Reflection

The afternoon sun in early spring is refreshing.

Xia Cen was lying on a bench in the park with her head resting on her backpack, and her clean eyes showed the heaviness and sadness that she shouldn't have at her age.She raised her hand, trying to touch the light circle through the shaded branches, but not only could she not touch it, but also an inescapable coldness surrounded herself.

That kind of cold piercing feeling, as if the body is sinking in a deep pool, this looming gentle halo is like a fish swimming in the water, caressing the girl's 17-year-old hair, and the colorful halo darts over the tears overflowing from the corners of the eyes , covering the sad arc of her lips with the back of her hand.

In the quiet surroundings, let yourself wander between sinking and suffocating.

finally……

In the end, he became a lonely ghost in this world.

"Xia Cen!"

Xia Cen's sadness was interrupted by a fairly familiar voice, it was Ling Xiaoliang, her good friend who grew up in the same dormitory and community.

Xia Cen pretended to be just waking up, wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, and looked at her, "What's wrong?"

Ling Xiaoliang ran over from a long distance away and sat beside Xia Cen's lap panting. Seeing her sleepy eyes, she looked envious and patted her, "Everyone is preparing for the college entrance examination. , why do you have the leisure to lie here and bask in the sun?"

Xia Cen responded casually, "Spring sleepiness."

"You are really..." Ling Xiaoliang stared at Xia Cen, who was completely different from before, and sighed: "Xia Cen, do you know that you have changed. It can be said that...you have changed."

Xia Cen cleared his throat, faced the girl who was suddenly moved, and nodded without denying, "The women's university has changed at eighteen, and I'm only seventeen, and I'm only one change away!"

"No, I'm talking about your character." Ling Xiaoliang sat upright, looked at the sunshine on his face, took a breath of energy, and said: "Since you woke up unexpectedly in the hospital last time, your character , your mind, including your hobbies, have changed."

Xia Cen looked at himself and asked, "Has it changed for the better?"

"Not good? It has become almost perfect, okay!? Have you forgotten your childhood title, Little Dragon Girl in Qinggu Town?" Speaking of this, Ling Xiaoliang became angry, because of this title, her whole life The sister who followed Xia Cen every day turned into a ruthless senior sister inexplicably because she was two months older than her.

Xia Cen is not disgusted with this title, when she saw this face for the first time, she also liked it very much.

Sensing Xia Cen's smile, Ling Xiaoliang continued to add, "You were too natural before, and you were not good at dressing up. Although you don't wear makeup now. But the style of dressing and matching... and the details of your daily life, including your current life. Frown and smile...it's not the same as before, the most important thing is..."

Xia Cen watched Ling Xiaoliang look him up and down, and his smile deepened, "What's the most important?"

"In the past three months, we have been endorsing books almost day and night, how about you?" Ling Xiaoliang snapped his fingers, "Eat a certain amount of food every day, exercise regularly, and even control the schedule of work and rest similar to my grandma, you It's like being reborn!" Speaking of this, I couldn't bear to complain, "You are so self-disciplined at a young age, you don't look like a young man."

Most importantly, what should I do to let her, the person who has been by her side all the time?It has simply become two opposing versions.

In the eyes of parents, their own children are different from those of other people.

Xia Cen's smile froze for a moment, because he didn't expect that someone with this identity would pay so much attention to him. He lowered his eyebrows and said, "I finally survived, and I have to cherish my present self very much when I start over. I'm still me... just changed my job." Law."

"Yes, yes, you will be blessed if you survive a catastrophe, and I also believe that you will get better and better." Speaking of this, Ling Xiaoliang smiled gossip, "Then tell me, which university do you plan to go to?" ?”

Xia Cen stretched, got up from the bench, and smiled at the gossip Ling Xiaoliang, "Tell Liu Yu that I'm going to repeat for a year, so that he doesn't have to wait for me."

"Do you want to repeat?"

"Because I was injured before, I need to review many courses." Xia Cen took out his mobile phone and looked at the numbers circled in red on the calendar. "Repeat for one year...the time is just right."

Ling Xiaoliang couldn't tell whether he was telling her or listening to himself.That's not what she cared about, she stared at the figure who was about to leave, and asked, "Xia Cen, are you really... planning to give up Liu Yu?"

This is the main purpose of her coming here.

Xia Cen stopped for a moment, "We are not suitable." Then he left.

