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The willows on the river bank fluttered gently with the breeze, and the sun shone on the river, sparkling with waves.

Tourists traveling together walked along the river bank, with laughter and joy floating in the spring.

Han Li found a smoking place outside the alley to smoke. After half a cigarette, two boys came suddenly.

They were very surprised when they saw Han Li, and immediately greeted him with a smile, and shouted, "Teacher Han!"

Han Li didn't recognize them, but judging by their ages, he guessed that they were students who had participated in the exchange meeting just now.He nodded indifferently.

The two looked at each other, took out their cigarettes cautiously, stood aside, lit their cigarettes and smoked.

On the other side of the river, beside a willow tree with a crooked neck, stood Pei Yanyu and a woman.They stood facing each other, neither far nor close, and did not appear to be in an intimate relationship.The smoke he exhaled obscured Han Li's sight, and he narrowed his eyes.

"Mr. Han." Suddenly, a boy wearing glasses and looking silly asked, "How long will you stay in China this time? Are you going back to France?"

Han Li glanced at him sideways, and replied, "Not sure yet."

Perhaps Han Li's attitude was too indifferent. The boy looked at his friend, smiled embarrassingly, and stopped talking.

After Han Li finished smoking the cigarette in his hand, Pei Yanyu and the woman were still talking.He thought for a while, threw away the cigarette butt, and walked on the stone bridge.

"Sister Liu told me about your family's situation before. I don't think it has anything to do with it, and my parents don't mind. Although we are all very young now, things like falling in love have nothing to do with age, right? Of course , we didn’t know each other before, so it’s too early to say we’re in love, I just want to make friends and get to know each other better. If it’s really not suitable, that’s okay, there’s no loss in making one more friend.” When Li Yanni spoke , fingers crossed together, looking into Pei Yanyu's eyes.

Pei Yanyu didn't expect that after she refused, she still insisted.From her words, his family and his background didn't seem to be worth caring about, but that was clearly the most embarrassing thing for Pei Yanyu.

Although he knew that directly confessing his homosexuality would be done once and for all, Pei Yanyu still couldn't say it when he thought of those colleagues in the unit who had nothing to do but gossip about others for entertainment.

"Before, although I added friends, I haven't contacted you for a long time. I thought you didn't have any thoughts about this." Pei Yanyu frowned subconsciously, "Why did you suddenly change?"

Hearing this, Li Yanni was startled, her cheeks blushed unnaturally.She pursed her lips and said, "My parents heard that you are from Zhizhou, and they were afraid that I would marry in the past and be too far away from Meiyin. Two days ago, Sister Liu sent your photo to my mother, and said that if you want to go back , and will not stay in Lantang, so let me think about it again."

Pei Yanyu was dumbfounded, and couldn't remember when he sent a photo to Sister Liu.So where do the photos come from?Pei Yanyu tentatively asked, "My photo?"

She nodded, as if struggling for a moment, and said: "Because the laboratory department of my dad's unit has one less staff, she sent your profile. There is a photo without hat on it."

It never occurred to him that Sister Liu would actually send the introduction to the wife of the director of the urban hospital behind his back. For a moment, Pei Yanyu wondered if he should be moved by Sister Liu's kindness.Remembering what Sister Liu said before, if she could be with Li Yanni, she would be able to go to the People's Hospital in the city, Pei Yanyu took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry, I didn't explain the situation to Sister Liu in advance, that's why she helped so much." Pei Yanyu said, "Actually, I already have a girlfriend. It's just that because the time away from home is too long, The relationship has gradually faded, and there is not much contact."

Hearing this, Li Yanni froze as if struck by lightning.After a while, she smiled in embarrassment and said, "Then, what do you mean when you told Sister Liu that you don't have a girlfriend?"

Pei Yanyu said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I'm so bad."

She hesitated for a moment, then smiled sarcastically.After a while, she stared at Pei Yanyu, and asked seriously: "You think you are good-looking, so you eat what's in the bowl and look at what's in the pot?"

Pei Yanyu was speechless.

"Is it because you feel that I am not as good as your girlfriend after meeting, so you choose to confess?" Li Yanni sneered mercilessly.

Pei Yanyu lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." After speaking, after a long time, he didn't hear Li Yanni respond.He looked up suspiciously and saw that her face was flushed with anger.

"Scumbag!" Li Yanni finished cursing, turned around and left quickly.

Watching her leaving back, Pei Yanyu finally breathed a sigh of relief.

However, when Pei Yanyu's eyes followed her back, he saw Han Li passing her by on the bridge.

Han Li happened to be looking at him too, and the moment his eyes met, Pei Yanyu felt his heart sink heavily.

Han Li came back two days ago. This is the answer he gave Pei Yanyu at the exchange meeting.

