'll take the person up first and put the things away."

"Yes," Papa Bai said.

Bai Haoyu nodded to the others with a smile, and said, "Then let's go up and put our things down first."

Mama Bai said: "You guys rest, I'll call you after dinner, it's hard work after a whole day's driving."

Bai Haoyu nodded and led him up.

Lin Zhengqing's heart kept beating thumpingly until he left everyone's sight and finally calmed down.He looked up at Bai Haoyu.

Bai Haoyu took him to his room and said, "Just sleep with me."

Lin Zhengqing nodded, leaving him alone in a room, it was easy to think about it.In this strange environment, he still hoped that Bai Haoyu would be by his side.

Bai Haoyu pulled him to the closet and said, "Look, I've prepared your clothes too."

Lin Zhengqing touched the new clothes in the closet and said, "How do you know what size I'm wearing?"

"We've all lived together for so long, how difficult is it to know what size clothes you wear?" Bai Haoyu laughed.

Lin Zhengqing bit his lip, the feeling that he should not have come was gone, only because of the touch that Bai Haoyu brought to him.

"You go take a shower first, and then we have a rest first."