Looking at this back that was drifting away, Ling Xiaoliang suddenly felt that this good friend who grew up together was very strange.She liked Liu Yu so much back then, and often told herself that she would marry Liu Yu in the future.Every time the boy's name is mentioned, her eyes always light up.

But after waking up from an injury three months ago, Liu Yu confessed to her face to face and was rejected. Since then, Liu Yu's concern for her has been ignored by her.

It was as if Liu Yu had become a stranger whom she had never liked.Especially these few words of hers now, aren't they appropriate?

"Xia Cen..."

Xia Cen didn't stay, but walked further and further away with his schoolbag on his back. Out of the corner of his eye, he glanced at the students who passed by him, just wanting to leave as soon as possible.

……

After one year of re-study, Xia Cen did not get into the college that her mother wanted. She didn't want to be a doctor, but was admitted to the Film and Television Academy with excellent grades.The moment she got the admission notice, the smile on the corner of her mouth was the most genuine smile this year.

Even if she was scolded by her mother and tried to dissuade her, she still had no hesitation.

To live again is not to make compromises in order to satisfy someone's ideals.This time, she wants to live for herself completely.

Looking at himself in the full-length mirror, Xia Cenzai carefully looked at this pure white and clean face.For more than a year, she has developed a strange habit, that is, she spends a few minutes every day looking at herself carefully, and then silently compiles every step in the future.

She should be thankful that she was very satisfied with the face reborn after death, and gently stroked it with her fingertips from bottom to top, imagining that after years of experience, this face should become more flavorful when it matures.

She was in no hurry about this.

Now she has a youth that can be squandered recklessly.

After looking at it for a long time, I almost forgot what that face looked like before.She didn't want to compare deliberately, because she was afraid that she wouldn't be able to get out of herself.

should be forgotten...

……

In the middle of the night, the crickets outside the window kept making noise.

Xia Cen, who was covered with a quilt, opened her eyes. She would leave here tomorrow to report to the Academy of Film and Television. Although her mother was not satisfied, she still respected her choice in the end.Xia Cen could clearly feel that her mother's love for her was far above everything else at the table of carefully prepared meals in the evening.

In contrast, even if I lived in a villa on the mountain side, I never had the real care and warmth of my family.

Wei Lingxin under the spotlight is far inferior to the plain and happy Xia Cen.

I really don't know whether it is luck or some kind of fate that God gave me such a chance.

Mother's cough came from outside the door, Xia Cen looked at the closed door and murmured: "Don't worry, I will take good care of her, for sure."

But before that, she had to find a way to formally enter the film and television industry and appear in front of that woman.

……

After entering college life, Xia Cen has been keeping a low profile. After all, there are everyone in this college, and many people you don't like are often people you can't afford to mess with.

But every teacher likes Xia Cen very much, because she can always understand the elements of performance at the first time.

This state lasted for more than a semester. Xia Cen is a gifted student, which has almost become the catchphrase of the teachers.As a result, it has attracted several film and television crews that have cooperation agreements with the school.

I thought hiring a freshman was just a matter of a few words, but after Xia Cen learned about the director and investors of the film, he turned it down with the reason that he was still a newcomer and had too many courses. .

The real reason is that this film and television company has unspoken rules.Thinking back, Wei Lingxin's first heroine work was produced by this film and television company. If it weren't for the brokers negotiating with it, her acting skills are not bad. Perhaps the name Wei Lingxin would never exist in this circle.

Unexpectedly, after so many years, this film and television company still likes to take advantage of newcomers.

"The real performance must be implemented in front of the camera. If you follow along casually, you will learn more than you have benefited from the class in the first half of the year. Originally, we would not find a freshman to follow the group. If it weren't for your teacher I think it's good, will I waste time with you?" The assistant director's assistant said this because he didn't expect to be rejected at all, and he was a little embarrassed.

Although Xia Cen didn't care in his heart, he still showed regret, "Of course I know this is a good opportunity. It's my own problem. After all, I'm only a freshman. It stands to reason that I'm not qualified enough to join the group. I am able to stand here because of the teacher’s trust in me. Because of this, I need to recognize my ability more. I am really sorry for wasting your precious time.” Before the door was closed when I left, I heard the assistant’s dissatisfaction Complain, claiming that this class of students is really ignorant of current affairs.

After staying in the entertainment industry for so long, Xia Cen knows how to seize opportunities, but some opportunities that seem like opportunities are often accompanied by unexpected whirlpools.

