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Ruan Xi couldn't sleep at night, so she picked up a book and read it, only to find that it was a research book on economics.He doesn't dislike it either, as long as it makes him sleepy.

Nguyen Xi University majored in economics.

When he filled out the university application form, Professor Xu didn't quite believe it.Ruan Xi liked acting since he was a child. If there were any performances in the school, he would probably sign up.In the past, he also said that he wanted to be admitted to the best acting school in China.

Professor Xu knew the reason as soon as he thought about it - Ruan's father went, and they didn't know what was going on in the family company.Ruan Xi wants to inherit his father's career and make the company a success.

But it is not necessary for Ruan Xi to sacrifice her hobbies, they can definitely hire someone to manage the company, just like hiring Xi Yu as the CEO, there is no lack of professional talents in this area.

As a mother, rather than making her child a successful person, Professor Xu hopes that Ruan Xi can develop in his favorite field, and she does not want to wrong her son.

She told her son what she thought.

Ruan Xi hugged her mother and said: "Mom, I don't feel wronged, I am willing to do this. I will not let Dad down, I will be your support."

Professor Xu's eyes filled with tears at what his son said, thinking that after his husband left, he really grew up.Although, as a wife and mother, she is very unwilling for her children to grow up in such a way, she feels sad and proud at the same time.

Ruan Xi's aunt immigrated to the UK with her uncle's work, and is in the city where Ruan Xi University is located.Ruan Xi lived at his aunt's house when he first passed, but within half a year he said that it was inconvenient to be too far away from the school, and went out to rent a house by himself.

My aunt went to rent a house with him, and the environment was not bad, so he was allowed to move out.

When she was a sophomore, her uncle's job was over and the whole family returned to China. Ruan Xi felt relieved while not giving up.

When Ruan Xi called Professor Xu, he said that he was busy studying and it was not convenient to go back to China. Professor Xu came here to accompany him for a few days during the Spring Festival every year.We can spend these few days together all year round, but Xi Yu, there are always things that he can't do.

On the second day after he arrived in the UK, he met a doctoral senior named Yuan Yi.Yuan Yi is Xi Yu's friend. Before Ruan Xi came over, Xi Yu gave him Yuan Yi's contact information, saying that he had made an agreement with Yuan Yi that Ruan Xi could go to him for anything.

Ruan Xi promised well in front of Xi Yu, then turned around and deleted Yuan Yi's contact information.Unexpectedly, Yuan Yi took the initiative to find him and took him around the campus.

Yuan Yi is a tall and thin man, not a talkative person, and his words and deeds will not be offensive.However, Ruan Xi was sent to the UK to get rid of Xi Yu's thoughts. He was not very warm to Yuan Yi, and as time passed, Yuan Yi rarely contacted him.

Ruan Xi thought at first, since Xi Yu wants to forget all those "don't know the so-called" thoughts, and he doesn't like to see him like that, then he will listen to him, and don't want anything about Xi Yu.

However, a year later, this plan has not progressed.

During her sophomore year, Nguyen minored in philosophy.

His teachers all said that philosophy is a magical and transparent subject. If you learn it well, you can understand 90.00% of the problems in the world.He thought, then he will be a transparent person, to learn the principles of the world, to see through the so-called love, to meet Xi Yu's expectations - forget about him.

Ruan Xi began to indulge in the sea of ​​books all day long, and went to the library after class, often staying for several hours. Later, he got a library card and borrowed books back to the rented dormitory to read.

Later, he seemed to really fall in love with this subject, nestled in the small house of less than [-] square meters, almost forgot to eat and sleep, and sometimes refused to stop when he forgot the day and night.His work and rest became more and more disordered, and sometimes he didn't eat, drink or sleep for a day or two in a row, but he didn't notice it. If he didn't pass by the canteen, he would have forgotten that he hadn't eaten for a long time.

His stomach began to protest, he bought stomach medicine, fell asleep after eating, and woke up again, the date on the phone had been separated by a day.His sleep became more and more irregular. For a period of time, he didn’t want to sleep at night, and he didn’t feel sleepy during the day. It wasn't the landlord who knocked on the door, and the circuit almost burned out.

At the same time, he was anorexic.In the worst case, he didn't eat for two or three days, and he felt sick when he smelled food, which caused him to lose weight surprisingly during that time.

One time Ruan Xi was sick and went to class with severe dizziness, and he didn't care when he heard some British students talking about him.

After a female teacher came in, a student said a few words to her, Ruan Xi vaguely heard "drugs", and then the female teacher walked towards him.

Ruan Xi couldn't remember what the female teacher said to him at that time.I only remember that a Chinese teacher came in later, and the teacher argued a few words with the female teacher.

The Chinese teacher probably saw that Ruan Xi was uncomfortable, and said to him gently for the sake of being Chinese: "They suspect that you touched something that you shouldn't touch, and they have already told the teaching office, and they will take you there later. Do the inspection, you cooperate, and nothing will happen."

Ruan Xi was so angry and angry that she could only nod her head helplessly.

After the blood was drawn, Ruan Xi sat on the bench at the door, and two policewomen stood by and guarded him. Their whispering voices reached Ruan Xi's ears, and they looked at him like a drug addict.

After the test results came out, Ruan Xi left, and the Chinese teacher who came out with the test doctor handed him a business card: "I think you are not in good condition, you can call me if you need anything."

Ruan Xi rejected him indifferently: "Thank you, no need."

Professor Xu called him in the evening, and hearing his mother's voice, he almost couldn't help crying about his grievances, but when his mother said that Xi Yu came to eat at home at night, he held back, biting hard. It was only when my lips were bleeding that I held back my crying, and replied to Professor Xu's greetings: "Mom, I'm fine here, my classmates and teachers are fine... I've made friends... I'm not used to it, I can eat..."

He washed his hands frequently, as if he was stained with something dirty; he kept checking the time, as if he was afraid of missing something.He became more and more disgusted with contact and communication with people, and felt anxious when he went out, fearing that he had unlocked the door, forgot to bring the key, and even doubted whether he was wearing clothes.He wished he would never go out.

He drew the curtains of the room, hugged himself and curled up in the darkness.

Why am I so sad?

So lonely.he thinks.

Ruan Xi's whole body became muddled.

It was Yuan Yi who accidentally discovered something was wrong with him. He said that if Ruan Xi didn't want to see a psychiatrist, he would tell Xi Yu about Ruan Xi's condition.

Ruan Xi went to the Chinese psychologist Yuan Yi found for him.

The doctor greeted him without asking anything, just gave him paper and pen, and asked him to write a word.

Ruan Xi wrote a "Guang", then crossed out and rewritten it irritably, and then wrote "Guang" again, crossed out and rewritten it, and it was "Guang" again.

He kept writing and scratching, and the doctor didn't stop him. After being scratched on the broken paper, the last thing he saw was a "mat".

When the diagnosis came out, Ruan Xi had moderate depression and severe anxiety.He casually stuffed the diagnostic form and medicine into his schoolbag, and said to Yuan Yi, "Don't tell Xi Yu."

"why?"

"He's not happy to hear this." What happened to Ruan Xi because of Xi Yu's thoughts was stupid, ignorant, and ignorant, so there was no need to let him know.