Because there was only time for one question, Pei Yanyu couldn't ask him where he had been before.The host didn't give Pei Yanyu a chance to speak again, and neither did Han Li.

After the Q&A, the exchange meeting ended soon.

A crowded crowd rushed out of the door. Standing in the crowd, Pei Yanyu watched Han Li and Liang Huanxi talking, as if he didn't care about him.Not long after, he was stopped by Li Yanni and left the residence.

After leaving the retreat, Pei Yanyu no longer hesitated or hesitated, and just wanted to get rid of Li Yanni as soon as possible, so that he could meet Han Li innocently.

Seeing Han Li standing on the bridge now, Pei Yanyu immediately ran towards the bridge.

He wanted to ask Han Li many, many questions, but when he walked in front of Han Li, he couldn't ask them.

Looking at his watery eyes, Han Li felt a dull pain in his heart.This feeling has often been felt in the past two years, but it has never been as strong as it is now.After a while, Han Li asked, "Did you argue with your girlfriend?"

Hearing this, Pei Yanyu was stunned.He couldn't help but asked anxiously: "You disappeared for such a long time, and now we meet again, is your first sentence asking these?"

Han Li's throat tightened and he lowered his head.

But Pei Yanyu himself didn't know what to say first.It's ironic. In the past two years, Pei Yanyu has been looking forward to meeting Han Li again almost every day. There are so many doubts and unwillingness in his brain, but when they meet, he doesn't know where to start.

Pei Yanyu turned his face away in embarrassment, and saw a tourist walking towards the bridge, and said, "Do you have time? Let's find a place and sit down and talk."

Although he asked the question first, his tone clearly did not mean that Han Li would refuse.This firm look reminded Han Li of when the two first met, when Pei Yanyu was also so firm.Time seemed to stay on Pei Yanyu's body for a long time. Pei Yanyu imprinted all their past on himself. As soon as he saw him, Han Li could recall all the past, including those that had been forgotten and those that had not been forgotten.

Han Li nodded, and followed Pei Yanyu off the bridge to a place where there were few people.

This is the first time for Han Li to come to this ancient town, and he is very unfamiliar with it.However, walking on the street with Pei Yanyu, Han Li suddenly had a feeling of déjà vu.After thinking about it carefully, he understood the reason.

When the two dated for the first time, Pei Yanyu chose the ancient ferry in Jingkou.It is the same as Lantang Ancient Town, with white walls and blue tiles, and tourists flock there.

This made Han Li start to wonder if it was fate that he met Pei Yanyu here.

Pei Yanyu's footsteps were fast, and judging from his slightly flushed complexion, he looked good.Han Li could tell that he had recovered very well in the past two years, at least there were no traces of surgery on the surface.

Just as Han Li was thinking this, Pei Yanyu suddenly grabbed his arm and dragged him into a narrow alley.

The sky is bright and the sun is shining vertically into the alley at noon, making all shadows have nowhere to escape.

Han Li stared blankly at Pei Yanyu who had trapped himself against the wall with his hands, and stared at him for a long time.

Through the glasses, Pei Yanyu looked at the pair of nervous eyes. He obviously had a thousand words in his heart, but when he opened his mouth, he turned it into one sentence: "I'm sorry."

Han Li was stunned, thinking he had heard it wrong, and asked dully: "What, what?" As soon as the words fell, Pei Yanyu's kiss tightly covered his lips.

Han Li's mind seemed to explode. He subconsciously grabbed Pei Yanyu's arm, trying to push it away.But this lip was too gentle and too familiar. When he felt Pei Yanyu's hot breath fall on his cheek, Han Li opened his mouth unconsciously, and the hot kiss followed.

It's the mouth, it's the hands, it's the hug, it's the body.When Pei Yanyu's arms locked Han Li's waist tightly, and their bodies were inextricably close, all of Han Li's vigilance was in vain.

When he left, Han Li originally thought that he would live on his memories, but now, his day and night haunting dreams have come true again.

Thousands of thoughts are only converging on the greed of this moment, he has no way to resist this raging and coming true yearning, holding Pei Yanyu's face in his hands, entangled with it inseparably with his lips and tongue.

Han Li's trembling fingertips slid over Pei Yanyu's ears, rested on his neck, and tightly grasped his shoulders.He wanted to take a good look at this person whom he hadn't seen for a long time, but when he opened his eyes, Pei Yanyu pressed him against the wall heavily.

In an instant, Han Li's heart tightened.Hearing his own strong heartbeat, he wanted to say a joke to resolve the unconcealable sympathy, but before he could speak, he saw tears fall from Pei Yanyu's eyes.

Seeing this, Han Li's heart tightened even more, it was painful.He quickly held Pei Yanyu's face and kissed his eyes.The tears were very salty, and Pei Yanyu's trembling eyelashes looked like the wings of a butterfly after rain.However, Pei Yanyu did not relax his arms in the slightest, as if he was afraid that he would disappear again.