This can't be blamed on anyone, it's because this circle is inherently complicated, so who is to blame for willingly entering it?

After rejecting the interview with this crew, Xia Cen was called a miracle by his classmates. After all, this is a resource that they couldn't even ask for.Just looking at the cast, it is known that it is one of the big productions of the year, and she is so wasted.

What's even more surprising is that she herself found another crew, who were all newcomers from the beginning to the end.

For this reason, some people specially ridiculed that what the teacher said was a good student, he just had no brains.

……

Looking at the application Xia Cen handed over, the head teacher pushed down his glasses, "Xia Cen, are you sure you want to study with this crew?" Naturally, the head teacher had heard some rumors, and was more or less curious about her choice, "Follow me Tell me why?"

"There is no particular reason, I just feel that everyone is a newcomer, and it may be better to get along with each other."

I have seen so many young people who are cunning but don't know how to keep their tails. This girl in front of me is really indescribably likable, "Since you have decided, study hard here, and remember to write a report on your experience when you come back. "

Xia Cen smiled very happily after watching the head teacher sign and approve, "I will, thank you head teacher."

Teacher Wang passed by Xia Cen, looked at the head teacher with a smile on his face, and asked curiously, "What are you laughing at?"

"Laughing, there may be a well-deserved star in our class. She has her own ideas, and she won't be attracted by superficial temptations and lose her way." Said the script material of "The Light of Qinghe" in her hand Handed it to Teacher Wang, "Look, this is the crew she chose."

Teacher Wang saw Wantian Entertainment at the end of the page, and nodded approvingly, "Yeah, some stupid kids only look at the cast lineup, not the investment company. I think she chose Ni Xian's Wantian Entertainment, after all, it is behind it It's her father's Zhishang Entertainment, so if you walk around casually, the attention of this drama will not be too small."

After saying this, the class teacher's expression froze slightly, and he turned to smile again: "I didn't even think about it so much, let alone her."

"Then what do you mean by what you just said?" Teacher Wang didn't understand now.

"A large lineup will lose the color of rookies. I think she wants to find confidence from rookies. After all, she is still a student. It takes a lot of self-confidence to be firm on this path." This is the understanding of the head teacher.

Teacher Wang nodded, "That's the reason."

……

Xia Cen, who went to Wantian Entertainment for interviews, auditions, and fixed roles to get the script, passed by a woman with excellent temperament at the gate.

The air was filled with the familiar smell of perfume and her unique temperament. Even though she was wearing big sunglasses that covered most of her face, Xia Cen recognized her at a glance.

A girl who used to hang around her whenever she had a chance, and an actor who was extremely talented in her eyes, had to retreat behind the scenes because of some things.

Xia Cen stood there for a long time as he stopped and looked at the back who was escorted away by the staff.

——"Sister Ling Xin, if it were you, how do you want to play this role more naturally? I tried several methods, but I feel that it is still a little less realistic..."

——"Are you getting too close?"

——"This is not right. I wish someone would see it and destroy the news that I am not compatible with you."

——"You girl, I really don't know what your little head is thinking every day!"

——"I think you will never know, let's talk about this role, I have been preparing for a long time."

——"You used to act in idol dramas. Many emotional and inner dramas will have lines or narration to help you convey to the audience. But this drama is different. I have worked with this director twice. He prefers silent performances. It's a test of an actor's skills, I think if you perform well...you may be the best actress this year."

——"I don't want to compete with you for the queen."

——"Root? Challenging this role is like a double-edged sword. You should worry about yourself first. Be careful of crying when you are scolded at the scene. He is not a director who knows the background of actors."

——"Hmph, wait, I will definitely steal your little golden flower this year."

—— "Okay, I'll wait."

The voice of memories gradually became smaller and weaker...as if everything had gone away, including her.

"Ni Xian, long time no see."

……

The author has something to say: From being 13 years older than Ni Xian to being seven years younger than Ni Xian.

Everything is different.

The story begins here.

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I would also like to add that due to my living environment since I was a child, my Chinese is very poor, and writing itself is for learning and practicing Chinese.

If you see some words or grammar that you can't understand while reading, please forgive me and welcome to point it out. I will be very grateful.

There is no end to learning. I am serious about writing novels, and I hope you will take more care of them.

If you really feel that you can't stand it, you don't have to force it.

Thanks again.

(After finishing, I will revise it a second time to check my progress and hope to see my progress)