"I'm sorry. That day, I shouldn't have said that." Pei Yanyu looked into Han Li's sullen eyes through his blurred vision, "I shouldn't have said we broke up."

Hearing this, Han Li gritted his teeth.

"Han Li, do you still want me? You can do whatever you want me to do. I no longer have contact with my family, and I don't want to be free. I just want to be with you. I know, the current you, money, status , fame, everything, and I have nothing worthy of you, and I owe you a lot. But, but please..." Pei Yanyu's brain tensed up, and it was almost difficult to breathe, "Please don't disappear again."

The last sentence made Han Li's heart skip a beat."Is it true?" he asked.

Pei Yanyu nodded without thinking.

"Could it be because we've been apart for so long that you've forgotten the pain before? Pei Yanyu, do you really remember what it's like to be loved by me?" Han Li asked uneasily, "My love will completely invade you life. I will restrict you from interacting with anyone, I will ask you to stay at home every day, and you are not allowed to talk to others. As long as you go out for more than the agreed time every day, I will be suspicious. I will check your chat Record, confiscate your mobile phone, and read your itinerary and statement. If you have any dissatisfaction with me, I will not make you feel better. When I love you, I am like a pervert. Even so, Do you want to be with me too?"

Pei Yanyu nodded. Before Han Li finished speaking, he kept nodding without any hesitation.

After a while, Han Li said disappointedly: "At the beginning, you were like this too, saying that you can accept anything. Have you really thought it through clearly?"

Hearing this, Pei Yanyu shuddered.

"However, back then you said that if I betrayed you, you would destroy me. After that, I have been waiting for you to do that, but you chose to leave." Pei Yanyu said in a daze.

Han Li held his breath.

Pei Yanyu, who was crying dry, smiled sadly, and said, "Or, actually, you know, that's the only way to really destroy me."

Han Li was surprised, and asked incredulously, "Could it be that the past two years have not been good for you?"

"Where is it good?!" Pei Yanyu yelled unbearably, "Or you've been looking at me, so you think I'm doing well. Are you looking at me? Are you looking at me from a place I don't know? Are you looking at me? Say you love me like a pervert, do you keep staring at me all the time? Do you know where I live, how much my salary is, whether I have friends around me, and what kind of people I interact with? Why do you say that I have Well? If, if you don't even know how I'm doing."

Facing Pei Yanyu's sudden maddened excitement, Han Li was so stunned that he couldn't think of words to refute.

Suddenly, like a lunatic, Pei Yanyu was completely depressed again, bowed his head and said: "They say that no one can't live without you, that's all a lie. Without you, I really... It's really hard to live, as if I will die at any time It's like dying..."

"Pei Yanyu..." Before Han Li could speak, Pei Yanyu stopped him from speaking.

Pei Yanyu stopped him with soft lips and tongue. The kiss was extremely passionate, as if trying to extract the ability to survive from his body.

Pei Yanyu kissed him almost frantically, and the hands that had originally imprisoned his waist began to roam around his body.

It was only when Pei Yanyu grabbed the skirt of his shirt that Han Li realized how violently his heart was beating.He grabbed Pei Yanyu's shoulder in fear and asked, "You won't lie to me this time, and you won't regret it. Right? You pledge your life. Pei Yanyu, I want you to pledge your life. If there is another time, if you Once again, you want to leave me. You...you don't regret your death."

His eyes were full of apprehension and excitement, which was Pei Yanyu's extreme greed.Looking at these eyes, Pei Yanyu was sure once again that he was alive only when facing these eyes.When he was with Han Li, life or death seemed so intense.

When he is desired and possessed by Han Li, no matter whether his life is beautiful or miserable, he lives vividly.

Pei Yanyu stroked his face, smiled clearly, and said, "If I really lose you, I certainly don't regret dying."

He supported Pei Yanyu's back neck, and found that this body was extremely hot, as if it was burning, as if it had been ignited by him.

"Don't leave again, okay?" Pei Yanyu held his hands and asked.

Han Li asked: "Even if I didn't tell you, what happened in the past two years. Are you willing to be so determined?"

Pei Yanyu nodded.

Hearing this, Han Li laughed.He gently scratched the bridge of Pei Yanyu's nose, and said softly: "Poor boy, you are still the same as before. Why are you? You have nothing, but you are always so righteous."

Looking at the soft light in his eyes, Pei Yanyu said: "I have nothing, so I love you with my life."

Fireworks spread towards Han Li's body, and the lonely and despicable duckweed attached to his body finally turned into ashes when the fire burned.

The author says:

The main text of this article is here.

The missing parts can be viewed on the author's Zhiding Weibo.

It is expected that in the second half of this year there will be a sweet (focused) episode.

Thank you to everyone who has been waiting. ?